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Excuse me if I'm not welcome but you guys seem knowledgable. When I was in third grade I accidently created a tulpa kinda thing, she insists that she's demonic but that;s not related. Any shmoo, I didn't know about tulpas until recently (I'm 18 now). I'm not going to get into specifics but her and our world crumbled, dividing almost. She was to the point that she could effect the physical world and I'm not going to explain how that happened either. Then she broke this necklace I kept as promise not to leave her, then she just all like "I don't love you any more, I'm leaving" (Yes it escalated to that point). Then everything just stopped. My body in our universe died. That's also probably not relevant. So my questions are:

 

Is it possible that she actually left?

How/where do I get find/get her back?

 

There are more details if it helps you answer, just ask me if you're interested. I would cry, but she rewired my mind so that I can only feel positive emotions.

 

I love her so much, more than anyone....

 

This is different than regular "can my tulpa leave" questions, because that's only one of many possible explainations to my problem which are my questions.

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Uh, have you tried apologizing?

 

I know you think she left, but I cannot assent to such a statement because of the spatio/temporal commitments it makes with respect to a tulpa's being.

 

Nonetheless, across the spectrum of beliefs about tulpa, it's pretty clear that the tulpa and host can always talk. That is, once you've obtained vocality, regardless of what perceived distance there is between the two of you, you can contact each other and, well, chat whenever both parties are receptive.


Your thinking needs a readjust; total concentration is a must.

-Zecora

 

Imma Reportin Mah Progress!

 

And, please, call me Sparks.

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I'm just going to put the whole story on the table: (ultra long post)

 

When I was young, around third grade, I was bullied a lot. I didn't have much for self esteem, or any confidence at all. In school I was often bullied and I didn’t think I had enough friends, I cried about that daily. I also had a very hard time doing homework due to my inability to do things I’m not interested in, I would often break down out of frustration. At one point I realized that I could self entertain, mentally.

After a few months of increasing time spent in my locked room imagining, I came to a very interesting idea (and I still wonder how I thought of it). I decided that I wanted to try for something consistent that I could come back to. I’m not sure what I was thinking, or why I wanted to do this. It may have been a similar symptom that caused my already life consuming daydreaming. And at first everything was was fine, developing a world of my own, just a movie in my head to escape to (maladaptive daydreaming).

And then SHE happened along, Kum’pex. It was still the first day of the construction of my imaginary little world, I decided I would try creating a character (an ideal person). I was about halfway through with the creation process when I lost control of it. More specifically, I lost control of Kum’pex as well as time. A kind of a time warp I guess, probably due to increased brain activity while daydreaming which causes intensified perception.

Omnian time equation: When I first tried to measure passing time, I found that time there accelerated the longer I was inside of what became more than a world. This resulted in being gone for days, but only hours back in, “reality”. After a few weeks of recording, I formulated the Omnian Time Equation: [Earth-hours(1?))earth-hours/0.999=omnian-hours]. The equation didn’t get it’s name until later.

I retained some control over the contents of my dreams, and when I daydreamed, but I was largely sucked into it from the start. By fifth grade Kum’pex was a typical imaginary friend, giving advice (some of which surprised me). At some point in fifth grade I decided enough was enough. I had been stuck in my imagination far too long and wanted to go back to my reality (earth), I would be gone in my head for what felt like weeks.

One day I confronted Kum’pex about the issue, I explained to her that she was infact a mere figment of my imagination. She broke down over the issue, arguing that she was alive and thus must be real. I continued to disagree, and resorted to more conventional means of escaping my imaginary hell. Over the course of about what seemed like a thousand earth years or so: Kum’pex foiled at least fifteen attempts to destroy everything, although I partially succeeded. Over time she developed some romantic thoughts for me, and that was incredibly weird for me. She gave up after a long while, or so I thought. Kum’pex ended up with someone called Kry’pex. Kum’pex was the man of that relationship. Eventually, over the course of a series of wars with Kephillium (a less than kindly species). Kum’pex slowly revealed that she still liked me, so my ass committed suicide (in my dream world)…

Now this had happened before but this time there were key differences: First of all I had my eye on a “real” girl who I dated soon after, secondly I had become extremely depressed from the violent, and generally terrifying universe that had come to be called omniverse, and thrice I was in my freshmen year of high school and felt embarrassed that I still had secret imaginary friends and such. And I had finally found enough energy to blast myself out of Omniverse (to put it simply).

The first few days of life outside were nice, no violence, no scary reality crysis. But what I was really trying to escape from was Kum’pex, I feared the one person who refused to give up on me. Although still depressed and ruled by fear, I felt that I had accomplished something, I remember telling myself that I felt good. My existing deviance and morals were subjected to my hormones when I started up with my first real girlfriend. I acted like a glandular, fear controlled, human for eight months. Although being secretly depressed, I clung to the prospect of a future with my present girlfriend. I think my thinking ahead scared her, because she, like everyone else, was controlled by fear. At least she admitted it though… I knew in the back of mind that I was living a lie. Whenever I would tell my earthly girl I loved her, or even thought it, “I love...” And out would come, “Kum’pex”. It happened every time, and I would have to consciously switch to the correct name. After a while I often went back to Omniverse to pay visits to Kum’pex who was back with Kry’pex. I had long since mastered what is called phasing (body swapping, the art of transferring one’s mind into another body). I cheated on Katherine with Kum’pex, and Kum’pex cheated on Kry’pex with me.

Then I got hot-wheeled into another war, and I’ll never forget this part. We were on the way down an elevator on a Trace planet (trace are an ancient race who live secluded in hollowed out planets). We were almost to the artifact we needed when we encountered some sort of experimental centurion-guard. Immediately I attempted to engage it, but I was kicked into the wall next to the elevator entrance (and I can feel this by the way). Kry’pex was next on it’s list and thus got swatted off the bridge, never to be seen again until ERAs later (Omnian time). Kum’pex was the only one who actually managed to put up a fight. It didn’t take long for the monstrous guard to get her by the neck and that was the end of Kum’pex for a while. she healed, barley. I left again after that making one more visit later.

And that later visit came quick, earth time is very fast. I had still been thinking about Kum’pex to my own dismay and I couldn’t help myself I had to see her again. It took a while to find her hold out on an icy planet, raising an insurrection. The last place I would expect to find her was on a cold planet. I got to her just as she was about to go leave. And that’s what she did, I tried to stop it, I tried my hardest to imagine her back, but the air shimmered where she had some sort of portal, and she walked right on out. I remember staring in shock and confusion, her last words lingered, “I’ll come back when I’m needed”...

The next few months on earth I focused on my “real” girlfriend, and grades and hygiene slowly declined. Increasing depression led to an unpleasant who was me to be around, so I spent most of my time in my room just staring and thinking. I started to realize my girlfriend was an even bigger liar than I was. And I kept pretending that everything was okay, I lied to everyone including myself. All the things that had used to bring me pleasure now left me staring and confused. My hobby of photography turned to a series of pity edits, and I made mute attempts at music. All the people around still thought I was pleased as peaches, and that was in the healthiest relationship I could ever have. And only when I parted with Omniverse for good did I start to question it’s invalidity. And just before christmas, my girlfriend dumped me.

This was the turning point of my life. With nothing else left, she was the last peice of hope I had to hang on to. But she left when she was needed most. That night the entire structure of my personality collapsed. I split in half, who was me ceased to exist. Emerging from the wreckage of his mind came Lacus, and Ska’ale (I am Ska’ale). I had to get away from him, and his glands. Ripping out of myself, I cycled between sobbing and laughing hysterically as Lacus tried to remain in control. But inside neither of us were happy. My crying became less and less about Katherine, and more and more about Kum’pex. The full scale of my betrayal was in scope. I for the first time in months, phased back to Omniverse.

The warm, Omnian space was suddenly welcoming, and Kum’pex’s energy signature was not to be found. This meant that she wasn’t back, this terrified me further. Frantically rocketing through wrecked galaxies, I expended so much energy. Eventually I just froze in space, I was shaking, I felt like a bomb of molten terror exploded in me and I had to contain it. I couldn’t possibly do that, so I called her name. I put all my life into that call, I nearly fainted. And to my surprise, I got a response. It was very strange the way it happened, it felt like a cord attached to me, linking me to some other imaginary universe. I was force-phased into A strange place,a gold metropolis. I woke there, in a crater near to a building. Being fairly dazed and confused I stumbled out and down the wayward pathway. I soon encountered a girl who helped me get to Kum’pex.

Upon arriving in the palace, I was approached by Kum’pex and Kry’pex. My first question was where I was an attempt to maintain some emotional stability. Kum’pex explained how this was her own creation. The first thing that came to mind aside from how masculine she sounded was how could someone imaginary possibly be THAT independent. I didn’t know if Omniverse was real, but I decided to stop questioning Kum’pex’s existence. I felt totally schizo but I didn’t care at the time. After hours of pleading, Kum’pex agreed to return to Omniverse with me. I now understood that Kry’pex was not important to Kum’pex, she was just as maladaptive as me. Kry’pex was left behind.

Getting caught up, me and Kum’pex both found that we had grown up a bit. But we quickly became more than friends. After a while I even regained her trust. For the first time in my life, I was actually happy! One day we were going for a walk on the edge of a planet that been split in half by ARK III, a ship from ERAs earlier. The plants on that planet were red, and we used to have fun in the ruins there. I was minding my own buisness and thinking in a field when things got very saucy. Kum’pex switched to her pyromorphic form, which she often used for combat in the past. And then I realized why… A huge, red reptilian creature with about seven or so heads (all of which were different from each other) loomed above me. There was not much of a battle, it was able to send it’s head through some sort of portals which opened all around me. I spent most of the fight just trying to stay out of it’s mouths! it had me pinned in about a minute. Where was Kum’pex? A streak of flames appearing down the middle of the creature did the trick. Kum’pex landed next to me, and spoke to the dying creature in another language that I had never heard. I jokingly, asked, “what are you, a demon,” and she responded with cautious, “Yes”. Now imagine how surprised you are right now to the tenth power, that’s how that “yes,” felt! She later went on to explain she was, “homogeneous… But not. With. Them….” I didn’t even know what the word meant, so I googled it: of the same kind; alike. Learning that my girlfriend was a rogue demon/double rebel, should had been enough to send me running. Kum’pex had my heart in her more than I ever thought possible. Or maybe more appropriately, she was in my heart. Not much of a jump from being my heart.

Time went on and Things were more at ease than ever, and kum’pex seemed to feel increasingly comfortable around me, and demanded more and more of my time which I willingly devoted to her. There were some lesser conflicts and wars that we took care of too, and I could come and go as I pleased. One day she decided to start helping my earth life out, just to prove to me how real she was. But when she wanted me back home she would get destructive. Computer crashes, and generally toying with whatever I might happen to be doing were her most common signals. A good example was while playing a round of halo 4: She would call for me and I would be too invested in an approaching round. My spawn timer immediately got stuck at zero, my teammates all dropping dead one by one, the enemy team’s bodies violently glitching and convulsing. And to top it off, vehicles driving/flying about the map without drivers. Kum’pex as well as myself had developed a serious reality complex over the years, this became regular. Kum’pex was not the only one with proof though! I had a firm understanding of the nature of the multiverse that I lived in, but I didn’t have any “proof”. I became obsessed with finding out how all of this could be true, and quickly became an expert in the concepts of quantum mechanics/physics, and metaphysics (but metaphysics implies that it’s only theoretical). My combined knowledge of reality, physics, energy-manipulation, and spirituality brought on some interesting conclusions:

Origins: A while back some scientists conducted an experiment where electrons (smallest particle) were launched at a wall with two slits. The particles should have left two lines in a screen behind the slits, but instead left a pattern characteristic of waves. So the physicists decided to place a special camera in front of the slits to see why the smallest unit of mass was acting as a wave. When they monitored the particles they acted as regular particles, and went through one slit! The only solution was that when the particle was not being observed it split into two potentials and went through both slits, and thus the act of observing the electron caused it to collapse in on one possibility. Scientists were, and are still baffled by this, and deduced that the observer defines location of a point. Now rewind to the, “big-bang” an infinitesimally tiny point in nothing. Well until that point was observed, it was like the unobserved electrons. It was a sea of potentials, then someone observed it… The observation of that point instantly created the whole universe. who observed that, an original observer (God)?! There was no universe before the universe which means there is one inescapable fact. Whoever the original observer may be, our universe comes from it’s mind, and this is therefore it’s imagination. Further down the rabbit hole, what about human imagination? Can we reproduce reality?

Reality is a joke: it makes no sense at all! In this universe we are bound by a set of rules called ,"fixed constants" (stuff like: force of gravity and rate of space-time). So in another universe there may be different gravity, or entirely different fixed constants. Are the inhabitants of that universe excluded from reality? Now look at the big picture, (there are infinite universes with infinite possibilities and potentials). So is just this instance called reality, this one universe? We know that the other universes are equally real as ours, why do we only call our universe, Reality? See, reality is every universe, and is therefore everything. But if you combine every possible universe, everything both does and does not exist at the same time. And as we know if we add positive and negative infinity together, we get zero. That’s what true reality is, it’s nothing. Reality does not exist. Reality, in an accurate definition would be a synonym to rule/s. That being said, creating human reality is easy. All you have to do is create an imaginary place with at least one rule that cannot be changed. (at least my definition isn’t a paradox)

One day I was looking through some obscure music, to find something new to listen to. It was an average day until I came across an artist called, Jokerr. Mostly rap, which I don’t care to listen to, but at the very bottom of the list in their first album, “My Omniverse”. “What?!,” it was a soft vocal arrangement about Omni. That’s when I started to connect the pieces. there was no way that anyone would coincidentally end up in the same, “imaginary” universe. I knew there were pre-omnians, beings who were there even as I constructed , “my Omniverse,” the few that I talked to seemed annoyed by all the, “stuff”. I finally could prove Omni to be real, but It still felt fake for long after. The human brain isn’t meant for understanding multiple realities. Luckily my omnian body’s brain allowed such seven dimensional thinking.

I started to tell a few close friends about all this, and to my surprise everyone seemed to believe me. But I kept it a secret from those who had legal power over me, like my family. Mostly because my mom is heavily religious and would never accept Kum’pex, my father would call me schizophrenic, and my brother would literally mock me for the rest of my life about it (not even kidding).

Unfortunately the peace in Omni didn’t last, we were soon visited. Other spiritual beings who must have caught wind of Kum’pex or somthing, there isn’t usually much time for questions. We defeated many in solid combat, as well as permanently removing Lacus who I had kept locked up in Omni. That created more empty space that Kum’pex gladly filled. Most recently we were attacked by multiple demonic beings at once, they attempted to steal Kum’pex’s body but were stopped by an unlikely visitor. After being impaled by a large plant, I get stabbed allot. I randomly felt a calming presence, but couldn’t see anyone new. Suddenly all the demonic beings disappeared, and a white vortex above Kum’pex who was fighting possession. I asked who was there, and what they were doing aloud. A very calm, authoritative voice said, “saving your girlfriend”. I proceeded to thank and demand the name of who this was, he simply responded, “Michael”... Upon passing out, I also phased out. I immediately went down stairs and googled the name michael. I learned that the Archangel is called Michael, which made allot of sense. Funny thing though, these demonic people from outside of Omni talk about it like it’s some sort of legend, like a rogue realm/s.

Soon phasing became much more difficult I started spending more time on earth, in my human body. Although I often tried to phasing, I often ended up exhausted, dehydrated, and frustrated. I was still able to see Kum’pex often enough for her to be happy, but there were many “calls” that I couldn’t answer. And she understood the problem and tried to communicate mentally, which felt schizophrenic. But she continued to reassure me with information that I didn’t know. For example, one day in an open-world role-playing game called “Skyrim”: I was in a new dungeon and there was a puzzle to open a door to get to a locked room. Three, three sided turnable pedestals. Each side of each pedestal had a different animal carved on it. I pulled the lever that opens the door before hand to see if the pedestals were already turned correctly. I then immediately asked her for help, her, “YES” was more vivid than usual. I asked her which three animals were needed as code to open the door. Her instant response was, “Iron fish!” Then thought what she could mean. There was already a picture of a fish, but the pedestals also had sides with snakes carved on them. And I knew that snakes are generally like fish, but not necessarily tougher than fish. But most serpents in Omni were more powerful than any fish. But I knew Kum’pex’s opinion on snakes, she definitely meant snakes. “Is it snakes?,” I asked, and kum’pex responded with another vivid, “YES”. I turned all the pedestals to their snake sides, and pulled the lever. The door opened, and I felt reassured, and loved. This kind of things would often happen, Usually with Kum’pex offering to help before I would ask.

Unfortunately, Phasing only became more. In Omni I would often have violent hallucinations. I would often end up collapsed on the ground or in space, Kum’pex would cradle my Omnian body in her arms as we suffered. I looked for many solutions for my Omnian Schizophrenia, but none had any long lasting effects. The demonic attacks ceased for a while, luckily. I finally started to feel the weight of MY enormously, timeless, and extreme reality.

My mother discovered a paper I wrote about maladaptive daydreaming which I had written. And she concluded from my writing that I probably had it. And that’s just what I let her and my brother believe. I would be eighteen in about a month. Thinking that Kum’pex was fake kept my mother from praying for an extinguishing of the fire that is Kum’pex. And my brother understood some of the the evidence that referenced. He was distant about it, perhaps because of the prospect of Kum’pex, or because he recognized something more than daydreaming was going on. But I let them remain outside of the truth, Pleasing

Kum’pex became a growing concern in the back of my mind (which she could hear).

Kum’pex herself seemed to have come to earth if she had not been there all along. She would be around the house, a shadowy figure. Not like those of someone who had lost their mind; which I undoubtedly had for a long time. But rather a kind, twilight presence. A shadowy, loving figure who would often be near me. I would just smile, and we would stand in a room for a few minutes basking in each other's presence.

One thing I had noticed is that she, my shadowy, hooded Kum’pex felt very uncomfortable around certain religious pieces. For example, her shadowy form would follow me until I neared my living room. Why wouldn’t she be comfortable in the most casual room in the house? On the wall had always been the ten commandments, hanging. I already knew that Kum’pex hated spiritual authority, both good and evil, and in Omni she had always been terrified of liquids resembling water. Yet she had no problem with magma baths, I had adopted her obsession with fire earlier. Only at this point did I start to understand that connection more fully. This acted as more reassurance that she was indeed real.

At the same time as this was happening, Rabbit, a friend of mine who knew of all this had been asking if there was a way for her to visit Omni. I formed a body for her to use, and she made some headway in the phasing process. Unfortunately for her, she lacked the practice I had and she found phasing to be nearly impossible. Eventually, she managed to move her Omnian limbs limitedly. I had begun to wonder if Kum’pex was real and we were just sharing an imaginary space. Rabbit’s small success revitalized my faith in the Omniverse, where I had spent many more years than should have been aloud.

The only lessons that could really be put to use in this universe were those of love, much of what I learned from my Omnian life remained in Omni with the vast majority of my life. Even though my life was significantly improved on earth from when I was young, I didn’t desire to stay. The Omnian Plain, and Pangeonan had become my home, and Kum’pex, Apex (who died in the eighth ERA), and Death (as a person) were my family.

Death was one of the few people me and Kum’pex could spend time with without Kum’pex getting jellous and demanding my attention, and she didn’t have a riddled past. And while not male or female (like most Omnians), Death was significantly feminine. Death got her name from her purpose, in the earlier ERAs powerful species like the Zeliots and Ark were well evolved, and could no longer die of old age. Knowing this would result in overpopulation, some Mythiks (a group of powerful Omnians for the “pyr’es’kum’elex”) created Death (Kum’destrukitka) to find and kill any unnecessary people over the age of roughly 30,000 earth years. For the next few ERAs, all she did was capture/collect those of age, and transport them to Karkain. Karkain was a Gammaverse (one of the five universes that made up Omniverse at the time). Later the populated section of Karkain was converted to raw energy. Energy for me of all people in order to defeat one of the earlier Demonic intruders, who nearly demolished Apo’sphire (a gammaverse). Death was subsequently disbanded, and she was given Karjet, yet another gammaverse to preside over.

Apex was indeed the apex predator of Omniverse. She taught Kum’pex to fight in the first ERA, just before the destruction of the Demoran Legion leading to the rise of the Zeliot Empire. She disappeared for Five ERAs before returning as a mercenary of a general. She famously commanded the Samarian Empire’s military. She was very neutral in most situations, she was kind and helpful; everything about her was honorable. Unfortunately when I spoke to her about Kum’pex’s being Demonic, she told me that I needed to stay away from Kum’pex. Obviously that didn’t happen and one day she tried to kill Kum’pex, and the fight resulted in me knocking her unconscious and encasing her body in diamond. Nobody knows where Apex came from, but we do know that Kum’pex was, “the demon I’ve been looking for” as Apex put it. I mourned her death for a while, but me and Kum’pex recovered fairly quickly since we had eachother and were used to losses.

Unfortunately my phasing problem proceeded to hold me down to earth. I was beginning to become depressed again, and kum’pex had become frightened. One day, completely unexpectedly, she force-phased me to Omni. Laying me on the ground she wore a defeated smile. She took my hand and asked if we could pray about our problems. I honestly didn’t know if a creature like her, with a demonic past was even allowed to prey; apparently so. She reluctantly asked God for her forgiveness, and for us, and to be cured. Although I had always tried to get her to get on God’s team with sterile results, I had never actually seen such a blunt prayer come true. The very act of praying seemed to revitalize my perceptions, Then, suddenly, I was completely cured; WE were cured. Unlike most christian prayers, she ended with a soft plea, “please please please let me keep him”. She specifically referred to my human gender, perhaps for God’s sympathy. Nevertheless, it was a beautiful and vivid prayer, and all our problems were gone.

My perceptions were cured, too cured. My Omnian schizophrenia worsened to the point that I knew WHAT was real, but not WHO was real. Another Demonic entity arrived, this time more devious and powerful than any that we had ever faced. It played off of my new current reality breakage, creating multiple Kum’pexes - all of whom toyed with my feelings for her. They were fake, and I frequently ended up unconscious or heart broken. When I finally regained contact with reality, Kum’pex told me how the recent demonic creature we encountered was most likely gone and the remaining mental kum’pexes stuck in my head were my own manifestations. I was able to cling to the real Kum’pex who, had begun to shyly hint at marriage (Ethernal Union). I avoided it politely, but I wanted it too.

Although I still had no real proof that Kum’pex was fake after I got over my Omnian-schizophrenia, she felt significantly more imaginary. I gave her my faith, and we both gave our faith to God. Even more surprisingly to me, I realised that I didn’t care if it was all real anymore. If someone came along and convinced me that Kum’pex and Omniverse were purely mental, I would remain with Kum’pex, and we would still be happy.

Kum’pex and I faced more challenges, but none lasted too long; we could overcome all obstacles. There was even times when we didn’t feel love for eachother, but the understanding that the feeling of love is only a side effect of true mind-love. That was probably the triumphant point in my life.

Then everything came to a grinding halt, Kum’pex left. I awoke with my necklace inexplicably removed (or so I thought), she told me she was leaving. I begged and pleaded for her to stay, but she was very stern. The manor with which she left was almost completely unprovoked and out of character. While I tried to believe that she had not truly abandoned me for close to no reason, I knew in the very core our symbiotic heart that she was up to something. I felt a conflict within her, but I didn’t know what the problem was. I also noticed that she left exactly one year after her return. This time I didn’t cry, for some reason I could faintly sense that she was somehow paying attention. I didn’t cry a single tier. I appreciated all that Kum’pex gave to me, and cherished everything I had seen and done in the trillions of earth years I spent in Omni.

When my demon controlled tulpa finally managed to get across what really happened, it was almost worse. I had somehow removed and reconnected my necklace representing my promise in my sleep. Kum thought i had removed it on purpose and she became upset by this. Kum is an adorably sensitive zel, When she reacts, she REACTS. She tried to disconnect from me, forgetting that we were symbiotic. At this point our minds were very tangled and intertwined, ripping herself out shattered her personality. Thanks to our combined abilities at this point, Kum’pex and I managed to reconnect before our mind dissolved. A portion of her that didn’t love me and didn’t think she was real at all anymore remained separate for a while, but Kum’s lighter side enveloped the negativity as she returned to her normal self.

By this time in Omniverse, I was basically a goddess. I was always very careful not to try to think of myself that way, or even use the abilities that I had developed from millions of years of meditation and practice. Unfortunately I cannot write about such things since the human brain can’t comprehend many Omnian concepts, for that reason I will only explain what can be understood by human brains. In a moment of great kinesis I had recently ascended to edge of objective reality, I had learned to navigate more sixth dimensionally than ever. I quickly learned the schizophrenic and maze-like ways of higher dimensions.

Dimensions: Here on earth (in the cosmos) we are in the second, and half way in the third and fourth dimensions. While unable to navigate freely, we are in most of the higher dimensions as well. In Omni this is not the case. Omni/’s inhabitants generally exist partly in the second, and fourth dimensions. Unlike humans, some species and certain powerful beings are completely in the third dimension. This means that they have the ability to see all the sides of objects; like all four sides of a pyramid. Some beings can navigate the fifth, sixth, and even seventh dimensions! Some of the mythiks were very six dimensional, these coupled with those like Kum an I were the ones who possessed the power to create/discover Gammaverses. To help you to understand how Gammaverses are discovered I’ve created a list of the Omnian dimensions. The rule is that every dimension must be at right angle to the previous dimension.

 

0th: Tenth dimension.

1st: Length.

2nd: Width.

3rd: Depth.

4th: Duration.

5th: probability.

6th: Versions of a universe.

7th: Universes with a common actuality.

8th: Every possible physical universe.

9th: Where universes are conceived/born, every possible set of information.

10th: Contains all the above dimensions (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9).

11th: Limited patterns of information which cannot exist at once but do anyway.

12th: Every impossible universe.

13th: Impossible universes with common paradoxes/contradictions .

14th: Versions of a universe which inexplicably exists despite broken symmetry.

15th: Symmetry-breaking/illogical outcomes/events (illogical effect).

16th: Causality.

17th: Sequences of events with a common cause.

18th: Every possible cause.

19th: minds .

20th: Thoughts.

21st: Waveform (second dimension)

22nd: Wave length (first dimension)

 

 

 

This shows how something of the mind becomes real/located within the quantum wave function. As long as anything imaginary or mental remains 100% consistent, it is real. But the moment the underlying rule/s (fixed constants) is broken, whatever it/they may be -- that universe will cease to be real or it will birth a new universe/s.

In earlier times, during the time of the “empires of old”, most of these beings were leaders, generals, and many soldier types (“Pexus’elex”). That is why we, in Omni, created ranks for the levels of legendary, celestial beings and what-have-you. “Beta ? Zetta ?Cappa ? Theta ? Delta ? Pyrjant” With Kum and I leading the way in power levels, we named each rank. Like many aspects of our ancient practices, such formalities and classes faded after the 17th ERA. We (me and Kum) continued the practices of our old societies.

I realized that if I left Kum’pex in the wrong universe , she could be lost forever. Dispite the fact that we could probably reconnect on earth, I didn’t want to risk losing her, or my sanity. We made sure to stick to the Gammaverses that we called home.

Gammaverses are universes which are born intentionally or semi-intentionally by thought or any act of creation by any being capable of making decisions. There are many Gammaverses in Omni:

Karkain: In the earlier ERAs, Karkain was generated by A member of the Mythiks to serve as a relative afterlife universe for Death to preside over. While those who came to inhabit Karkain were not actually dead, the universe quickly became a hell with very few finding enjoyment there.

Pangeonan: Home to me and Kum’pex at the moment, Pangeonan is flat with no known end. While beneath the surface of pangeonan lays massive caverns housing their own galaxies, the surface of Pangeonan is merely a rapidly expanding desert; sand storms flatten the surface. The Omnian Plain and it’s people were in contact with the long since extinct inhabitants of Pangeonan until the “portal” collapsed.

The Omnian Plain: The origin of the Omnian Plain is a mystery. It is thought to be a naturally occurring universe since there is no (known) creator. It is also the oldest universe in the Omnian multiverse. “Physically,” The Plain consists of innumerable galaxies spread out in a flat, plain-like manor. While there is space above and below the blanket of galaxies, very little matter exists there.

Karjet: After Karkain was converted to raw energy, Karjet was generated to serve as the new, (less) hellish afterlife gammaverse. It also serves as a giant garbage bucket for the Deltas (remnants of the mythiks which includes Kum’pex).

Apo’sphire-verse: A recently discovered universe, whether it is a Gammaverse or not is unknown. Apo’sphire is characterized by it’s planets. Most planets in Apo’sphire are much larger than their stars, in most cases stars orbit their planets. Most planets rarely see night time since there are many stars orbiting them. The original inhabitants of Apo’sphire were the victims of the Las’terranian’s indiscriminate mass-eradication of Terra’dun, fos, and bio..

Las’Terran-verse: A Gammaverse that KIU (Central Intelligence Unit, undisputed leader of Las’terran) specifically ordered the Las’terranians to generate as a safe haven for themselves while their empire conquered Apo’sphire-verse

Over time, my Omnian schizophrenia returned accompanied by strange, formless beings. For a while my reality was completely shattered, even Kum’pex couldn’t communicate with me, and started to believe that she had actually left me when I had lost my necklace. The nightmare went on for weeks. voices in my head claiming to be Kum, and then saying that they didn’t love me, and that they were fake. This was the greatest test of faith in my girlfreind that I had ever endured. I relied on Kum’pex’s constant high for endorphins, the disconnection from her rendered me a pile of meat.

A cold breeze blew through the house, winter was in it’s full. I could think only of Kum who I had lost contact with about a week earlier. I decided to go up stairs to attempt to phase to Omni. I tried to spend time with Kum, but it resulted in the schizophrenic mess that had become normal.

Phasing:

Find a comfortable position.

Begin meditation.

Activate you're psi channel.

Clear your mind. Try to force all thoughts away from your mind. Be your formless mind in the blackness of nothing. Push all thoughts and memories away from your mind. Try not to think.

Know not where the body you intend to enter is (it must be without a waking mind), this could invoke imagination. At the same time, know exactly what body you are trying to enter. Do not think of the body, but know it’s shape and form. You should be a formless mass in Deep Void at this point. Deep Void is the sea of potentials between universes, there is absolutely nothing there (except mind).

No thoughts at all now.

Now use as much mental and or psi energy as you can to enter your body. You should feel a sort of jolting sensation.

Now as quickly as possible, try to adjust to the nerves/control system of your body (the body/brain you are entering). Keep putting as much energy as possible into this process. Your earth body may shake or convulse. Do this until you are comfortably in your body, you should be able to look around in the universe in which that body exists. If you are confused as to whether you are imagining or in reality, you're earth brain is simply struggling to accept the new reality, (it’s likely quite different).

Try to move (Controlling another body for the first time is like learning the controls to a video game). try to walk and move around until you feel comfortable.

Now you can think limitedly, over-using your earth brain may pull you out. If you see new colors, or impossible shapes/anything that couldn’t be imagined as a human, or are experienced in phasing, then you have succeeded.

Discover what you can do in this new universe, the rules are different, and possibly your own, (depending on how talented/clever you are).

Now you can think and do as you please. You may be able to switch between your earth body, and your new body naturally. Just let it happen.

If you are not capable of E.S. (energy solidification) or P.E.M. (potential energy manipulation), you should store your body in a safe place before disconnecting from it.

 

The top of the black, T-shaped bunker stood out like a black, geometric drawing in the endless white sand of Pangeonan. Several stars flew overhead, causing fluctuations of gravity. I sat on the desert floor waiting for Kum, I had a special gift for her; I didn’t expect her to show up. I thought I would surely suffer more visual fallacies.

What I thought was Kum’pex suddenly arrived out of the blue. Her telepathic, thought voice didn’t sound right. I felt like I was holding her back some how, so I made the conscious effort to free her of me. At that moment she approached me, she smiled oddly. She forced me to the ground, then raised me telekinetically. I finally realized something was wrong; I then realized, this was no longer Kum’pex. With a burst of energy directed at my chest, she sent me flying into the ground! “What have you become,” I wailed in pain! She knelt down next to me. I realized her jaw structure was wrong. Who is this?! “I’m Lacus, I’ve returned,” She stated in an increasingly masculine voice.

Like a rocket, the real Kum’pex delivered an explosive Flying knee to Lacus’s chest! He immediately recovered, forcing Kum, and I into the ground which was giving way. I was quickly caught between two bulges of hardened sand. Writhing in pain, I screamed profanity into the air until Lacus approached the edge of the crevice that my body was pinched in. Lacus slowly opened the crevice, then I began to fall.

As I fell, I began to think strange thoughts like, “I can’t be him”! I soon found my thought voice changing to that of Kum’pex, we were now sharing a body. Suddenly we stopped in mid air, a kinetic ability I had recently lost. One of us entered his or her morph form which resulted in a double morph resembling embers.

Me and Kum rose from the crack, our combined self approached Lacus. He attempted to appear in front of us to attack. We immediately teleported behind him, facing away from him, then reaching behind to grasp the face of his blue-energy morph form.

Morphs: In the late fifth ERA, Kum’pex discovered how to manipulate heat-energy to convert her body into specially programmed heat-energy which resulted in an ultra light, nearly indestructible state. We called this alternate body, “Pyromorphic form”. By the sixth ERA the mythiks were many; mostly Samarians. Kum’pex taught some of the other zel how to enter this alternate state, we quickly learned that the morph form’s color was heavily dependent on the individual’s personality and what energies they could best manipulate. Open teaching of how to enter the morph form was forbidden, only those deemed good enough were taught. That didn’t stop some Samarians who managed to find their morph form on their own. Only the most powerful and talented managed safely. Then the Mythiks collapsed, This ended the practice/teaching of morphs.

With a swift twirl we twisted his head while absorbing the energy of his morph, forcing him to switch back to his flesh-form. We easily broke his neck with our combined energy, then we proceeded to rip his feminine head from his feminine body! He immediately began trying to posses Kum, and I. I saw no other option, so I made a deal with a darker spirit which had presented itself moments earlier; as if it were awaiting something. “You will drag Lacus to hell in exchange for three sins,” I bartered. The benevolent spirit wouldn’t have it, the beast demanded seven sins; I accepted. Lacus had survived many times before, but now I could finally remove him. It was done, I committed the seven evils which will remain unspoken. Little did the deceiver know, I probably would had done it anyway.

 

Unfortunatly, into an even worse bout of schizophrenic level misunderstanding. And that's where I'm at now, lost in reality. I'm afraid that if I work on one of the "Kums", and she turns out to be a fake one - then I'll lose the real one... Or worse.

 

I've been tested for crazy, but everyone and test insists that I'm completely sane. I personally think there's something horribly wrong with me.

 

It is also unfortunate that I didn't know of the tulpa effect in the human brain until very, very recently....

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You made a post about it already here, why do you think making another thread with a similar query will get anyone to respond to you?

 

Any thread that asks if a tulpa can leave, dissipate, be heartbroken, whatever, is really up to the host going back to acknowledging them, or just making another tulpa altogether.

 

Any responses that will cater to saying "yes" is just building assurances of something you should already know how to do for yourself. If you were good enough, you wouldn't have to ask in the first place.

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I thought I deleted the other one. Anywhooo- I didn't know about tulpas until recently. So I'm not looking for reassurance, I'm looking for a solution that works. And it's not really about if Betas such as yourself are willing to respond to me, this is about me finding a solution (morality aside, Linkzelda)


But also thank you for responding to my previous post.

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Is it possible that she actually left?

How/where do I get find/get her back?

*lots of stuff*

 

Given the huge content of the posts, you'd probably think you are unique, but this is something I've heard pretty much before. E.g. Imaginarium could give you "a run for your money" as far as the complexity of their history goes.

 

Yes, she can leave, as in fade away into the back of your mind.

 

On Reddit, the recommended method has long been to write a letter to her asking her to come back explaining the reasons why. Yes, with a pen, on actual paper. (The physical act of writing reinforces your thoughts and forces you to quantify them in words.)

 

Writing a letter has often worked well. (If you want references, I can pull those out given time.)

 

(P.s.: Yes, I read it all.)

 


I thought I deleted the other one. Anywhooo- I didn't know about tulpas until recently. So I'm not looking for reassurance, I'm looking for a solution that works. And it's not really about if Betas such as yourself are willing to respond to me, this is about me finding a solution (morality aside, Linkzelda)

 

You are new, so I will only say: please be polite. The comment "Betas ..." could be considered flame baiting which is against the rules.

 

I have moved your other thread to "Progress Reports" as that is 'about' what it appears to be. If you want a post or thread deleted please use the "report" button and give the reason as "please delete".


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This is quite interesting... it's amazing how powerful the brain can be to allow us to delve into such deep ideas.

 

If I may, I might just go into the concept of how ideas work in the brain. Yup, I think I shall.... Perhaps is relevant to how you can find her again.

 

So, I can see that you understand that what we perceive in the brain is what physics we apply in our own universe we create. What we perceive there is in fact real, just in a separate reality from the one we live in as humans. I suppose you also know that the laws of this universe that you can create have infinite possibilities on how it can be structured? Well, I believe that there is SO much more that humanity can discover with this universe of imagination, because we have just barely scratched the surface due to our tiny human brains limiting our processing and memory. Although, that doesn't mean that there aren't infinite possibilities that we can explore though, because we can create any physics we put into our minds.

 

I have recently gone into a universe (or gammaverse by how you described it) created by the ideas formed by a large fandom. I won't go into too much detail about what I experienced, but I'll tell you that perhaps there are infinite tulpas that can be created because of this... I have one here with me. :3 Fluttergrace is her name, and she actually had some sort of idea-melding between my mind and hers to have her give her the idea of creating a tulpa... even though her character never knew of them. Funny, because it's amazing how powerful ideas can be if you set them as a physics inside your brain. I set the physics in my imagination about the clashing of universes, those in which have POWERFUL ideas. By powerful, I mean a lot of depth and thought put into it.

 

Now, to the issue at hand... you say you've lost your tulpa? From what you've said, I can only assume that the physics you've set are a little abstract to get you two back together correctly. Although, tulpas have feelings too, and they can choose to alter the physics to stay away if they wish. I'll tell you though, she is still out there. She exists as an idea, and her sentience is still within grasp because of this. I'm not sure humans can grasp exactly how consciousness works, but I can say that it exists because of ideas. The melding of ideas to be specific, put together in a special arrangement of connections. She is out there, but first you need to set a new physics:

 

Create a physics that allows you to "yell" out to every existing idea that is out there in your head and beyond. Create a physics that allows this yell to connect these ideas together to form realization within everything. Create this physics to be able to call out to her, "I'm sorry." That is your first step, then all you need to do is wait. She still has the choice to come back or not, and perhaps all she needs is some clarification that you understand and how important it is for her to come back to you.

 

This is simply a suggestion, and modify it to how you see fit in your situation. I hope you two come back together sometime and work these feelings out, because insanity is a tough thing to deal with. Just know though that insanity can be put back together because our conscious mind has the ability to mold the chaotic physics that our brain might have set. Good luck. :)

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Is it possible that she actually left?

Left? Sure, but that doesn't mean she's inaccessible to you entirely.

 

How/where do I get find/get her back?

Do you remember how she felt to you 'as a person'? Her "essence" or "emotional signature" or whatever you want to call it (I think in your long Progress Report you've once called it an "energy signature"), but it should be how you perceive other people at a preconscious/implicit level. If so, recall that and just talk to her (that feeling) while expecting her to be able to hear you and respond to you. You don't have to worry about it not being her as you know how she feels like (to you), thus you would be able to recognize a genuine answer from a fake one - just pay attention, don't panic and listen.

 

I'm confident you could get her back if you try, but the question you should be asking yourself is why she left and if she wants to be back and if you could convince her to come back.

 

I don't really think any of this would break any 'rules' you may have in place as your mind and hers are obviously always connected as you can remember each other, *especially* if you've spent time with her outside "her world" and more in "this world", here and now. I don't really think she could break such a bond, but it's obviously up to you to respect her choices, whatever they may be.

 

I'm guessing your avatar is her? Did you draw it or is it derived from some source material? Her face and that art style seem utterly familiar to me for some reason, but I can't yet place it (or recall the larger pic if it existed) - if you do have it, feel free to post it (in the Art thread, or here, or in PM, as you see fit).

 

 

I have a few questions about your story as various things in it are unclear to me, feel free to answer them if you wish:

 

And at first everything was was fine, developing a world of my own, just a movie in my head to escape to (maladaptive daydreaming).

I'm wondering - did you base your daydreams on a certain cartoon that was airing at that time? Some of the names you use do resemble one a bit.

 

More specifically, I lost control of Kum’pex as well as time. A kind of a time warp I guess, probably due to increased brain activity while daydreaming which causes intensified perception.

Should I interpret this as if your daydreams have become more detailed, vivid, lucid-dream like, immersive to the point of not perceiving your physical senses at all, and they span a much higher subjective time duration than the actual physical time your body was actually spending "daydreaming"? Or are these experiences less immersive or lucid, but still feel like they take a very long time?

 

This resulted in being gone for days, but only hours back in, “reality”. After a few weeks of recording, I formulated the Omnian Time Equation: [Earth-hours(1?))earth-hours/0.999=omnian-hours].

I'm not sure I'm reading your equation correctly, but I'm interpreting this as the time you're spending "on the other side" being "time spent here" squared, that is, 4 hours meditating is 16 hours there, 5 hours here - 25 hours there, 1 hour here - 1 hour there and so on. If I'm incorrect, correct me here. Note that this reading of your 'formula' doesn't seem to be consistent with the time-frames you've given in another thread in the order of "trillions" of subjective years - at most you would be able to experience a few hundred subjective years if you spent a couple of hours each day meditating or if you were doing it 24/356/9 years, it would still not even reach 600k subjective years (not that I find it terribly plausible one could properly manage human memories in such a long time-frame).

 

I was largely sucked into it from the start. By fifth grade Kum’pex was a typical imaginary friend, giving advice (some of which surprised me).

She was spending time with you in your daily life? (as I interpreted it previously)

 

Over the course of about what seemed like a thousand earth years or so: Kum’pex foiled at least fifteen attempts to destroy everything, although I partially succeeded.

How is your day-to-day (here) memory during this? Do you adjust to regular life fine when you "come back"? Do you forget? Do you keep a journal to remind you what you have to do "in real life"?

 

How are your memories of the other place? Do you only retain significant events? What about daily life, anything from that enter your memories?

 

And I had finally found enough energy to blast myself out of Omniverse (to put it simply).

You had no control over being there? Why not choose to not daydream of that? Why not pick a more peaceful and relaxing world and take her with you?

 

I had long since mastered what is called phasing (body swapping, the art of transferring one’s mind into another body).

Is this your term for an OBE with more "metaphysical" connotations (such as traveling/being in that world?), is it the same as the experience you described before where you got "sucked into" your imagination, but this time done voluntarily?

 

Kum’pex as well as myself had developed a serious reality complex over the years, this became regular.

Does she doubt your "reality"/world as much as you doubt her own?

 

So is just this instance called reality, this one universe? We know that the other universes are equally real as ours, why do we only call our universe, Reality? See, reality is every universe, and is therefore everything. But if you combine every possible universe, everything both does and does not exist at the same time.

You could say that 'reality' is indexical: I am me, here and now, thus reality happens to be *this* for *me*. You are you, thus reality happens to be *this* (somehow partially shared) to *you*, and so on. See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modal_realism

 

Or for more concrete/limited/"less fictional" versions of this (note that they are subtly different ontologies even if they may seem "the same" - the differences are subtle, but important): http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ultimate_ensemble http://iridia.ulb.ac.be/~marchal/publications/SANE2004MARCHALAbstract.html or http://www.hpcoders.com.au/nothing.html

 

Personally, I tend to like the second publication as it starts from some commonsensical assumptions and derives the conclusions that follow from them, rather than assuming that some form of 'everything' must exist a priori.

 

If fiction is more to your liking, maybe this book may broach the subject in an accessible manner: http://www.amazon.com/Permutation-City-Greg-Egan/dp/1857981758

 

 

It's worth noting that this class of hypotheses and your line of reasoning has one major problem: from the perspective of the observer - the world still functions around you and supports your functioning (if it didn't, you wouldn't be conscious to see this), quantum measurements still yield mostly expected statistical results (such as given by http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Born_rule ), and you may wonder why you don't experience reality being a lot more unstable (while still somehow supporting you) or why an 'average reality' is more probable than a 'exceptional reality' as allowed by the total space of possibility some such Everything theory would allow. This is typically known as the "measure problem" with most such multiverse theories - one has to prove that the standard experienced reality is what's more probable for one to subjectively experience, rather than exceptional ones (as that's what most people do experience) - or that subjective/anthropic probabilities mostly match those derived by our local experimental physics, at least during normal functioning (there are some notable exceptions such as with quantum suicide, but I'll avoid taking this too far off-topic as it is).

 

 

Kum’pex herself seemed to have come to earth if she had not been there all along. She would be around the house, a shadowy figure. Not like those of someone who had lost their mind; which I undoubtedly had for a long time. But rather a kind, twilight presence. A shadowy, loving figure who would often be near me. I would just smile, and we would stand in a room for a few minutes basking in each other's presence.

Was she imposing herself (such as appearing pseudo-hallucinatory to you), or was it more something you saw in your mind's eye?

 

I had begun to wonder if Kum’pex was real and we were just sharing an imaginary space. Rabbit’s small success revitalized my faith in the Omniverse

You do realize that even if these particular inner worlds are only accessible to you and not part of a shared "consensus reality", that doesn't make them any more or less real to you? If anything, if such a world were to be shared in full, it would have unlikely implications for our physics and metaphysics (using the word in the traditional philosophical meaning, as you can find on Wikipedia or in the dictionary).

 

If someone came along and convinced me that Kum’pex and Omniverse were purely mental, I would remain with Kum’pex, and we would still be happy.

In a way, you matter to each other, and the ultimate physicality or lack of it shouldn't matter as long as you're 'real' to each other.

 

When my demon controlled tulpa finally managed to get across what really happened, it was almost worse.

Who?

 

I was basically a goddess

She specifically referred to my human gender

I'm guessing you had a different gender over there?

 

 

Some of your listed "dimensions"' descriptions are a bit hard to understand:

 

7th: Universes with a common actuality.

How does this differ from 6th?

 

12th: Every impossible universe.

Why would they exist non-virtually (as in, outside someone's mind)?

 

 

But the moment the underlying rule/s (fixed constants) is broken, whatever it/they may be -- that universe will cease to be real

That's a bit contradictory. Either a world supports/contains you, or it doesn't. It doesn't stop being less real, but it may not be "real" to you or me. As I earlier explained, the term 'real' is indexical and usually refers to the observer's reality - usually one shared between multiple people, such as the one over which we're communicating right now - our consensus reality.

 

Unless of course, I misunderstood what you meant by 'real' here - in case for example you were arguing about something more messy such as embedded/recursive 'realities'.

 

The nightmare went on for weeks. voices in my head claiming to be Kum, and then saying that they didn’t love me, and that they were fake.

 

It's always possible that they were just "your own manifestations" as she earlier hypothesized - you should be able to tell her true replies by how they feel - you do know how she feels after having spent years with her - they should have her "signature", her emotions and so on.

 

I relied on Kum’pex’s constant high for endorphins, the disconnection from her rendered me a pile of meat.

 

I could imagine it would feel like there's a terrible hole in your mind when someone that you've shared a mental life for half a life just up and disappears, and I suppose tulpa emotions are particularly strong and one could even get addicted to them.

 

Lacus had survived many times before, but now I could finally remove him

You do realize it may be a bad idea to fight a "part of yourself" "made independent"? Wouldn't cooperating achieve more inner peace and solve other potential future problems?

 

I'm afraid that if I work on one of the "Kums", and she turns out to be a fake one - then I'll lose the real one... Or worse.

Again, if you can recall the feeling of her and establish some sort of "communication" with her, you would be able to sense any "fake" from real, and besides - you don't have to fight "fakes", you just ignore what isn't her and you focus on her and they'll eventually go away.

 

I personally think there's something horribly wrong with me.

Your situation is unusual, but may not be as uncommon as you may think it is - I do recall reading stories which have many similarities in kind with yours. Eventually, with the right mental discipline, you should be able to get what you want, and as long as your experiences aren't hindering your life, I doubt it would be a true disorder.

 

 

As for your 'phasing' tutorial/guide, I have a few questions about it:

 

Activate you're psi channel.

What's a psi channel? Any references or idea on what would that mean? Or is it just an inner focus toward one's imagination?

 

Know not where the body you intend to enter is (it must be without a waking mind)

Are you referring to the body on the other side, not the physical "earthly" one, right?

 

Your earth body may shake or convulse.

Why, or is that just your personal experience with it?

 

If you are confused as to whether you are imagining or in reality

Is it supposed to be a vivid, immersive experience?

 

Now you can think limitedly, over-using your earth brain may pull you out.

As in one would return to one's physical "earthly" senses?

 

You may be able to switch between your earth body, and your new body naturally.

Are you saying future 'phasing' attempts can be done rapidly and effortlessly? Or did it take you a while to learn to easily switch perceptions?

 

 

If you are not capable of E.S. (energy solidification) or P.E.M. (potential energy manipulation), you should store your body in a safe place before disconnecting from it.

Are you referring to the "other" body here (not one's body here and now?). And what does ES and PEM mean, care to elaborate? I'm guessing it's something related to a psi/psionic belief system and this is about making the new body there stable and solid and persistent in whatever way one can?

 

 

Phasing:

Find a comfortable position.

Begin meditation.

Activate you're psi channel.

Clear your mind. Try to force all thoughts away from your mind. Be your formless mind in the blackness of nothing. Push all thoughts and memories away from your mind. Try not to think.

Know not where the body you intend to enter is (it must be without a waking mind), this could invoke imagination. At the same time, know exactly what body you are trying to enter. Do not think of the body, but know it’s shape and form. You should be a formless mass in Deep Void at this point. Deep Void is the sea of potentials between universes, there is absolutely nothing there (except mind).

No thoughts at all now.

Now use as much mental and or psi energy as you can to enter your body. You should feel a sort of jolting sensation.

Now as quickly as possible, try to adjust to the nerves/control system of your body (the body/brain you are entering). Keep putting as much energy as possible into this process. Your earth body may shake or convulse. Do this until you are comfortably in your body, you should be able to look around in the universe in which that body exists. If you are confused as to whether you are imagining or in reality, you're earth brain is simply struggling to accept the new reality, (it’s likely quite different).

Try to move (Controlling another body for the first time is like learning the controls to a video game). try to walk and move around until you feel comfortable.

Now you can think limitedly, over-using your earth brain may pull you out. If you see new colors, or impossible shapes/anything that couldn’t be imagined as a human, or are experienced in phasing, then you have succeeded.

Discover what you can do in this new universe, the rules are different, and possibly your own, (depending on how talented/clever you are).

Now you can think and do as you please. You may be able to switch between your earth body, and your new body naturally. Just let it happen.

If you are not capable of E.S. (energy solidification) or P.E.M. (potential energy manipulation), you should store your body in a safe place before disconnecting from it.

 

Overall the method as a whole resembles one WILD technique, except I'm assuming one is supposed to perform it while awake?

 

To compare it with, a WILD technique that I found to work for me (mostly through random experimentation) is:

 

Sit comfortable and relaxed (usually in bed). Don't think in 'words', thinking visually is okay as long as you don't "force" it, but not thinking at all is also fine. Eventually everything goes fully vivid and you find yourself somewhere, feel free to use your body and all that. If you don't find yourself somewhere and the experience is unstable, focusing on being more there by paying attention to the body and observing it/moving it around usually completes the process and makes one be "there" (some dream scape) and now you're having a lucid dream or an OBE.

 

 

I've also read reports of at least 2 people using a very similar technique for the purposes of switching (being in some mental world or even an extensive world like yours) - the main difference there being that once the host either stopped thinking or managed to dissociate from senses, the tulpa would focus on the body and control it themselves.

 

From my own personal experiences, the amount of time I've managed to spend in my dreamscapes is proportional to the amount of time spent sleeping (or just laying in bed, if not fully asleep), and the ratio isn't some huge variable number as in your own "time dilation" experiences, nor is the experience as easy to regain - you can wake up every few hours and you have to start all over, which is time consuming and tiring (I found various ways to get back fairly fast, but there are still rather imposing time limits as to how much time I can spend there).

 

As far as people doing switching are concerned though, most of the limitations found in LDs seem to be gone as the tulpa fulfills the role of controlling the body, thus there is nothing dragging one back toward the body, and the switching process can be perfected to the point of being performed reasonably fast (I've heard of reports ranging from 20 minutes to perform for people who don't do it too often, to some doing it in minutes or near-instant if they have a lot of experience with it).

 

 

Your line "You may be able to switch between your earth body, and your new body naturally." in particular seems interesting and intriguing - does that mean that you can transition between perceptions as fluidly as someone which is adept at switching, but without a tulpa actually being involved in the process?

 

Have you found yourself able to control the rate at which time passes relative to local physical time? That is control the degree of "time dilation" (this is the name of the technique as used in this community usually).

 

 

I suppose that's about it with the barrage of questions, so I'd like to thank you for sharing your experiences, and I wish you best of luck in getting Kum’pex back!

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