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Akireaus(Achilles)

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    I'm a student of Hegelianism, Thelema, and I study German philosophy and the Occult in general. I'm a writer, a metalhead, and I'm interested in Abstract Expressionism, psychoanalysis, philosophy in general sociology, and a bunch of other stuff I don't feel like typing out. This'll change once I finish bring Achilles to life.
  1. Hello again, been quite a long time since I've been on here. That's due to me completing high school and almost completing my eagle scout rank. Anyway, Achilles and I have modified our ritual, now it still involves the drinking of the black blood of the earth, but now it involves us exploring our mental place called the world around the amber room. We see my 1000 internal demons often but they leave us alone strangely except for the watcher of the chain. Achilles is doing fine, but he's only talked a few times and very very quietly, he may have an Irish accent I'm not so sure. He's very animate but he doesn't speak. I wonder why? I think I don't spend enough time with him but now that I'm done with not only high school but boy scouts, I'm going to devote more time to active forcing with him. I can't wait to post about the results, because he seems happy that I'm able to now do more, and I'm happy, so hopefully this will give him that final boost he needed to becoming a full-fledged tulpa. Over and out.
  2. So, I haven't posted for awhile. This has been due to a number of reasons, namely school and I use a composition notebook as a journal. Achilles is doing fine, still not talking and only a little bit active. Sadly, apart from the more frequent instances of me remembering to talk to him through out the day, the only consistent interaction we have is our night time ritual every night; it's become a habit that I never forget to do. Once Achilles starts to talk to me I'm going to bring Alaric into existence. I'll describe him more, what I would like him to look like, tomorrow. And I will be using wholly occult methods to create Alaric, He'll be something different from Achilles, and entity I think is the word, just in general terms. That's all for today, In the future I'll try to do longer posts.
  3. Saying good morning actually has helped, i'm glad. I'll do my best to be patient and just work steadily, thanks for the advice.
  4. Hello and thanks! I'm sure me reading that helped him out. I have been trying to say good morning and good night, some days I forget but I'm getting better. When I do the work with the, well I guess it's food, that's active forcing, so I should try to do more of that right? I want to make sure I'm doing the best I can to help bring Achilles to life. Thanks for any answers.
  5. Yes. I have been to much to talk about it though. I've also been called insane... The next person has not enough chocolate in their stomach.
  6. Hello. I do, in fact, know a therian who not only rejects her humanity, but she also has tulpa like consciousnesses in her head. She's what therian communities call a plural system, I believe. She's also my long time girlfriend and semi best friend. She herself is a German Shepherd, and her other tulpa like, well, beings are a Dragon, a Collie, and an otter. Spiritually she says she isn't human, and mentally, i.e her actions and whatnot, it's pretty obvious that her mind doesn't work like a humans, if that makes sense.
  7. Well, For Achilles, I was thinking about how powerful Achilles was said to be. And I like the Led Zeppelin song Achilles last stand. The name doesn't bother me and It's powerful, in a symbolic way that only makes sense to me and maybe my girlfriend.
  8. Hello all. Let's get right to the question at hand; is my tulpa sentient, or sapient, I'm not sure on the word I should use. I happen to daydream in some of my spare time, and completely randomly he will appear in my daydreams, though he does nothing once I notice he's there, if that makes sense. When i think about him he seems to almost freeze; at that point, or soon after he fades away into dust. When I actively tulpaforce in my amber room, as soon as I finish he will often remain a moment and when I look away and look back he will be gone. He seems to be incapable of talking, as I have never seen his mouth open, unless I am feeding him (which I explain in my journal on here; essentially I feed him different coloured food with each colour being a different trait and when he eats it that ingrains it in him). Also, again completely randomly, his name will be said. Just, out of nowhere in my thoughts, I'll hear his name, though in my mindvoice. All these things have been going on for at least a month. Does this seem like he is in some way sentient? Thanks for your answers.
  9. So, Hello all. I didn't realize it until tonight, but for I believe a few months now, Achilles has been, I belive, subtly telling me that he exists. For example, appearing randomly when I daydream, his name being said randomly in my head, for no reason at all. I'm going to try to be more receptive, and work with him much more often, as much as possible. For example, 24/7 passive forcing, and when I can, active forcing. Sorry for the short posts, but I don't have much to write about until he and I can talk. I developed a new method, specifically still feeding him, but feeding him a substance that symbolically gives him more, solidity? Í give this to him, 4 spoonfuls, every night before I sleep. Brings him more into focus and reality in my mind. I'll be sure to post more often, just as soon as I actually hear his voice. That will be a very long posts indeed, when that happens. Edit: I forgot to add, what he looks like. His eyes are shaped like the japanese Oni, except they are all black. Quite unnerving actually. his bodz looks the same, long white hair, white clothing, and his heart is exposed but under his shirt. I do not think his whole organs are viewable anymore. I dare say, he acts more like a "magickal" entity than a tulpa, from what I've read. He seems to be a deeper psychological phenomenon. Of course, I will have to ask him. He won't mind, I hope.
  10. Been a bit since I've updated this. I haven't been consistently working on Achilles, because my memory is horrible, so I'm going to make a bracelet or something to remind me every time I look at it. I intend to, one day, write all the posts on this Khaostride in half posts, the other half being him typing. Also, I have read it get at least a bit easier to create a Tulpa the second time. So, once Achilles is a fully conscious being, I will begin work on a Seeker (this thing), and of course allow any and all deviation gladly. So far Achilles hasn't changed much, only thing is his eyes used to be perfect circles, now they're eye shaped, but still infinity caving, maybe even event horizons, I should ask him when I can. That's all for today, so until next time.
  11. Ok, so an update of sorts, I'm still not doing much other than passive forcing, and working on personality. But I have started something; a wonderland. I figured he'll need a place to go, and I can put my "amber room" there. I also assume my "amber room" can be used to work magick, like in lucid dreams, but I don't know yet. I think, actually, that I'll build the wonderland around my amber room. I'm going to model it after a pine tree forest, and zhangjiajie national forest park. Of course, he'll be able to change it as he wants. My basic idea for it though is the surrounding area will be the model, I'll try to draw it, but the amber room will be different. On its outside it is a cube, inside as big as it needs to be, but so far only about i'd say 10 feet by 10 feet by 10 feet. a square. I wonder, though, if my wonderland should be normal, or have many strange things. I assume it would change, like a labyrinth, and change often of its own volition. I'll post more as I discover more, and next time I'll hopefully not only have a wonderland to describe, but a further along Achilles as well.
  12. Pewpewpewpew, Thanks for the kind words. I learned that music, well, the band Coyote Kisses, is not productive to tulpaforcing for me. Not yet at least, it distracts me. Also, I can't visualize as well with my eyes shut, that has always been the case for me. Open-eye visualization has always been my preferred method. I'm going to try Gallhammer next, just because that's the band I use for my Magick, when I listen to music. I wonder, though, if the music is just something he doesn't like, and has nothing to do with me. He could be in some way sentient, after all, he's been constantly on my mind for a few months, I've just been researching and not tulpaforcing. And the few times I did was only for a few minutes, and was just personality. I've only very very recently developed my method, and his form. So far, the most often way I, well, engage Achilles is by passive forcing. I.e. I read books, or watch documentaries etc and ever so often I'll say "Pay attention Achilles" or something similar. I've been doing this off and on, again, for a few months. When I do it, I'll think what i'm readin or watching to him. So, he may or may not be sentient in some way. I often apologize for not being the most disciplined person out there, but it is what it is. However, now I actually am working with him daily, and trying to visualize him more. In class, on the bus, when I'm at home, playing games, anything. As I find out more and more, I realize my route is going to be heavily symbolic, and I assume will take a good chunk of time. But when he's finally here, It'll be well worth the hard work. And that's today's entry in the Khaostride :P
  13. Aloha. I do not use my name, but I do use my magick motto, which is Akireaus. I started my journey for a tulpa, out of scientific and psychological interest, but also desire for another close friend. As of right now, my only close friend is my therian girlfriend. My other friends are close, but they are more gamer friends and whatnot. My tulpa, he(I suppose I can use gender for now) is a humanoid, with long white hair, Black sockets instead of eyes. They infinitely cave in, but that doesn't describe them well. He wears white clothes, and his chest is an open space, his organs revealed. However, It might not be open. I mean, it could just be translucent. He's not yet "finalized" I.e. his form will change. I'm just working on personality and whatnot, my method is spoon feeding him different coloured rice, a colour for each trait. I do this in my "energy space", which I don't have words for other than it's an amber room. So, yeah, this is the start of my journey. The khaostride.
  14. Aloha, this is more along the lines of what I'm thinking. But, I want to find out the absolute limits of what my tulpa and I can do during a ritual. For example he could provide a commentary of sorts, tell me things I do not notice, and help make the later notebook entries more complete, to improve future study. I suppose I could say I want to know the limits and boundaries, and achieve as much as possible within them. Not just in relation to magick, but also such things as dreams and language, a personal hobby of mine is creating languages, I wonder what sorts of communication I could engage in with my tulpa, as we would be connected in a way I am not with other human beings. Of course, this is all pure speculation, until Achilles is fully functional. Thanks for the replies.
  15. Salutations and thanks for the answers. When I said magick, I should have clarified, sorry. I meant ceremonial magick. So, of course one's Tulpa wouldn't provide outright help, but instead help as in faster ways of entering altered states of consciousness for example, achieve gnosis faster. I ask not because of any laziness on my part, but rather the implications of entering such states faster, what one could do. To me, it seems to open a huge door of possibilities, which I haven't even listed yet, because I've no idea what they could be.
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