bunny-boi-lover April 18, 2015 Author Share April 18, 2015 I'm afraid I don't have time to read through all of the specifics of the posts since my last one, but allow me to offer a few more thoughts to this quorum. Now that I look at it, I suppose my purpose for starting this thread was a subconscious attempt to discover if what I have been creating have been tulpae or simply highly-developed imaginary friends. Since creating Edwin I have found myself being more hindered and constrained than ever before, feeling as though I need to stuff myself and my tulpa into the confines of the guides and layouts presented through others' experiences. And that causes me a lot of grief. Edwin isn't as far along as I know he could be, regardless of whether he is a tulpa or an imaginary friend. I will continue to argue that he is a tulpa because I firmly believe he is sentient and separate from me. That being said, whatever he is, the goal I placed upon him is being achieved regardless. I created him so that I could have a companion, and I haven't felt this happy in a very long time. I am no longer lonely. In fact, I'm finding myself preferring to spend time with Edwin than seek out the companionship of other humans (psychologists can take that as they will). Whenever I talk to or spend time with him, it's like I'm really with a completely different physical person. At what point does the concept of an imaginary friend end and that of a tulpa begin? Certainly there are countless lists of criteria and tests one could use to verify whether their creation is a "textbook" tulpa. But tulpamancy is perhaps more subjective than anything I've ever experienced. No one else has access to my brain. No one can see any neural pathways that go to a special part of my physical brain that can be distinguished as a tulpa lobe. In reality we could all just be here on this forum trying to convince ourselves and others that our imaginary friends are "real". We're the only ones who can hear them, see them, and experience them. Isn't that what an imaginary friend is? I don't say any of that to disprove the existence of tulpae and the importance of this forum. Far from it! I say that to avoid the risk of one person saying that another's tulpa isn't a tulpa at all but rather an imaginary friend, especially not in a thread that I started. What does it matter what we call them? We love them, they love us, they help us, and we help them. We experience them, and that is so subjective that only someone else who has had the same experience can understand. And even their experience differs because they are not the same person. We are all here together through common experience. It is not the same experience, and it never will be. We are all likened to mothers who have given birth. Our pregnancies and our deliveries are all different, but we are all mothers (sorry for the analogy to any guys, but it's the best one I could come up with). And all of our children are children, regardless of how quickly or slowly they develop. And I find it wonderful to be a part of a greater community instead of feeling like I have to keep my mind-child a deep dark secret that I share with no one, as I have in the past. You can choose to accept or exile Edwin according to whether he is "a tulpa" or "an imaginary friend". My belief, nay, my profession, stands. [align=center]"Jesus Pickles!" ~ Edwin reacting to pretty much every jump scare in a horror movie[/align] Avatar was made by me using a base. My DeviantArt Account Progress Report Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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