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  1. Six months ago I stopped drawing. I was working on an overly ambitious project which involved writing and illustrating pages and pages of artwork by myself. At some point I realized it wasn't going anywhere, not at the rate I was producing pages anyway, and quit. It was like going through some kind of break-up. I felt tired and sad every time I picked up a pencil because it reminded me of my failed project that was never going to happen. So after that I just didn't draw anymore to avoid this feeling. That's all changed now. I finally feel motivated to make art again. Starting a tulpa and doing visualization and meditation exercises has done wonders for my creativity. So far, since creating Will I have managed to find time to draw something every day! Speaking of Will, his appearance drastically changed. He looks shiny and polished now rather than rusty, he has more organic forms instead of boxy, and his old glass plate has been turned into small circular area on his chest. I don't mind appearance changes. I want my tulpa to have complete freedom to change his looks to whatever he wants. I wonder what form he'll settle on. We talked a bit more in wonderland last night. I am able to receive his mind voice responses when I'm in deep visualization/daydreaming mode, but in my normal waking state he doesn't say anything. By the way, Will is named after one of my favorite playwrights, William Shakespeare. Here he is striking an "Alas, poor Yorick!" pose in our wonderland:
  2. I like to listen to electronic ambient music when meditating or visualizing stuff. My favorites are Carbon Based Lifeforms, Aes Dana and M-Seven.
  3. We went to explore our wonderland on Sunday and I did a bunch of sketches. It was strange for me to have a companion, as prior to now I've always been alone. I mean, the whole point of having a tulpa is so that you're no longer alone in your imagination but...I am just so used to being there by myself. Will didn't say anything at all during the trip, but when we came back to the ship he talked to me in mind-voice. I'm positive it was him and not just parroting. For one thing, he brought up an uncomfortable for me topic - trust. I gave Will "trusting" as a personality trait, while I myself find it very, very difficult. So as you can probably guess, that was an awkward conversation. Will is trusting, caring, and friendly; I'm an aloof weirdo who doesn't trust anybody. (There are reasons for this I won't go into in this public journal.) I don't know how this is going to work. It's not fair to my poor tulpa that I'm like that and in hindsight, it was probably not a good idea to give my tulpa traits that are polar opposite to my own personality. Ugh, what to do?! Will tells me not to worry so much and take it really slowly, but I am not sure I can ever learn to be trusting. I thought it would be easier with an imaginary person, but nope. I have all the same old problems I do with real people. Anyway, here are the pictures from Sunday's trip: The beach: Some lifeforms: Flower tree: Deep in the jungle, a ??? guards its eggs while it sleeps:
  4. Woo first post! About me: I've always had an overactive imagination. Ever since I was very little (4 or 5 years old) I have been making up worlds and characters in my head. English is not my native language, so please excuse any grammatical errors you might find here. I like to draw and I'll be including some of my art in my progress report. About my tulpa: My tulpa, Will, was created on March 18th. He is a 7 foot tall humanoid robot made of rusty metal and unbreakable glass. You can see his artificial heart beating underneath his chestplate. (Why does he even have a heart if he's a robot? Well obviously, it's built-in so that he doesn't have to go see the Wizard, the wonderful Wizard of Oz, for it. Just kidding, I haven't the faintest clue why he has it. He simply appeared to me like this in my head.) About my wonderland: I had a wonderland (or mindscape) long before I made Will. My imaginary spaceship, the Cosmic Traveller, allows me to travel around to random planets in my mindscape or just float in space because space is awesome. Will is going to live with me on my ship. My progress so far: Mar 18th - Will's birthday! I did some meditation and visualization work today. Mar 19th - March 20th: Worked on personality and narration. Will's personality is as follows: Compassionate, caring, warm, gentle, thoughtful, patient, intelligent, fond of philosophy, loves nature, loves exploring, curious, rational, prone to wondering about existential questions, likes strange things, accepts change as it comes, stays calm in troublesome situations, values close relationships, dislikes shouting and swearing, not competitive, tends to hide feelings, introverted, loyal, considerate, non-judgmental and open-minded. As for narration, I talked to him about whatever I was doing throughout the day. I also read to him. I got some responses from him in mind voice, but discounted them as wishful thinking since it's probably way too early for him to talk. Mar 21: I spent about an hour visualizing Will's anatomy in detail. He has some humanoid body parts (namely his heart, brain and skeleton) and the rest are metal, plastic or glass components. Mar 22: Today I drew Will for the first time and made a rough sketch of where our spaceship is located currently (on a tropical beach on an uninhabited planet.) Pictures: Will: Our wonderland:
  5. Hey! I'm Drifter and I just joined. I've been lurking on these forums forever, but only seriously started working on my tulpa 5 days ago. Right now I'm working on form and personality. I might post a progress log later when I'm not so tired and sleepy.
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