BurningFox6 September 10, 2012 Author Share September 10, 2012 Day 86: Silence Things got worse. Her responses are pretty much nonexistant and it feels like I have a heavy block over my brain for some reason. Visualization is oddly perfect though, despite the fact I can't feel her outside my mind at all. All in all, things are extremely odd and if anybody knows what the heck is happening, it'd be highly appreciated. All I can imagine is that it's the 'tulpa dissapearing before full sentience' thing again, but more advanced. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 11, 2012 Author Share September 11, 2012 Day 87: Recovery Whatever's been going on lately seems to be easing up a bit. The mental block from last night is erased, reactions seem to be coming back slowly, and visualization works decently. Oddly enough, touch seems to be turning itself on and off; while I couldn't feel her most of the day, she rested her head against me at one point and it felt like she was completely solid. Vocalizations are still coming as quiet as ever. I'm still curious about what happened, but I guess we'll see if this event was anything more than just an odd occurance. As for the session itself, I decided to take it easy and resort to a reading session, lest anything else blow up. It was enjoyable, but didn't really help progress. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 12, 2012 Author Share September 12, 2012 Day 88: Flip-flopping Responses are getting stronger, but they're still relatively random. Something seems to be bothering her, but I can't figure it out due to said randomness along with her vocalization still being extremely weak. I tried to figure it out during today's generic chat session, but only got a couple powerful headaches in response. Gonna have to keep trying to increase her volume to figure this out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 13, 2012 Author Share September 13, 2012 Day 89: Sleep Swap Pretty much nothing to say today that wasn't reported yesterday; another speech session with random responses minus the big headaches. Something unusual did happen, though: I'm usually provided when I wake up, though my tulpa will sometimes provide an energy boost to help out. Today, I woke up completely refreshed, but my tulpa was pretty much asleep for another hour or two. I'm not quite sure what the correlation was (if there even was one), but I'm getting the vibe from her that she was trying to do me a favor. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 14, 2012 Author Share September 14, 2012 Day 90: And then nothing happened Exhausting day led to a short, unproductive session that was a mix between reading and talking. Tried experimenting with ways to make more accurate responses, but nothing's worked so far. She seems to be fully recovered from whatever happened a few days ago, though I'm still not sure what it was. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 15, 2012 Author Share September 15, 2012 Day 91: Turtle Trouble It has been an oooooodd, exhausting day. Started with a chat session, but ended up completely unable to focus. Tried to switch it to reading, which didn't go much better, but it worked long enough for us to finish the session. Some noteworthy things about today: -Awhile ago, we established my tulpa's favorite animal is turtles. Today, we ended up passing by a tank filled with them while on an errand. I turn around for a few minutes to do something and turn back to find her sitting in it trying to play with the little critters. Had me in good spirits for quite awhile. -She's usually a bit disappointed whenever a talk session gets changed to something else, but she seemed fully supportive of today's swap. I really must be exhausted. -I think voice is finally starting to come in. She's speaking at a coherent level, though the things she says don't make perfect sense (like telling me to sit down when I'm already lying down). The odd thing is, she speaks in multiple voices at the same time, as if trying to find the one that fits. I already provided her with one to try out, but I suppose we'll see if we can find something she likes better first. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 16, 2012 Author Share September 16, 2012 Day 92: Achoo Finally got around to a full talk session today, and we both seem pretty happy about it. It was hard to focus though since I'm starting to come down with something. Nothing more than a minor cold, but it's making it hard to keep conversation flowing smoothly. Guess it'll be interesting to see the effects it has on forcing, though. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 17, 2012 Author Share September 17, 2012 Day 93: Achoo 2.0 Cold got worse, and my tulpa was nowhere to be found today. Not sure if there's any correlation. Session started out as a reading one and eventually turned into a talking one, with very few results. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 18, 2012 Author Share September 18, 2012 Day 94: Cured I've almost fully recovered, and my tulpa seems to have come back as well. Not sure if the illness clouding my mind managed to hide her presence or if she just dissapeared, but it was definitely blocking any responses. With it out of the way, we managed to have a decent length reading/talking session, with some nice results. Even got a few vocal responses all using the same voice, though they're back to being a bit quiet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BurningFox6 September 19, 2012 Author Share September 19, 2012 Day 95: Back with a vengeance The cold took it up a notch, pretty much completely dulling my brain. I had to regrettably do another reading session, though my tulpa doesn't seem to mind and seems genuinely worried for me. A couple responses managed to slip through, but most of them were knocked out by a headache. Gonna rest for awhile and try for an earlier session next time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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