Ringgggg's somewhat-comprehensive foxgirl imposition log

[ringgggg]

I’ve just recently found out how small the fall off is for imposition, like you need to be on that shit on that shit for it to not diminish. On the days I get complacent my quality suffers a lot for the next few practices. I have to constantly be looking for things I can improve on to further progress and keep my head in the game. It’s like figuring out how to intuit muscle memory.

When I impose I use my visualization as a reference tool. Like, if I’m having a hard time sculpting something, I just imagine where my hands would be on the object. The imposition comes out better if I just “imagine over it”, if that makes sense. This doesn’t mean that visualization equals imposition 1:1, but instead it’s more or less there to train you how to tame your imagination.

I use a mix of open and closed eye visualization and constantly shift my focus between the real-world imposition and the mind's eye.

[Luminesce]

"Just consistently practice whenever, forever" never, ever works out for tulpamancers (well, except maybe Bear), so it's very important if you want to maintain/improve a skill long-term you set some kind of permanent practice habit. I highly recommend setting a specific (small amount of) time probably right after you wake up or before you go to bed each day where you seriously focus on imposing, just for like 3-5 minutes, but always do it. Other times would work too if you're likely to always be mentally and physically available then, or even varying times if you have the self discipline to always do it at some point

[ringgggg]

The problem with it was that I never had a consistent part of my day that I had to practice. It'd always bounce from being in the early afternoon one day to being at 10 in the night the next. So it laid the responsibility on me to decide not only if I should do it, but when. Which is terrible for procrastination, as it turns out.

 

I see some people on the discord server I'm on say that they treat it as a phase they come back to after a while, and it just doesn't work like that. I mean, you're still learning more about imposition regardless of how consistent your practice times are, but if you want to go anywhere with it, it has to be non-sporadic effort. If fitness was a phase, you'd never gain enough muscle to say that it did something.

 

I actually have some time in the morning to impose, that's one less decision to make.

[Luminesce]

I feel like the best thing is to commit to a time that works for you consistently at the moment, and then be open to changing it if your schedule changes

 

Very likely the morning or before bed will always be available when the other's not, right?

[ringgggg]

Yeah yeah. I usually feel better doing it when I'm completely woken up, but I'll take consistency. If I really feel the need to I'll do another session in the afternoon.

 

Preach

 

Actually, a lot of it is memory-based. I'm not exactly the best at remembering things, and if I miss a day all my intuition is gone.

Edited September 3 by ringgggg

[ringgggg]

Belief is also a key aspect. If you can’t get used to the sensation of seeing things, you’ll never be able to impose without halfassing it. Get over it, because if you don’t, you’ll be deliberately holding yourself back. 

 

And I quote:

On 4/22/2024 at 11:42 AM, ringgggg said:

When I went to impose outside of a serious session, it was usually wispy and vague and had more to do with visualization, as I would find myself having to piece together how things looked in my head. However, now that I’m starting to see some genuine process come out of imposition practice, I figured I’d do better if I actually applied my valuable progress practically instead of keeping it exclusive to just my sessions.

The solution was to have it be all or nothing for imposition, exertion-wise. There’s no reason for me to half-impose just because I’m apprehensive to the idea that I’m walking with a one-armed anthropomorphic foxgirl in public (of all places). But that’s exactly what I’ve been doing with A3 for all this time, so why half-ass it? 

I’m having those same issues now. I have to remember to take this seriously, though my acceptance is still a little better than it was then. We’ll see how much I’m willing to push it.

[TB]

Those Culadasa quotes were really good to see again. I was contemplating on the illusion of effort recently

 

On 8/15/2024 at 8:29 AM, ringgggg said:

"As imposition teacher Stephanie Nash is fond of saying, 'A good imposition is one you did-—the only bad imposition is one you didn't do.' Take her wise advice into account when you go to impose."

that would have been funny lol

 

I also want to understand what you mean more about half a'ing it. Is that referring to an overall amount of dedication to the practice as a whole, like volume of sitting to do it? Or does it have something to do with what you are doing moment to moment while trying to impose?

 

I'm definitely half a'ing it in regards to volume of practice. I just do it "seriously" for a few minutes before bed then I relax and try to go to sleep with Rena still there to see whenever I go to look, or whatever image will come to me that isn't mental but felt with external seeing sense

 

Bre's guide was an epiphany but I stalled from there, most likely do to lack of volume of practice

 

I recommend trying the do nothing technique of meditation sometime if you feel you are struggling with effort illusion, it will help you follow culadasa's advice there, I think. That's the dots I've connected, anyway

 

Sometimes you do need to bear down (or is it bare down?) though and really go at it. I haven't figured it out yet but I think it is an exercise of mindfully playing with all sides of the scale. Sometimes you need to contract before you can expand

 

I need to read a lot of the rest of the log when I can. I just got recent posts. I care about your progress I just get trapped in lotpw purgatory

 

Good luck

[ringgggg]

On 9/8/2024 at 9:22 PM, TB said:

I also want to understand what you mean more about half a'ing it. Is that referring to an overall amount of dedication to the practice as a whole, like volume of sitting to do it? Or does it have something to do with what you are doing moment to moment while trying to impose?

I’m having those same issues now. This needs to be taken more seriously, and I know I've been more used to it in the past, so we'll see how much I’m willing to push it.

 

An imposition is only as good as it's believed it to be. It's easy to unconsciously deem projecting wild shapes and colors irl too crazy to be taken seriously, which may make you lose faith in your own abilities, and you'll underperform if you let it get to you. Imposter syndrome but for imposers. Imposer syndrome. Go figure. Usually this can be alleviated by slowing down and describing to yourself just what you're imposing in great detail. It doesn't even need to be words, just intuitive feeling.

 

It's easier to convince your black box to shift when you have a more fleshed-out account of what you're aiming to accomplish, which, in this case, is seeing things. You need evidence backing your reasoning, defendant. Use more words and paint with more brush strokes. 

The more time you spend working with these shapes and colors, the more accustomed you’ll be to having them around, which will make you less and less scared to impose. Dr. ringgggg prescribes more practice and more repetition to cure your ailments, as per the usual.

 

On 9/8/2024 at 9:22 PM, TB said:

Bre's guide was an epiphany but I stalled from there, most likely do to lack of volume of practice

Really... It made sense when I read it, but at the same time it didn't. Only bre could pull off such a feat. Or maybe I'm just retarded.

 

All I'm going to say to you is that there's a fine line between research and the actual course of action. Research as needed, but don't forget to really go for it. 5 minutes a night is already consistent. Challenge yourself the next time you go to bed. It doesn't have to be life changing, just a little bit more than what you’re used to.

 

All that effort put into building the perfect car is only worth anything after you hit the freakin gas pedal.

 

On 9/8/2024 at 9:22 PM, TB said:

I need to read a lot of the rest of the log when I can. I just got recent posts. I care about your progress I just get trapped in lotpw purgatory

 

Good luck

Thank you, and don't worry. If I ever attain visual imposition, I'll make sure it's not buried under 168 other posts.

 

On 9/8/2024 at 9:22 PM, TB said:

I'm definitely half a'ing it in regards to volume of practice. I just do it "seriously" for a few minutes before bed then I relax and try to go to sleep with Rena still there to see whenever I go to look, or whatever image will come to me that isn't mental but felt with external seeing sense

Your guardian Stephanie Nash is telling me you're doing a great job.

Edited September 10 by ringgggg

[TB]

On 9/9/2024 at 8:19 PM, ringgggg said:

It's easier to convince your black box to shift when you have a more fleshed-out account of what you're aiming to accomplish, which, in this case, is seeing things. You need evidence backing your reasoning, defendant. Use more words and paint with more brush strokes. 

Because of this I think maybe the best thing I could do right now is work on figuring how how to draw Rena better and draw her a lot more. Study a lot of references that feel like her and combine the pieces to get a bunch of working Renas to look at and when there is something wrong, figure out what it is, somehow. That last part is not simple though, at least it hasn't been so far, but maybe I'm closer to figuring out how to do that

 

On 9/9/2024 at 8:19 PM, ringgggg said:

Your guardian Stephanie Nash is telling me you're doing a great job.

Oh that's good. And I didn't know she has been guarding me up until now, thanks for letting me know

 

On 9/9/2024 at 8:19 PM, ringgggg said:

Thank you, and don't worry. If I ever attain visual imposition, I'll make sure it's not buried under 168 other posts.

May your practice go well