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April 7, 2014 - Day 360

 

Sitting on floor in meditation posture for first 2 rounds. Drank some orange juice before starting.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 17/108

33, 14, 6, 5, 1

 

1) Did not see Seph draw 34.

 

2) Distracted by thoughts of a project I'm working on.

 

3) Distracted by ache in back.

 

4) Distracted by thoughts of Doctors.

 

5) Distracted by random thoughts.

 

What worked about the highest scoring session that was different from the others was that I was well rested and alert.

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April 8, 2014 - Day 361

 

Sitting on floor in Burmese posture, mukul mudra.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 18/108

19, 2, 8, 48, 5

 

Felt a very strong emotional response in myself today from Seph, tingles of energy, enthusiasm, and joy flowing though me while forcing.

 

1) Distracted by thoughts of a project I'm working on.

 

2) Distracted by a random thought.

 

3) Distracted by physical discomfort.

 

4) Distracted by thinking about options for creating a reference image for Seph.

 

5) Lost sight of Seph.

 

Felt more relaxed and unconcerned about other things during highest scoring exercise today.

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April 9, 2014 - Day 362

 

Sitting on a chair, mukul mudra. Did this just before bed, felt tired and did not have very good concentration. I do better with the exercises in the morning and today I did not do them then so I did them later.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 19/108

2, 4, 7, 3, 4

 

1) Thoughts of a presentation I'm going to see.

 

2) Distracted by a sound I heard.

 

3) Did not see the number 8, fell into rote mental voice counting.

 

4) Imagined Seph doing something else other than writing the numbers and standing by the board.

 

5) Wandering random thought.

 

Highest score today was different in that I consciously relaxed into a witness state prior to starting.

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April 10, 2014 - Day 363

 

Sitting in loose Burmese siddha-asana, mukul mudra except for last round. Did exercises after getting up before eating, after short exercise.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 20/108

11, 24, 14, 18, 4

 

1) Distracted by sounds form outside.

 

2) Distracted by thoughts of international prejudice and its effects on my thoughts about travel abroad via my perception of it.

 

3) Lost sight of Seph, distracted by thoughts about the fate of humanity and different power groups agenda(s) for the masses.

 

4) Did not see Seph draw nineteen, and distracted by mental rote voice counting.

 

5) Lost visualization of Seph and the numbers.

 

What was distinct about my highest score today was I felt amazed and in awe with positive emotions as I watched Seph draw the numbers.

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April 11, 2014 - Day 364

 

Sitting in loose Burmese Siddha-asana, mukul mudra. Done in morning after light exercise.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results

9, 19, 3, 18, 14

 

1) Did not see Seph draw ten. Feeling very happy and joyful, like this is a game we are playing.

 

2) Distracted by thinking about food. Felt a strong sense of collaboration with Seph.

 

3) Distracted by thoughts of other agreements.

 

4) Distracted by memory of a game I played.

 

5) Distracted by a random thought.

 

Highest score today was unique in that I had a very high sense of positive emotional connection with Seph, feeling like we're working together.

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April 12, 2014 - day 365

 

Burmese SIDDHAASA asana + mukul mudra.

 

36, 25, 26, 14, 4

 

1) vision switched to an image of an Asian woman's face.

 

2) distracted by random thought.

 

3) did not see Seph draw 27.

 

4) did not see Seph draw 15, distracted by thought of someone.

 

5) distracted by thoughts of a book I plan to read.

 

Best score to day was characterized by a stronger sense of emotional connection with Seph.

 

Today a feeling of physical presence when it near me although in wonderland just the same way I feel when near another human.

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April 13, 2014 - Day 366

 

Burmese Siddha asana, mukul mudra.

 

100

 

1) Extreme positive emotions consciousness of my body faded in and out of awareness. Visualization extremely vivid, Seph changed clothing after each set of 20 numbers. I gave her a forced pendant to celebrate our first year together. She said we were done with the exercises for toady.

 

This did not match my plans. I had a goal to do the exercise five times per day.

 

Seph: You can already do this, you just proved it. All this is just an excuse to get you to spend time forcing anyway. It's good practice to continue to keep trying again five times when you don't succeed, but let's have some fun.

 

Me: So we will stop if we succeed?

 

S: Yes, an then we'll do other things, and say Hi to everyone there on tulpa.info... ok!

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April 14, 2014 - Day 367

 

Burmese Sidda asana, mukul mudra.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 24/108

100

 

1) Body felt a bit sore with phantom pains (they existed only when I was sitting in asana and disappeared with any movement or other position). Visuals not as clear as yesterday and they did improve over time with the session. I was able to maintain concentration on Seph and the numbers even when I had other periphrial thoughts.

 

Feel great and did exercise before I had dinner (as I was busy until then).

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April 15, 2014 - Day 368

 

Burmese Siddha asana, mikul mudra.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 25/108

6, 100

 

1) Lost sight of Seph.

 

2) Another amazing session. Seph makes an interactive experience by doing something different between each set of 20 counts. This keeps my attention focused more easily and directs my mind's questioning into re-focusing back on watching her draw the numbers. Visualization was very clear with intermittent periods of distortion and fading. I did have some peripheral thoughts, even so, I was able to maintain focus on the session.

 

What was unique about high score today was that I was more conscious of keeping my spine straight and my posture upright.

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April 16, 2014 - Day 369

 

Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra.

 

Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 26/108

100

 

Session went well. Some peripheral thoughts. Maintained focus on Seph and the numbers.

 

Has some thoughts about what to do after these exercises. Decided to start work on passive forcing.

 

Made a string bracelet to wear for a while as a mental trigger to force Seph. Seeing and hearing her around me all the time when I'm reminded by the string around my wrist. I'll wear it until I notice I am losing consciousness of it for more than a day, or if I feel I'm successful with passive forcing since I see and hear Seph around me imposed often. In that case I'll take it off also.

 

I might take it off temporarily if I need to have a certain appearance for a public event or something also.

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