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Progress Report || 8/13/15 || #21

 

So, yesterday was pretty good all around. Meditation was O.K., it could've been better. The hypnotism went well, although I couldn't use the script I wanted to because of an error with google docs. I'll have to fix that soon. Forcing went well, went on a trip to the beach, sat on a wharf. I caught this tiny fish, but she caught a tuna. I think they're fresh and saltwater, so it was able to make sense, but I guess my brain found it hilarious that Lucy caught something bigger first try. Anyways, we cooked it, and ate it. I had some orange juice, and she had apple juice, she didn't seem to mind it. I forgot about the grape juice, I should giver some.

 

All around the visualization was very clear. Although I still can't exactly taste in Wonderland yet. Just a matter of time, I'm sure. While we're on the subject of forcing, I've only forced for 30 or so minutes a day. but even then, I'm strapped for things to talk about. I have 0 clue what anyone would talk about for an hour. I can barely think of questions to ask her for 5 minutes, let alone an hour. What could they possibly want to talk about. So my question: What are some good topics to talk to a Tulpa that can't talk back yet? I need enough material to last me an hour. At least. I want to force more, because we're about to hit the month mark, and I want to make sure she's at least semi vocal. I'm not completely sure, but I'm hoping that we can reach that by the 31st PR.

 

Lucid Dreaming:

 

I had 4 dreams! 4! And I can barely remember anything about them, except the last 1! This is getting really frustrating, because I can't focus on them clearly enough to actually do anything. I can't look for any dream signs. I can't look for anything that would cause my reality check, because I don't even remember being in the dream. I have to figure something out, and quick.

 

Thank you if you have responded in the past, and any response (besides hate) is appreciated. Don't feel shy to answer any of my styled questions! Even if it was a question from 10 posts back, I love to hear feedback! Thank you for listening if you are!


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

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If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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If those concepts had nametags:

Tulpae: Talk to your self for endless hours, without being narcistic!

Lucid dreaming: Now you remember your dreams *and* are frustated!

Wow those jokes were bad... Anyway, there is an endless amount of guides on what to talk about (but i can neither). Sou could talk about old memories, or about a film you've seen, a book you've read or just do something other than talking! I mostly talk in passiv forcing and do some adventures in active. Force a cave and get some exploring done, it's fun (but tricky first).

I can't help you out with the lucid dreaming tough.

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If those concepts had nametags:

Tulpae: Talk to your self for endless hours, without being narcistic!

Lucid dreaming: Now you remember your dreams *and* are frustated!

Wow those jokes were bad... Anyway, there is an endless amount of guides on what to talk about (but i can neither). Sou could talk about old memories, or about a film you've seen, a book you've read or just do something other than talking! I mostly talk in passiv forcing and do some adventures in active. Force a cave and get some exploring done, it's fun (but tricky first).

I can't help you out with the lucid dreaming tough.

Well, I'll look for those guides. Thanks for the response, though! I like the name tags :).

 

Progress? Progress? Did you say progress? :

I mean, you could call it progress. But I mean, it isn't that big of a deal.

Progress is progress. At least I have something thing to write about now.

 

Progress Report || 8/14/15 || #22

 

Well, progress is progress, and I'm not going to lie, I hit something. Something that could be the best thing in the world, or it could be absolutely nothing. Basically, I was do the vocality exercise, where I think super random thoughts, and push them all to the 'front' of my mind, and in theory, Lucy will pick them up, and make her own sentences in them. It may have actually worked. I think. See, right after that, I was like, well what should I talk about, and I think it triggered a conversation. I actually talked to 'her' or at least I think it was her. We talked maybe 5 sentences each. The cool part was that in wonderland, I could imagine my lips moving as I talked, and I was able to imagine her lips talking as she talked (something I've never done or tried before).

 

But then, the convo took a turn for the worse.

 

(ME)"Wow, this is either the best progress I've made in the past month, or this is just me talking to myself."

('HER')"You're right, I could just be a random thought, or you could be parroting me."

(ME)"You're right, you COULD just be a random thought or parrot."

('HER')*whispers/talks*"Come back when you have less doubt."

 

And she disappeared. Like, I could NOT for the love of me, get her back, tell her I was sorry, or anything. I was dumbfounded enough, I could barely let out a clear thought. But she acted and talked the exact way I wanted her to. She sounded clear in my sea of surprised gibberish, she sounded slightly feminine, and most of all she followed all of my traits I gave her. I don't remember much of the conversation, but I am 100% sure that was 50% of her, I think. (Did anyone get that reference... no?) Anyways, I went on trying to act unfazed, but watching for the next time I would feel her speak. Afterwards, I was trying to make clear where we would go for this forcing session. My mind was muddled with thoughts of where we would go, and I was constantly switching places to go to, my Wonderland was constantly shifting settings. Until, finally, she pressed her forehead against mine, and it just changed back to or regular old picnic. I guess she wanted to stay, right there. Suddenly, Wonderland was so clear, I could see the way the light works, and the tree bark textures, the river, the grass, it was clearer than what I could've ever wanted. I saw the head trick in another thread, as a way of symbolism, the symbolism was a way to communicate information between Tulpa and Host. But it surprised me, I had all but forgotten that trick. Anyways, this is already a wall of text, so I don't expect you to read all of it. So I'll get to the progress on lucid dreaming.

 

Lucid Dreaming:

 

Lucid dreaming had significant progress, I mean had 2 dreams this time. Instead of 6 dreams like you all were expecting, and, they were more vivid and easier to remember. I believe it has to do with meditation IN bed. I'm talking laying down, in your bed, and doing the breathing exercises right before you go to sleep. The first dream was about counting, I don't remember too much about that one. But we counted a lot of stuff, I think it ended with some dude telling us to count the blades of grass in a field. Harsh, I know. The second one was about me, in my room. But half the stuff was moved out of my room, and the furniture was rearranged. A bunch of people started flooding in, and suddenly, it was a kind of get together, no music just 10 or so people hanging out. I asked my someone, I think my mother, where all my stuff was, and she said the movers were taking it. I look out side. The rest of the house is literally gone, like only my room existed, and if I remember correctly, we were in an infinite field of grass, with the movers outside, wrapping up my bookcases like a dresser. Now that I look back on it, it's funny, because the main thing I was worried about at the time was that I was going to have to put all those book back in alphabetical order, AGAIN. Otherwise, my dreams didn't have anything special. Still don't know if my dream sign(s) are there. I would have to say it is either the military, or grass, because I seem to have a lot of dreams with either party involved. Can you have multiple dream signs? I'll look that one up. That's all for now, folks!

 

Thank you if you have responded in the past, and any response (besides hate) is appreciated. Don't feel shy to answer any of my styled questions! Even if it was a question from 10 posts back, I love to hear feedback! Thank you for listening if you are!


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

My Progress Report

If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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Hmm, not sure of parrot or not? :

My advice is apparently to not give a fuck.

 

Progress Report || 8/15/15 || #23

 

Look, I'm a little scared, and a little happy at the same time. I heard of the Fede Lasse guy, who trained his Tulpa by nonstop parroting. Everyone thought he was a lunatic, but he (claimed) he came out with a perfectly normal Tulpa, not a servitor. Now, I'm not going to follow in his footsteps, because that just sounds wrong to me. And, Fede sounds like a douche nozzle. But, I also heard that if you think it will work, it will work, because it's your mind. If we stick those together, I have a conclusion. My new motto, is to not give a fuck if it is parroting or not, and just talk anyway. Last night, I had a conversation at least lasting 4-5 minuets, from what I could tell. At at lest two or three times I could tell it was me, and not Lucy, but I didn't 'say' (and by say I mean think) anything about it, because I didn't want to end up forcefully closing the 'call' like last time. No thoughts really surprised me, or made me think, Gee, she just said something that was probably the furthest thing from my mind, but she talked with little to no effort. I didn't question whether it was her or not, and she didn't say anything about it either.

 

Otherwise, the conversation went absolutely nowhere, I kind of tested her a little bit, to see if she was truly 'vocal and sentient' in the sense that I want her to be. I tried asking her for topics, on which to talk about. She said she didn't know any. To be fair, neither did I, because honestly I didn't know any either. But, we ended up talking about my fam, and stuff, and I got useful insight, but she answered, 'not sure', or 'I don't know', or 'I have no clue where I was going with that' a couple of times. But, this is the crucial step of the vocality period. I need to review and stick in my brain her traits a little more. Keep doing the vocality exercises, and I should have her down in a week min, give two weeks max. Speaking of which, I'm going to be laying off the hypnotism for now, just to get vocality and sentience done, quicker. I was only doing the scripts for General Tulpaforcing and Vocality anyways. Since I can 'call' her without the scripts, I really have no use to read them. There purpose is used up. But, if I can't get her tonight, I'll do the vocality one for the next two day. That's the plan, Stan. BTW, forcing was okay.

 

Lucid Dreaming:

 

Just when we made a breakthrough in Tulpaforcing too. I seem to have lost my touch tonight. To be honest, I did not meditate very well tonight, and I did not meditate for as long as I would've liked. The rest of the people in this house have no respect for people who are trying to get a little shut eye. One of them has his voice box set on 'Angry and Loud' 24/7. Anyway, no great dreams tonight. Nothing of importance to share. I did have dreams, but nothing worth writing. Nothing exciting happened. As far as I could tell, I only had 1. I forgot the rest though. I think I know the problem. See, when I wake up from good dreams, I often wake up at about 5-6 O'clock, so I tell myself that I'll write them in an hour. Thus, I go back to sleep, only to forget them.

 

Side note:

 

Thanks Adamaï (I had to copy your name to get the weird i) for supporting me, it seems like you really like this PR! Thanks for reading! And for everyone: Sorry I was posting so late, I was out and about!

 

Thank you if you have responded in the past, and any response (besides hate) is appreciated. Don't feel shy to answer any of my styled questions! Even if it was a question from 10 posts back, I love to hear feedback! Thank you for listening if you are!


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

My Progress Report

If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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Are these getting annoying yet?

I thought they were funny...

 

Progress Report || 8/16/15 || #23

 

Well, my will is starting o break. I know that my policy "to not five a fuck" was just put in place, but I really don't want a servitor. I don't know if I should just quit the 'not giving a fuck' policy, and go back to hypnotism. Once again, not many surprises this time around. But, she did surprise me with the forehead trick. Well, I mean, I new she was probably going to do it, seeing how it worked so well. But she took me to someplace I didn't imagine I would see anytime soon. A snowy field. Once again, the setting couldn't have been farther from my mind. I'm not too big on being cold, except for when I'm sleeping. I absolutely hate it being hot when I'm asleep. I don't like to sweat when I'm trying to go to sleep. But anyway's, I can't exactly feel, in my Wonderland, so I was more than happy for December in August. We had a snow ball fight, behind our respective snowball forts. It started out like normal, but we decided to stretch reality a little bit. I had summoned a snow golem to help with the fort (eventually telling him to build snowballs), she had summoned a snow WAND, and was building a 4-5 foot snow CASTLE, with ramparts, and everything. She kinda hid behind there for a while. We traded fire, then I was like, 'ooh, what about WWII style trench snowfare?' She was like 'Okay', and as I sent out me golem, she must've sent out 2 or 3!

 

And then the 7 foot snowman that I built (using alchemy from FMA:B), was brought to life, and we tried recruiting it. But, it could decide which side it should join. So it kinda plopped it self in the middle and fell apart. Oh well. Afterwords, snow angels, and then I hit the hay. Overall, I actually had fun, in my own mind. Maybe the most fun I've had in the snow. Give or take a few things. And this forcing is fun and all, but I still want her to speak coherent sentences. She isn't thinking on her own, like I need her to. Anyone have any exercises that could help in the dual processing area, for Hosts and Tulpas that have 0 dual processing? Not the black box, I already know that one, I don't feel like it will work for me. I need something that can be helpful to someone who is just learning to speak. Something that doesn't require much talking. I want to focus on thought process alone.

 

Lucid Dreaming

 

As usual, I don't have much to report. Still working on reality checks. My dreams tonight were a continuation of a previous dream. Kinda like a sequel. In fact, my dreams remind me of scenes from movies and T.V. shows. If I'm not careful, I could end up in some real feels. Ika Musume almost made me cry fourth episode with the Mini Ika segment. Damn, I'm going to wake up with tears. And it wasn't even supposed to be that sad, I think. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Ugh, why do you have to toy with my heartstrings, huh?

 

I really hope that doesn't appear in my dreams. Seriously, I could show that to a lot of people, and I think they might cry.

 

It's supposed to be a comedy too.

 

Side note:

 

On the weekend, it's more than likely that I'll be late with these things. I tend to forget sometimes, what with church, and saturday.

 

Thank you if you have responded in the past, and any response (besides hate) is appreciated. Don't feel shy to answer any of my styled questions! Even if it was a question from 10 posts back, I love to hear feedback! Thank you for listening if you are!


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

My Progress Report

If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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Thanks for this, I'll be using the test in there. I also heard there was a game that works for parallel processing, but you need to have a Tulpa possess you first.

 

Well no one said they were annoying, so fire away! :

What happened to '10 posts back', huh?

Why ruin a good streak?

 

Progress Report || 8/17/15 || #24

 

Well, forcing was okay today. She was not as vocal as I would like, but that's to be expected. Like I said, I'm just going to assume that all responses are Lucy talking. It just seems easier that way. So, nothing much happened in the way of progress, if you don't already count what has happened the last three days as progress. Yesterday, we went on a pirate adventure of sorts, because why not. We did all the usual stuff. We hunted for bury treasure, while skydiving into an active volcano, that was carved into a tiki head (don't ask). We hunted mako sharks, and Moby Dick. Then we went to Tortuga, and fooled around. Like I said your average adventure. It surprisingly lasted an hour. But, we decided on our next adventure, which I am psyched for! We're going to do a No Man's Sky adventure. If you are A)Into video games and B) At least remotely interested in exploring an entire galaxy, then I would suggest you start at the subreddit, /r/NoMansSkyTheGame. And by an entire galaxy, I mean, over a billion procedurally generated(which is just a fancy term for 'randomly generated') planets, with more than 1 galaxy. Which means you don't get bored. And it runs on an engine that literally makes me want to come. Not kidding. All I need is an Oculus Rift. After that, you can hear my life shutting down with the Windows 98 sound.

 

But anyways, we're going to explore a couple of planets of our own. If you're the first one on a planet, then you get to name everything, and I mean everything on it. Of course, some things are going to be named after phallic objects, but don't let that discourage you from the game. Hopefully, I trust that the community will be good enough to have minimum damage in the phallic department. Binding of Isaac's community is good, so hopefully we have one too. But enough about that. Lucy's progress is the same as ever. She did get me one time, when we arrived at the island with the buried treasure. I handed her the map (expecting that she might get a little practice with thinking independently), and she said '15 paces forward.', and I walked 15 forward, which took us just off the shore. She said '2 to the right', and I complied. And she closed the map, flashed a smile and said, 'Alright, now head towards the giant tiki head!'. At the time, I found it way funnier than it looks on screen, but that's because it was. I kinda grumbled and laughed at the same time, because I really did want her to lead, get some more practice with being independent, but it was funny.

 

Lucid Dreaming:

 

Things are going downhill. I have been trying different positions. So far, nothing good. I'll have to try the original again, and see if that was good. I don't remember my dreams much, if at all this time. I need to either go back to hypnosis for my dreams, or meditate more. I'll come back tomorrow with results, I promise. Better late results than never any at all. I hope to get this dreaming down soon.

 

Thank you if you have responded in the past, and any response (besides hate) is appreciated. Don't feel shy to answer any of my styled questions! Even if it was a question from 10 posts back, I love to hear feedback! Thank you for listening if you are!


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

My Progress Report

If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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First of all, No man's sky is an awesome game. Secondly, it's for ps4 so no oculus :( Also, procedurally generated means random within set parameters (sry, I'm a smartass if it's about games)

But anyway, slow and steady is better than no progress! Keep your head up, sooner or later she will be vocal.

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First of all, No man's sky is an awesome game. Secondly, it's for ps4 so no oculus :( Also, procedurally generated means random within set parameters (sry, I'm a smartass if it's about games)

But anyway, slow and steady is better than no progress! Keep your head up, sooner or later she will be vocal.

 

It happens to be on PC as well, so don't hold off on Oculus support. I'm sure at least one hardworking dev is willing to put in the time to give it support. Also, I know about the procedural stuff, I was explaining it as simple for anybody who isn't serious about the way games work. Also, if I started talking about procedural generation, my entire post would basically be No Man's Sky :), so I skipped that part for myself.


..And remember folks. Don't be a cheeky cunt on the Internet! You'll get smacked.

Host: Nitsua {Nit for short}

Tulpa: Lucy [placeholder name/gender/race]

Started: 7/19/2015

My Progress Report

If you can guess the origin of my name, you get cake.

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