Ice909 January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 12 minutes ago, TB said: Yeah Simmie that is very sweet. I'm glad you all like me then. I often just fear or feel like maybe I'm secretly hated by everyone sometimes lol, and eventually am just trying to become comfortable with the idea of not being liked because making myself not fear being not liked is too hard unless I get constant positive reinforcement, which I get a decent amount perhaps, but I guess AvPD sucks monkey nuts Most of my "good" qualities I feel can be interpretted as bad. Like my determination to never give up on drawing despite the immense suffering it has caused me and any logically person would probably have given it up, but that isn't an option for me. Same applies to tulpamancy a bit unfortunately too but I owe Rena her existence and a good one, and I want her around. It is just I naturally suck at most things. Therapists like to try and say I am nice, but am I? I am just conflict averse so I am respectful, but I let people walk over me and it just builds up until a violent angry explosion happens, so no I don't really think that is a good thing, if that is what it means for me to be nice. There are probably many other things I could go through I can relate to virtually all of this. Hey there, the name's Bryan. In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of April, 2023, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, and Esper(sub-rep). After over 2 long years, we can finally switch :) Bryan is currently swapped in as host, Esper is sub-rep. "There used to be 7 wonders of the world, but now there's 8, as everyone wonders how much of a fool you are." Ice909#0065 -- Always down for a chat https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Breloomancer January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 there are definitely people on these forums who I dislike. I'm not gonna name names though; everyone can just be paranoid wondering if they are the one I have a tulpa named Miela who I love very much. How we got here | Share your experimental tulpamancy ideas | My unhinged ramblings "People put quotes in their signatures, right?" -Me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TurboSimmie January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 I can tell you carry around a large emotional burden TB. I'm so sorry that things happened in your life to cause you to be this way! 🤗 The important thing to realize here is when you have irrational thoughts, for example thinking everyone secretly hates you, they are basically mental misfires caused by having to adapt to bad situations in your past. When you were younger bad things would happen to you that you couldn't understand, so under great pressure to come up with some kind of explanation your brain would come up with incorrect negative ideas to explain why you "deserved" to be treated so poorly, and subconsciously you're still living with this today. You might not be able to stop these thoughts from coming. But you can rob them of their power. Once you understand their source and recognize their illegitimacy, it will become shockingly easy to brush them off. You might not get there quickly but you will get there. Tulpa Wife & Mother! 💚 💍 11.28.21 👶 4.7.23 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ice909 January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 I don't think it's me Bre <3 Just now, TurboSimmie said: I can tell you carry around a large emotional burden TB. I'm so sorry that things happened in your life to cause you to be this way! 🤗 The important thing to realize here is when you have irrational thoughts, for example thinking everyone secretly hates you, they are basically mental misfires caused by having to adapt to bad situations in your past. When you were younger bad things would happen to you that you couldn't understand, so under great pressure to come up with some kind of explanation your brain would come up with incorrect negative ideas to explain why you "deserved" to be treated so poorly, and subconsciously you're still living with this today. You might not be able to stop these thoughts from coming. But you can rob them of their power. Once you understand their source and recognize their illegitimacy, it will become shockingly easy to brush them off. You might not get there quickly but you will get there. ^ Hey there, the name's Bryan. In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of April, 2023, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, and Esper(sub-rep). After over 2 long years, we can finally switch :) Bryan is currently swapped in as host, Esper is sub-rep. "There used to be 7 wonders of the world, but now there's 8, as everyone wonders how much of a fool you are." Ice909#0065 -- Always down for a chat https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TB January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 Thank you Creation for creation's sake. More of my drawings Resident Dojikko Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ice909 January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 jessir Hey there, the name's Bryan. In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of April, 2023, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, and Esper(sub-rep). After over 2 long years, we can finally switch :) Bryan is currently swapped in as host, Esper is sub-rep. "There used to be 7 wonders of the world, but now there's 8, as everyone wonders how much of a fool you are." Ice909#0065 -- Always down for a chat https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TB January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 Out of the 4 I messaged, one has replied so far and talked to me for about 2 hours so far Creation for creation's sake. More of my drawings Resident Dojikko Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ice909 January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 goodness me Hey there, the name's Bryan. In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of April, 2023, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, and Esper(sub-rep). After over 2 long years, we can finally switch :) Bryan is currently swapped in as host, Esper is sub-rep. "There used to be 7 wonders of the world, but now there's 8, as everyone wonders how much of a fool you are." Ice909#0065 -- Always down for a chat https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TB January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 tummy ache for no reason Creation for creation's sake. More of my drawings Resident Dojikko Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Flandre January 20, 2022 Share January 20, 2022 Is it no reason? IIRC in the past you had a pretty bad stomach problem that could theoretically cause pain at any time Hi. I'm one of Luminesce's tulpas. Unlike the others, I don't think I stand out too much from him personality wise. I'm just special because "I'm a tulpa". So I don't think I've much to offer, here. I'm happy enough to just be with him. Ask us stuff - https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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