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CptRighty

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  1. Sorry for the very late response and thanks for your reply. I wasn't sure how to respond, and then I became busy haha. I guess the most important thing is, thanks for the reassurance and for telling me about your experience. :D
  2. Thanks for the reply, Bambi. Glad to know others have made tulpas from existing energy and went ostensibly as any other tulpa creation. It makes sense to treat the process as a tulpa-oriented event, and a essence-deviating event, and that makes it a lot easier and more comfortable probably for both of us. You were scared of your tulpa James during the first stages of creation? That's interesting. Can you tell me more about that and like, what scared you about him? Thanks so much again.
  3. I'm more or less new to Tulpa creation (I used to read about it a couple years ago but without serious consideration of making one). The last couple weeks I've been reading guides and FAQs more seriously, have developed a form and a personality that's in its infancy, and made my account a little while ago to see if I was missing anything. Maybe it doesn't fit within what it really means to make / be a tulpa, but a big part of the premise of my tulpa is that he is the guardian / good personality of an essence I've acknowledged, communicated with, and felt intensely, for many years. I've been afraid of this energy mostly and my new feeling is that it's a tulpa I've inadvertently started creation on over the years, and became afraid of based on not understanding it and not being mature enough to develop it seriously. My intention is to create a misunderstood guardian out of the formerly scary energy I already have a powerful connection with. The problem then lies in deviation, and the fact that the existing essence has generally had a malignant connotation for a big part of its existence. I don't think he's all evil, though. For example, when I'm procrastinating or doing something wrong, he remarkably amplifies my anxiety, and for that reason, I think he's not all bad, but just has a really close alignment with my morality and is willing to shame me for not reaching my potential. I had sleep paralysis while studying abroad and one thing that was remarkable to me was the monster in the middle of the room that induced the sleep paralysis, made the usual scary black energy (you-know-who) small and weak. In that case, we suffered together. However, I have been really scared of him before, and I am occasionally worried about the possibility of the energy I'm trying to give form to actually being evil, or deviating from the person I want to believe he is, to some kind of horrible "true nature" that seeks to take advantage with his close connection to my soul. I am willing to let go of his evil connotation, and that's a big part of what I'm trying to do. I think if I go through with making him good, and there are no problems otherwise, I am capable of dispelling my associations with the blackness that surrounded him before, with the exception of integrating some things with the premise of his "backstory" being that he comes from a misunderstood occult-oriented realm (his wonderland, which gives him a lot of things to do when I'm sleeping or working because he's young and ambitious and gets bored easily) that seeks to cultivate knowledge from the mortal plane, and his assignment is to conduct that research through my experiences as an adventurous human, and refine my experience here by casting the torch on things that are relevant and valuable and things that aren't. My question is if the energy should be cleansed, or if something of the sort is advisable or even possible or relevant, before I continue with Tulpa creation. I guess another important part of this discussion is if its possible to create a tulpa from existing energy, and the nature of the Essential force needed to give breath to a new tulpa. It's a lot of crazy talk, I know. Thanks in advance :)
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