Is This a Possible Explanation For Our Fronting Troubles?

[Shadow System]

[Bune] I wonder if performing multiple complex tasks at once such as reading and learning in addition to the loss of focus on who you are is connected to Ranger's blending problem with Gray. However, it is possible my experience was influenced by my lack of confidence or Gray being hungry. Has anyone had an experience similar to the following? Does this conclusion make sense?

 

When Ranger pulled up his home work, he found out it was on memory. I was triggered awake and I wanted to read the content. As I was reading however, I heard a voice over mine and I felt confused about who I was. I then realized Gray was blending with me and felt discouraged. (Gray was unaware of his chatter until I made note of it.) I couldn't help but think of Ranger: I'm doing something I want to do and Gray interferes unintentionally.

 

Gray was disinterested in working. His mind wandered (he desired procrastinating) and he was distracted by the fact he was hungry.

 

Since I remember Chrome having better luck with fronting, I woke him up and asked him to help me by reading the content. Chrome told me he wasn't as interested in the material, but he read it anyway. Gray gave him trouble, but Chrome intimidated him a little with a glare and Gray seemed to quiet down after that.

 

Chrome continued reading without too much trouble. Curious, I read the passage again and found myself thinking more about me thinking than thinking about the material. However, I experienced a little bit of confusion towards the end, so my coping method wasn't full proof.

 

Chrome read the text just to hear his mindvoice reading the text; he wasn't absorbing the information. I wonder if I have more trouble when I don't pay attention to my mindvoice. Does anyone else experience this?

[Lucilyn]

I was afraid the most helpful thing I'd be able to say was "It's fool-proof, not full proof"

 

definitely focusing on your own mindvoice can help with switching, 'cus you basically just need to reaffirm who you are occasionally I guess, though that definitely goes away eventually

 

wouldn't say it's required (we don't do anything special post-switching, not much mindvoice after the fact but some before switching for sure), but anything that helps you feel like you will help

 

hopefully, eventually, you guys get strong enough with keeping your identities/sense-of-self in mind that it's automatic/not a problem you have to focus on anymore