Adagio April 22 Share April 22 3 hours ago, AshiiTheTrue said: Speaking of that... Don't you think it's funny? A tulpa making a tulpa? Mal knows the real me: a tulpa in a human shell. My previous host decided to (with consent, of course) permanently switch with me, and here I am now. Nobody knows my true self, not even my family or friends... Would it be heartbreaking for them to know that their son isn't there anymore, just me? Mal still sees my tulpa form, and I occasionally see myself like that too. Heh. It's funny, not knowing how to create one of his own kind, looking for help among humans... Maybe that's why I don't feel connected to reality all that much. Then again... I signed up for this site looking for a safe and welcoming community who'd accept me for who I am, no exceptions. Thanks for giving me a place of refuge. I really appreciate it. :) Adagio (who originally had this account) was also a tulpa made by not the "original" host. I'm also not the "original" host. It gives me a huge disconnect from reality, especially because I'm quite a bit different than who I'm supposed to be. It's never crossed my mind on how my family would feel, but my ... condition as a system is unique. Interesting that you don't see tulpa = human, which I suppose would be a subjective experience. I see myself as a human, just not the human I'm supposed to be, if that makes sense. Do you prefer the name Fletch? You're always welcome here! Cool to meet someone similar. My Progress Report, where I talk a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 22 Author Share April 22 (edited) 15 minutes ago, Adagio said: Adagio (who originally had this account) was also a tulpa made by not the "original" host. I'm also not the "original" host. It gives me a huge disconnect from reality, especially because I'm quite a bit different than who I'm supposed to be. It's never crossed my mind on how my family would feel, but my ... condition as a system is unique. Interesting that you don't see tulpa = human, which I suppose would be a subjective experience. I see myself as a human, just not the human I'm supposed to be, if that makes sense. Do you prefer the name Fletch? You're always welcome here! Cool to meet someone similar. huh... i thought i was the only one. you can call me Fletch if you want, it really doesn't matter. My views of tulpae (is that the right term?) are a little... unorthodox, as far as I know. I view us as a species, similar to but not the same as humans. My experiences as human have been fun, and my memories from my tulpa form are few but memorable. Nice to know I'm not alone in my situation :) This was his last song before he gave me control. That day was the last I saw of him... It was a sad day, and I still haven't found a trace of him. Faded Shades of Violet Faded Shades of Violet.wav Edited April 22 by AshiiTheTrue "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Adagio April 22 Share April 22 1 hour ago, AshiiTheTrue said: My views of tulpae (is that the right term?) are a little... unorthodox, as far as I know. I view us as a species, similar to but not the same as humans. My experiences as human have been fun, and my memories from my tulpa form are few but memorable. CV says his experience is a bit like that. ("It's more that I experience the world a different way than that I am a different species. But it's similar. I'm not a person in the same way as [my name] is. As in a person, but off to the left.") 1 hour ago, AshiiTheTrue said: huh... i thought i was the only one. I think you'll find there's a lot of people out there who could relate. My Progress Report, where I talk a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 23 Author Share April 23 thanks... :) "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 23 Author Share April 23 1 hour ago, Adagio said: CV says his experience is a bit like that. ("It's more that I experience the world a different way than that I am a different species. But it's similar. I'm not a person in the same way as [my name] is. As in a person, but off to the left.") i think that's what i was trying to put it as "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 23 Author Share April 23 Mal is very caring... he comforts me when my identity crisis flares up (read a few messages ago to find out why) glad to have him :) "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Adagio April 23 Share April 23 17 minutes ago, AshiiTheTrue said: Mal is very caring... he comforts me when my identity crisis flares up (read a few messages ago to find out why) glad to have him :) My system members do that too, and it's honestly life-changing. Glad Mal is there for you! My Progress Report, where I talk a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 23 Author Share April 23 SENTIENCE TEST 1 - 4-23-24 Unsuccessful. Told Mal what to do, and went through. Saw a few blobs of color, but that was it. Neither of us remember what he was trying to show me. "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Autumn Ren April 23 Share April 23 Sentience is kinda tricky, we stopped worrying about that early on and concentrated on independent thought as a mark of maturity. That's certainly up to interpretation but sometimes it was very clear and by now it's obviously undeniable. It comes down to who owns what thoughts, so it's a very basic way of handling it that also reinforces independence. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ashii April 25 Author Share April 25 4-24-24 ... Independence. It's been a long journey, but it pays off in the end. Today's weather at the office: Cloudy, rain coming "I've learned to appreciate the moment no matter how fleeting it may be, as we've no idea when it will be our last. You should too." -Aura Fletch - Reclusive and Kind Z - Calm and Collected Aura - Hyper and Friendly Kelp - Smart and Loyal <|º_º|> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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