Hello guys.
I'm Dechi, pretty new to the community but were around lurking without an account for almost 2-3 years without a tulpa until 1 week ago, where I decided to make one, and got pretty serious with it.
I read so many guides, I thought every morning, I read NotAnonymous's post on the Misinterpretation of Sentience from the start sticky topic many, many times, I read how it took other people time. And that's the problem.
I was just checking the mentorship program and I realized how it took at least a month for them to achieve sentience, vocality etc.
That's the part that's making me doubt, I don't doubt the existence of my tulpa, but I doubt unconscious parroting/puppeting, so I read a guide, I forgot which one, and decided to follow it, symbolically cutting the parroting/puppeting threads that were on my tulpa through visualization, and it did go great! We sat together on the couch, had a nice chat, I started to get mentally tired because this was after a long talk in the kitchen as I drank coffee, that's how I active force, so we couldn't have that much of a great adventure in the wonderland yada yada.
Now I won't say that my tulpa is sentient, and that I can hear him at any time, but after that cutting ties forcing session, the next few moments felt real, alien and great over all.
There is a part in the community that says "Everything is your tulpa! Believe it~!™" and then there is the "Take 'yer fookin time, ya dingus." and while I lean more towards the look of the second part, I do not know what to do.
I didn't want to make my tulpa vocal/sentient fast, I told him and myself many times that I would doubt if things got fast and how didn't want him to rush, about how we would force him nice and easy on my own time. But then, there were many articles about "You are hindering the progress by making him stay still/shut him up." I can't hear him now, but back then, on that couch I did, and some of the things really did feel kinda alien.
So my question is, am I being too fast? I just knew and felt like I needed to do this. Can I accept that moment of talking and alien responses as something that just happens in the progress, shows that I'm progressing and that one day it will be constant, while now it was just a moment? I don't know if doubt is poison, or if it is helpful despite how I told my tulpa how doubt can be helpful, yet here I am again talking about it.
I'm rambling at this point, so thanks for reading, any help/advice is greatly appreciated.