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  1. Thursday, March 9th, 2017: I'm defintitely gonna take a break from active forcing today. Since day one I've been doing about an hour and a half of active forcing each day, maybe more. It's taking a huge toll on me, I'm mentally exhausted. I'll still do a lot of passive (maybe a bit more than I usually do to compensate for the lack of active forcing), so I'm not gonna completely neglect Jade
  2. I active forced for about an hour and a half
  3. Update: Felt like giving it another go, I really felt like I was in a good mindset to do some more active forcing. Besides, I really wanna make sure I get a good chunk of active forcing in every day to really establish a good bond, mentally exhausted or not. I meditated for around 5 minutes, and when I was done I was able to communicate with her the same way I did last night (head pressure on either left or right side of head). This made me really excited and relieved that it happened again, and wasn't a one-night phenomenon. I went through the rest of her personality traits (the ones I didn't finish from last night) then called it there, because again I don't want to strain or rush anything. But I am a really glad Jade and I are on a reliable communication method, and I'm hoping to evolve this to vocalization soon (though I know this is a while from now)
  4. Well, today was a bit different than the rest. Last night I made a ton of progress as I mentioned, but I think it took a lot out of me. Even though I went to bed at around 11 which is pretty early for me, I was extremely tired throughout the day. I also had trouble directly connecting with Jade, so I'm gonna pin it on mental exhaustion. I pretty much have only done active forcing for several hours a day since I started, so that may be the reason. Today I tried a lot more passive forcing than I usually do, and tried to avoid too much active forcing. If I'm still too mentally exhausted tonight before I sleep and after I meditate, then I won't try active forcing. Otherwise I'm gonna give it another shot, see if I can establish some more communication with the head pressures and whatnot.
  5. Wednesday, March 8th, 2017 Okay, so technically it isn't the eighth yet. But it's close enough to midnight, and I've made significant enough progress to count it as day three. Let's get to the goods. So after meditating for about 5 minutes, I did the usual. I sat down with her on a beach in the sand (our wonderland) and I introduced myself as Jake, her host. I told her what she is, who she is, and all that. Then I asked if she could talk to me. No answer. I wasn't surprised, but I wanted to keep pushing. I said, "it's okay if you can't talk. Want to communicate in some other way?" No answer. I pushed further. I said, "well, I heard that you can put pressure on one part of my head. Want to try that?" All the sudden I felt a pressure only on the left side of my head. Wasn't like a headache (and usually when i get headaches they aren't isolated to a left or right side anyways). It was just pressure, as if that portion had been squeezed. I smiled really widely at this, and asked if that was her, and if it was, to repeat the feeling. It repeated. I then asked if she could do the right side. The pressure on the left went away, but nothing on the right. I said okay, go back to the left. And she did. Eventually I got her to go to the right, and then based this into a yes/no game. Left was yes, right was no. I got through some of her personality traits like this, listing one, explaining it, then asking whether she understood. If the answer was no, I elaborated. I didn't stop until she moved back to the yes side. I got through 5 traits like this, but felt it might be best to chill for the moment and take a break until tomorrow. I'm really excited about this, so sorry if this is really long. Looking forward to actual communication with Jade. This is awesome
  6. That's reassuring, I was kinda freaking that because her form wasn't a single thing it wouldn't work or something. I'll keep that in mind
  7. Tulpa001, I tried doing what I think is a wonderland, where I imagine her and I on a beach, sitting in the sand, and I try talking to her. I tell her who she is, what she is, who I am, and what she and I will do. I then ask if she can try to communicate with me in anyway she can (be it verbal, pressure, or literally anything) yet these attempts have produced nothing. Is her form very important for this? Because her form isn't very "constant" and I kinda changed it from yesterday because yesterday's form was too detailed for me to keep it consistent. I tried meditation for 5 minutes before I initiated active forcing, and still am unsure of whether I am directly talking to her or just in my mind. Should I imagine her in the room I am currently in, or make up a room in my brain in which we both reside? I'll look at some more detailed guides on the matter of vocalization and such. P.S, a lot of my concerns may just be because I'm eager to see results, and haven't yet. I may be doing everything completely right, yet just nothing has happened due to the sheer amount of time I need to dedicate to it. Lol
  8. So pretty much just kinda respond for her, until she learns to do it for herself? I kinda did that the first day but then thought that i was doing it wrong because I was controlling her, but if that's how you got your tulpa to be vocal then I'll give it a shot. Thanks
  9. Thanks for the help, I really appreciate it. What do you mean by placing her voice in your brain? Like just imagine what her voice would sound like? Should I parrot, or just have a one sided conversation with her and wait for her to respond one day? Thanks
  10. Tuesday, March 7th, 2017 Hey, Jake again. So today felt a little different then yesterday. I felt it was harder to visualize my tulpa. I'm usually really good at drifting off in class and such, but today that wasn't so. Probably nothing, but wanted to put it here anyways. I also am struggling a lot with talking to my tulpa. When I'm talking to her with my mind voice, it's hard to tell if I am truly talking to her or if I'm just saying words in my brain. I don't know if I'm directing the words to her and she can interpret them, or if I'm just thinking (I hope this makes sense). I also try talking out loud, yet it still feels as if I'm just talking to myself. Any suggestions? Thanks
  11. Yeah, that makes a lot of sense now that I think about it. I'm really looking forward to all of the new experiences and progress I will be making in the weeks to come. I can't wait to establish communication, and thank all of your for the assistance
  12. I knew there must have been some initiation, rats... Anyways, thanks for the reply, and I'll most likely continue visualizing my tulpa as a female teenager, though if she changes I have no problem with that.
  13. Thank you, I'll be sure to continue updating and logging my progress so everyone can see the creation of my tulpa from day one
  14. Hello summer, it is very nice to meet you! I can't say I have had the honor of speaking with a tulpa before, so thanks for taking the time to help! I am very open to any form my tulpa will take, right now I just am focused on establishing communications. Whether she chooses to be something completely different than I imagined is totally fine, as long as I can talk to her :) I do have one concern though. Whenever I do active forcing, I always feel that it is in vain, that Jade isn't there or isn't listening... Is it just because I'm not very far into it? Do you suggest I just keep repeating what I have been doing? Thanks!
  15. Monday, March 6th, 2017 So I've decided to create a tulpa after my friend mentioned the idea to me and I became really interested. I haven't done anything like this before, so I apologize if I'm posting wrong in some way or I am asking too many questions. Anyways, let's get to it. My name is Jake, and I'm 15. I have decided to create a female tulpa named Jade as both a companion and for a new perspective on life. I find the idea so fascinating and bizarre, and hope that it isn't some weird very well organized hoax (though I am hopeful). After browsing much of the site the community here seems very kind, accepting, and helpful, which I greatly appreciate. So far, being day one, I obviously haven't heard a response from my tulpa. I tried active forcing on my walk home from school (about 45 minutes) in which I basically say, "You are jade. You are my tulpa. You are curious. You are kind..." And I list the rest of her traits. Because of uncertainty as to which is better, I would say one phrase out loud then repeat it in my mindvoice, then go on to the next trait/phrase. I did sense pins and needles in my back and neck as I said certain things, although I don't know if this is coincidental or a true sign. However I'm not giving up. I plan to do more active forcing before I go to bed, because I feel I can focus more that way. Also, when focusing purely on my tulpa, I feel that time speeds up considerably... My walk that usually seems to take hours suddenly was over faster than ever before, though I arrived at the same time as usual.. Anyone else experience something similar? Anyways, this has probably gotten too long. To ask a final question, should my tulpa's form be very human-like, as if it were an actual real life girl? A lot of people on here seem to have cartoon/anime/animal tulpas, and I'm just curious as to whether this is due to personal preference or if it guarantees success... Anyways, feedback would be appreciated. Thanks all Jake
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