The Garden Log: Bramble's Tulpa Journal

[GardenStones]

System Log

30/07/2024

 

Been a while, hasn't it? As Bramble mentioned, I'll be taking over the Progress Report. We haven't had much energy, but I'll denote some changes below.

 

- There are "assigned days" for each of us to receive more focused attention. It isn't perfect, but it makes Bramble happy and we do enjoy getting the time to spend with him. At some point, I'll change the Signature to have our days.

- Bramble's been making better progress establishing connection to the Garden. At the same time, he's been trying to make sure we all get at least a little bit of attention on our assigned days.

- While we generally keep a rather logical outlook on things, Bramble has recently uncovered...something. A boy and a separate headspace from the garden. No concrete details yet.

 

Good day, good night, or good evening. Leave questions under this report.

[GardenStones]

System Log

08/07/2024

 

Hello, everyone. I'm up bright and early to make the update. So let's get started, shall we?

 

• Bramble's "normal" has become more and more dissociated and hazy. While he doesn't seem particularly worried about this, I worry it may be an indication of a destabilization of the collective, or a warning sign for Bramble's stability in general.
• Bramble acquired some new yarn lately - I think today I'll sit down and try it myself. There's a cute mouse pattern I want to try.
• A new face has showed up, but doesn't live in the Garden with us. More on him further down, under "Eiren".
• Xay moves around more on his own, usually either found flying around the Yard or resting in his room.

 

We've all be settling into the new schedule, and learning to get along. It's easier for some of us than others, but we do our best. As mentioned, Bramble seems to be destabilizing, but it isn't affecting much of the Garden, which is good. I may ask about putting him back through dormancy - it seems more like he just needs a good "reset" from time to time, as this is not the first time he's grown tired.

 

Eiren

Bramble's been wandering out of the Garden for some time now, but mostly it doesn't yield much of note. Still, one thing has stuck around - a small village, a pool of water in a caver similar to that of the Cradle that acts like a portal between the two spaces, through it seems accessible from the Void as well, for those who prefer not to swim. As well, a boy that seems to know Bramble, who calls himself "Eiren" (Ey-wren) has appeared from this place. We have our beliefs about this, but Bramble seems particularly invested in this development. Regardless, Eiren seems to prefer to make the journey between this new "headspace" and the Garden to visit rather than move in, so he pops up rather randomly.

[GardenStones]

System Log

08/13/2024

 

Hello again, everyone. My name is Ruina, and I'll be updating the PR.

 

Still trying to find a good, clean way to organize everything. The bulletpoints don't work as well when there's no true development, but I don't think that's inherently a bad thing.

 

Bramble hasn't made much progress with his inner-world building, but he is doing a good job of keeping up with our attention days and spending time with us, which at the very least keeps us in mind.

 

Aside that, I'm not sure what really belongs here. Lots of personal issues and developments, but none that really "click" with the Tulpamancy Progress Report.

[BearBaeBeau]

Inner world building always felt kinda fake, but now we use Faerûn and go on adventures in D&D and it's way more real. Just my pov, don't mind me. I like that font btw, it reminds me of retro or smth.

 

Development wasn't really our concern, we were more just trying to have fun together, kinda like now. 

[GardenStones]

2 hours ago, BearBaeBeau said:

Inner world building always felt kinda fake, but now we use Faerûn and go on adventures in D&D and it's way more real. Just my pov, don't mind me. I like that font btw, it reminds me of retro or smth.

 

Development wasn't really our concern, we were more just trying to have fun together, kinda like now. 

For us, specifically, we have a problem where we're all more or less able to interact and front, but we have trouble doing those things because there's so concept of "me" vs "not me" for the mind, and we find the inner world to be a useful tool for it :3

 

Of course, not every system needs or even has an inner world. This is just what works best for us.

[GardenStones]

System Log

20/08/2024

 

Hello, all. My name is Ruina, and I'm here to write up this week's Progress Report.

 

As a whole, our system seems more stable. Bramble especially seems more confident, and that's making his job as Host easier. He spent a lot of time with Xay yesterday, and it seems to have lifted his spirits.

 

As well, Bramble has been thinking more about the system. About where we came from, how we got here. The working theory is a bit of spiritual rebirth with a large part of psychological anomaly.

 

I, Ruina, have further settled into my form as a massive insectoid robot.

 

Vy seems less active. Bramble is concerned, I think she's just tired.

[GardenStones]

System Log

27/08/2024

 

Hello, everyone. It's Ruina again, with this week's Progress Report.

• We've found a good, consistent schedule for our meditation. It's not as long or as in-depth as Bramble might like, but it's a consistent practice. 10 minutes every day, at 10:30 in the morning, spent thinking about the inner world and immersing into it.
• Xay and I both seem more tangible than the others. This week Bramble will focus more on spending time with them in meditation rather than through passive narration, and I'll report back next week.
• We're using a communal journal to keep track of developments and changes. I hope it'll help the poor memory the brain seems to have. I can't access what's not there, after all.

Overall we're doing a little better than last week, and I think that's something to be proud of. Here's hoping for another week of good, steady progress.

[GardenStones]

System Log

04/09/2024

 

Apologies, all. It's Ruina, here a day late due to life events. We're all alright, so please don't worry.

 

We do actually have some new developments! Here's the basics, but I'll detail a little more further down.

 

• Bramble has had his first remembered instance of lucid dreaming!
• We have realized a bit more about how the System works. It seems Vy is "linked" to Bramble in some way, like two sides of a coin.
• We have officially reached a point where we're focusing on stabilizing the Garden and mapping it out properly.

These are exciting changes for the System, for sure. Being stable enough to understand out mixed origins has Bramble particularly happy.

 

Now, on to those extra details.

 

The dream became apparent when Bramble realized he was interacting with his dog, who died back in December. The experience was...odd. He then woke up, assuming the dream had ended, and began talking with his partner. Then he woke up for real, and realized that that had been a dream. This is a new experience, and we aren't certain if the lucidity caused it or something else.

 

Vy is, in a sense, the oldest member of our Collective. Originally a sort of "mask" Bramble would wear when afraid or threatened, she was put through dormancy when Bramble grew ashamed of "his own" actions, only to pull herself out of dormancy and begin focusing her efforts elsewhere. We currently believe she's a "split" or a "shard" of Bramble - a piece of him broken off and given life of it's own. She seems rather happy with this, so we're not worried about proving or disproving it.

 

Mapping out the Garden has always been a goal of ours, since Bramble's long-term goal with this is to be able to fully switch in and out of the Front. In other words, to be able to leave front and wander the Garden without needing to stay tethered to the physical world. Now that everyone feels distinctly "tangible" in the mind, meditation efforts will go towards mapping out different areas of the Garden, starting with everyone's rooms and the hub area in the House.

 

I think some redecorating is in order, but we take small steps to avoid overwhelming ourselves.

[GardenStones]

System Log

10/09/2024

 

Hello. It's Ruina. As you may have heard, our WiFi router isn't currently working - so this update comes from the mobile version of the site. I apologize for any errors.

 

Not much has happened, this week, really. Bramble's been trying to keep up routine and Xay seems...tired. Sleepy. We'll keep an eye on him, moving forward.

 

Efforts to stabilize the Garden are going well, at least. I'll update the main part of this thread when it's all said and done - and the desktop has internet access again.

[GardenStones]

System Log

17/09/2024

 

Hello all. It's Ruina.

 

Not a ton happened in the past week. but Bramble did have a bit of trouble adjusting to the new layout, but that problem seems mostly solved by now. Hopefully, it won't be long before the house stops randomly spawning traps when you move from room to room.

 

And as I expected, Xay is fine. Not sure what was up with him, but he seems back to normal.

 

Thank you for your time.