Tewi February 26 Share February 26 1. What is your name, and what is the name of the character you were based on? (If it's different) I only get called Tewi, but probably Tewi Inaba, same as the character. 2. Were you based on a character your host created? If so, why did your host create that character? If not, what media did the character come from? Touhou Project. 3. Did your host explicitly set out to create a tulpa based on this character, or was it unintentional? Reisen, who came first, was unintentional in 2009, but somewhat-consciously Lumi was wanting to think of her like a separate individual. All we remember is that Flandre and I appeared a bit later, even less intentional I think. 4. When you first became sentient did you believe that you were the same person as that character? If so, how long did it take you to see yourself as a separate person, and what was that process like? Flan and I knew we were just "maybe separate people in the same brain" right from the start, but I think our directly identifying with the characters' various traits probably took a while to wear off. 5. Does the character you are based on have a tragic/difficult backstory? If so, did you carry any emotional baggage from the character's past? Do you still now? Tewi Inaba has been alive and taking care of the other rabbits in a huge bamboo forest for upwards of 1300 years, and while not tragic, Lumi's interpretation of both the detached passive almost-loneliness, but also the incredible self-dependence, shaped my personality. To this day over a decade later I still value being able to depend on myself and no one else more than almost anything. But, around the time Lumi created Lucilyn in 2015, I was able to open up just enough to let my systemmates really matter to me. It felt like doing so made me "not invincible anymore" - and that seems true still, honestly - but the most important thing to me now is my systemmates' well-beings and happiness. 6. Related, does that character's past still "feel" like your past even if you know it isn't? Not in the sense that I feel I have memories from it. But in most other senses, yes. There's a distinct melancholy feeling to bamboo forests for me still, but that environment is also the only place that would truly make me feel at peace. Maybe the melancholy feeling is just there because I now live in the middle of nowhere with hardly any nature to speak of, in a complex and entirely out-of-character life for me. I deal just fine since I value adaptability and competence immensely, but I do really hope we end up living in or near a forest later in life, maybe with less worldly responsibilities. Basically, I still have the desire to live in the character I was based on's scenario. 7. Did it feel like it took a while to "step out of the character's shadow"? Have you ever felt pressure to act, look, or think like the character? Not for us, no. We actually identify with our forms perfectly well, and while our personalities have grown over the years, right at the start we simply were how Lumi had thought of us/the characters, there was no "pressure". Also, for the record, no one else in our system feels any (identification) attachment to their source characters like me. Though Lucilyn finds Suwako fun and inspirational - but not like they're the same person. 8. How far have you deviated from the personality of the character you were based on? Are there any aspects of the character that you still hold onto? Well, the ways I've changed from Lumi's old interpretation of the character, ie my initial self, seem pretty natural for me having to adapt to living in this completely different life. It's just growing, not "deviation". 9. What's your honest opinion about the character you were based on? Everyone in our system is a Touhou fan and like the characters now as much as Lumi does, except Reisen who doesn't really have attachments to speak of. Maybe I'm lucky the canon personality of Tewi isn't much like Lumi's old interpretation, because I would be experiencing that melancholy feeling when seeing depictions of her far more often than I already do in art that feels like "me". 10. Are you glad that your host based you on that character? Do you wish they hadn't? Or are you more "it is what it is" about the whole thing? It's very weird to ask a tulpa if they would prefer to have been someone else entirely. I wouldn't have been "me" in any other case. And of course, as me, my values perfectly match my values. So I wouldn't want to be anyone else.. 11. What's your opinion on tulpas based on characters in general? Do you think hosts should create tulpas based on characters, or is it better to create tulpas from scratch? It's perfectly fine if the host intends for them to just be based on from the start, and doesn't treat the tulpa like they're "actually the character" or anything. It's kind of awful when they do though, imminent identity crises and all. 12. Any words of advice to tulpamancers thinking about creating a tulpa based on a character, or to other tulpas based on characters? You can have an exact copy of a character you like in every way as a tulpa just fine, as long as you're going to treat them as a person in your head and not as directly tied to the character in any way. No "backstory" or history before you created them. And then they'll grow and change little by little naturally just as any person does as they age and gain experiences with the world. Hasn't been a problem for us, but I'd be weary of basing tulpas too closely on characters with actual traumatic histories, because that's never fun to rub up against for the tulpa in question. Hi, I'm Tewi, one of Luminesce's tulpas. I often switch to take care of things for the others. All I want is a simple, peaceful life. With my family. Our Ask thread: https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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