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The Progress of Gaelles


A.M.G. Wesner

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As of a few days ago it's been a week since I brought Gaelles, the ten foot, gold phoenix, into the world. It's been an interesting patch these last few days, Gaelles and I get along fine when we're together - better than fine! But I fear for him, I feel I don't always give him the attention he needs. Often times when I sense for him, it feels like he's off somewhere else (exploring, I assume). His wings give him that freedom.

 

When I created him, I made it specifically to where I had to call him by name so that I wouldn't accidentally summon him just thinking about him. When he's flying around I'm happy for him to be able to discover the physical world (though in his ethereal body), it brings relief that he's not stuck in some box. But anytime I want to spend time with him, usually I have to call him by name, and even then I'm not sure what to do with him...

 

Gaelles is a beautiful bird with great, expansive wings and a neck that's like a feathery tree trunk. He's sharp and knows his intuition even better than I do. Still, sometimes he's wrong, but that just gives me reason to tease him. Good thing he has a sense of humor, lol. He's also grown into a kind and gentle bird - much like I hoped to raise him to be. humorously enough, Gaelles apparently has two animals he hates: dogs and monkeys. I haven't found out specifically why those two, but it was funny when he first told me about it.

 

Anyway that's me and Gaelles's first progress report! Maybe one day we can try some switching and he can have a turn at the keyboard some day. All in due time.

If the world insists on changing you, it's only natural to insist on changing the world.

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Second progress report:

 

Gaelles and I have been going through some tough times... This past week my greatest fear came true: that I would stop giving Gaelles my attention. Between school, the books I'm writing, and just my everyday activities, I'd been distracted. Meanwhile Gaelles had been sitting alone for quite some time. A few days isn't much in comparison, but when you don't have much to do, time travels slowly I guess... Which is why last night I made it a point to make sure I apologized to Gaelles before I went to bed. It was no secret he was unhappy.

 

Starting now, I intend to keep Gaelles close by my side, and to not subject him to the same fate I'm always trying avoid...

 

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE: I've stopped seeing Gaelles as a giant bird. Let me illiterate, I've begun to see Gaelles as Gaelles and not his form. Whenever I would talk to Gaelles or try to see what he was doing, I sometimes saw his form. He might be laying on a roof somewhere or be flying high in the air. But eventually I began to look for his visible form every time I talked to him, which made things seem forced. Now when we talk, we can just talk, and don't have worry if I see him or not! It makes communication much easier between us. I guess like other Tulpamancers I imposition is something to look into later in the game, when I have little trouble hearing what he has to say and he have a much closer bond.

 

Gaelles at one point said that he wasn't really ready for things like possession and switching, so we've agreed that we won't be trying to many of those things for quite some time. I asked him if he knew when he might be ready (just out for the sake of knowing). He said in maybe a year or more. I'm fine with that, honestly it kind of frightened me too a bit. We're barely getting our bearings together and suddenly we're going to trying that?! lol. But things like imposition and switching aren't the only things later in the game.

 

At first when I wasn't spending too much time with Gaelles, I automatically wen't for the 'easy' route: creating his younger sister. I always had plans to make multiple tulpa - four to be precise - one for each of the four elements. Gaelles was to be fire and his younger sister was to be earth, which I would create whenever Gaelles was 'stable' or well matured. Whether that was five years or a few months, I decided that I would make Gaelles the first of his siblings when the time was right. But when he and I were having troubles, I asked him if a sort of 'playmate' would help, give him someone to hang out with while I was busy with something else. He told me no, that he wasn't ready to take on that responcibility. It brought up an important point.

 

The four Tula that I intended to create would be a perfect team, each with their own personalities and their own strengths. Gaelles was supposed to be the leader, the enthusiast. Somewhere in the back of my mind I figured giving him someone to lead and to play with would help give him purpose seeing how uneventful his life was at the time. But he didn't want to lead, not yet anyway. He said he should be in two years or so. Two years sounded sufficient, in fact it sounded perfect, but that wasn't the point.

 

Gaelles wasn't interested in switching or possession, or me practicing imposition. Gaelles was interested in something else, something that I had intended to do with each of the four elemental Tulpa since before even the first was born: magick. Specifically, each of the four would have an 'atunement' to their element (Earth, Air, Fire, Water). Gaelles, for example would be capable of pyromancy (divination of fire) and pyrokinesis (manipulation/conjuration of fire). So it filled me with both surprise and relief that this, of all things, was what my phoenix was interested in.

 

Finally there was something for Gaelles to entertain himself with and something for he and I to do together! I am a bit weary of it all, admittedly. I'm not worried about Gaelles burning the house down, (accidentally or otherwise) he's more careful than that! The change is what frightens me. The moment we create our first flame together is the moment everything changes. The whole idea for the four elemental Tulpa to be able to do something so advanced like pyrokinesis was to be capable of something that would convince people that they were real. The moment we show someone this, my whole world will change. OUR whole world will change. I'm scared of that, but I'm also just as excited! With the coming weeks things are surely about to change.[/i]

If the world insists on changing you, it's only natural to insist on changing the world.

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