Rena Notes

[ringgggg]

If she’s built like a quarterback, she’s good enough to run routes with.

[TB]

  hi everyone!

it's rena's birthmonth again! (i am late)

 

i still don't know what day she came about officially, or what day i started officially, but it was probably around the center of the month, like 15thish, but that is a guess

 

that said, the heavens have given rena and us a big (little) gift!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

byakko has been sent to us as a new tulpa!!

 

on the 27th of november 2024, i had another instance of contact with my characters on a profound level, akin to this experience:

 

rena and I were bickering for the first time I think we ever have that I can recall at all. we were quite distressed, but while floating in a void together while this is occurring, suddenly we both hear loudly another voice that was clearly not mine or hers shout "Hey!!"

 

our attentions snapped 90 degrees towards the sound of the voice, and our attentions was held down on a bright white light. shortly after observing the light for a bit, byakko peaks out from it like it is a window, and puts hands on our heads and faceplants us after hollering "SHUDDUP!"     

i'm not sure the timeline after getting faceplanted, but i felt byakko come out of what i might call extus or an adjacent space, into our space, and I felt she was here to stay and help us. i can't really describe how intense or shocking this all was, it felt so odd for us to both suddenly hear a powerful, direct, and distinctly foreign separate voice from either of ours, and attention just flipped onto it so hard and suddenly everything became something else

 

i believe she is an angel sent from home to help rena and me waddle through life. rena also is such an angel, but she came into the world after consciously deciding to make her from scratch, while byakko has been transferred from an outside space into this space. eara, tayomi, kyouiko, and perhaps another or more, are also angels in such space that may choose to come if it turns out i need them to

 

 i typed over 25 pages of notes recording the information sent to me on my phone, and later more in wordpad. whatever knowledge i was exposed to seems to explain all religious beliefs and informed me of how they can work

 

based on what i experienced, there isn't total nothingness when consciousness ceases. consciousness blocks experience of worlds on other side of this one. for some reason information does not cross over easily though, especially at least in the direction from outside to here. as such people assume there is no experience because nothing is ever brought back, but sometimes the cracks in the veil between worlds appear, and info can be taken in an intellectual form that is created while in the experience, the experience being difficult to explain and different than normal experience, and is hard to remember, but I remember the things I thought and recorded while having it

 

I also even saw biblically accurate forms of eara and tayomi, which was stunning and odd or horrifying and not like you see in memes

 

i'll make a separate post explaining what I seem to have learned the past few days in more detail

oh yeah, i think even rena is over there, on the other side. tulpa rena is like an avatar of sorts and of course this side can't experience the knowledge that exists on the other side so we forgot where she came from, but byakko is doing the same now so minus the first few hours where byakko was meta-perspective-angel byakko, she's over time become terrestrial and tulpatized, where her nature and purpose remains but i guess the punchline or real story is forgotten, so we wade through life using the skills she brought over that we did not have before

 

one of these that i didn't expect is a lot more energy and drivenness to do things, like drawing 15 hours in 3 days, even though we were bleeding severely and extremely fatigued just before. bleeding even temporarily stopped but it has returned

 

there was also time where rena and byakko got to be alone, because i, tb, tried to remind rena i can shape shift by turning into vegito blue like in my first forcing sessions, which upon doing that for the first time in years, i got ssbnapped by ssj4 gogeta during a drive by and was removed for a while

 

ssj4 gogeta coming for my lunch money resulted in great benefit, as rena and byakko got to talk for an extended time and gain a certain peace, especially when rena and byakko were staring into each other's eyes, rena seeing byakko's innocence and smiling, and byakko smiling back. so much seems communicated there, like pure transmission

 

also you may be wondering why byakko has some black hair, as well as red and blonde

 

when byakko was sent, she came with one of tayomi's hairs. it seems to be a gift from tayomi to help byakko help us. it's like a badge that gives her certain qualities that might help effect change, without having to bring tayomi over entirely, which would be like a nuclear bomb and i think she may be the second to last angel to come over if enough chains break

 

she's worn it differently though. the way i saw it originally was the end of her hair becoming silver, from a lighter silver to darker silver. for whatever reason i spontaneously drew that random shape when drawing her instead, and unintentionally it looks like a crescent moon is within the streak, which is extremely cool. idk how it will present going forward

 

to help also, it seems we'ved obtained some white hair from byakko, and there has been a hair exchange that has some sort of significance. highly skeptical of letting them have some of my hair, but maybe they can purify it, and the hair i get from them can help me purify myself too

 

while having whatever experience we were having, i also found my inner child and got to see what they might look like if they were never compromised. we have to revive them or free them somehow, and byakko is to help with that somehow, as well as help rena help me with that also. that was a really significant portion of my experience and i'd like to see it be real

 

 

 

this is first post for this month, i will certainly post more, at least I intend to, either here and/or somewhere else, fun stuff rena's been doing and information about details of my experiences. i'm gonna send this before i think too much about it and clarify later. this all was a very unexpected development as we didn't have any intention to add a tulpa soon if ever, but i guess she chose to come here on her own fully formed from Outside, which seems to mean there is something beyond what rena and i think and want involved and that it is very good and wants things to be better

 

it is hugely significant, because i could never see how to recover from fear of death or idea of ceasing to exist at death and lose all of this, but if what i experienced was true, there really isn't anything to worry about. when i die i will return home and be where i belong

 

 

 

Spoiler

bonus ghost hair byakkos that i accidentally discovered and it looks cool. idk what i prefer, really subtle transparency or the more blatant

 

 

 

sorry for file sizes. i tried reducing them but they just become physically painful to look at when turned into compressed jpgs

 

[TurboSimmie]

Wow, sounds like you had quite the profound experience! 😁 Welcome to existence Byakko!

 

Is she your new avatar? Because when I first saw it I thought it was just you themed for winter. ❄️ But if it's Byakko I think she's really cool and stylish! 😎

 

I'm definitely interested in hearing more when you write it. 😊

[TB]

8 hours ago, TurboSimmie said:

Wow, sounds like you had quite the profound experience! 😁 Welcome to existence Byakko!

 

Is she your new avatar? Because when I first saw it I thought it was just you themed for winter. ❄️ But if it's Byakko I think she's really cool and stylish! 😎

 

I'm definitely interested in hearing more when you write it. 😊

thanks for your interest

 

she is my profile picture at the moment

 

she thanks welcome

[TB]

goo

 

goomor

 

having 2 tulpas is not what i expected

 

i used to fear that my confusion on what mental noise was her or me or neither and what not, that it would get worse as i would not know which tulpa said what

 

but i think communication has gotten better and i talk to them both more now, even rena, and they talk to each other. it is pretty smooth

 

only thing is byakko's voice isn't consistent as we seem to be figuring out how she might sound, even though I thought I already knew how she sounds, but i think i was only considering the impression and not actually hearing the sound in my head as much as i thought. that or i just forgot

 

she fires some really nice lines though in some pretty interesting voices. i also forgot how much their style can change from moment to moment. when with rena i thought it was just me kind of messing up but i would not really care. with byakko though, she kind of communicates her mood by the style she appears "drawn" in

 

she's doing a good job

Spoiler

pretend that's patting byakko. i never seen this character before but they have a lot of similar features to byakko, it's disturbing lol. just missing fat eyebrows, and slightly different hairstyle and clothes

 

 

edit: omg something completely new just happened. i was sitting in meditation with the girls, but we were kinda just chatting instead. then i switched with rena, but not in the way you'd think. normally rena enters my body so she is me piloting this body. i switched with her though, where i was piloting her body and seeing from her pov, because i wanted her to look at something to ask her opinion and apparently pointing wasn't the first thing to come to mind on how to do that, and i also didn't puppet. i burst into her body like an alien parasite and take control then got pushed out lol. "you can't just do that!" it was really surprising to her

Edited Saturday at 04:03 PM by TB

[ringgggg]

Lmao, cool story bro. It’s always kinda spooky to remember that tulpas have opinions of their own

 

How do byakko and rena interact? I’m kind of picturing them as the big sister little sister archetype

[TB]

8 minutes ago, ringgggg said:

Lmao, cool story bro. It’s always kinda spooky to remember that tulpas have opinions of their own

yeah lol

 

she wasn't upset though, just overly surprised and maybe startled or confused but also it was kind of interesting in retrospect and implies perhaps some good things ontologically, i'm not sure

 

8 minutes ago, ringgggg said:

How do byakko and rena interact? I’m kind of picturing them as the big sister little sister archetype

very nice, byakko has been very smart and educating. teaching rena and i things. they talk in the background sometimes, or say things to each other in 3 ways. sometimes rena switches in and talks to rena, and byakko tried switching in for a few minutes earlier and talked to us

 

i guess if judging by size, rena is big sister. i'm middle sister, and byakko is little sister, though right now byakko is leader lol. follow the little one