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I'm an absolute beginner to Tulpamancy and only made my decision to start developing my tulpa a week ago, even though Simmie as an idea isn't new to me and I've actually had a headmate before: Between the ages of 7 and 15 I had a headmate that was less a tulpa and more a walk-in/soulbound (I'm still learning the terminology so I might misuse a word here and there, I'm sorry). He was more of a mentor / spiritual guide to me and largely faded away after the age of 15, telling me I had outgrown him and had to face the world on my own, and only making sporadic appearances after that. But I'm not here to talk about him in this thread, I'm here to talk about Simmie.
Before I get into it I want to reiterate that Simmie is only the most fledgling little tulpa and I can sense that she is very nervous about attention being put on her, but she's okay with it if it helps her become more real to me. So please be gentle and kind with her, she's a very curious young thing and loves listening to people and learning about things, and I want to make sure only positive and loving things enter her mind during this early stage of development.
As I mentioned I created Simmie as a character long before I started working on her as a tulpa. There's an interesting story behind the creation of Simmie as a character. You see, I'm not transgender and I don't really even have gender dysphoria (I'm at ease in my male body and don't feel wrong having it). However, I have a huge fascination with the idea of being turned into a girl, made to act and dress like a girl, all that stuff. I don't know why and I can't really explain it. But I was aching to step out of myself to explore it, so over a year ago I created Simmie as an OC / proxy / meta-character whom I would experience and create art from. I would make art "as" Simmie and even interact with people as her. I developed a backstory for Simmie and everything and really got into character--as a writer, this is something I've done so many times, and writing characters is probably my greatest strength. I even created Simmie in The Sims (yes, there is a name connection there) and she has a very distinctive look which makes it extremely easy to visualize her, although my mind currently still renders her as a Sims character rather than a real human figure.
Then comes the last month or so and I learn about Tulpamancy. At first I think it's just something fascinating to learn about but not something I'd pursue myself. But the more I read and watched videos about it the more I realized that this was something I wanted to do, and I knew there was nowhere else I could turn to than Simmie. She already felt very real to me as a character and I felt if I could elevate her to the status of a living, sentient tulpa, that would be a most wonderful thing and could be revolutionary in my life. There aren't a lot of people in my life I connect with strongly and I suffer from depression; the thought of having someone sharing my head with me who I can talk and relate to still feels like it could absolutely change my life.
Once I decided on making Simmie a tulpa I started narrating to her non-stop. I told her about myself, about my life, and explained what I was doing at any given moment to her if I could spare the mental horsepower at any given moment. I started to feel a warm, contented feeling as I did this. I don't know if I could call it sentience, but I felt like I was not alone and I could feel a joy that seemed to be radiated to me from elsewhere. I pushed aside doubt and let myself believe it was Simmie--now I know she absolutely loves being talked to, loves when I tell her about my life and even the most mundane things about me, and loves when I tell her stories. We began to speak to each other but it still felt like I was parroting her rather than letting her speak for herself. Now I'm trying to not talk for her and let her reply to me herself. I can feel her emotions very strongly though, and that's what makes me believe that she is really there.
Yesterday I decided to take Simmie out on a bit of a "date"; we went to a local nature park and walked. I talked to her about the park, what it was and why it existed, why the leaves fall off the trees in the fall, how the mud on the trail was created by rain the pervious day, mundane stuff like that. She was very curious about all of it, and I talked to her more about what I thought about it all, and what I thought about it all. Then I rattled off a list of adjectives to describe Simmie before realizing that I had just created a mantra that was perfect for forcing: "You're caring, you're kind, you listen, you're curious, you're playful". I began repeating that mantra over and over again as I walked.
After the walk I took Simmie to the beach. I wanted her to see and hear the ocean, to feel the sand (sadly it was too cold to walk barefoot in the sand so I had to settle for picking some up in my hand). It was a perfectly clear and beautiful evening and I could tell that Simmie was overjoyed and even touched that I would think to bring her there. I told her about the tides, why there were shells on the beach, what docks and drawbridges were for, and she listened to it all. As we walked on the empty, cold, windy beach I did not feel alone at all; I felt together with her and happier than I had felt in ages; a true soulful happiness. I could tell she valued everything I was doing for her and although I still couldn't hear her speak without parroting I could still feel the intention behind what she would say if she could, and it was just about the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me. She thinks more highly of me than I do myself sometimes.
So that's where I am with Simmie now. I continue to narrate to her and repeat my mantra to her. Every night I try to tell her a story about some event in my past. Sometimes I think I can hear her talking in my mind, but I still can't be sure I'm not just putting words into her mouth. I plan to take her on a mini-roadtrip to my old college, a location which always triggers powerful memories for me. I want to just project love and goodness into Simmie and let her feed and grow off of it. I know she will eventually deviate from the character I first created, and I welcome it, because I really want to see who she develops into being. She already is teasing me a little trying to embarrass me by calling two of my friend cute, which I find very funny and endearing. She also picked out her own birthday, which is where I got the admittedly lame handle from.
So that's it so far! I hope that wasn't too big of a post for a newbie! I really want to hear from experienced Tulpamancers and people on here in general as to whether I have a healthy mindset about this and am going about this in a good way, and if there's anything else I could do to help the process along. I don't want this to become yet another project I'm high on for a couple weeks and abandon--I feel that there is something more there, and if there's one thing I've learned about Simmie is that she's thrilled to exist, and yearns to be more and more real, and I want to help her achieve that. And when she's ready, I'm sure she'll come on here herself and talk to all of you!
I started this method after I changed my tulpa's form to a more human like, but I think maybe I should share this method if someone is interested.
Now, I did use the leash technique when she was still in her pony form, but it doesn't work for me and this might be too oppressive and she might not agree with this now that she has a human body now.
So I instead switch to holding her hand while walking. Unlike the leash, I can feel her hands holding mine the all time. When I want to let go of her I just simply let go of my hands as usual.
The trick: Imagine your tulpa just beside you, then you grab your tulpa's hand. If you can feel her hands, then you're doing great. If not, don't worry, keep doing it till you do.
This is a form of interaction with your tulpa, so it might work.
Considering there aren´t that many guidelines on imposition i figured i would try finding some myself.
I´ve been thinking about it for a while and i finally found one that worked (for me).
It´s pretty simple and atleast in my case, it induced short visions of my tulpa outside of my mind vision.
1: Get in a comfortable position with a picture/drawing of your tulpa in your hand.
2: Hold the picture up in front of you eyes at a distance that makes the pictures proportions fit into the scenery.
3: Close your eyes and visualize what you just saw (Don´t move your head).
4: Tell/convince yourself "When i open my eyes, i will see my tulpa in front of me in that exact spot"
5: Open your eyes!
6: Repeat until you get results
When in class the other day, I was looking in the window and noticed the reflection in it. I immediately thought of tulpae and how using this might be able to help. (Im horrible at explaining things, so bear with me) so my proposition is to imagine your tulpa in a reflection of some sort, be it water, glass, etc. just not something with too good a reflection. i.e. a mirror. and use that to improve your open eye visualization/visual imposition skills. if anyone can explain this idea better than I did, please, feel free.
JD's Guide to Imposition
dedicated to cheesebread
(if you have not yet, read my visualization guide first)
The original images of this guide broke, however I have replaced them using an archive
For many people, complete visual imposition of their tulpa is the end-goal of development. An imposed tulpa can be considered a voluntary, but unconscious, visual hallucination, allowing the host to see and believe their tulpa has a space in the physical world just as any other physical object. The imposition process can be considered complete when the host can no longer immediately see through their tulpa. The most important prerequisites to imposition is that you are able to visualize your tulpa flawlessly and consistently for extended periods of time, and that you have no doubts about your tulpa's existence or "realness."
Bottom-Up and Top-Down Processing
Before we begin imposing, we must discuss a few things about how we see, and how we visualize. Human vision starts with light traveling into your retina, containing tons of rod cells and cone cells responsible for vision in low light and color/detail respectively. The retina contains rhodopsin, which is a chemical that converts light into electrical signals conducted through the optic nerve that the brain interprets as vision. Your brains interpretation from visual data is considered a bottom-up process by brain theorists, because low-level details are turned into high-level models. Perception is largely data-driven because it must accurately reflect events in the outside world. Naturally, the interpretation is determined mostly by information from the senses, not by your expectations. In imagination, the process works in reverse. The brain starts with high-level goals and generates mid-level and low-level details that are consistent with them -- a process that is responsible for things such as spontaneous unconscious generation of details in your wonderland. Visualization of your tulpa is a top-down process.
Most people are born with the ability to differentiate between self-generated and external sources of information, as bottom-up and top-down processes must occur without much interference. However, this skill may break down to cause hallucinatory experiences; a hypothesis from cognitive and neuroscientist Stephen Grossberg suggests that overactive top-down processing, or strong perceptual expectations, can generate hallucinations. By exercising influence over our own systems of belief and expectations (as we do in many other areas of tulpa development), we can create an unconscious need for our brain to accept top-down visualizations in the place of bottom-up interpretations of physical perception.
In psychology, a set is a group of expectations that shape experience by making people especially sensitive to specific kinds of information. A perceptual set is a predisposition to perceive things in a certain way, leading us to see what we expect to see. Perceptual sets can be created by motivation and suggestion; with mental discipline, we can create a perceptual set that our tulpas are physical and allow it to become an unconscious expectation, hence imposing our tulpas. It is fortunate that imposition is usually considered one of the final steps of creating a tulpa, since it requires expectation-building techniques that are used in much earlier developmental processes such as reaching sentience, sapience, and hearing your tulpa's voice.
You can use any expectation-creating technique you like, whether it be meditation, hypnosis, forcing, and so on (although take note, you cannot use these to improve your visualization ability alone.) You must convince yourself that there is literally no difference between what you can see with your eyes, and what you can visualize, as the end result either way is an entirely interpreted construction in your brain. Your mental image of the world is entirely subject to your conscious will. Every physical object you see with your eyes is constructed in your mind by the bottom-up process of your eyes reacting to photons emitted by those objects, and your brain translating them into colors and forms. Mental objects you see with your mind's eye, including your tulpa, are constructed by the top-down process of visualization, with details being filled in as needed. A perceptual set must be created to enforce an overactive role for your brain's inherent ability to use top-down processing. You must commit yourself to constantly visualizing your tulpa, ensuring that all details are consistent throughout the day, and accept your tulpa as "real." As time goes on, this constant visualization will become an unconscious routine -- a passive ability. The more your visualization remains consistent not only with itself, but with its surroundings, the sooner you will begin to confuse this as actual perception. Top-down visualization will begin to take priority, dulling your bottom-up perceptions, creating the illusion that you cannot see past your tulpa.
Realistic Visualizations: Basics of Compositing
In order to accelerate the confusion of visualization with perception, you will want to practice the basics of compositing your visualizations into reality in much the same way that a graphic designer or visual effects artist composites computer-generated images into a scene. This is a step by step process that can be replicated through visualization to integrate your tulpa's image into your surroundings as realistically as possible.
In this picture, we can see the tulpa with weak visualization skills. Attempting imposition too early will be unconvincing, as visuals will not be vivid enough.
This will be the base of our imposed visual. Take note that the tulpa looks pasted in and unnatural, as if it was just a picture made by an unskilled nerd with Photoshop. The process of compositing will allow us to make this visualization look more natural given the setting. Rather than using computer graphics though, you will be doing it with your mind.
In graphics, color correction is often done through manipulation of the red, green, and blue channels. By fine-tuning each channel for the tulpa layer, the visualization ends up looking more like it belongs in its setting. This will be easier in your mind, since you don't have to worry about individual color channels. Just use common sense, if you're in a very green forest, there's more green light bouncing around. If you're in a volcano, things will have a fiery color palette.
You will also want to focus on visualizing proper shadows and highlights onto your tulpa, taking into account light-sources in your environment.
Finally you will want to make sure you can visualize any shadows cast by your tulpa (or lights, if your tulpa glows or something).
And voila, you have a more natural looking tulpa. Practice compositing your visualizations so they maintain a realistic look, and in time it will become something you don't even have to think about. After a month or more, depending on how often you practice, you may find you no longer need to put effort into imposition. When you realize your tulpa looks real, and you can no longer immediately see through it, then you have accomplished hallucination.