hydrix January 8, 2021 Author Share January 8, 2021 seems like all the calls from the last post were right on the money. It's all coming together now. I get the impression of being surrounded by sky, as if I were breaking into unknown territory, separate from all mankind, and it seems... right Progress I started to have somewhat perfect anime hallucinations yesterday, and today they're becoming more and more regular. I'll occasionally have a vision that makes me wonder what else I could add to it. With the WoW visualizations, I constantly wonder what else I could add to it and even confuse the visions for looking at a real screen. Path Forward It seems right to start mixing in a 3rd style where I basically strain to form the forced hallucinations into images. It seems to be responding well to this. It almost feels like digging two tunnels in order to meet at the middle. It feels like I pretty much have to do everything at once like a jack of all trades to bring it all together. It definitely requires a strong foundation in both forced hallucinations and visualization. After having practiced visualization, I can say there is definitely a mechanical process in my brain that I was missing before. I can somewhat feel both directions in all their specific mechanics. If I strain to form the forced hallucinations into pictures I feel the muscles strain first, then a signal comes from my brain, through the third eye and into my eyes and forms the colors into pictures, but doing it the other way around is basically the reverse process. Sentiments I've never felt like it was so easy to slip up and relapse in progress in any task I've ever performed in my life. I really question whether I had the emotional intelligence, maturity, and circumstances to see this through to the end until this very moment. It's extremely arcane, taxing, tedious, and often frustrating, but I'm getting through it. I hope the turning point might be when I can just strain myself hard again rather than resorting to esoteric and confusing mental exercises where it's hard to gauge progress. It really does feel like it's coming all together though, but I find this idea rather hard to put faith in given how much thought and effort I've put in until now. ESP More experiments with ESP were interesting, I was curious if it could give me clues or ideas about science. The visions seemed to indicate there's a large gap in understanding and I need a math background as well as many years of practice and materials to experiment with. However, when I pressed onward, some of the ideas I was getting seemed gravitate toward carbon nanotubes and seemed to tell me some way of growing them like a crystal is possible in a vacuum and at high temperature. I have no background in the subject and haven't read anything about the matter despite my curiosity but I can see this is well beyond the scope of my understanding. It said something about covalent bonds with a gas that's low in atomic number but I'm not sure which one. It also said something about plasma being important to form a perfect sample, and not to see things so black and white. This has been some extremely left-fielded stuff and seems more distracting than useful, but I might try and use it again in the future. It wasn't really a useful experiment but it leaves a strong impression on my trust, so I'm forced to assert that if it were controlled by some extra-terrestrial being or otherwise it was all merely for show, meaning further experiments leave me at a strategic disadvantage based on my knowledge of game theory since it seems I am walking into a situation where impressions are extremely important to whatever causes these visions. My strategic instinct is to cold-heartedly halt these experiments until I can prove they're useful, but currently I don't think that's the case. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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