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  1. Hello! I'm brand new here and have only just started to learn about Tulpa, but very eager to find out more. I'm female and prefer she/her pronouns. I don't mind most nicknames and/or versions of my username, but Cat works well too. I'm quite shy so I'll probably do a lot of lurking. :P
  2. -shy wave- Hello! I'm brand new here, so please forgive me for any newbish mistakes I may make. I hope I'm posting in the right place and not being a bother... I've looked around through a few posts and while I've found similar questions, I am just not finding the answer I'm looking for; I'm hoping you guys might be able to point me in the right direction if it's already been asked/addressed. :) I first wanted to say thank you for taking the time to read this and that I really appreciate any guidance you may have for me! I've only just found out about Tulpas and have done some significant research, but am admittedly quite new to the whole process, and hoping to explore this more in the coming weeks. However, there were a few things that definitely stuck out for me, especially about Tulpas manifesting during childhood, and I was first wondering if my experience "counted" (for lack of a better word, hehe). I went through a very difficult time when I was a child/teen and grew up in an area that was very... um, conducive? to (possible) paranormal experiences. Basically I was in a state of near-constant fear and turmoil, particularly because I lived alone in the unfinished basement of my family home. Whenever I was really struggling, or scared by something in particular, I would "summon" a mental image of a pack of canines - usually 2 - 4, I liked to have one at each side and then one by my head and/or my feet. I could feel them quite well, warm, semi-solid forms around me, sensation of fur, etc. I read the descriptions for servitors but I don't feel these exactly fit. They had distinct personalities (a big male was sort of aloof, a tall but sleek female was friendly and snuggly, etc.) and moods; when I "called" for them or was feeling upset/anxious, one would always show up, but I couldn't necessarily just pick. They were never named. I guess the closest thing I can describe them as is "spirit animals" or perhaps "guardians"? I was just wondering if they might have been tulpas? And if not, does anyone have any ideas what they might be instead? If they aren't tulpa, or just beginner tulpa, would it be possible to make them more "tulpa-like" (deepening the connection) while still retaining a lot of their animal selves? I see a lot of people describing their tulpa as human beings (or at least humanoid)... Perhaps it's a bit silly because the tulpa would share my mind, but I have extreme social anxiety and I feel like it would be incredibly hard for me to have another fully human-like personality hanging out in my head all the time. I relate much better with animals, and feel more comfortable in their presence, but I do seek the more advanced level of companionship tulpa seem to offer. I'm going through a very difficult time, which is why tulpa and similar manifestations are on my mind heavily, so any guidance you might have would be very sincerely appreciated. Thank you in advance!
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