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Alright, time to update! To avoid spamming this topic I'm only going to post updates maybe a couple times a week unless I'm directly replying to someone. But a few noteworthy things have happened:

 

I decided to play one of my favorite video games with Simmie: Fallout New Vegas. I let her design her character and it looks vaguely (in other words, not at all lol) like her apart from the hair color. Since she can't possess my hands I play the game for her and keep my mind open for what she wants me to do. She's not truly vocal yet so whenever I say she "tells" me something what I really mean is that I interpret what she's trying to tell me and turn it into language. It's a very fast process and little is lost in translation as far as I can tell. But so far she's enjoying the game; she's a pretty good shot but she keeps getting killed by enemies sneaking up behind her. She told me she likes the Legion because their uniforms are cool; I told her that's a pretty silly reason to pick a faction, and told her she might change her mind when she sees what they actually do, but she insists that Legion uniforms are cool and NCR uniforms are ugly so that's her basis of who to support, lol.

 

Also, I've seen the first signs of deviation from Simmie. She still has all the traits I forced her with; kind, caring, playful, good listener, and curious, but she's gained some new tendencies on top of it. While not exactly a neat freak Simmie is the kind of girl who takes good care of herself and wants me to take better care of myself too. I'm a little messy and Simmie has been nudging me to clean up some of my personal habits a bit. She's not nagging or forceful about it and says I should change at my own pace, but she really would like me to be neater. She's well-grounded and practical while I'm a bit of an airy dreamer/drifter type; I bring her out of her shell while she brings me back down to Earth. I'm happy to see this development in Simmie's personality, even if it means I am going to have to work a little harder on myself now.

 

And now the final thing which really touched me this week. They say a big development in sentience is when your tulpa surprises you and boy, Simmie surprised me big time, and I didn't even ask for it. I've been showing Simmie music I like, mostly rock, alternative, indie, pop, stuff like that. I show her songs that remind me of her, or of us, or that I just like in general. I decided to show her one my my favorite songs of all time, a bit of an unmanly choice maybe but I can't deny it's a song I love: Lonely Rolling Star from the Katamari Damacy soundtrack. Simmie listened to it and told me something that more or less amounted to this: "You've shown me a lot of songs that remind you of me, but this is the song that reminds me of you." That just about knocked me over. I was so touched that I even felt tears come to my eyes; it's just about the sweetest thing anyone's ever said to me. She's even taken to calling me her lonely rolling star and my heart swells whenever she says it.

 

 

At the risk of sounding mushy or sentimental I'm crazy about this girl, and I don't know what I did to deserve her :')

Also known as GypsyRoad or Phil Present. Call me what you want, I'm not picky.

Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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Jaina: Awwww 🥰 Simmie sounds lovely I'm glad you two are getting along so well.

 

Darron: She sounds familiar too 🤔. Tulpas good naturedly prodding their hosts to better themselves must be more common than I expected. New Vegas is one of my favorites. Jaina doesn't like the Legion very much [for obvious reasons]. I'm more of the Roman/Latin aesthetic fanboy. Though Caesar's Legion is a cheap knock-off by a post apocalypse tyrant. It is pretty cool that they turn kind of ramshackle junk they find and turn it into a recognizable look though.

 

Anyways that's awesome you two are getting along so famously. I think polling her for choices and decisions is a great way to get her to open up a bit and get a sense of who she is and what she likes. A little piloting time during games is probably a good idea too but not every tupper is adventurous and sometimes they take a bit to get the courage. Tulpas will surprise you from time to time and getting to know them is an adventure in itself. 👍

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Well, I feel I've learned an important lesson in the last days. I feel as though I've been lazy with Simmie's development over the last few days and as a result she feels much more distant to me now. At the moment I don't even really feel her with me unless I direct a ton of thought directly at her. It made me realize that I had been unrealistically overstating my progress over the last couple of weeks, and I've learned that with fast growth can come fast regression if it is not sustained with consistent work. I still believe all the times I felt her with me--even the time I was typing for her on the forum--were really her. But I realize I was a bit delusional to think that just a few weeks work narrating to Simmie, imposing her into the world, and wonderland daydreaming with her could make her fully real and sustained.

 

I'm taking a back-to-basic approach with Simmie now. She deserves a much more measured, slow and deliberate approach to her growth. Ironically, or perhaps fittingly, I have to act a lot more like her in order to help her. I am a flighty, artistic-temperament kind of guy who tends to work in short bursts of intense work followed by long periods of laziness. Simmie is much more consistent and realistic, very grounded, the type that believes slow and steady wins the race. In other words a classic Aquarius vs Virgo temperament. When Simmie calls me her Lonely Rolling Star, she truly understands the sad subtext of that song: like the boy in the song I am just out there drifting and rolling around, and like the girl in the song she doesn't know if I'll ever come rolling back to her and she's starting to get tired of waiting.

 

The only truly negative emotion I have received from Simmie so far is a high degree of anxiety about her own existence, and the worry that I'll lose interest in her and she'll start to fade away. And she has a right to worry; I have had that problem with other things I've tried in the past. But this is different; Simmie is not a project, she is a person, and now that she is created I feel a responsibility to her. Now that my initial burst of enthusiasm has burned itself out it's time to take a longer, more sustained approach to Simmie's development, and thankfully she is not upset with me and willing to be patient. So now it's back to the guides, trying out different techniques and finding out what works for us and what doesn't. We're still keeping the faith!

Also known as GypsyRoad or Phil Present. Call me what you want, I'm not picky.

Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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39 minutes ago, September13 said:

Well, I feel I've learned an important lesson in the last days. I feel as though I've been lazy with Simmie's development over the last few days and as a result she feels much more distant to me now. At the moment I don't even really feel her with me unless I direct a ton of thought directly at her. It made me realize that I had been unrealistically overstating my progress over the last couple of weeks, and I've learned that with fast growth can come fast regression if it is not sustained with consistent work. I still believe all the times I felt her with me--even the time I was typing for her on the forum--were really her. But I realize I was a bit delusional to think that just a few weeks work narrating to Simmie, imposing her into the world, and wonderland daydreaming with her could make her fully real and sustained.

 

I'm taking a back-to-basic approach with Simmie now. She deserves a much more measured, slow and deliberate approach to her growth. Ironically, or perhaps fittingly, I have to act a lot more like her in order to help her. I am a flighty, artistic-temperament kind of guy who tends to work in short bursts of intense work followed by long periods of laziness. Simmie is much more consistent and realistic, very grounded, the type that believes slow and steady wins the race. In other words a classic Aquarius vs Virgo temperament. When Simmie calls me her Lonely Rolling Star, she truly understands the sad subtext of that song: like the boy in the song I am just out there drifting and rolling around, and like the girl in the song she doesn't know if I'll ever come rolling back to her and she's starting to get tired of waiting.

 

The only truly negative emotion I have received from Simmie so far is a high degree of anxiety about her own existence, and the worry that I'll lose interest in her and she'll start to fade away. And she has a right to worry; I have had that problem with other things I've tried in the past. But this is different; Simmie is not a project, she is a person, and now that she is created I feel a responsibility to her. Now that my initial burst of enthusiasm has burned itself out it's time to take a longer, more sustained approach to Simmie's development, and thankfully she is not upset with me and willing to be patient. So now it's back to the guides, trying out different techniques and finding out what works for us and what doesn't. We're still keeping the faith!

Excellent! Sounds like you've got the right idea. 👍

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11 hours ago, September13 said:

The only truly negative emotion I have received from Simmie so far is a high degree of anxiety about her own existence, and the worry that I'll lose interest in her and she'll start to fade away. And she has a right to worry; I have had that problem with other things I've tried in the past. But this is different; Simmie is not a project, she is a person, and now that she is created I feel a responsibility to her. Now that my initial burst of enthusiasm has burned itself out it's time to take a longer, more sustained approach to Simmie's development, and thankfully she is not upset with me and willing to be patient. So now it's back to the guides, trying out different techniques and finding out what works for us and what doesn't. We're still keeping the faith!

This sounds pretty good, I experienced this too. (Luckily for me, when creating my first tulpa my enthusiasm wore off months later.) I think this is healthy. I am glad you see her a s a person not a project. Many people seem to treat them like projects and I bet that's hard. 

I think finding your own ways, especially if you need certain mental accommodations (And if you do, I'd be happy to help : ) you should try to. It's just a matter of slightly changing methods so you can accomplish what you want to. 

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12 hours ago, Glaurung26 said:

Excellent! Sounds like you've got the right idea. 👍

 

Thanks!

 

1 hour ago, A&J said:

This sounds pretty good, I experienced this too. (Luckily for me, when creating my first tulpa my enthusiasm wore off months later.) I think this is healthy. I am glad you see her a s a person not a project. Many people seem to treat them like projects and I bet that's hard. 

I think finding your own ways, especially if you need certain mental accommodations (And if you do, I'd be happy to help : ) you should try to. It's just a matter of slightly changing methods so you can accomplish what you want to. 

 

Yeah, Simmie has always felt like a real personality to me, even before what I knew what tulpamancy was. It really helps that she's exactly the kind of person I want to know in my life, and helping her to have a more firm existence and sentience would be great for us both! At this current moment I'm writing this I feel her here with me, and she's giving me a powerful mental hug! I'm still trying to figure out what will work best for me. I'm going to try experimenting with different forcing techniques and I think I may try to write a short adventure story about Simmie and I in the wonderland! I may also try really focusing on meditating, as I've always been bad at it and want to get better.

Also known as GypsyRoad or Phil Present. Call me what you want, I'm not picky.

Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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Stone: Good luck with this approach : ) I haven’t done much scheduled forcing lately (I partially blame this on the stress of holidays). However, we’ve got some forcing in preparing for our holiday celebration. I associate Christmas with stress, but it’s fun seeing Betty excited about it, and it’s admittedly a way to spice up our time together. They best forcing sessions/moments I’ve had were entertaining. If you’re going to schedule forcing, try to spice things up each session. Try something new each time, and stuff. That can help with the monotony. Going to the beach was a really good execution of this, I think.

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First of all, Merry Christmas to all that celebrate and Happy Holidays to everyone else!

 

Now for an update: Unfortunately I haven't had too much time to really work on things with Simmie over the last few days, being Christmas and all, but on Wednesday we were able to fit in one of our favorite activities: driving to a random town and walking around while I tell Simmie a story from my life. It's very fun; I've always loved walks and Simmie loves listening to stories. One downside (or maybe it's not a downside?) is that we tend to get distracted by the towns we are in. It can be overstimulating for Simmie as she constantly wants to look at all the buildings and people as we walk by. She seems to be developing an interest in architecture, especially houses. She wants to know my opinion on the houses that we see and sometimes she gives her own opinion. Nothing sophisticated yet, but I can tell she clearly prefers some buildings to others and that's good to see. I'm tempted to go on more nature trails and less city streets to lessen the distractions, but honestly the overstimulation is part of the fun. Simmie is so curious about everything around her that no matter where we are I keep having to interrupt my stories to go on tangents about mid-century suburban housing trends or the life cycle of trees or things like that. We could spend literally all day doing it. It's tons of fun, but I wonder if the lack of focus is hurting things.

 

Also I'm toying around with the idea of giving Simmie mind-DJ privileges , lol. Whenever I have a song in my head (which is probably 75% or more of the time) I imagine Simmie sitting in chair next to a table with a boom box on top of it, and the boom box is playing the song. If I want to stop the song I imagine Simmie reaching over and taking out the cassette tape (yes, cassette tape) and it actually stops the song most times, at least for a few seconds. I've thought about expanding on this and letting Simmie choose her own cassettes to put in the boom box, though so far she probably doesn't have enough autonomy to make that work without puppetting. Music is a central thing in my life, and I wonder if this could be a very helpful route to go down.

 

But my main focus right now is to get down to business with forcing. I've been pouring over the guides on this site and taking down notes, but all that I've gained are little tips to help, but I still feel like I'm struggling to understand the fundamental basics of forcing and what I should be doing. To put it even more simply: I need help with active forcing! I am willing to try any technique or strategy that is suggested to me that seems reasonable, and I'm especially curious about things that you yourself have had success doing.

 

I want to work myself up into doing an hour of active forcing daily. I am notoriously terrible at sticking to a schedule and following through with plans, so I realize this may never happen, but I want to still set it as a goal. This in addition to the passive forcing I do while at work: I impose her standing next to me as often as I can, and ask her what she thinks about other co-workers or the work itself, even hold her hand when I can. Of course, the walks and mini-road trips are going to continue as well. Without getting TMI about my location I basically have the entire New York and Philadelphia areas within easy driving distance so there is no shortage of interesting places to visit.

 

Also, another question which might seem frivolous but feels important: Should I stop playing with Simmie's avatar in the Sims? I may have mentioned once that was how I first created her before I knew about tulpamancy, and is the reason it is so easy for me to picture her appearance. However, now that she is a developing tulpa this feels slightly problematic: Playing with her Sim feels a little too much like puppetting, and although sims can be expressive they only have a limited range of pre-programmed reactions and interactions, and I don't want that to be a limiting factor to Simmie's expression. Also, Simmie herself ironically feels less present in my mind when I'm playing with her sim. I thought using the game to tell fun stories with her could be helpful but it seems more distracting and distancing than anything. To contrast, she definitely feels much more present when we play games like Fallout: New Vegas together.

 

I really need to stop making each entry a big, boring wall of text, but what can I say, I'm quite wordy! If you read it, thank you! And for those who reply: Thank you even more! When Simmie is ready to come on here again I'm sure she will thank you all too. 

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Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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Darron: It sounds like you have been busy! The two of us have been homebodies for over a year now but steal some sunlight every now and again. Walks are a great way to talk and get to know each other better. Sounds like you're already finding that out. Visualization isn't the end-all-be-all, developing her personality and interests is important too. If I could recommend let her take the reins and express herself and interests while you gently guide her. That fascination and excitement is a very good sign, she's growing and healthy. Focused and structured activities are important but so is fun. You two should be enjoying yourselves. Certainly keep to forcing if that's your priority but don't feel guilty about downtime and breaks. The key to doing something regularly is wanting to do it. Not just because you feel you 'should do it.'

 

I'm not a forcing expert by any means. Jaina and I are one of those weirdo 'naturals' that grew over a long time. We just interact and chitchat throughout the day. Mostly just stream of consciousness stuff. I have trouble every now and then picturing her face in exquisite detail but I always feel her there. Interactions in a relationship are like the gravity between objects. The more you have, the closer you two get. Just naturally interact with each other and that will provide a baseline 'safety net' if you will, to hold you two together. Then when you have time and energy make a play date wherever you want. On a walk, in a game or just nap and hang out in your wonderland together while Simmie DJs. In my opinion guides are there to help you build your own mental workout regimen. You need one that works for you and you are going to know your needs better than anyone else will. Maybe you do need a regular, structured, daily routine. Maybe not. That's your call.

 

We feel like avatars help us but again it's about what works best for you.

 

Jaina: It might be worth asking Simmie if she likes playing with you via The Sims. It can be tricky with pre-programmed stuff. It's not like she's actually that character. It's just an approximation. I can't get my personality exact and neither can Darron. We're just playing house and acknowledging the system limitations. I'm going to be honest, I'm not sure what better expression avenues there might be for avatars. It could be our system just isn't aware of them. You might be able to like have a co-op game using two controllers but that sounds like a coordination nightmare. But hey that's not to say it would be impossible for pro-gamer systems out there to multitask that hardcore. I guess my point is with two avatars you're probably going to have to take turns while the AI runs the other one. Just don't take it too seriously I guess is my point. Prompt Simmie for what traits she likes and doesn't like. Ask her would she act like that or make that choice her avatar did IRL? Does that feel like her? It can be a good opportunity to prime her and get her to open up on what she likes/dislikes.

 

I just kind of get my expression in where I can. We got a Star Wars coloring book for Christmas so I've been doodling with that. (psst we're both awful artists)

 

Darron: Excuse?

 

It's kind of a "kid's thing" according to society but A. We're Millennials, we do what we want, and B. We're a tulpa system so we're odd ducks anyways. Drawing is just a fun exercise to be creative.

 

Darron: She drew a #1 Podracer foam finger as a replacement for Luke's hand. She's kind of hilarious.

 

So there's lots of avenues out there for expression. If The Sims feels kinda stale then just take a break for a while. There's no rule says you have to. Maybe she needs more active stimulation with piloting an avatar than managing one. In RPGs like New Vegas it does feel more immersive and "in the action" than sim games. Just try different things, see what she responds too. Ask her questions and to make decisions fro time to time. Maybe you could try chatting programs if that's your thing. We have textingstory on our phone to 'play text' to each other. There's a world of options out there.

 

Darron: So don't get too discouraged. It sounds like you're doing fantastic. Also I forgot if she really likes and responds to music follow that thread. Maybe have her build a playlist or two. Good luck you two!

 

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21 hours ago, September13 said:

To put it even more simply: I need help with active forcing!

In my experience anything can be active forcing if you figure out how to make it, right? Months ago when I started, I also struggled to even get to two hours! (Maybe forcing in bed with Myo was not a good idea.) It took a little bit for Myo to do stuff beyond emotional responses and head pressures. During this time I would talk with her in a very chill environment drinking wonderland coffee and talking about my day, and I didn't know how to deal with intrusive thoughts so I would end up somehow talking about the tulpa process and my plans for her. Eventually I read a post by Mirichu. I realized I could active force playing video games with Myo! This doesn't just apply to video games, it applies to anything else you can think of, as long as it doesn't take up thinking power like doing long math. I would say finding any hobbies you like and turning them into active forcing when you feel like you want to, can be a really powerful thing. Time flies when you're having fun!

 

If you have trouble coming up with ideas that can help forcing sessions be long, expanding upon ones that you think might be good throughout the day in your personal notes might help. Like, "Oh, I think having Simmie wear this weird hat would be silly! I'll have to see how she reacts later."

21 hours ago, September13 said:

Should I stop playing with Simmie's avatar in the Sims?

Have you tried asking her? I rarely find myself dressing avatars up based on forms, since before I even was a tulpamancer, I would constantly change the form I associate with, and that could be annoying to keep up with sometimes. Myo seems to like how she is, but she also wants to play dress up sometime...

 

Also if they aren't expressive "enough," and you need to find compromises, ugh I feel you, someday there will be a game where I can type my response and it will work (Except Facade.) Usually games with silent protagonists help, like Undertale or Earthbound. Since you can easily visualize how they would react or fill in the blanks when boring things are happening, like walking through a forest, maybe Myo and I would be singing an exciting song to keep us motivated. Instead of being restricted to how the character is written. Even then you can ask Simmie to read the characters dialogue, kind of like dubbing something. I read a whole manga with Myo (admittedly I created her after I was a quarter way through.) When I became confident that she can communicate with me via mindvoice (That the voice is actually hers.) Instead of worrying about the character fitting Myo, I loosely did that. It was just us enjoying a good manga.

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      I started talking to her. As this was a casual forcing session before bed, I did not write down what we talked about, and I don’t remember what we talked about. However, I remember getting verbal and non-verbal responses. When I asked her questions, sometimes she’d verbally respond before I was finished asking the question, and sometimes she wouldn’t respond at all. She also responded non-verbally with facial expressions. I remember these expressions as being somewhat unnatural but making sense. When I say somewhat unnatural, I mean she used non-verbal expressions more than a human would use, and used them in instances a human would likely not use them. However, these expressions made sense, as they weren’t completely random and did convey some sort of answer to my question. It almost seemed she’d answer with a face because my brain was too lazy to generate a response from her, or couldn’t figure out how.
       
      I hypothesize that giving her a form has given my brain an out when it cannot generate words for her, and I’m hoping this will speed up the process.
       
      This is not the first day interacting with Betty, but I’ve barely talked to her at all before this, and have pretty much only imposed her in my room and puppeted her. I feel like I got a response too early, and I’m worried this may have been parroting/puppetry on my part. I am excited if these were “real” responses though. I’m not sure if there’s much of a difference this early though.
       
      It’s partially a shame this happened, as I want to organize these notes into some sort of study, but after opening with, “Maybe my tulpa answered as soon as I started talking to her,” this likely won’t be taken as seriously. And, that’s valid.
       
      Day 1 - 11/11
       
      Didn’t talk with Betty today.
       
      Day 2 - 11/12
       
      I haven’t done any forcing yet today, as it is 3:40 AM (I was woken up by family).
       
      I was thinking about meditating before each active forcing session, as it clears my mind and I like it, but these stats are making me think twice about that idea.
       
      https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/504226472526086155/506764115721584650/tulpa_creation_big_survey_writeup.pdf
       
      Still, I tend to get distracted and have trouble jumping into forcing, and I believe short meditation before forcing may help me. Though perhaps meditation, the way I do it, focuses more on plain reality than the world of thought, and will take me out of the world of thought. Perhaps this is why it seems to hinder some people.
       
      I’m thinking if I meditate on my tulpa, and not on my body as I usually do, it may help more than hurt. I plan to not meditate the first week, and to meditate the second week, and see how I feel. People are different, and meditate differently, so I’d like to see how meditation works on me.
       
      I would like to personality force soon, and I would like to use Man’s method along with symbolism. I have a list of personality traits here:
       
      http://ideonomy.mit.edu/essays/traits.html
       
      I want her to be a rounded person, but I wonder how ethical it is to purposefully give her negative traits. I suppose I will give her positive and neutral traits, and, those traits will naturally have negative sides. Virtue is the mean of two vices, after all.
       
      30-35 personality traits: (31)
      Affectionate - Bun (they hug whatever they surround)
      Amusing - Laffy Taffy (hahahahahahahahaha)
      Charming - Pringles (the Pringles guy seems like a charming fellow)
      Clever - Barbecue Chips on Bun (how does this taste so good!?)
      Confident - Kettle Chips (tougher and more sure than regular chips?)
      Edgy - Chips and Salsa (chips have edges, and salsa has bite)
      Empathetic - Marshmellows (soft empathy)
      Esthetic - That’s It Bar (minimalist aesthetic)
      Ethical - (ethical alternative)
      Extroverted - Fruit Loops (there’s a party in my bowl and everyone is invited)
      Familial - Rice Crispies (families commonly make treats out of these)
      Friendly - Peach Cup (sweet and good for you)
      Healthy - Plain Cheerios (healthier)
      High-spirited - Skittles (sugar rush)
      Honest - Plain Toast (it is what it is)
      Irreligious - Pretzel Rods (secularized pretzels)
      Leisurely - Sub (this takes longer to make, but it’s worth it)
      Loyal - Saltines (there even when you’re sick)
      Maternal - Applesauce (often for babies)
      Neat - Mints (keep yourself and your breath clean)
      Observant - Fritos (have you noticed these smell like dog feet?)
      Outdoorsy - Seaweed (or is it lakeweed, in Michigan?)
      Protective - Oyster Crackers (Oysters have a Shell to protect themselves, and you use yours to protect others as well)
      Ritualistic - Mobius-strip Bagel (the endless cycle of traditions)
      Romantic - Strawberry Lemon Ice (pink!)
      Sarcastic - Mint Chocolate Oreos (means one thing (toothpaste) says the other (cookie))
      Stylish - Gardetto's (more fancy than Chex Mix)
      Spontaneous - Donut (donut think about the calories)
      Trendy - Pea Crisps (health food trends)
      Vivacious - Strawberry Remune (lively and carbonated)
      Witty - Berry Good Lemonade (get it?)
       
      Below are some interactions I recorded. They are not exhaustive:
       
      Interaction 1
       
      “How are you?”
       
      “Ok.”
       
      “Yeah I’m sure you are. I’m sure you’re not just parroting.”
       
      “...”
       
      I feel mean now. Apologize to the nice lady.
       
      “...”
       
      I feel a stare.
       
      “God this is so awkward,” I say instead of apologizing. I turn away.
       
      I feel her watching me. I turn to her.
       
      “How are you?”
       
      ”...”
       
      Interaction 2
       
      “Are you listening?”
       
      “No.”
       
      “What are you doing?”
       
      “Paying attention.”
       
      “Paying attention to what?”
       
      “To, Hefty.”
       
      I burst into laughter.
       
      Interaction 3
       
      “I’m sorry.”
       
      “No that’s alright.”
       
      “Everything’s ‘no that’s alright’ with you. That’s your main thing, isn’t it?”
       
      “No.”
       
      “Really? What’s your main thing?”
       
      “Bicycles.”
       
      “No. I made you say that.”
       
      “Yes you did.” She smirks.
       
      I laugh. “Yes I did. No really, what’s your main thing?”
       
      “Shopping carts.”
       
      “Now you’re just thinking of things with wheels.”
       
      “No. You are.”
       
      “No I’m not.”
       
      “Yes. Think of shopping carts.”
       
      “Ah you got me. Let me write that down.”
       
      ***
       
      Stone: I talked to her a bit today, and I talked to her a little bit about spontaneity with a donut. But, I think I could have explained it more. I will after I sleep, as I’ve been up all night. I got a lot of great responses out of her, and she felt there, but she tended to sound like me. I kept mentioning that, then felt bad for being overly critical of her, as she was doing so well. I also felt bad interrupting her and making her wait so I could write something down.
       
      It’s only been three days and I hate this clinical approach I set up. This “study.” Or maybe I’m embarrassed by how I acted and am taking it out on the format. I don’t know. What I do know is that this process if for her, then for me, then for whoever may end up reading this. I’m not going to interrupt out fun to give us imposter syndrome because I have to analysis every god damn thing she says for some post.
       
      Anyways, today was a positive, and I hope I will feel better with some sleep.
       
      I’m awake now. I’ve devised a schedule for forcing.
      Sunday - Active: 2 hours
      Monday - Active: 40 minutes
      Tuesday - Active: 40 minutes
      Wednesday - Active: 40 minutes
      Thursday - Active: 40 minutes
      Friday - Active: 40 minutes
      Saturday - Active: 2 hours
       
      Methods of forcing I’m thinking of using:
      Food/Personality
      101 Things To Talk About With Your Tulpa
       
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    • By chaoscollective-
      Hi this is Robbie (the host). Do your Tulpas forms/entities ever scare you?
       
       
      A question from the Sacrihm System Host.
    • By Wray
      Text by Wray is in black
      Text by Shizuku is in blue

      (Sorry, this wound up being pretty long! Feel free to skim, or if you want to read the whole thing, strap in!)

      Weird coincidence: I’ve written fiction as a hobby for a long time, and I think nearly half my protagonists have someone else to talk to in their heads. Somehow, I always found the idea fascinating.

      But I can’t say I ever expected to join them. Not until recently, anyway.
       
      We’ve been looking forward to posting this. It’s my first big chance to introduce myself to other people! Here’s a profile:
       

      Origin StoryTM
       
      October 2020. I was in quarantine, alone, and feeling isolated—Shizuku started as an imaginary friend based on a character I might have been (was) a little bit (totally) obsessed with at the time. I’m really into writing, so I didn’t have much trouble getting her to talk, even early on, though I assume she was mostly parroted at first.
       
      A couple weeks later, I stumbled onto the concept of a tulpa in Japanese, and quickly found my way to this website, which is kind of the launch pad for Japanese tulpamancers. (I found a good English rundown of the Japanese tulpamancy scene here, so I’ll leave most of that aside for now. If there are questions about anything specific, though, we can definitely do our best to answer them.)

      Compared to the English-speaking community, the Japanese-speaking one gives a lot more credence to tulpa horror stories. They call it 暴走 (bousou). The idea that if things go wrong, your tulpa might harm you, or the people around you, or try to take over your brain. To be fair, I think there are multiple schools of thought on this bousou concept, and these are only the most extreme examples—still, when I read about this, I couldn’t help panicking.
       
      I went out for a long walk. Tried to think things over. Was there a chance my tulpa would wind up that way? Should I turn back now? Or was she already sentient, meaning it was my responsibility to take care of her? Or was I crazy, in the first place, to even be thinking about any of this?
       
      We imagined that I stayed behind in our apartment, though I must’ve been somewhere in headspace the whole time. Maybe a wonderland version of the apartment? We didn’t know enough to ask that question, then.
       
      I couldn’t make up my mind, until the second I got home, opened the door, and realized how afraid Shizuku must’ve felt while I was out thinking about whether I should try to erase her. My heart sank through the floor. I did my best to apologize, though I didn’t know if it would help.
       
      She replied: “I was sad, but I wasn’t scared. I trust you.”
       
      Okay. If she had been afraid, or angry, I would have felt bad enough. But that packed a punch.

       
       
      That day, we promised each other that we’d stay together and try to make this “tulpa” thing work, for better or worse. Not to jinx anything, but six months later, “better” is definitely winning out.
       
      Our long-term goals
       
      (1) Become able to split fronting time 50/50 (or whatever arrangement winds up working for us). I expect it’ll be a long time before we can actually do this, but hopefully not too long—if possible, we’d like to get to this point within a year or two. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a 50/50 split, but I don’t want to feel like Shizuku is prevented from doing things she wants to do by us not being good enough at tulpamancy.
       
      (2) Learn to co-front and keep Shizuku active (as close as possible to?) all the time. We spend a lot of time together, but I still get distracted and forget to check in with her more often than we’d like. Eventually, we’re hoping she can stay around all the time (or whenever she wants to, at least) and get my attention whenever she has something to say.
       
      (3) Stay a two-person system, if possible. I know there are a lot of large systems out there who do perfectly fine, but my instincts say that it would be more than we could handle. Besides, I already feel like I love Shizuku too much for it to be fair to whoever Headmate Number 3 would be. 😂
       
      I do have one soulbond-ish character (using the terminology from Bear’s PR) from my own writing. We’ve talked things over with her in WL, and she’s adamant that she is not interested in becoming a tulpa or participating in the system. (This checks out with what I know about her character, too.) If things change, there’s a slim chance that she might join us, but I doubt it. Either way, I can’t imagine us going any further than that.
       
      (4) Help Shizuku find life goals of her own, and figure out how to rearrange my our life so that we can both do what we want to do. At the moment, we’re just doing regular forcing to try and help her grow as a tulpa. The vague plan for this one is to eventually learn how to switch, accomplish goal number (1), and then let her follow her interest and try a bunch of different things.
       
      Current forcing practice
       
      Working on senses in WL: we’ve been doing our best to spend an hour each day focusing on visualizing Shizuku in wonderland, and also practicing one other sense per day. Wonderland sight and touch have started to show some improvement recently, but overall it feels like we still need a lot of work. Conversation: We also do our best to talk as much as we can each day. We’ve been working through the Tulpa Vocalization Practice worksheet when we can’t think of any other topics. Diary writing: Shizuku writes a diary entry most days. This is something I picked up from the Japanese tulpamancy community, though I think I’ve seen it recommended in English guides too. It’s a lot of fun—somehow, reading through the things she’s written (by proxy or possession, at this point, though our possession game is still pretty weak) does a lot to help me fight off doubt. Imagining Shizuku in stories we’re reading/watching: This has been pretty fun so far, too—right now, we’re rewatching Hunter X Hunter. As we watch, we try to keep up a “mental fanfic” where she’s running around with the main characters. Passive forcing as much as possible: Taking inspiration from the method I used to learn Japanese, I’m doing my best to find ways to involve Shizuku in everything I do. We’ve had some success reading, studying, watching things, and playing games together, but in particular, staying aware of Shizuku during work that I really need to focus on and conversations with other people has been a killer—I haven’t had much success in these situations yet.  
      To anyone who slogged through all of that, thanks for reading! This post already goes on for a million years, so I’ll try to write some (hopefully shorter!) summaries of our progress so far in other updates.
    • By -Andromeda-
      Hello! I’ll introduce myself. I’m Ashley, and I only just started creating Andromeda yesterday. I’ll post my progress on here quite often, but excuse me if I forget.
      So for several years, since I was about 12, I have wanted to have someone else in my mind with me. At the time, the reason wasn’t exactly clear to me as it is now. As it is, I discovered tulpas around a month ago. I was hooked right away, but I knew I should look in to it further, read guides, see others experiences, etc. I found many useful guides and I couldn’t wait any longer, so I’ve started!
      At this time, Andromeda is a female with a human-like shape but she has elf ears and the ability to grow wings if she chooses. I am aware she will most likely deviate, and I welcome that. Without further ado, I will put my first and second sessions below.
       
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      Session 1

      Date: Friday 19th March
       
      I drew her form and started to make a model of her in my mind. This was over the course of the day, and I didn’t do much else for her as I knew I needed to set some time aside to properly visualise her.
       
      Session 2
       
      Date: Saturday 20th March
       
      So today, I visualised her whole form and animated her to make sure it was stable. This took me 30-45 minutes as I had already made a base of her yesterday. I then made a cabin-like room to have as a place to meet her in our wonderland, and I started with her personality. I decided to keep it quite vague as I’d like her to be able to form her personality as she grows older, but I gave her a base. I did this by giving her jelly of different colours and explained them and how it would affect her. I then showed her different parts of the cabin and what they do. Then, I said that she could decide to have more of any jelly she wanted if she’d like and she can experiment with the things in there.
       
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      I have not had any reactions yet, par head pressure. But I am glad that she has already progressed this far and I’m aware that it takes a long time for more interpretable reactions, but this is okay as I am just glad she’s here and I am willing to help her in any way. I don’t mind if it takes a few weeks or a few years for her to be vocal, it does not change my view on her.
       
      I hope I’m doing this right? I do not want to hinder her or harm her in any way, I want to nurture and support her.
       
      Thank you for reading, and I hope this isn’t too long for a newbie. c:
       
       
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