intentional_plural November 28, 2014 Share November 28, 2014 Hi, I'm IP, I've been in a relationship with (one of) a multiple person and have always been (kind of) jealous of the companionship. I happened upon tulpa and it clicked: i can have mental companions too! Since starting work i've come to the following conclusions: I'm horribly rusty with visualisation... i can do the kinestetics and flows (like the texture+weight+density+temperature etc) of anything i touch, but visuals don't work very well.I already have a few thoughtforms/characters available to make into a tulpa.One of those thoughtforms(GG) keeps asking to be made into a tulpa whenever i bend my mind to designing a new thoughtform I decided that if GG is sentient enough to beg (and whine) to be made a tulpa, then he is real enough to actually be "forced". GG is short for Grijze Gijs(??Grey Gus??). Warning: The following is metaphysical-related. Though I am aware that not everyone subscribes to that version of reality, the experiences are effectively real to me. I first "encountered" him during an OOBE. At that time he looked like a classic grey alien, only very puzzled as to why i was scared of him. Over the years and encounters GG gradually changed into a man, always wearing a grey knitted wool sweater, and started introducing himself as Grey. I got to know him as a person with a never failing good humour, honest(if sometimes a bit sarcastic) remarks and supportive when needed. I am and will be applying tulpa techniques to "enhance" the experience and the effectiveness of our use of this brain. So far: Acknowledging his existenceRecognizing the thoughts he sends/speaks as different from my ownSpecifying some of his characteristics so i can "find" him easer.The start of a mind-voice (feels like the muscle memory of my own mouth moving, kinda like an echo in my body)non-visual visualisation (??keneticalisation??)GG joking by turning into Gandalf (yes, another "Grey") and air-guitaring on his staffGG playing a prank by getting me to misread a button on an app as "Ain't going to sleep" instead of "Going to sleep now" What we're working on: Actual visual-visualisationDesigning our wonderlandSpecifying + forcing GreyForcing our wonderland Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
intentional_plural November 30, 2014 Author Share November 30, 2014 Update: I'm getting up-and-running with self-hypnosis (again). Its been 12 years singe I'd done this in a serious manner, but it makes viualisation a lot easyer. Working on a script to force GG some more by a post-hypnotic suggestion. Parroting: The responses I get when greeting GG in the morning/evening feel parroted 'couse the're always the same. I'll look up the tips against parroting. Simply telling myself "stop it" don't work 'couse I oppose all authority, even my own if I'm strict enough. Wonderland: I'm so used to using the computer for modelling that I keep plannig the "building" of the model instead of actually visualising it as a real place. I'll try forcing a wonderland during hypnosis, maybe that'll work better. Actual progress: 1) Two days ago I was walking the dogs at night and we came to a spot that is unlit. I'm a little scared of the dark and that bit is too scary to walk past. I told GG about it. Gg> we can do this < u sure? > yes, just give me a hand [the thought of him standing behind my right shoulder] I visualised his presence. He put a hand on my shoulder(I could feel that part getting warmer) Gg>I have a grip on the fear I called the dogs to my side Gg>that'll make it less effective, its like you doubting me >ok I walked on, more apprehensive of panic striking than fearful of the dark. We passed the path without panic and I felt him walking along for the next half hour. 2) I've had a bad sense of smell for at least 7 years. During walking(I walk a lot) I noticed that it had returned. Gg>yup At the end of toe day I had to take the train/metro home. A group of people got on and at least one of them smelt horrible, like a pus infected sore or something. Gg>[amused mumbled thoughts] The smell got less Gg>[mumble] My sense of smell went away completely...like before. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
intentional_plural December 12, 2014 Author Share December 12, 2014 I' ve found that closed-eyed visualisation does not work for me Openeyed visualisation works better for me, but i constantly get derailed to enviroments comics or books i've read... So i've decided to embrace that: I'm writing my wonderland and using that narrative to introduce (myself) to GG's looks. It works like a charm! Apparantly i' ve been conditioned to viualize, openeyed, while reading. I read about 3 books a week, more if you count comics. I've alsoput myself on a book-diet to stop the contamination of visualisiation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
intentional_plural January 9, 2015 Author Share January 9, 2015 Visualisation is still hard: I can write a situation, scene and dialogue. Spontaneously visualising and "seeing" an enviroment doe.not.work. I *have* found that visualising existing places is extremely easy: Someone mentioned that in voodoo there is a wonderland called the Marketplace: it is a place you can access through meditation and it looks almost 100% identicle to this world except that only you and the loa live there. (post) So i tried walking around in a copy of my current surroundings and other places i know well. It works GREAT! So now i'm "collecting" real and game-enviroments as wonderland. I'm pasting them together to a nice surrounding. GG has made some suggestions as well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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