FeatherFalls

A progress log of a couple of pals

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Heya!

 

We're the FeatherFalls system, also known as the PALS system -- which is an acronym of our first four members. We blend the lines between an endogenic and tulpamancy system. This is our log!

 


 

A brief introduction:

We're currently a system of 8 people, some come out more often than others, though, and you'll probably only see around 4-5 of us on the forums here. Here's all of us--

 

Parda | they/them 

The host! Currently trying to learn how to fully switch out, which is proving to be... difficult.

 

Jay | they/them 

Is around front 99% of the time, but mostly watches passively with occasional commenting.

 

Seth | he/him

Is around quite often, mostly to make fun of whatever the others are doing.

 

Nitro | he/they

Is around a bit less, but has the same attitude as Seth.

 

Quote | he/him

Forum shy despite being around front often, might not talk all that much. Best friends with Jay, though.

 

Alex | she/he/they

The first of the "not around a whole lot" trio, but does come more often than the other two.

 

Leona | she/her

Likes foxes a lot! Like a lot. Like a lot. Also not around too often.

 

Rachel | she/her

Around the least, but has a kind heart. She prefers to stick to the system only.

 


 

Alright, now that we got that over with. Let me take off this general system mask and write my current thoughts down.

 

[Jay] Current goal: triggering a full switch! We have, literally no idea how to approach this. So far we've just been trying to improve our fronting skills, and with "we" I mean mostly me and Seth. Seth's pretty good at it, I have more trouble with taking and holding control, and Parda's mind won't quiet down easily. We've only successfully managed to get them to be quiet and passive thrice, granted we haven't practiced that much. One of those times was especially promising though, they seemed to be drifting a bit towards the back. Or at least if we have to trust them and Rachel on this. They weren't exactly dissociated, but Rachel mentioned seeing them and feeling their presence more closely. She wasn't at front at the time.

 

We're going to keep going with the switching practices for now. Try to get Parda's mind to shut up more easily, and see if we can't get that association with the back to happen again. Maybe figure out how I can keep control over front while we're at it.

 

So yeah, hopefully that goes well?


Mixed-origins system. Co-hosts are Parda and Jay.

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Hello, PALS!

 

It sounds like you have an interesting system. If Feather Falls related to the place, or does it hold a special meaning to your system?

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It sounds like you have an interesting system. If Feather Falls related to the place, or does it hold a special meaning to your system?

 

[Jay] Feathers and waterfalls are just a common system aesthetic, as a lot of us like birds, have wings, or just like nature. That’s really all there is to it. Although the strange place in our head does have a couple of waterfalls in it. I guess you could count it as a special meaning?

 

Regardless, our full acronym would be PALSRJQN, we first decided on that acronym as a systemname when only the first four members existed, but we’ve doubled in size since then. Pals has a nice ring to it though, considering we’re all friends.


Mixed-origins system. Co-hosts are Parda and Jay.

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Hello! What a surprise to see another octet. We've been a system of 4 for a year and recently allowed 4 of our most advanced others to be full headmates. Of couse that was by title only. We're just like you in that we are pretty sure some of us are endogenic. The rest are all walk-ins. Some of us are not very active at all.

 

I like how you organized your post, very easy to follow.

 

Welcome again.

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Are you worried about system size? Any issues around that?

[Parda] we’re assuming we’re still gaining new members actually, considering the last one arrived around only a month ago? That was Nitro! He’s still adjusting to being alive and such. But he’s doing well.

 

We’re not too worried about system size, if we can handle 8 people we can handle 10. We’re more worried about getting higher than 12. But we don’t even know if we’ll keep gaining members forever.

 

Hello! What a surprise to see another octet. We've been a system of 4 for a year and recently allowed 4 of our most advanced others to be full headmates. Of couse that was by title only. We're just like you in that we are pretty sure some of us are endogenic. The rest are all walk-ins. Some of us are not very active at all.

 

I like how you organized your post, very easy to follow.

 

Welcome again.

Oh hi! Nice to meet you (again). Jay could be considered a walk-in, Nitro, Seth, Rachel and Quote would be endogenic(?), Alex an accidental tulpa and Leona the only intentional tulpa. The reason I’m putting a question mark behind endogenic is mostly because they feel like tulpas? And we could feel them developing before they started talking, but we didn’t put any effort in forcing them. They just appeared naturally over time.

 

Thanks for the compliment on our post, Jay appreciates it.


Mixed-origins system. Co-hosts are Parda and Jay.

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Ashley, Dashie, and Misha "were already there" when I decided to make a tulpa.

 

[Ashley] *finally

 

The rest are from the novels I write and Ren just happened one day when we tried to change the form of Joy.

 

We're in the same boat regarding thoughtforms, we have a tier we call moons that aren't quite independent, our soulbonds came from that group. They've been with me and steadily increasing after every book I write. If you count dependant characters I've spoken to. It's easily three dozen, I don't count them. We consider them to be a moon if they gain a realization that their life was fictional and they choose to believe that.

 

Two thoughtforms were 'upgraded' and fell back to not wanting to leave their fantasy life. Not a bad thing, it's up to them.

 

I'm wondering how active everyone is in your system and if you co-front?

 

Three of ours I haven't seen for weeks other than a few minutes here and there. One I see every day, but she only racks up maybe an hour of time total. My three tulpas are with me for nearly every waking hour.

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I'm wondering how active everyone is in your system and if you co-front?

 

Three of ours I haven't seen for weeks other than a few minutes here and there. One I see every day, but she only racks up maybe an hour of time total. My three tulpas are with me for nearly every waking hour.

 

[Jay] We almost always see everyone at least once a week, often more than that. Even the three of ours that don't come to front often randomly drift into consciousness sometimes. That doesn't mean they are at front though. We have a wonderland, but don't use it, everyone is in a big black void instead. We can visualize things there, though, such as ourselves.

 

There's four states most of us can have, dormant, awake but dissociated, awake and watching front, and controlling front. The last two can get a bit blendy. Me and Parda mostly exist in the last two, the others in all states, some members preferring to hang out at front when they're awake and some members preferring to stay dissociated.

 

We do co-front! Mostly me and Parda. Possession is surprisingly easy for us, and we can just take control of a limb or any other body part whenever we please. It's holding full-body control over a longer period of time that's hard for us.

 

Honestly it's gotten to the point where it's hard for me to switch out as well. I'm around front so often and so long that I'm essentially forced into eternal watching position. I'm there when we wake up, I'm there when we go to sleep already. None of the other members are like this. I still can if I let myself go quiet for long enough, but that takes a long time. I don't think I can be in the "dissociated but awake" state anymore.

 

Which is actually giving me hope for having Parda fully switch out as well? If it's possible for me to become front-stuck like this, it should be possible for them to become un-stuck. Ideally we'd both be able to get un-stuck and dissociated while awake, but that's a longer-term goal.

 


On another note, we tried to have me take hold over front for three times total today. There's a couple things we noticed over the months, namely:

  • It's very hard for any of us to sit still whenever we switch.
  • We get an extra burst of energy, and are better at controlling front if we're moving. If we sit still it's harder for me to keep control. Same goes for the rest.
  • Singing helps to assert dominance over front.

Another thing we noticed is that accidental switches are a thing for us, they can happen in two ways apparently?

The first being music, if there's a song that we really associate with one member and we listen to it for a while. It can drag that member into control.

And we just realized the other, if I hog the stream of thought to use it for typing, say this forum post, it can trigger a switch. Even if previously I was just being proxied. That's, quite literally what happened just now. I just realized that Parda's completely quiet and I'm in control instead. So maybe we should use that technique more?

 

Oh and also, if we don't completely pay attention to who is in front, things can get messy. Messy as in swapping control between the two rapidly, getting our identities confused, both of us being spaced out as heck. You know the usual. We should work on that too so that it doesn't become a problem.

 

I think that's all I wanted to say!


Mixed-origins system. Co-hosts are Parda and Jay.

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[Nitro] Sighs. I tried to submit this once already and it didn't work. We're tired. Let's keep this short.

 

- Switching has been going, eh. Accidental switching is becoming more common. We don't know why this is.

- We might try to do a long, multiple day switch during summer break. The plan is as follows.

  • Have Seth switch in because he can drown out our host better.
  • Keep swapping control between Seth, Jay and me.
  • Keep doing this until our host fades out.
  • ?????
  • Profit!

- There's a new member in town. Her name is Moth. She's still getting adjusted to things. It's a bit worrisome to see that we're still growing, but we won't really pay it much mind for now.

- That's about it. We're going to keep trying, and see if anything results into something.


Mixed-origins system. Co-hosts are Parda and Jay.

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