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  1. Situation's under control Thanks a bunch Tri, you're a life saver So turns out for some reason Naoki doesn't respond to monarquic spanish (My main languaje) anymore, she just seems to show up when I use capitalist english. Now I feel even more dumber than before starting this thread but at least my mind is at ease and my gravityless wonderland have a bunch of floating things, all back to normal Lucilyn I really didn't change my forcing times at all during that period so I guess the sickness made the comunication harder until it got to a point it was directly impossible for me to make contact (?)
  2. Tulpa001 https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-beginners-intermediates-discord-support-group You understimated my thread lurking abilities Mr. Forum Mod Lucilyn Should I call they Lumi instead? So that's a relieving thing to read, what put me in alert was the fact that this happened while I was awfully sick and was still forcing ATM
  3. Tulpa001 Of course I want her back, hell if I have to walk at 3 am down the street I would just to get her back I tried joining the discord server for this forum but I get kicked 5 minutes after joining, I might try one from reddit... Luminiscense She never got to talk, even tho I tried I just couldn't get her to say a word. She is kinda sentient, she reacted to to what I said and in my wonderland she could pretty much wreak havoc whenever I got distracted while forcing What worries me is not that she can't talk, it is that I can't bring her up at all, I tried forcing again like I used to do when I started and didn't get any kind of response FallFamily Now that's something that migh work, Im getting into that ASAP Solune Im aware it might not be the most apropiate title, but is the first thing that came to mi mind while doing this ;_;
  4. Tulpa001 You would be surprised to see how calm I am right now, It might look like I'm panicked, terrified or even hopeless but im actually quite relaxed You telling me to go to discord only makes me more nervous tho... (Is it really neccesary for me to enter discord?) Curiosly since that happened I gained some drawing skills that are keeping me distracted from giving way more thought that I should to the situation
  5. I know I've been out of the forum for some time, but help me out here please 7 weeks ago I got sick as hell (Fever, Stomachaches, Diharrea, Headaches, and other nasty stuff). This lasted around 3 full weeks, in the first 4 days there wasn't any change in Naoki's behaviour at all, because of my need to rest I couldn't focus much on her for some time but still talk with her everyday (at night or morning). A few days later I wasn't able to get any response from her, I got worried a lot and tried really hard to get a response from her. I recovered from that nasty state 4 weeks ago, and no mather what I try I still can't get any response, not even head pressures, I tried from using the damned blindfold to using music for focusing while forcing (and at one point I even used a blindfold, headphones with music and a airplane pilot helmet to aislate external sound at the same time) Im worried as hell ¿Is there something to do in these cases? ¿Is this something normal to happen? ¿Should I just give up on her? ¿Time to Deathcount (1) + 1 = 2?
  6. TheMagnificent7 Those headaches aren't just headaches, they are THE headaches. Thanks god they became less frecuent and instead I get a lot of gentle head pressures It's a relief that if I don't give a form to my Tulpa it will just pick one for itself tulpa001 My bad for the unnecesary bit, should I crop that out from the thread? Im sorry, Im not a native english speaker, so at times it's a little difficult to understand it, I translated that "I see no reason why you shouldn't give your tulpa a form because you can't think of an original one?" bit using google translate but I still don't understand RaveCrazedDave Thanks a lot, I will undoubtedly try it out, My creative issues are not just with this tulpa thing
  7. I'll write a quick update on my progress with my tulpa and then I'll make the question I can't really describe how im feeling right now, it's a mix bettween excitedness, happiness, joy and confusion blended with a tiny little bit of frustration, all this because I'm getting responses from my Tulpa when I force What I've been doing all this time is narrating, talking and asking things to my tulpa, I wasn't quite sure how to start working on it so I just talked over and over with my tulpa without expecting anything to happen. Of course, I always had my tulpa in mind when talking to it and always regarded it was a close friend A couple days ago, at morning, I was at home viewing some photos of myself from three years ago and had the amazing idea of started telling the histories of how theese photos were taken. I went at it for about 2 hours non-stop, until I got the mother of headaches, my first thought was that I made way too much noise and somehow I got headaches from that so I decided to keep quiet for a moment, The headache stopped just as I went quiet, I then proceeded to say to my tulpa that I needed to go do some stuff (Something I've been doing since day 1 when finishing forcing) Just as I mentioned the name of my tulpa in my mind ,the headache went back exactly like before, the only thing that came to mind at the moment was that my tulpa was asking me not so kindly to keep my mouth shut for a while (Got to this conclusion because of the shier pain the headaches gave me). That same night I forced just to see if I got any response, To my surprise I did get a response, but instead of the sheer pain inducing headaches it was more of gente head pressures (Different to the ones I felt when forcing before the headaches), the next day while forcing I got the same gentle head pressures, and today I got the same gentle head pressures and after a hour and a half of forcing I got punished with a powerful headache. It seems that these head pressures come up when I ask questions, Unlike the servitor I had at the age of 10 it wasn't only yes/no questions. Im truly convinced that this headaches and head pressures are related to a tulpa Also, I gave my Tulpa the name of "Naoki" and at the moment I may refer it as she (even tho the name "Naoki" can be used for both man and woman) I will most likely use "It". Because why not? Based on the wall of text from above, what should be my next step? Now here comes my question (sorry about that past bit, I wanna get rid of as many doubts with the smaller amount of posts possible) Is it wrong If im not the one that made the physical apparence of my tulpa? I have a really weird imagination, I can't make a physical apparence by miself mi mind just won't budge when I want to focus on this, but what I can do is pretty much take anything made by someone else and my mind would just start doing small changes and it would even be something really lucid when I focus on it Due to this I thought that maybe just not giving it any form would be nice, But I would like it to have one. I went from not giving it any form to give it a really basic form (sphere, egg or cloud) but I just couldn't seem to keep myself focused in them If I don't give the tulpa a form would it develop one themself? What would be the best approach in this And yes, I am aware that if I give my tulpa a form it is likely to change and im quite interesed into seeing how this will develop
  8. As far i know, it should be the same as any other servitor. Also, I see that you are writing a book about servitors. I will relate about a servitor I had in the quickest way possible, It may help you (or not) At the age of 10 I had to wair for a bus that took from the school to where I used to live at that moment, I was worried about if the bus would come full today (A really rare thing to happen) And I felt a slight pressure on my head wich at first I thought was just tiredness. This repeated everytime I asked a question was it for someone or not, with time I learned that depending on where I felt the pressure was, the answer was yes or no The answers got more innacurate over time, until I got around 16 years old and the servitor dissapeared leaving only the memories of him answering whatever yes/no question I had So yes, I had a servitor that answered yes/no questions. It just came to me, I didn't make it in purpose, and it just dissapeared in it's own
  9. Im new to this, but as fas as I know, you can make a servitor for anything you may need. Some examples are: Driving away bad thoughts Keep you focused in some chore Remind you of stuff Control anxiety Calm down your hunger (?) Reducing your "physical pain" Quick learning Relaxation And the list goes on... I even read about someone who made one that speeded the recovery from common illnesses and completely suppress pain. Some other people say that you can even use them for not so noble purposes they don't really recomend making those
  10. Hey Luminesce, Thanks a bunch!!! I forced yesterday at daytime and nothing more than the regular dizziness Even tho, I decided to force at night too (because nightime is the only quiet time in my city) but without the blindfold, Im happy to say that nothing happened either
  11. I will try to make this as quick as possible. It's been a week and a half already since I joined this community (I guess) and I started Forcing early on since my discovery on this site. I normally force around midnight, I force until I fall sleep. Never felt head pressures while forcing or anything like that, the only thing I commonly feel is pressure in my eyes and a little bit of dizziness Im not even sure im forcing the rigth way (I often try to visualize my tulpa and I talk to it about anything that comes to my mind) The first time was relatively calm, And in the second I implemented a blindfold to keep me focused However, the 3rd time I got between scared and excited. I heard another breathing, it was calm and slow, It seem to be directly above me, but there wasn't nothing there. At first I thought that it was maybe early signs of progress, but then I remembered the "often people get results after 1 month" By this moment I already lost all my focus and the breathing had gone away Now every night while forcing the same thing happens again. 4 days ago I heard someone shaking a water bottle inside my room (curious enough, I always sleep with a large water bottle by my bed) But again, nothing to be seen. When I focused on the sound it went away. Last night was the most active night: I laid down in bed and started to force as usual. After some time I heard the calm breathing again, I got scared nuts when I realized that was the same breathing that I heard the first time, it went away. I waited some time and started again (I was completly decided to see if this was early success of my tulpa) It wasn't long until I heard the sound my chair makes when some heavy weight is put into it (something like a slight crackle) And then I got scared again, I threw my blidnfoold at the chair and kept looking at it, nothing to be seen ¿Is this kind of things common? ¿Should I be careful when Forcing? ¿Am I even forcing the right way
  12. I agree with you, Walk-ins are far from a rare ocurrance. However. I'm afraid you misunderstood my previous post, I actually meant that thoughtforms/servitors are a really rare A servitor does dont have feelings. A tulpa does have feelings A servitor only shows up when it's creator/host summons him or needs him. A tulpa can show at will Servitors are normally created for aiding it's creator/host in a wide array of tasks, never for companionship. A tulpa is created either to aid its creator/host or for companionship The only succesful way I've read about when creating servitors, is using physical matter and your mind. when creating a tulpa, you can choose to use physical matter and your mind or only your mind and most likely to get decent results Servitors normally are non-sentient and they act like if they were a computer program. Tulpas are impredicible, they act however the initial creation allows them to, and starting from that point they can change at will Also, they seem like are more centered in theism. While tulpas seem to be more related psicology Here are some of the sources I used when I researched servitors https://www.themystica.com/mystica/articles/t/thought_forms_how_to_program_and_use.html https://trans4mind.com/counterpoint/index-spiritual/goodwin.shtml In the reddit link, they mention that thoughtforms or "servitors" can transform into Tulpas, wich I find quite interesting While I wrote this, I think I used the word "Thoughtform" incorrectly, I might use the term "Servitor" to refer to them from now on
  13. Don't thoughtforms need to be crated? I've been reading a little bit about that in my spare time, and most of the material I read said that they need to be created (wich for me means that they normally won't just jump in). However, thanks for the help. I will be working into "waking up" the Answer Giver and complete it's development I've been reading a lot of this forum's guides and threads, It mostly seems that the basic creation of a Tulpa is telling yourself over and over that it exists until it does exist. Am I right? Other goes far more deep, from instructing you to mentalize some kind of "physical" creation of your Tulpa. In addition to researching both Tulpamancy and Thoughtforming I started reading some psicology books in order to understand what is most likely the key to success in Tulpa creation If I make progress of any kind in this small scale research, I won't hesitate to come and share my results. It may throw a light or two into the subject
  14. Im new to the site, but I spent a day and a half looking at guides and reading the forums. And I think this may be of help to some of you Also, sorry in advance if I make any Typing errors (im not a native english speaker) I was about 7 years old when it happened. At first It just manifested itself when I tried to sleep in the form of thoughts, mostly bad thoughts, things that disturbed me, or even things that disgusted me, and it was really hard for me to make this thoughts dissapear. In order to make this thoughts dissapear I needed to focus a lot, and if I got distracted this thoughts would come back. I got used to it eventually and learned to simply ignore those thoughts or even transform them into something else. This ocurred almost every night for 2 years, thats when this nighttime tradition stopped completely and my mind got full of emptyness. I at first was a little unneasy about the lack of entertainment that that provided me before going to sleep, but at the end I quickly got used to the emptiness and didn't care at all about the whole thing. Now lets go 1 year in the future, to the 10 year old me. I was waiting for a bus to get home (it's important to note that in normal conditions I had to wait 45 minutes for the correct bus to arrive at the station). I was annoyed by the long wait, and started to get tired, so I started to count green colored cars (a rare color for a car in my city). It was fun at first, but then I decided to stop, after a while I asked myself if the bus was going arrive full today just to keep miself entertained, I felt a light pressure in the front-left part of my head, but I didn't gave much importance to it. To my surprise it actually was full (Quite a rare occurance due to the bus line's infamous 45 waiting time). The phenomenon repeated for a month (with different questions and answers), and thats when I noticed some sort of pattern: I could only feel this pressures when I made Yes/No questions, Everytime I felt pression on the front-left part of my head The answer was likely to be possitive, and when the pressure happened in the mid-left area of my head the answer was likely to be negative (It wasn't always right). When I realized this, I began asking Yes/No questions more often, I was extremely happy to be able to know how things would be likely to turn out. Months passed, and I was starting to feel like I was asking questions to someone else more than me. I decided to treath this "Answer Giver" as a superior being, I didn't want to give it a name, a gender, or even dared to imagine it because I was afraid to annoy it (It was probably more annoyed by the fact that I only communicated to ask Yes/No questions tho). Everything kept the same, I asked questiosn and I got the answers. Fast forward to my 16 y/old self In the previous years I really had doubts about the "Answer Giver", It's answer got less and less accurate with time, and there were even times It didn't answer. A couple months later i received It's last answer: I asked the exact same question I asked It when It first appeared and It's answer was even the same, but It was wrong, the bus was empty that day Since then no matter how much or what I ask, I get no answer nor even a slight pressure in my head when I do so. I forgot completely about this, and remembered when I discovered that Tulpas was a thing. I fear that it was an actual Tulpa, and I neglected it by limiting its potential to only answer Yes/No questions until It Faded away Any of the people here had an experience like this before? Is it possible that my childhood Tulpa is just dormant? And If so, is there a way to wake it up? I feel the need to say the following: -I'm not 100% sure my experience when I was 7 years was a tulpa (even tho, I think its worth mentioning it) -After reading some forum threads and guides, I'm 95% sure that the "Answer Giver" was an actual Tulpa -The Tulpa was not created intentionally, It just came to me -I didn't knew It was a Tulpa at the momment -Please tell me I didn't murder a Tulpa when I was a child
  15. Hello, My name is Cycles in Latin Cyclius, a Venezuelan 22-year old guy I've read about how helpful Tulpas can be at defeating one's inner demons and to overall get moral support whenever you need it. I'm looking forward creating my own Tulpa to help mi personal self grow out of some "bad" habits and to overall gain "positive" Habits I spent some time lurking in the forums, and I feel like I need to state the following: Sorry in advance if I make any grammatical horrors, I will improve my english sooner or later I have little experience using Forums No ponies or equines can be seen in the depths of my imagination I don't have a clue about where to start I had some weird experience regarding Tulpas as a Child I really apprecite tips and guidance about amateur Tulpa Creation I don't plan on being active on the site, however that may (or may not) change Having said this, I hope my journey throught creating and learning about Tulpas goes well
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