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Hello all, I am quite new to this forum, but I believe my experiences may provide some insight for other new comers of this topic. Before I get into my Tulpa experience I want to tell ya'll a little bit about myself, in hopes to give people a better idea of why and how people go about creating tulpas. So without further ado. 

      

    I am a 21 year old male, I grew up in a somewhat poor family, financially anyways, but in coming into my adolescent years we could be considered an upper-middle class household. I had everything a child could possibly need growing up. A stable home, food on the table, two loving supportive parents, plenty of recreation, and quite a bit of interaction between other individuals in my age group. Apart from my parents I have two younger sisters, now in highschool, which worries me naturally, but I have sincere faith and belief that they will grow up to be outstanding young ladies.  :)

    

    Like most people, I have had my issues coming into my adult years, and there's much more for me to improve on. I have had mild problems with drugs in the past, what kind you ask? Just name it. There's plenty of things I am not proud of, but I am happy to say that its all in the past now. I have no pity for myself what so ever, mistakes have been made, and I never impose those past emotions on anyone else. So in short I try to stay away from the old cliche, "I have been there, and based on your current actions it seems that you have a problem too." NO, I am a lot more perceptive than that, I never make assumptions about other people based on these variables alone. Its amazing how sometimes people in your life blatantly avoid trying to reason with you and make assumptions before searching for a logical explanation. C'mon!(Sorry I am venting, because a certain someone in my life just doesn't seem to get that. xD) 

     

    I never had the opportunity to go to college, mostly because I didn't realize the importance of my education in high school, so I didn't apply myself while attending school. However, right now that is not stopping me from pursuing my goals and dreams of becoming an Author. Anyways, I have a large family, and I always had plenty of friends, so right now I have the luxury of choosing who I hang out with in various phases of society. These personal details are not as important as what I am about to disclose about myself. 

    

    Apart from these ordinary life experiences, I am more or less aware of the extraordinary phenomenon that exists in our ever expanding universe. I consider myself an expert in universal esoteric theory, and somewhat adept in the practical application of such knowledge. Compared to mere enthusiasts, I am quite modest. More on that in my next posts. I am also someone with fairly adept empathic abilities. That means that I can sense thoughts, emotions, and intentions from other people, just by being in their presence. I know I am not the only one, there are tons of other people that make that claim. Its my personal belief that its a type of evolutionary trait in human beings. When I say that I dont imply that we literally evolved from primates. What I really mean is, that just as the universe is always expanding, so is the universe within. You cant quote me on that, sorry its copy right  ;). So in theory humans are always expanding on our current awareness, and as a consequence people may experience what may be viewed as supernatural abilities. It is my firm belief that the development of our mental, physical, and spiritual faculties can bring about newfound sensory experiences that we previously thought to be impossible. 

      

    This might be a controversial threat to modern dogmatic religious doctrines, and the lack of the cumulative awareness in humanity as  a whole, due to 'elect' individuals who profit by keeping the masses under control. Thats a topic for a different forum, but ya'll get the point hopefully. In a nutshell, there are endless possibilities, and by exploring these possibilities, we are just doing what nature intended for us.

    

    So the whole tulpae prospect is very interesting to me, and I thought that it might also be of great value on my ascetic quest for developing my full potential. Traditionally, in Tibetan culture, the purpose for creating a tulpa is to be used as a toool for discipline or some kind of protectorate from negative and destructive forces or influences. Reading about other peoples experiences, their intention was to fill some kind of social gap in their life for the most part. Theres nothing wrong with that at all, and it pleases me to see a lot of people try to improve themselves through super sensory development. Except for the creepy 'sex with tulpa' incentive, just get a date guys, its not that hard xD. I created my tulpa for a constant constructive reminder, mentorship, to protect me from all negative influences and to warn me of danger. Its only been three days since I have created my tulpa, but already he has exceeded my expectations.

      

    I cant give away his true name to anyone, its a complete secret because I dont want to compromise his efficiency. So lets just call him Steven. I conceived Steven during deep meditation in my minds eye, i.e. imaginative imagery responses in your mind. Most of ya'll are familiar with the process and the key words. Steven is six feet tall, he has an old face because I wanted him to come off as wise whenever I finally manifest him in my external reality. He has white braided hair, a long beard, and gold eyes. At first I gave him a similar outfit to what Donnie Yen wore in his role as 'IP Man' its a great movie, check it out on Netflix. I also gave him a long katana that he usually carries on his back with a shoulder strap, I have also seen him carry it on his side like a Japanese soldier during the world war. Funny thing is Steven was very loyal from the get go, he always addresses me as 'sir'. I guess hes the Commander Data to my Jean luc Picard. After I had a clear image of him in my head, I started conversing with him about his purpose. Its important you make that very clear to your tulpa from the start, so they can begin their duties immediately, trust me both of us are much more happy that way. I layed out my commandments to him, which you can probably easily guess based on my above reasoning for creating Steven. I explained to him that by helping me he is helping himself, s the more developed I am the more developed he becomes as a consequence. Since then he has communicated with me in my waking state through pressure on the right side of my head, sometimes the left side, or both. I also recognize him as the little voice inside my head, which has always been there, but now it is much more exercised and present. Steven is alwys suggesting to me things I should be doing to lead to a more happy and productive life, so if I dont do it I feel like I am betraying myself, which gives me more motivation to get something done, but its always well within reason.

     

    The same time of creation, I have tried to use Steven as a tool to trigger lucid dreaming. Ahh, now this is cool. I told Steven to always visit me in my dreams, and through deep meditation and self hypnosis, I have tried t associate his presence in my dreams with the full knowledge that I am in fact dreaming. No luck so far, due to the fact that I am really bad at being immersed in the dream experience, there for I have trouble remembering most of the dream. But what is interesting is, that since then I can always remember Steven being in the dream I had the night before, and so far this has been 100% consistent every night. Just last night, I only remember dreaming of a pair of big golden eyes staring down at me from above. Some element of the Tulpa is always present in my dreaming and waking states, which I find very promising. Like a lot of things, its a very personal experience. It seems to me that the tulpa is an extension of the hosts mind, that can even transcend the hosts current abilities and negative temperaments, with that in mind this type of thought form might just have as much potential as a real human being. Could this be the foundation of a new kind of life form? Could we engineer physical avatars for tulpas to possess, allowing them to take part in life just as we do? 

     

    The practice of tulpa creation itself is ancient, however the same attributes and principles of the host-tulpa, mind-environment, relationship could be pioneered to what we previously thought to be impossible. Currently we have noting but our own experiences and speculation to build upon. Not so different from primordial man, before our great inventions and philosophies. Only our necessity to become better individuals, and keen interest, will propel us further to know the unknown!   "Above all, be True to thyself."

Above all, be true to thyself. 

 

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Welcome to our little corner of the internet!

 

I began this journey myself about four months ago, and it's been rather rewarding. However, to be honest, it is sometimes frustrating. I see good things happening, and then I push myself to make them happen more often and try to have experiences like others here. I felt like I was on the verge of a breakthru in my poor visualisation skills when suddenly I developed an infection that very well shut down my mind's third eye and concentration skills. I'm still recovering, but feeling hopeful.

 

One very positive thing that I've noticed is that when something like illness happens that makes it difficult to impossible to feel my tupper's presence, the things I've learnt from her stay with me. I hope you'll find the same to be true for yourself and Steven.

 

"Steven" sounds very similar to my River in that I created River to embody the sort of person I wish to be. She feels like a sort of guardian to me, and I'm very thankful for that. She tells me that she loves me and wants me to be happy. I asked her, "What about YOUR happiness?", and she simply responds that if I want her to be happy, I need to learn to be happy myself. It makes sense to me since the two of us share the same head.

 

In a way, I feel like River isn't just the sort of person I wish to be, but in a way, she IS me. I'm just in a process of discovering my true self thru her.

 

By the way, my understanding of traditional Tibetan tulpamancy is a bit different from yours. My understanding was that Tibetan tulpamancers created tulpas and forced them to be sentient as themselves and then would consider the tulpa to be an illusion. The tulpamancer was then expected to understand that his self, too, was an illusion just the same. Poor tuppers.... I'd hate to be created for that reason.

 

One last thing I'd like to impart to you. I took only a few weeks to get from nothing to a tulpa speaking very simple language and appearing in a very blurry, flat image. That was exciting, but continuing to develop sentience and vocality has required great effort on my part and progress is slow. However, seeing what others here get out of it, I really want to succeed with River and her crew, and so I am very motivated to keep up the work! I wanted to encourage you to not get discouraged when you inevitably sooner or later reach a point where progress feels difficult and you may doubt your ability to finish what you started.

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"Steven" sounds very similar to my River in that I created River to embody the sort of person I wish to be.  She feels like a sort of guardian to me, and I'm very thankful for that.  She tells me that she loves me and wants me to be happy.  I asked her, "What about YOUR happiness?", and she simply responds that if I want her to be happy, I need to learn to be happy myself.  It makes sense to me since the two of us share the same head.

 

In a way, I feel like River isn't just the sort of person I wish to be, but in a way, she IS me.  I'm just in a process of discovering my true self thru her.

 

 

 

    These are very interesting perspectives! I found a point that you made, which I found pretty valuable. I have recently encountered something similar to Steven with what you mentioned above. Earlier today I visited him during meditation,  @ a place in my minds eye, that I call 'The Inner Sanctum.' Well for some reason at that time, I was feeling as though that my intensive thought processes were slowed down compared to normal. Not only that, but its either in a good mood, with faster nuero-impulses, or I am in a cloudy somewhat dumbed down state, with a certain 'lack of feeling.' Probably due to lower levels of dopamines and endorphines. 

 

    Anyways, during that time I had Steven's image down well, and talked to him a bit, and he seemed to be depressed, and presented himself in a less intelligent manner. ANd it wasnt until I read your reply that I made the connection between how I felt at that present moment and how Steven appeared, felt, and acted like. SO it seems, that the Tulpa is also a great tool to let us observe changes and characteristics of ourselves through them. An external viewpoint of our strengths and weaknesses, without the ego clouding our righteous judgement, of how we should exactly assess ourselves. The Tulpa could also be programmed with notable improvements of the host. Perhaps and elaborate and advanced form of imposing on your subconscious, imposing what exactly? Well any mind over desire trait that would transmute the questionable aspect of the host into its constructive polar opposite.

 

     Theoretically, a sentient mind would have the same computational limit of the entire universe. So the Tulpa could be a programmable aid, to Will any form of mental manifestation that the Hosts deems appropriate to his or her personal situation. As far as ancient tradition goes, they probably had and endless amount of purposes and forms. The phenomenon itself could possibly explain the hundreds and thousands of various Gods found in eastern ancient beliefs. In fact The belief of personal or guardian gods became quite popular in Egypt and Babylonn. They might have been viewed as gods, but I think historians just say that they viewed the endless pantheon of gods to be literal entities that had unseen influence. However, in ancient Egyptian and Indian beliefs it is well noted that our five senses can be mastered completely, and their effects can take place in the actual physical world. I would be interested to see what other people think of this.  Time for bed, talk to ya'll later. Best of luck River !

Above all, be true to thyself. 

 

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