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Hi, I'm new the community. I've been researching tuplas for a few days and finally decided yesterday to officially "make" my tupla Ko. Since it's so soon, I know I probably won't be seeing any sentience for a while but when the time comes I do have a concern. For quite a while I've been experiencing intrusive thoughts; thoughts and sometimes images that come suddenly and without me really "thinking" them. I also, athough less often, experience frequent, non-severe headaches and mood swings/rushes of emotion. Since these are all very common signs of sentience in a tupla, how can I differ these intrusive thoughts, headaches, and mood swings from signs of sentience from Ko? I've read that it's important to accredit any possible signs to your tupla, but given my past experience with these symptoms it's hard. I acknowledged that these symptoms could be from an existing accidental tupla, but I don't really think that's the case; they're probably symptoms of my mental illness.

 

Also, is it possible for tuplas to show signs of sentience very early? While I was having my first real session of active forcing with Ko yesterday I thought I felt some head pressure, but I dismissed it since it was only our first day.

 

I greatly appreciate any replies.

 

tl;dr: How can I differentiate my normal experience of intrusive thoughts, headaches, and mood swings from signs of sentience from my tupla?

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Welcome to the community. It is in fact possible for tulpas to develop sentience fairly early, though from that description it'd be hard to tell whether that is in fact what's happened here. For the most part, I'd say once Ko develops vocality it'll be a lot easier to tell the difference (if it's ever unclear you could literally just ask him/her). Until then, keep an open mind and be patient. Sentience, vocality, and so forth will happen when they do.

Yo, my name is Sean and I'm the host of 2 tulpas: Sente and Mae. You'll know when they're talking because Sente talks in yellow text and Mae talks in blue text.

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Welcome to the community! If you already have trouble with mood swings and head aches, then these may not be valid forms of communication. If you notice a sudden increase in either of these however, then that could be a sign Ko is trying to communicate.

 

As for head pressures... Once I started reading about head pressures, it didn't take more than a day for Ranger to start using them. However, the context of the situation was messy; Ranger was already vocal and sentient, and I was insanely parrotnoid. I don't know if this would apply to your situation with Ko since Ranger was a Tulpa before I even knew what Tulpas were.

I actually use this as a form now, but it's not my main one. I'm still not a hippo, neither is Ranger.

I used to speak in pink and Ranger used to speak in blue (if it's unmarked and colored assume it's Ranger). He loves to chat.

 

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Yay, welcome!

 

Can you make distinction from past head pressure and the head pressure you have gotten since starting the practice? The head pressure I get from tulpamancy is very distinctive, but I don't know how to clarify it a meaningful way. I use to get frequent migraines, and would have auras... In the beginning, head pressure felt kind of like an aura, and there were several times I was like, oh, crap, I am going to need to be sedated, but it went different and now I just know the difference.

 

Do you have a strategy for dealing with intrusive thoughts, like distractions? Are they random or specific, repetitive, or annoying? If they're particularly annoying things, I would assume that to be intrusive thoughts and practice whatever coping skills you are practicing, and if you get positive stuff, assume that to be tulpa. Even if the positive stuff isn't tulpa, I would recommend assuming that is tulpa, and reinforcing that, because positive intrusive thoughts is still a better thing to have than the negative ones. There is evidence that many people have pleasant intrusive thoughts like, "yay, you did good..." Those are not the people who show up at the mental health clinic. Too bad there isn't a concerted effort to figure out why most unsolicited hallucinations and intrusive thoughts seem to be negative; but then again, maybe we only hear about them because you're more likely to tell a doctor this is bothering you. that, and, it's still taboo to discuss mental health in general. Which is really sad because, it's really interesting. Except, perhaps, if you're the person dealing with the MH thing. (And, I can relate. Chronic dysthymia, episodic MDD, intrusive thoughts, OCD, anxiety, PTSD, just a few of the labels I have carried.. Carry. Sometimes these things don't go away, even if you're in remission.)

 

Worry less about accidental tulpa, and concentrate on purposeful tulpa. Even if it were, hypothetically, accidental, probably not a lot you can do about that, other than purposely not giving it more energy... The MH stuff is probably a better explanation for that, and once you're tulpa is solid, you should have very clear defining experiences which help provide clarity on which is which.

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