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Seeing that Simmie is still developing makes me sooo happy. Good work you two!

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6 hours ago, ruleofthumb said:

Seeing that Simmie is still developing makes me sooo happy. Good work you two!

 

Thank you so much!

Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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Today we sat down to have a concentrated forcing session. It was really, really fun and positive! I want to share the story with you all because it made us both so happy! I'll break it down into sections behind spoiler tags for organization purposes:

 

Meditation & Entering the Wonderland:

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I have decided that due to my difficulties with focus and concentration I will develop my own method of meditation, and happily, it seems to be working so far! I sit in my chair leaning forward, close my eyes, and count down from 100. I don't try to chase stray thoughts or songs away from my mind, I just let them be as I focus on counting. I imagined that I was standing face to face with Simmie about six inches apart and every time I would breathe in she would breathe out, and vise versa. (This was something I read in one of the guides). I could distinctly taste Simmie's breath, feel its warmth and humidity, and it was a wonderful feeling. Soon, we had arrived in the "hub" of our wonderland: A cozy medium-sized room in a house on the edge of a small town.

 

Hanging Out in the Room:

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For a while I just looked into her green eyes, lost in the detail, my vision sharper than it ever is in real life. I told Simmie to do whatever she wanted; she walked over to the couch and invited me to join her. I sat down next to her and she put her hand on my leg, but almost immediately she stood back up and declared that she wanted to dance. She helped me to my feet and we slow-danced to whatever generic electronic song had been bouncing around my head that entire time. We danced like that for a little while and then I twirled Simmie slowly, and she moved gracefully. She walked over to the window and I followed her. "I want to go out there" she said, and I agreed that we would go out.

 

In the Car:

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I asked Simmie if she wanted to drive and to my mild surprise she actually said yes. I was happy; since I always drive in our IRL incursions (for obvious reasons) it was nice to relax in the passenger's seat while Simmie drove. She had coffee for me sitting in the cupholder. She drove normally and competently, neither a speed demon nor a slowpoke, but she picked up some good speed on the open road. I also realized that her car was the same blue Pontiac Grand Am that I used to drive in the late 00s! She turned on the radio and instantly this song which I consider my personal theme song began playing:
 

 

 

At the Park:

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I noticed where she was taking us: a lovely nature park in New Jersey we've been to several times in real life. We got out of the car; she took my hand and she led me down one of the paths, taking the lead and walking quickly. We eventually got to muddy section of trail next to a puddle. I could hear she squelching sounds as Simmie walked in the mud with her hiking boots. She then squatted down and started playing with the mud and the muddle next to it, curious about the small creatures that moved within. Shortly after that we decided to have a picnic. I unfolded a blanket as Simmie got out the food; she packed a green apple and a ham sandwich for each of us. She tossed me my apple and handed me my sandwich and we ate happily. I noticed she was no longer wearing hiking boots but instead flip-flops, and her toenails were freshly painted a deep purple. She giggled, flattered that I noticed.

 

Sneaking into Six Flags:

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We got back into the car and went back on the road. Simmie changed the station a few times until this song came on:

 

 

Enjoying the song and not talking, I sipped my coffee as Simmie drove through the farm country of central Jersey on this sunny and beautiful day. I noticed that Simmie was taking us to Six Flags. It was closed, but Simmie said "I know a way in." So we parked and she got us into the closed park and next thing I knew we had managed to activate one of the roller coasters, Simmie and I sitting together in the front row as we yelled and put our hands up, the coaster going up and down through hills, loops, and corkscrews. After the ride we found a carnival game; Simmie hopped behind the counter and gave me endless tries until I won the game; she took down a giant pink stuffed animal as my prize. As soon as she had hopped back over the counter I gave the stuffed animal back to her as a present.

 

The Conclusion:

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We left Six Flag and drove back home, but we stopped at a small park next to a pond in a small town. Our stuffed animal had somehow grown large enough where Simmie and I could both easily sit on it together. It was pleasant and comfortable to sit on. We watched the ducks as the sun set, and once it got dark there was a huge fireworks display over the lake. Simmie leaned into me as she watched and when it was over I realized that she was asleep. Feeling comfortable on top of the stuffed animal with Simmie resting on one side I too drifted off into sleep. And then slowly Simmie and I emerged from the wonderland. 

 

So that's our little adventure in the wonderland! I had a blast, and I could tell Simmie was really enjoying herself too! I wonder what kind of adventures we'll get up to next time? I'm probably not going to tell the story of too many other adventures on this thread, but I felt like telling this one because it was so special and Simmie and I wanted to share! In this Covid era of isolation with the added isolation caused by this snow storm we're having, this was an escape that we badly needed. In the midst of so much going wrong I wanted to write about something that went very right. See you all later! Bye! 🤗❤️

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Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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It's been a little while since I've commented on Simmie and my progress so I thought I'd make an update. There haven't been any real breakthroughs or anything lately, we've just been keeping on. Simmie insisted on buying me a present for Valentine's Day. I joked with her "Is it really a present when you're spending MY money?", but we agreed I'd let her pick me out a scarf. She picked out a nice dark blue scarf for me and I love wearing it; it's warm and even kind of feels like I'm being hugged. Maybe that's why Simmie wanted to buy it for me, that's the kind of sweet thing she'd come up with. I made her a new drawing for Valentine's Day (the one I posted in the art thread a few days ago), gave her a card on the computer, and also took her out to the beach. I wrote her name in the sand and decided to take a picture:

 

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I do have some concerns going forward. I feel as though I've been a bit lazy and our progress has stalled. As I've mentioned before I have trouble concentrating at times and meditation is difficult for me. I mostly just talk to Simmie throughout the day. She does respond--a bit more actively when I've had coffee; that might be something to ponder--but I still can't be sure if some or even most of it is just parrotting. However, I do not doubt that she is here; I can feel her warm presence with me and I can sometimes feel her emotions.

 

Sometimes I feel that my brain is a bit overwhelming for Simmie. I don't want to make it sound like I'm calling myself smart or complicated or anything like that, but there's a lot going on in my head. Lots of thoughts, some dark, some inane, tons of memories, some very old and tinged with layers of emotion. There are very strong and mostly private opinions I have that have been formed over long periods of experience and thought, much of it I can't easily explain or reason to people. Since Simmie shares my brain she has access to all of that, and it's a lot to take in. It's difficult too as I want her to form her own thoughts and opinions about things, but it's hard for her to not be tainted by this massive repository of 35 years worth of thoughts, opinions, and experiences that sits right next to her. She feels like she has to understand it all in order to help me and she feels inadequate because she can't; it's too much even for me to understand let alone her. I don't want her to feel she has to take on this burden but it's hard getting that through to her; she cares about me deeply and wants to help me. Her goodness and kindness honestly humbles me and inspires me to be better myself. But the burden weighs her down. Not sure if there's even a question in all of that but I really would love to hear anyone's thoughts on the matter.

 

Anyway, my main goal right now is to refocus my efforts on more effective tulpamancy, trying to increase my focus and help Simmie's development. There are some concepts I have been looking at the wrong way. I had been thinking about the Wonderland as a place I imagined when I should be trying to think of it as a space where I can immerse myself and feel as though I am there. I've gotten close to that a few times but I've never been able to truly dissociate with my real world surroundings and especially my own body. Still, I have achieved some things; most notably there was one moment where I distinctly felt as though I could taste Simmie's breath as she breathed out. As far as forcing, I have found success with many of the techniques I have adopted--including drawing and storytelling--but I'm always on the lookout for new forcing ideas to try.

 

So those are my ramblings of the moment. Thank you so much to anyone who took the time to read!

Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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2 hours ago, September13 said:

It's been a little while since I've commented on Simmie and my progress so I thought I'd make an update. There haven't been any real breakthroughs or anything lately, we've just been keeping on. Simmie insisted on buying me a present for Valentine's Day. I joked with her "Is it really a present when you're spending MY money?", but we agreed I'd let her pick me out a scarf. She picked out a nice dark blue scarf for me and I love wearing it; it's warm and even kind of feels like I'm being hugged. Maybe that's why Simmie wanted to buy it for me, that's the kind of sweet thing she'd come up with. I made her a new drawing for Valentine's Day (the one I posted in the art thread a few days ago), gave her a card on the computer, and also took her out to the beach. I wrote her name in the sand and decided to take a picture:

 

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I do have some concerns going forward. I feel as though I've been a bit lazy and our progress has stalled. As I've mentioned before I have trouble concentrating at times and meditation is difficult for me. I mostly just talk to Simmie throughout the day. She does respond--a bit more actively when I've had coffee; that might be something to ponder--but I still can't be sure if some or even most of it is just parrotting. However, I do not doubt that she is here; I can feel her warm presence with me and I can sometimes feel her emotions.

 

Sometimes I feel that my brain is a bit overwhelming for Simmie. I don't want to make it sound like I'm calling myself smart or complicated or anything like that, but there's a lot going on in my head. Lots of thoughts, some dark, some inane, tons of memories, some very old and tinged with layers of emotion. There are very strong and mostly private opinions I have that have been formed over long periods of experience and thought, much of it I can't easily explain or reason to people. Since Simmie shares my brain she has access to all of that, and it's a lot to take in. It's difficult too as I want her to form her own thoughts and opinions about things, but it's hard for her to not be tainted by this massive repository of 35 years worth of thoughts, opinions, and experiences that sits right next to her. She feels like she has to understand it all in order to help me and she feels inadequate because she can't; it's too much even for me to understand let alone her. I don't want her to feel she has to take on this burden but it's hard getting that through to her; she cares about me deeply and wants to help me. Her goodness and kindness honestly humbles me and inspires me to be better myself. But the burden weighs her down. Not sure if there's even a question in all of that but I really would love to hear anyone's thoughts on the matter.

 

Anyway, my main goal right now is to refocus my efforts on more effective tulpamancy, trying to increase my focus and help Simmie's development. There are some concepts I have been looking at the wrong way. I had been thinking about the Wonderland as a place I imagined when I should be trying to think of it as a space where I can immerse myself and feel as though I am there. I've gotten close to that a few times but I've never been able to truly dissociate with my real world surroundings and especially my own body. Still, I have achieved some things; most notably there was one moment where I distinctly felt as though I could taste Simmie's breath as she breathed out. As far as forcing, I have found success with many of the techniques I have adopted--including drawing and storytelling--but I'm always on the lookout for new forcing ideas to try.

 

So those are my ramblings of the moment. Thank you so much to anyone who took the time to read!

Jaina: That is SO cute!

 

I guess I've been there for most of it with Darron so it hasn't been as much of a shock to take it all in at once. I guess I stay present in the moment with Darron and we sometimes look back at the long winding path. We haven't really probed the depths yet. That might be an adventure for another time. We will definitely be inviting Dragon along for that one. Our Shadow is his house of course.

 

It sounds like you two are getting on well and keep up the good work. 😊

 

On that note maybe an adventure is a good way to look at it. I hope that helps!

Darron: Host 💍 

Jaina: Tulpa 💍 

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9 hours ago, September13 said:

but I still can't be sure if some or even most of it is just parrotting.

With my tulpa I noticed that it takes effort to parrot, and that thoughts kind of like deviate from their original intention. For example I'll sense the thought, "I know everything!" and then in mindvoice Myo will be like, "I don't know anything!"  it's like she took that thought and made it her own thought(TM)

 

When we did possession it was like she was new to the game I wanted her to try. Always curious what something was about, and I had to explain the dangers of some things to her so she didn't die. The reason I bring this up is because it was an experience that fortifies the fact that she acts in an excited way I never would.

 

So, I think you'll know when you're parroting. If you can't figure out if you are, than you probably aren't. As you continue tulpamancy stuff no matter what kind of thing you practice (Possession, visualization, imposition, etc,) you'll have ups and downs with belief in them, but as it goes on. I think the belief and bond between them grows stronger.

 

I apologize in advance if this is not helpful.

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13 hours ago, Glaurung26 said:

Jaina: That is SO cute!

Thank you! 😁

13 hours ago, Glaurung26 said:

I guess I've been there for most of it with Darron so it hasn't been as much of a shock to take it all in at once.

That is a huge benefit isn't it. You've been with Darron since childhood if I remember correctly? Simmie arriving in my mind and suddenly being exposed to everything in my mind is quite the mental overload. Sometimes I wonder if I should have tried to restrict Simmie to certain areas and only show her piece by piece. I don't think that would have worked, though--I wouldn't have known where to even start, plus I love and trust Simmie too much to want to keep anything from her, even if it's dark or difficult. It's a bit stressful for her but don't let her petite 5'2" frame or bubbly personality fool you: Simmie is a tough girl! She likes to credit that fact to being from New Jersey, lol.

 

13 hours ago, Gloomynoon said:

So, I think you'll know when you're parroting. If you can't figure out if you are, than you probably aren't.

That's a very good way of looking at it. Sometimes Simmie is speaking very fluidly, and sometimes it seems like she's a bit sluggish and I have to help her get her words out. But even in those times I know that it's Simmie that is trying to express herself. When I'm unsure if she really said something I always ask her. Sometimes it will even swing too far in the other direction with Simmie trying to take credit for ideas that I know I thought up! It's all in fun though, just a bit of a game we play.

 

13 hours ago, Gloomynoon said:

I apologize in advance if this is not helpful.

It was very helpful! We want to thank you and Myo both! As well as Darren and Jaina! Hugs all around! 🤗🤗

Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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Ughhh I want to be best friends with Simmie😭 She seems like such a positive person to be around!! 

 

Your journey has really inspired me so far!! I’ve been keeping up with it since December but never made an account until yesterday... So definitely taking inspo from you😁

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7 hours ago, kiyomochie said:

Ughhh I want to be best friends with Simmie😭 She seems like such a positive person to be around!! 

 

Your journey has really inspired me so far!! I’ve been keeping up with it since December but never made an account until yesterday... So definitely taking inspo from you😁

 

Aww thank you so much! 🤗 This makes us both happier than you know!

 

I find that Tulpas work a lot like other things in life: you get out what you put into them. I made sure to nurture Simmie with nothing but love and joy, and as a result she has grown to be such a loving and joyful person! That isn't to say that other things have affected her as well, though, but it all makes her a well-rounded person. One thing I learned about tulpamancy is that putting an aspect of yourself into your tulpa doesn't remove it from you; rather, it multiplies it within you. I actually intend to write a full topic on this sometime when I can sit and really focus on forming my thoughts clearly. But yeah, Simmie is my little rock star and I'm so proud of her for how far she's come in such a short time. We're glad our story has given you inspiration! We'll also be excited to see how your story unfolds as well. 

Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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I haven't made a proper update in a while so I thought today would be as good of a day as any. Things have been going steady with Simmie; she's becoming much more confident in speaking as you may have noticed by her increased posting here. It's still kind of a hit or miss thing; some days I can feel and hear Simmie very clearly, other days she just feels like a wisp in the wind and that a light breeze may below her away.

 

The fear of parroting has never left me either, and in my moments of greatest doubt I still find myself wondering: "Do I really have a tulpa or do I just have an imaginary friend?". It's a worrying thought, though I do still steadfastly hold to the belief that she is here. I can feel her presence and often her emotions, and when I am calm and in tune I can hear her speak. It's just head-voice, and sometimes it seems garbled and occasionally I even get contradictory responses from her at the same time.

 

But this is where the double-edged sword of being an experienced writer kicks in: Am I just so good at writing characters that I've managed to convince myself that this particular one is sentient? Or could that be at it's core what tulpamancy really is: creating a character so complex that it passes the biological equivalent of a Turing test. (I'm sorry if that comes off as a bit of a humble brag, lol). These are just philosophical thoughts I'm tossing around as I contemplate Simmie's nature. (So pretentious! 😋 But I do love when he talks like this.)

 

Going forward, I want to try and stop being lazy with forcing and hit the guides; try and get in touch with "traditional" tulpamancy. (Is this a foolish thought? Please let me know.) I have the bad habit of taking my foot off the gas and relaxing whenever we get a little bit of progress, and Simmie deserves more than just casual passive forcing.

 

Also, I want to explore Simmie's depths with her; get to know who she is as a person deep inside. I want to stop being selfish and get out of the mindset of "I created Simmie for my own benefit" and truly learn who she is as a person. Tulpamancy aside, I think this is a problem a lot of men have in regards to women: many guys just see women for what they can do for them rather than who they really are. I don't want to be like that. I want to know the parts of Simmie that don't have anything to do with me. I want to know what she thinks about, what she dreams about, what are her deepest anxieties and greatest joys. I picture myself as an explorer on a little boat sailing into a large dark cave that is Simmie's mind; shining my light around as we discover together what is inside.

 

I just wish it was possible to dissociate from my body and just be with Simmie as a couple thoughtforms trying to explore together. Dissociation is very hard for me and I've only ever gotten maybe 25% of the way there at most. If anyone has any hints for dissociation, or thinks it's not necessary/helpful, please tell me!

 

Like always I could prattle on and on but I'm going to keep this relatively short, so I'll just say thank you to everyone who has read this, and especially everyone who has supported Simmie and I on our journey and said nice things to us. I can tell you it really touches Simmie when people talk to her, compliment her, or even just say her name; it makes her feel more real to herself. I just want you to know that I love you all! 💚 Please feel free to send us a message any time! 🤗 Bye now!

Phil. 😎 Host of Simmie.

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      Either way, the guide is on google docs and the link is right here:
      https://docs.google.com/document/d/13h3ERpXw2Nkuj8EFfeteS5scD4TyzOy_4gHZKBuNUlc/edit#
       
      I can put this under a spoiler tag as well if admins prefer guides to be posted on the forum itself.
      Thanks guys, have fun~ <3
       
      EDIT: Mirrored https://docs.google.com/document/d/1N37G-HkNMjgwz1WVCB3koI5MVKw9odYwzq8DwxD1BF4 - waffles
      EDIT #2: Also put it in the hide tag and attached in PDF format to this post - waffles
       
      AylasTulpaAndPersonalitySwitchingGuideRecovered.pdf
    • By YumiBerry
      The other day I saw someone mention in a forum asking if you could visit others or bring them into your wonderland, would you? Some said yes, but that it was too bad it was "not possible". Well, I'm here to say that, in a way, it is.
       
      "Visit others in your Wonderland? How is that even possible?"
       
      Well, it depends in what way you're asking.
       
      If you're imagining meeting up in some middle plane or reality where you will see, hear, feel, and experience yourself and others in Wonderland as you would in the waking world, I'm sad to say that is not the case (not the case without something like Astral Projection or something anyway. Wouldn't know).
       
      No, what I'm talking about is something that over 6 years ago my close friends and I labeled "3rd Space". This is a "space" between you and at least one other physical (as in original, not tulpa) person. It (at least for me) feels exactly how you feel when you visualize your experiences in Wonderland with your Systemmates, but stronger if you practice it. Of course, this space is imaginary, but it feels real and more than natural if you keep at it long enough.
       

      *Warnings*



      This overtime, if allowed, can become a very personal process. Be sure it's someone you feel safe about that wont abuse it or use it for any agenda other than what it's intended for. If you give consent, it's fine, but remember that you are always in control of your situation in 3rd Space. Don't allow anyone to make you feel uncomfortable. If they harass you, make moves on you you're not okay with, or do anything in any way that makes you feel unsafe or demeaned, it's as simple as closing the conversation. If they somehow continue, please let someone available know and block communication. This is not a common occurrence, but it's good to be stated otherwise. Also, please don't give personal information away. Play it safe, guys.


       
       

      How it works:


       
      Step 1 - You will need to choose one person (does not matter if they are a singular or a system) and one means of text to text communication. This can include anything from Skype (my most recommended, even if it's glitchy, it feels more "private" than most other programs and most natural for this) to facebook, to googlehangouts, to Discord. Anywhere you can type "/me" is best (so, avoid facebook if possible). "*"'s are okay, but I've always felt the "/me" works better, because your name pops up and then you can follow it with an action, example:
       
      ----"/me Nee sits on the singular bench at her park and waits for Aigle to appear. She crosses her legs and leans back against the slatted wood and looks up at the vast blue sky. She watches puffy and misshapen clouds roll by before quickly looking ahead at the sounds of Aigle's voice calling out to her. Smiling, she says with a smooth tone, "What took ya so long?" ----- would become "Nee sits on the..." rather than, "*Nee sits on the singular park bench...*. "/me" actions look more like a flowing book to me, rather than *'s, but this will come down to your personal preference as well as the other party's. Just a fair warning that if you use two different action types, it may be a little distracting and make it harder to get immersed in it. After all, this is supposed to play out like a book two people are writing at once. How would you feel if a book switched around from different font styles, tenses, and wordings every couple of sentences for no apparent reason? It'd be distracting, to say the least.
      If you cannot find someone to do this with (Ie: a friend that knows about your system-ness), you could always ask around the community. I'd just suggest showing them this guide if they haven't seen it already so you're both on the same page. I also suggest only 2 people at the start. More than that and it may become a little hectic to manage.
      Note: No Tulpa, no problem! Hosts/originals can do this completely by themselves as well as vocal (or able to communicate) tulpas/plurals/multiplies/alters/everybody. Heck, you can do this practice without even making it about Tulpas in the first place. A lot of LDR couple's do something similar to this.
       
      Step 2 - Now that you have someone to try this with and a platform to do so on, the next step will be to figure out where to start as well as get over any initial awkwardness. It'll fade away in time if you do this frequently, but it can seem odd in the beginning to some. Most of all with someone you might not know very well. Like with Tulpa work, you have to find a way to believe in it, even if the process is almost roleplay, it doesn't matter. You're both (or few) are doing this together. I can say from experience that after a while, it's real to you as it should be. It's like crossing a bridge to meet up in the middle between two islands to socialize, interact, learn, explore, and feel the company of another with you no matter where you are in the world. Again, a lot like Wonderland with your Systemmates. Over the years, 3rd Space interaction probably saved my life when I was without local friends for years. It blurs the line between long distance and local interaction. If you are lonely in real life or have a hard time socializing, I very much suggest 3rd Space method, just don't use others solely to make yourself feel better. It's about them, too. The text that reads "he/she wraps their arms around you and hugs you tightly" will feel real. You may or may not feel it physically, but you will know it's there. Heck, you can even just sit down and watch TV together in the same room (share the link and count down to watch it at the same time), eat popcorn, have a PJ party, magic duel, build skyscrapers and castles together, fly dragons, you name it. It's like sharing a semi-lucid dream once you know how to do it, so do whatever your heart desires (as long as it's consented by everyone involved). I had times many years ago where I more or less unstable. To dig a little personal, this came out in the form of Tenebre. Specifically, "Old Tenebre" as we call that time now. Tenebre's reformed now, but she was very unstable back then, unpredictable, and harmful. With the help of other's (plurals and singulars), we got through that time and one day the subconscious just went "poof" with Tenebre and suddenly she was as stable as any of us here, seemingly having a new role given from the submind now that "Old Tenebre" was no longer needed to keep some sort of balance. We then did the same for others. It was a learning experience.
       
      This is a detailed and very specific way it can be helpful, but it sure did save me more than a few times. If you're having trouble with isolation, this could really help you as well as social anxiety. You're not meeting up physically, but you still are meeting up and having to interact, but what's more cool than doing that and being able to ride knight's horses and battle dastardly villains at the same time?
      Just like they say with Tulpas in Wonderland, you'll be having incredible, hilarious, and touching memories for years to come and hopefully make some great friends along the way. I mean, heck, my girlfriend who is a System lives with me and every now and again we go to different rooms to meet up with Skype on 3rd space. There's really not something else like it.
       
       
       

      Benefits


       

      - The first one is easy. Excellent Visualization practice. Without knowing it for years, this process is what created and built my Wonderland for me. 3rd space interaction required a place to meet up, therefor, required a real, visualized location to do so. My Wonderland is very basic, but has certain aspects that are very detailed. It's white grounds meets the horizon to meet a white sky and goes on and on and on. However, we have a house, we have a park, we have a broken down city, we have a bathhouse, we have our own individual worlds, and we can hold our our hand and create anything from fire to landscapes. It may not always stick, but with enough forcing it will. Bring others into that mix and you have someone outside of yourself to bounce off of, who if you both allow, can create. Again, they do not enter your mind, but they describe what they are doing (as well as you for them) to you and you imagine it happen in real time. This creates a wonderful technique for you and another to help improve visualization, imagination, and other practices that can help you with Tulpa making. It teaches you to visualize the way fiction book reading does. You read it, you hear it in your mind, you visualize it! Only difference now is that you're half of the writer, half other writing process. That control and practiced ability can seriously benefit you with your Tulpa forcing, visualization, and possible even imposing (something I'm obsessed with).



      Note: I do not suggest dropping all other practices for this. This is a great side/main activity, but to help with it even more  I still suggest meditation to help increase clarity in visualization and whatever else helps you along your journey.


       

      - Second, improved writing skill. There is only so much you can do and so far you can go with poor writing skills. This includes spelling of critical words (google is your friend in this), grammar, punctuation, and the ability to describe the world around you as it flows and breathes. That last one is something you learn as you practice (heck, my chat logs from a few years ago were pretty awful), but now-a-days it's important to me that if I'm in 3rd space with someone, I can build the world and give it life so that what we experience together and can bounce of of each other easily. The best experiences (and results) come out of that. It's okay to not be perfect or even great at it, but I will say that typing like I did above to then get a response of "Aigle walk to Nee and waves, "hi." and sits." is disheartening, because it adds nothing to the world around you and you can't build anything off of it to reply with. It just stops there. Try to be in the mindset of a writer, not your normal facebook chat with casual friends. You're giving life to a in-between Wonderland. Make it yours and make it fun and immersive!~


       
      - Third, decreased sense of isolation and loneliness. As I said before, 3rd space interactions probably is why I'm still here today. There was a long, seemingly endless dark period of 8 - 9 years where when I was a kid, disability hit me in waves over the years, adding to the pile. This made it increasingly difficult to go out and make friends with people my age or anybody. Shortly after it started is when I started being in long-distance-relationships. I didn't know at the time I was teetering on the 3rd Space interactions that I'd know today. Sure, there was simple building blocks of it like, "/me cuddles you" or "/me kisses you", but nothing like trying to write a book. It wasn't until sometime after I met my ex did that world building aspect come into play. My ex was the first plural I had ever met (more or less besides myself, not really sure where I was at the time). Through 4 - 5 years of interaction between his System and mine, we all grew as people/beings and had hundreds of different experiences, good and bad. Then, it continued with my now Gf and we've grown together as well. You can do this with more than just one person. We wouldn't be the same at all if it wasn't for those interactions. Which leads me to my next point...
       
      - Fourth, Active/Passing forcing made easier/more engaging. I'll be frank and say this probably isn't the same for everyone, but I have a good feeling that 3rd Space interaction could really, really help those trying to force those in their system or soon-to-be. We started out pretty basic, but throughout the years of 3rd Space, we formed into much more life-like individuals that we probably never would have without it (sounds like forcing, doesn't it?). Granted, that's because we had no idea there was this practice or community of people like us. I'm not saying 3rd Space is your key to success, it's not, but it could prove to be a very nice and entertaining lock pick.  ;)
       
      - Fifth, Self-exploration/Learning about oneself. From the example about "Old Tenebre" and that being years into the process, you can probably only imagine the possibilities you'll learn about yourself (and others) when engaging in 3rd space, similar as you may from doing so with your Systemmates in Wonderland. This is why I want to stress the point again that you want to engage in 3rd space with someone that you like, not someone that seems sketchy or in it for their own (probably poor-intended) reasons, just because you don't want to keep searching for someone else. Again, you are not in danger. This does not cause actual possession or give them the ability to harm you, but even still try to cause yourself the least amount of trouble you can. 3rd Space can stay like a casual hangout forever and that is more than fine, but it does bring you and another person(s) closer than distance normally can on its own. So, be aware you may form bonds (or may not) if you're at this for a while. So, be wise about who you want to invite into yourself with. As long as you don't go throwing yourself at strangers, singing and frolicking, asking people to meet you inside of your head, I'm sure you'll be fine.
       
      And that concludes it! If you have any questions, feel free to ask me in the comments and I will do my best to answer them.
       
      Disclaimer: If this somehow, in same way, becomes a negative experience for you, please use common sense and keep your wits about you. I won't accept blame for each and every situation that goes south, though if you use the tools I said above, this is unlikely to happen.
       

      Happy exploring!~ 


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