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  1. A few comments about parroting Do not think you are parroting. You are not parroting unless you do it on purpose! If you do, doubt and parroting are not deal breakers. Even more, if you’re parroting there’s a really good chance it’s your tulpa – especially if the words are coming out before you’re done with the sentence. he always thought i was answering myself
  2. i had the same problem (kinda) it´s maybe 10 or 14 years ago I had always problems with sleeping cuz i got always stuff on my mind now everytime a thought pops in my mind i blink with closed eyes like squeezing them for a really short time and the thought wanders off
  3. Hey everyone i heard about this tulpa stuff and of course i thought Great a new retarded movement but i was curious after seeing board guides & more and well i was starting to make one for my own I read in one guid that it would help if i start with a "welcome" session so i did, i explained what i was expecting what i want to to with her and how much i look forward to the point i can communicate with her (I think the details are not necessary at this point but if they are pls let me know i will tell you) so after i guess 30 minutes (was trying for a full hour but a mosquito bit me and i could not hold it any longer after he was finished "eating") but after this whole thing i got a head ache not the kind of dayum i need some painkiller a really weird one i don´t know in the right side of my skull it wasn't really pain more like Pressure? (sorry i can´t describe it so good) so at the next day i started to set some Personality traits everything was fine i did 50 minutes straight and i feels like we made huge progress and i was pretty excited the next day i started talking to her about my day what we are going to do and shit the third time i was trying to "force" i could not get concentrated i don't know it feels weird it was like im just sitting in the dark and make some stuff up, i apologize that we could not do it to day that i feel bad cuz i promised her to do so so i hit the bed to get some Z´s but as i lye there and talking to her (I felt pretty guilty maybe it sounds stupid but im on of those who are bind to their word) as i was lying in bed ready to sleep i heard a voice and this came from outside not from my brain i guess pretty weird though the voice (what i believe was my Tulpa not entirely sure but who knows right?) so the voice told me "it's okay" this was the moment i thought WOW i never had an experience like this it was really weird so the next day where i think i fucked up pretty hard i don´t know if she is alright know i hope so didn't want to hurt her or something so i was with her in our "wonderland" and i saw her right before me and i hug her i was so fucking happy a smile crept on my face (still full in concentration) i was so happy i give her a kiss on the cheek i was so excited to meet her but.. she kissed me on the lipps and weird stuff anyways full abort now i don´t know if i mad her feel bad or i "created" her unwilling to be just a mental sex slave (wasn't working for this i was working on a Friend a Partner with a strong bond stuff like this) after this i was just thinking for about 10-20 minutes i got back to the wonderland i told her im sorry if i pushd you in this position i did not meant to do this i don´t wanted you for this i just wanted you to be a autonomous being with own thoughts own feelings i told her im sorry and i don´t want her to do this even if she can´t talk to me directly she nodded we hug again and i don´t know if this was me i think it was from her but i got strange feeling and a tear run down my face (still full in concentration) so i thought for better development of her own i let her get to my memories and my thought overall (not my subconccious) with symbolism 3 doors 2 open 1 closed you get the idea after this i didn't had mutch contact to her i don´t know if she is now mad at me or something this happen 4 days after start maybe 3h of active forcing and maybe 16-20h passiv forcing (passiv forcing works pretty well for me i found out) i don´t want to say it´s not real because how can i say this after saying we mad sutch progress? i don´t know im kinda helpless right now sorry for bad language my question did i fucked up? did i made my tulpa mad? or even sad? did i Royle fucked up?:huh::huh::huh:
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