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So, I'm starting the whole progress report blog thing over again.

 

I created my Tulpa on 6-29-15 and right now her name is Sasha

 

I've decided that if I can't hear the voice of my Tulpa after 185 hours that I will give up. If I don't set a certain point of where I can stop then I would stop much earlier or have thoughts of how poorly its going so that's a way to keep my motivated and keep me from quitting.

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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Date: 8-5-15

 

So I've begun meditating before forcing, and during it. A unfortunate side effect of it my dreams are becoming much more vivid. They are so vivid, in fact, that I can't actually tell it from real life. Last night I had a nightmare :/ This nightmare entailed me waking up and running into a cobweb. This made me realize that my room was covered in spiders about 5ins big and on top of that there was a huge scorpion hanging from my ceiling, we're talking 5 feet long. I went into full panic mode and couldn't gather my thoughts enough to realize it was a dream. Then to add to already bad things one of the spiders fell off my ceiling and landed on my leg. I panicked and grabbed it but missed its head and instead tore off the abdomen. I watched it rear back and sink its fangs into my leg and then I was filled with a searing pain.This pain was by far the worst I've ever experience and I was bitten by a bullet ant... BUT WAIT MY DREAM GETS SHITTIER! After all that went down I died...Yep I died in my own dream and guess what I saw! NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! Finally after this terrifying nightmare, I woke up.

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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8-6-15

 

Had more dreams last night. This one wasn't a nightmare (Thank God.) I dreamed that there was a girl I was talking to and then she was kidnapped. I ran after the kidnapper, who was invisible, and found that he had disappeared once he rounded the block corner. I wasn't sure where he had run off too so I stopped pursuing him. I was looking for where he possibly could have gone to and then I was shot at. I ducked to make myself harder to hit and then I realized, people cannot be invisible and I wouldn't be shot at. I wasn't having much fun with the dream so I just stood up and walked out of the dream, which makes me wake up. Can I have 3 dreams in a row??? Find out tomorrow!!!

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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8-7-15

 

Welp, I didn't have 3 dreams in a row but, that doesn't mean nothing happened! As I was falling asleep and just talking to Sasha I heard my name in my random babbling (I was very tired that day.) I know that I wouldn't say my name because that would interrupt my thought and had nothing to do with what I was talking about, Sssooo that leaves one person. This may not seem like much to you, but for me this is really exciting because this would be the first word she's spoken.

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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As I was falling asleep and just talking to Sasha I heard my name in my random babbling (I was very tired that day.)

 

I wouldn't completely discount the possibility of it being hypnagogia, dude. That being said, lots of people (including myself) have used the hypnagogic state to force, and have gleaned results, so don't get discouraged from that alone.

We're all gonna make it brah.

 

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I figured it could be something like that. I just do it to get that lil bit of extra forcing in :)

Cheers!

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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8-15-15

 

fast forward 15 days and nothings happened. The only thing to say is that I've been trying to have lucid dreams. I remember about a dream a week now, as opposed to almost none. I have gained powers in the dreams (or have I always had them?) the most common seems to be time dilation. That's about it, just a quick update until I can get Sasha talking!

Cheers!

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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8-17-15

 

Two days have passed and I've done nothing >.<

 

But stuff still happened XD I have dreams that I have some amount of control over, like time dilation, so I don't consider these to be lucid dreams. I consider a lucid dream to be one where I am aware that I am dreaming. I just had one. I dreamed that the Captain of a ship was crazy so I shot him in the head a seized control. We landed the ship on earth but then a man ran in telling us to close off the C sector. The ship is so big and confusing that no one knew where to even go, so I wandered aimlessly for a while. I got back to the front desk (Where the guy told us to close C sector) and saw that the lights were broken so it was pitch black. Then I noticed a thing moving in the corner. The lights flicked on for a split second and I saw a mass of rotting flesh. I panicked and ran out the front door, the mass in pursuit. I ran for a couple blocks before I said "I'm dreaming, this is a dream." I decided to see where it went and kept running. I got ambushed by another one :/ I screamed and turned into Wendy (From Fairy Tale) when I screamed. And that was it. Hopefully next time I have a lucid dream I can meet and talk to my Tulpa! TL;DR Had a lucid dream, next time I wanna meet my tulpa

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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8-24-15

 

I've been forcing and having dreams (couple lucid ones) thats about it

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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10-17-15

 

I've forced 3 times during all this time I didn't post here. I had a couple more lucid dreams and nothing more. Gonna try to get into the habit of posting daily to help me force daily.

What I'm about to say is going to blow your mind

I'm creating a being inside my head and her name is Sasha

 

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