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I would like to submit my full-length video guide for approval. This guide is intended to be a complete guide to all basic tulpamancy skills as well as a guide to developing a tulpa.  The video series spans 10 videos and (hopefully) encapsulates all the required knowledge and training one needs to be successful when developing a tulpa.


This guide has a different structure than other guides as I place an emphasis on learning skills such as meditation, visualization, and wonderland creation before getting into tulpa development.  The philosophy behind this decision is to encourage the tulpamancer gain competency in these mental skills so that they are better prepared when it comes time to develop and interact with with a young, forming tulpa.  Another reason for this structure is that is allows the tulpa development process to be more centered on "finding" a tulpa while immersed in their wonderland as opposed to "forcing" the tulpa into existence.  I feel that this can be a more natural process for beginners that struggle with doubts or lack of confidence in their abilities. It allows the tulpamancer to let the tulpa form their personality, form and voice on their own as opposed to being chosen from them from the start.


To be clear: it is not my intention to imply this method is superior or more effective than more traditional methods; it's merely a method that I prefer using. I feel that there are others that might also prefer using the methods described in this guide. I have two tulpas, one of which was created through more traditional forcing techniques, and one of which was created through the method in this guide.


For more details about this, please view Overview and Section 7.


Below is the link to the playlist with all of the videos in it. (If you would like all videos separately linked, please let me know and I'll edit)



Thank you for your time and consideration.


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Section 1: Sitting with your Thoughts


Section 2: Meditation


Section 3: Visualization


Section 4: Auralization


Section 5: Wonderland Scenes


Section 6: Immersive Wonderlands


Section 7: Finding a Proto-Tulpa


Section 8: Tulpa Development


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[align=justify]The GAT is requiring that you provide a transcript of your videos before we review.


Additionally, the GAT requires links to have back-ups to be approved. We can review without the back-ups as long as you provide the transcripts, but they are required for approval.[/align]

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Thank you for your understanding! I look forward to reviewing your guide. - Gavin

The world is far, the world is wide; the man needs someone by his side. 

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it's just much easier to review a guide when you can read it at your own pace and easily go back to a previous point. we will take into consideration that it is meant to be listened to

I have a tulpa named Miela who I love very much.


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Yes, while reviewing it would be difficult if we had to transcribe each bit we want to comment on. Also, I think it can be really helpful for readers to be able to look at the exercises and pick which one they're going to work on that day.

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I've got the transcriptions uploaded now. Apologies that it took a few days. I made a lot of on-the-fly changes when recording that I did not update in my scripts, so I had to listen to everything and edit the scripts to make sure they're consistent with the videos.


Here are the links:






Section 1: Sitting with your Thoughts


Section 2: Meditation


Section 3: Visualization


Section 4: Auralization


Section 5: Wonderland Scenes


Section 6: Immersive Wonderlands


Section 7: Finding a Proto-Tulpa


Section 8: Tulpa Development



I have also updated the original post with the transcripts, and I am working on uploading the backup videos to Dailymotion.  They have a limit on how much you can upload at a time, so it's taking a while.

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Apollo wrote a review of a majority of the sections, and then I went back and redid it. I’m including some of his criticisms along with my own where I see fit. We’re not talking to each other in this review, it’s just me putting some of his stuff that he wrote along with my own.




Instead, please allow me to tell you a bit about myself.

[indigo] This part goes on for a while and doesn’t contribute anything necessary to the listener/reader. I don’t think I like guide reviewers going on personal anecdotes in guides: guides are for conveying information and instruction, not displaying a diary. Plus, it can be harmful. You might give them the idea that your experiences will apply to them. It’s unnecessary at best and misleading at worst.


[Apollo] I don’t really like how you portray tulpas as “bizarre and outlandish,” as I really think the community should step away from the idea that tulpas are mysterious and fantastical. Really, they are just something that people can naturally do but most don’t know about it. Tulpas aren’t about defying what’s possible, they’re about finding new things within what is possible.


A few months into my journey. I had suddenly found that I had forgotten the feeling of loneliness.

[indigo] I do not like the portrayal of tulpas as an escape from loneliness. That is misleading and unsafe. A tulpa’s another person in your head, they won’t make you stop needing external interaction.


The relationship between a tulpa and a human is an interesting one.

[Apollo] I strongly disapprove of portraying tulpas as something non-human. Hosts are called hosts, not “humans.” Tulpas are also human. Again, we really need to get away from this “tulpas are strange and otherworldly” idea. They’re not. They’re people who live in human bodies, they’re human.


[indigo] This section has a lot of personal anecdotes and lacks much substance. There are implications here that I don’t like. Tulpas are human, and they’re not some cure of loneliness or personal issues. They’re another person to help you bare the burden of things like loneliness or depression, but they’re not a solution to those problems.


[Apollo] We shouldn’t make sentient people with the idea that they are there to solve a problem.


[indigo] This section can be skipped, I feel.


I did like that you made it a point to say that tulpas are a big commitment one must dedicate themself to, and that they need to spend time thinking it over before starting. That could have been conveyed without the personal anecdotes, though.


[Apollo] Asserting that persistence and hard work are necessary for tulpamancy is something that I approve of. It’s not something to pick up and put down like a magazine, it’s something you dedicate yourself to.






So, the first thing I want you to do[....]Take some time, a few minutes or so, and think about these things.

[indigo] This section is heavily misleading, I don’t understand why this was included. You’re comparing creating a tulpa to having some character or celebrity you like around you. This isn’t what tulpas are and I really wish the community would stop portraying them that way. A tulpa is their own person with their own identity and personality, not a copy of some character you like. That’s what imaginary friends are for.


You seem to convey a little bit of information in a lot of words. A lot of what you’re saying could have been easily shortened to get the same points across.


So, another thing I'd like to mention is the ultimate goal of my guide[....]Imposition is a topic that I plan to cover in another, shorter guide that acts as an extension to this one.

This is a tangent.


The true goal of this guide is to develop a tulpa that demonstrates sentience, separateness and selfhood. In other words, it is to develop a tulpa that has the mind of a sentient person, and that thinks and acts for themselves on their own terms.

So… the goal of this guide is to have a tulpa? Okay, I think we get that. This feels redundant, the definition of a tulpa is something in your head that demonstrates sentience, separateness, and selfhood. A tulpa is a sentient person. You could have just said that the end goal for this guide was to reach sentience.


The reason for this is simple: the most important quality of a tulpa is its consciousness.

That is the defining quality. Though I don’t agree with using the word “consciousness.” A tulpa doesn’t have their own consciousness, they are another person who can share the consciousness the brain already has.


Being able to see and hear your tulpa in vivid, realistic clarity is certainly nice, [....]Their consciousness is what makes them a person instead of a posable doll.



[Apollo] You imply that a form needs to be sentient in order to seem independent. This is not the case, as intrusive thoughts are quite common.


Even more so, a tulpa must have a developed consciousness[....]This is why it is the goal the entire guide is centered around.

[indigo] Something without “consciousness” (sentience) is not a tulpa at all, it’s just an imaginary friend or an intrusive thought. I’m really not sure why you included this part.


I do not focus on "tulpaforcing" as a method of forcing a tulpa into existence in your mental space. Instead, I prefer to use a more natural approach that allows a tulpa to form mostly on its own. The details of this will be covered later.

This seems to be an attempt to fix what isn’t broken. Your methods just seem like they’ll confuse newbies even more, not help them to develop a tulpa. Meditation and immersion are alright and all, but they aren’t going to lead to a tulpa’s creation on their own.


The seventh section is the crux of the journey. It is about getting into a mindset where new consciousness entities will naturally form inside an immersive wonderland.

This isn’t what happens though. The things that appear in wonderlands aren’t conscious, they’re simply puppets. You have to actually force and interact with them for them to become conscious. It’s misleading and harmful to imply that the imaginary things in your head are already conscious from the get-go. They aren’t.


[Apollo] You say you want a natural approach to creating a tulpa, yet your way of explaining tulpas was of having a character you like around. Contradictory.


When one is found then it can be safely determined to be a fledgling consciousness which I refer to as a "proto-tulpa."

[indigo] There’s no such thing. You’re either conscious or you’re not, there is no in between. You can have things that seem conscious but aren’t really, but those are not tulpas.


the tulpa will demonstrate a level of consciousness similar to normal human being.

Again with the insinuation that tulpas are not human. “The tulpa will have reached a level of conscious capability that will match that of the host.”


[Apollo] You make it sound like this is going to be way more of a wonderland guide than an actual creation guide. Wonderland development and tulpa creation are two separate things.



Section 1 - Sitting with your Thoughts


Tell me, have you ever heard the phrase, "it's all in your head?" Surely you have.[....]It's all in your head. So just forget about it and keep moving.


[indigo] This is a long tangent that does not add anything.


You may treat them as an external entity,

No clue what this is supposed to mean.


Of course, this means that you cannot bring your phone.[....]Just sit, and think.

Again, you take a long time to say something that can be conveyed in less time.




Baby language feels a bit unprofessional.


Overall I think these exercises are fine, but you really should probably work on conveying information in less time. Going on and on makes it feel like a ramble rather than a guide. I’m not entirely sure how these exercises are useful for getting into the mindset for creating tulpas anyway, though I think I can see where you were coming from. I just wish you made your point without dragging on so much.



Section 2 - Meditation


When you think of the word "meditation", what comes to mind?[...]or a resonating "om" of their mantra.

[Apollo] The beginning of this section is also rambly and long. This is a guide, this sort of fluff isn’t necessary.


It doesn't have to be a huge part of your life. You don’t have to buy anything. You don't have to join a religion or subscribe to a newsletter. You don't need a yoga mat or a vegan lifestyle.

[indigo] I think most people get that.


it's a crucial skill in a tulpamancer's tool belt.

I would not say it’s “crucial” at all. In fact, surveys have shown that people who rely heavily on meditation for their forcing make progress less quickly than those who don’t. That’s a correlation though, I can’t say that’s the direct cause, but either way meditation is not “crucial.” It’s something for people who feel like it would help them. Like most things in tulpamancy.


This section can also benefit from using less words to make a point. Feels like a lot of it is fluff.


The exercises themselves are fine for people who want them. Meditation is not a requirement for tulpamancy.



Section 3 - Visualization


Have you ever had an old memory flood back to you out of nowhere? [.....]If you have done any of these things, even just once, then you have glimpsed the effect of visualization without even knowing it.

….I’m pretty sure this is all a natural everyday part of the human experience and not some rare, fleeting phenomenon. I’m really not sure where you are coming from. People who can’t or don’t experience visualization are well within the minority. This feels kind of infantilizing to be honest.


This is arguably one of the most integral aspects of tulpamancy, as it allows for a tulpamancer to see their tulpa and what they're doing.

Visualization is a tool like meditation that is not a hard requirement. One can go without it if they want to or need to.


train your mind's eye by practicing visualization.



It's just meditating but also focusing on mental images that you bring up in your mind's eye.

[Apollo] Visualization isn’t meditation. That doesn’t make sense.


The first step to this is to learn the difference between your external and internal visual senses. [....]I know it’s still there, and I know it won’t hurt you to use it.

[indigo] Unnecessary fluff.


All the information from then on can be conveyed in less words.


The exercises here also seem fine, but they kinda seem more like more meditation practice than visualization really. I guess the way your portrayed it was that there wasn’t much difference anyway? But there is, meditation and visualization are different things. They can be used together, yes, but they’re not the same thing.


[Apollo] Similarly to the previous sections, this section is rambly and contains a lot of unnecessary information that is not relevant to tulpa development.



Section 4 - Auralization


second most important sense: hearing.

[indigo] What makes it the second most important? Arguably it is the most important in terms of communicating with your tulpa. If you can’t visualize then that’s just gonna make it harder to see their imaginary form, if you can’t “auralize” then it’s harder to tell who is thinking what inside your head since you can’t form them into coherent words as easily.


Yes, the human brain is capable of producing mental sounds just as it can render mental images. There is a "mind's ear" in just the same way that there is a "mind's eye,"

Most people know this already.


and it is important that we learn how to use it properly for interactions with tulpas.

It is important but isn’t a 100% requirement. Some people can’t produce mental senses whatsoever but still create tulpas. They just might have a harder time since most of the methods and information out there are by and for people who can produce mental senses.


I call the process of imagining mental sounds "auralization." This term is not commonly used in the tulpamancy community,

It isn’t used at all. I’ve never heard it.


Think of it this way: seeing is to visualization as hearing is to auralization. To visualize something is to see it in your mind, and to auralize something is to hear it in your mind.

We get this. You don’t have to over-explain simple concepts like that.


I find that it is an often overlooked skill by tulpamancers. People will often visualize in order to see their tulpa's form in their mind, yet it is uncommon to auralize in order to hear your tulpa's voice. I've spoken many tulpamancers online who have trouble hearing their tulpa speak, but then I later find out they had no practice recreating mental sounds at all.

I don’t know what kind of people you hear this from. Being able to recreate sounds is the core of how most people communicate with their tulpas (aka mindvoice).


Developing your mind's ear allows you to be more sensitive to the quiet vocalizations of a fledgling tulpa, allowing you to focus on them instead of other kinds of mental noise.

There’s too much focus on “hearing” tulpas IMO. A tulpa communicating is more about allowing them to think than listening for them to speak. That’s where a lot of people mess up: they focus too much on “listening” that they don’t actually give their tulpa a chance to think. Being able to recreate sounds mentally won’t help if you don’t know how to let your tulpa think in the first place.


And I would argue that a well-defined voice is just as important for a tulpa's identity as having a properly visualized mnetal form.

More incorrect claims. Also a typo.


Auralization offers other advantages as well.[....]This means using your mind's ear.

More fluff.


When people first try to hear mental sounds or voices[....]Instead, you should learn to hone it.

More basic concepts that people already understand. And fluff.


Again, this is long and rambly with little actual information being conveyed.


I don’t have a problem with these exercises either. I don’t know how necessary they are. Most people already experience mental sounds on the daily. Or at least, I presume they do. Might be useful to the rare people who don’t, but for most, this feels redundant.



Section 5 - Wonderland Scenes


Same criticisms as the last sections.


First off, it's a common misconception that you can merely just use your physical surroundings as the place your tulpa will inhabit from the get-go.  Many assume that they can simply “overlay” their tulpa onto their bedroom, living room, or wherever they are. This is possible, yet it's anything but simple. Unless you are sufficiently advanced with your visualization and auralization you can't just jump into full imposition. It is extremely difficult, if not impossible, to just skip ahead to seeing your tulpa as a vivid hallucination.  That means: seeing them as realistically as possible so that they are indistinguishable from your own physical senses of sight and sound.

This is blatantly untrue. You do not need advanced imposition in order to do overlay visualization. We don’t know imposition at all but overlay is something we do on a regular basis. You might find it harder, but that doesn’t make it a “misconception” that overlay is a real thing.


Third, the wonderland gives a tulpa somewhere to be when their host is busy.

This is a myth. Tulpas do not go to the wonderland when they’re not given attention, they just go inactive. Tulpas are not magic, they don’t give the brain all-new abilities. This is dangerous and just needs to stop being spread.


I feel like this and the last two sections could have easily been combined into one.



Section 6 - Immersive Wonderlands


crucial skill

This is not a crucial skill in the slightest. I wish you wouldn’t make false claims like that. The only think crucial in tulpamancy is being able to treat something in your head as real and giving it your time and attention. Not playing make-believe in an imaginary world all day.


Associating with a mindform allows a tulpamancer to experience the wonderland deeply. They hear, see, taste, touch and smell what the mindform does. Their physical body stays perfectly still while their mindform does all of the moving and interacting within the mental space.

Associating with a mindform does not lead to immersion.


[Apollo] This section could have been combined with the previous one.


[indigo] I really don’t like how you’re portraying skills like this as being crucial to tulpamancy. They’re just not. Even through your own way of creating a tulpa, why would this be required? One can play make-believe without being immersed. Doesn’t make sense to imply otherwise.




Section 7 - Finding a Proto-Tulpa


you are finally ready to begin the real task you set out to do from the very beginning

They were ready before all those exercises. None of the stuff you’ve described before was at all required to start making a tulpa, especially not being “proficient.”


Your tulpa is already there, inside your mind.

No. Untrue and misleading. You cannot claim that a tulpa is already there if there hasn’t been any actual forcing. This is dangerous as it leads to the mindset that any imaginary character that enters one’s mind is automatically sentient. If you want a tulpa, you have to work for it, you don’t get a free pass. Working on accessory skills won’t bring you any closer to making a tulpa if you don’t use them to actually force a tulpa.


Think back to the very first section after the introduction [....]As you progressed through the sections, pushing yourself further and further, those ideas continued to come closer and closer.

This paragraph feels weird and borderline metaphysical. Your tulpa isn’t secretly building up in your mind without you knowing, that is, again, misleading and dangerous.


To let them in, all you must do is look for signs that a fledgling consciousness is trying to form in your wonderland. In other words, you must pay attention to the subtle mental noise you usually ignore and probe your mind for a response from a proto-tulpa.

In other words, find an intrusive thought and declare it to be already sentient. This is bad advice. This community needs to stop treating intrusive thoughts as tulpas, not actively seek out doing that.


A proto-tulpa is a term I use for a newly budding consciousness that's just  beginning to take form.

You’re not going to get a “proto-tulpa” unless you actually force, intentionally or not. Something that just happens to walk in is called an intrusive thought, not a tulpa or “proto-tulpa.” You are encouraging the use of intrusive thoughts to create tulpas. This is bad advice.


feels remarkably different than other mental phenomenon.

Yes, intrusive thoughts feel somewhat different than conscious, controlled that. That doesn’t make them sentient.


This is not a good method of creating tulpas. Intrusive thoughts are intrusive thoughts. If you want a tulpa, make a tulpa. Don’t rely on the inane goingsons of your mind to give you something to make a tulpa from. There are easier and less risky ways of making a tulpa that don’t involve opening yourself up to loads of intrusive thoughts.



Section 8 - Tulpa Development


fully sentient

This is oxymoronic. You are either sentient or you’re not. There is no in-between.


In this section you will develop your tulpa's consciousness and selfhood by interacting with them consistently, devoting your attention to them, and helping them form their sense of identity. In simple terms, you will talk to your tulpa, encourage more complicated responses and help them figure out who they are.

None of the previous sections were at all necessary to start doing this, and finding an intrusive thought to label “proto-tulpa” was not necessary for this either.


I don’t have too much issue with the proceeding information in this section beyond the fact that it is also very long and rambly and could have been condensed.



I'm sorry, I cannot approve this guide. It is very long, rambly, and full of unnecessary fluff that doesn’t benefit the listener/reader. Some of the claims are misleading or false. Your methodology for creating a tulpa is highly flawed and feels like an unneeded attempt to reinvent the wheel, but your version of the wheel is more harmful than the original one. You’re relying too heavily on intrusive thoughts or imaginary characters appearing when that’s not necessary at all and gives someone the wrong idea. You don’t have to find a “proto-tulpa” to start making a tulpa, nor do you have to become proficient in any of the other things this guide talked about.


I would not recommend this guide to new tulpamancers as a means to create a tulpa. The exercises, however, are good. I think putting the exercises into some sort of stand-alone collection of tips/tricks would work nicely, just without the long introductions to each of them. Something like that would probably be more approvable, in my opinion at least. Just, not in a video format. Text format would be better for something like that.

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      - I've been diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic Disorder and have a pending diagnosis on ADHD. BDD has intrusive, terrifying thoughts that cause me to worry about how I look obsessively (even if I look normal), and ADHD makes it hard for me to focus for long periods of time. Anielka has been amazing at helping with both. Reminding me nobody judges me for what I look like, helping me to stay on task and celebrating with me when I get something done.
      - Anielka is my only tulpa, though I tried making more.
      - I don't have problems with identity or forget who I am. 
      - I have a strong imagination and there have been times in the past I confused fantasy for reality. It rarely happens anymore, though.
      - I currently have good relations with my mother.
      - I never visualize Anielka. Even after I stopped carrying the dog figurine around, I still believed that was where her "soul" is, and to this day it feels unnatural and mildly distressing for her to imagine her outside of that statue.
    • By Jamie
      What do you think the ideal experience with tulpamancy is? As in, what all do you hope the tulpamancer gets from the experience? How do you hope their life changes? 
      I would say:

      In general, internal life becomes more meaningful. Lonely hosts get a little less lonely, and the host/tulpa relationship is always evolving and deepening. 
      Mental control is improved: hosts learn to discern their thoughts from their tulpa's and from intrusives, and they learn to quickly and easily dissmiss intrusives, and replace intrusive ideas with more purposeful/mindful ones. 
      Tulpamancy sparks a great introspective time of self-discovery for the host. Switching fronters is a path by which the host sees how much of their behaviors is linked to their beliefs/personality. The tulpa also has access to memories and beliefs that the host may have never shared externally, so conversations may happen on topics that no one has ever had the host think about, before.
      Boredom is a different, easily-defeatable beast. Empty moments waiting in line are filled with lively converstion and company. This is a signifigant improvement in daily life to many. 
      Visualization improves greatly, leading to more enjoyment of reading, and an easier time with a variety of tasks, and again, a more fulfilling internal life. 
      The system flourishes with few heartaches. Number of members stabilizes and everyone is happy with the amount of attention they recieve. 
      Doubts about the reality of a plural experience become fleeting or a thing of the past. The system trusts in the reality of their experiences, even if they aren't easily explainable. 
      Tulpamancy is a life-long commitment: the system will endure and age together. 
      The system forms a unique point-of-view about how some tulpa-related thing works, and comes and shares their opinions and theories with the community ;p

      Happier, healthier, with a more meaningful life. -J
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