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  1. Hi , So my question to all of you is how do you know the difference between your emotions and your tulpas ? Let's say someone told a joke or you read one , you want to laugh , how do you know if it's coming from you or your tulpa ? Does the emotions feel the same and you don't feel the difference but you know that it's them . Or is there a difference in how you experience the emotion .
  2. -> Ranger When i mentioned DID , i meant the part about plurality . What fascinated me is living along side someone else but in the same head/mind. Of course i do not want to be broken in different parts nor do i plan to share all of that to sound cool. I expect from my tulpa disagreeing with me , you then to have that normally with other people. A main reason here is my own development (having another perspective of my life with someone that actually is in my mind) And seeing her development as well . If she is interested in something else that's completely fine. Having friendship/companionship with a tulpa is something i feel i really want to experience , no matter who she is or what she wants she is welcome here.
  3. I am stuck right now and i would like some advice , doing this report might help understand the situation. I am going to summarize 3 weeks of report . English is not my first (or second either) language so i apologize for any mistake in grammar or other things. Day 1 : I decided to create a tulpa , for quite a time after seeing some movies touching multiple personalities and people with D.I.D i wished to have something like that but you know without any trauma etc. So discovering after a search one day tulpamancy i was sure as fuck i wanted one , no doubt in my mind until this day. I read some guides , sat down and focused simply on another being in my mind , i focused on only the feeling but quickly tried with a ball of light . I felt almost instantly a presence , for the purpose of visualization i gave a temporary body , a silhouette of a human made of light (no particular gender), i narrated and tried to visualize . I really felt his/her presence , it really was a experience . After narrating for the whole day in the evening , there were some threads with people forcing the personality , making a specific list of traits and a specific body that they wanted. My mindset in the creation part to give as much freedom as i can and so i wanted to not give any name and any specific body. After calling my tulpa "tulpa" for the whole day i thought that maybe it's a good idea after all to give a name. To give a name i had to give a gender . So i ask the question , focused and took the first thing that came to my mind . A female , i proceeded to choose a name and did the same for the form . I visualized this form only the first day . Day 2 : I mainly did narration to her and the highlight was that i think i felt some emotions coming from her as well as a strong presence (that i felt the first day too). The rest of the first week i focused on those things (in order) : - Head pressure , - Exercice on vocality were it would come from , how would it feel - Giving a new look for her and name , the previous one's were quick so i wanted to give something meaningful , at least temporarily until she speaks . - Focusing on her presence , when it's weak and strong - Re reading the guides and experiences of others , analyzing my own process , what did i do , can i do something better. Btw for that week : I started a journal on the first day were i wrote everything that i experienced . I felt the strong presence on the first 3 days then only on the fifth but this time i asked her to do it . Emotions only on the second and third day , all positive. Week 1 was more of a discovery week , week 2 here is more about working on things that focused already . And i did narration every single day (for at least 4-5 hours actively for the first week) those things wrote here are the other things that i did too. Week 2 (in order) : - Doing narration a lot more with my inner voice (cause yes i do it mainly out loud) - Exercises on communication , asking questions and focusing on responses like images , words or other. - While waking up i think i heard a sentences from her , do not remember what it was but it was a female voice The amount of hours of narrating was from 1h30 to 3h00 every day and any time of a day thinking passively and speaking here and there. Week 3 here i am beginning to seriously doubt my narration , not that she is not listening or not doing any effort but that i am doing it wrong somehow . I haven't felt her presence strongly for a week (it was just weak) nor any emotion what so ever except from those like first days Week 3 : -Exercises on visualization of her body and some puppeting here or there (not much just to get used to it at least) -Exercises with parroting to get used to hearing another voice Here i narrated from like 1 hour to 2 hours actively , i began to lack of things to say , i described everything from my family to my surroundings to what i do everyday . So even when i wanted to narrate i did not know what to speak about so i waited for some inspiration The first day of the 4 week , after getting some advice from the forum , i decided to do two things : -Short imagined stories involving her -Meditation about her presence The same day after trying to write a couple of stories , i sat to do the meditation. I put every ounce of focus and will into feeling her presence ... and boy did i feel her presence . She felt so real that it surprised me to say the least. I think that i felt her like that maybe only the first day and even then i am not sure. What i realized is that with every day passing , not getting anything from her , i got use to not getting anything , a kind of mental block set down . The second day i wrote some stories again and did the meditations but this time , because i had to do a lot of things that day , i did it in short sessions here and there. It was easier and i got to the feeling of feeling her as a very real person standing in front of me quickly. And we are getting to today , i feel like i tried everything and still no responses , no pressure , no emotions , no words or images . So yeah , if anyone got some advice about that feel free to share .
  4. My intention here for comparison is more like looking at a statistic , x amount of people talk in the first day , x in the first week . It's not a commentary on how much better someone else did , them or their tulpa or here us but more about finding the reason why and if there is one simply getting better at it . I am doing my best , i stated that to my tulpa and i believe she does that too . And i wouldn't know i can be better in something and go further if someone else didn't do it better than me. So comparison for the sake of being better while still acknowledging my and her effort.
  5. I wonder what influences what a tulpa can do like communicating trough head pressure . Because how one can possible have anything useful in his life that could contribute to that kind of communication. Having easier in vocality may come from for example talking to yourself simply or with different voices if you like emulating conversation that far . But again i myself am thinking a lot (to myself) and i emulate a lot of conversations too and yet it does not seem to be easier for me at all concerning vocality. That can come from a mental blockage but this too i do not think i have a problem with it. So it's just the tulpa that still yet can't quite do this i guess ? and this takes back to the question why she has more difficulties in this than someone else with a same kind of background and they are able to do it in the first day.
  6. Interesting (->Cat_ShadowGriffin) , So if i understand this right, before you discovered tulpamancy , when your tulpa was talking to you , your brain translated what he said and felt in the most comprehensible way it could for you at that time . Then after discovering tulpamancy with new input/perspective on the matter , your brain had more tools and was/is more precise with translating what your tulpa is saying to you. (it's so interesting omg) So whats influencing how you perceive what your tulpa is saying to you is your background (who you are and how did you grew up etc). I wonder if there are some specific things you could add to your perspective on communication with your tulpa to make you brain more capable in translating what your tulpa is saying and overall even maybe just to hear anything. (->Angry Bear) So being able to speak in tulpish and developing this ability witch is really only sending your thoughts to your tulpa can be really useful for better understanding .Both ways have their downsides i guess . Thoughts are more precise but it differs a lot from speaking with words witch can be confusing for us since we only use spoken language normally. And spoken language (words) can be great to confirm if what you understood is right for example but again if your tulpa confirms with thoughts (that can be interpreted differently) it can be tricky to get to a mutual understanding . The best i guess is being able to use both or something.
  7. It's just that i am the kind of guy that will sit 6 hours straight without a break if i do no get something and understand it completely even if it's the most useless thing . So that were the irritation is coming from lol And yeah i understand your thought process on this and i get how you and J+C approach it . Thanks for the help :D
  8. Ok thanks , i am just being too rational here i guess . But yeah we do not tend to think this things normally because they seem obvious and normal since we use them all the time. And because of that it irritates me that we do not really know much about how it works , it just kinda does . (And i am talking here about our own process of speaking and how does the brain do it etc.)
  9. I meant more that "raw thought" can be more precise than words and like the replies before said , you translate your own thought-feeling into words so there's a step before saying a word. And i just thought that maybe for a young tulpa it's easier to understand that way . And thus progress faster leading to vocality. edit : The process happens automatically and fast since it's normal for us to communicate that way. But it's maybe not that obvious or easy for a tulpa (i am new into this and maybe wrong or whatever keep in mind)
  10. "I find I can't consciously send thoughts-feelings-images to them, not without spoken/thought word." Yep, i read about people that communicated only through thoughts-feelings with their tulpa . That it's a step before being vocal and can help in development . So i tried to actually send thoughts , so sending what i would say but with thoughts and feelings alone . And i found that i really don't know how to do that , like how would you do it for a question ? When i am speaking i am not thinking or feeling everything that i am going to say i just kinda know it and it just kinda comes out . So like you said i guess it has just become an automatic process and ignored by the brain. Because logically , if i don't know how do thoughts with feelings look/feel like , how am i supposed to know what to look for and that i am not just blocking it automatically or if i don't get it and i share the same brain with my tulpa , well she's not going to get it too. But i guess i will just happen like you said and i will know it when it does.
  11. Thanks for the answer , I just thought that if i have no idea how would i do it i don't know what to expect from my tulpa or imagine responses in tulpish. Like when i try to understand what i said myself , I wouldn't understand shit from what i am saying because i don't know how to transmit all the variables.(in tulpish of course)
  12. Hi , Sooo i have been trying to understand this for like 2 days now , I am maybe just retarded right now . I understand what is tulpish . Images , sounds , intentions (that is the definition right lol ?) Say i want to say in tulpish that i am coming home . I would send an image of me going somewhere and opening a door . But how could i possibly say that i am going "home" and most of all that i am going "right now" and i am not sending a fantasy or just a memory. I guess it would come from my intentions . And maybe here is the problem , how in the world do i do that ? Like when you send your intentions what do you feel ? how do you "generate" them ? How do i include them in my message ? Like i said it's maybe just simple stupid and i am missing something obvious but i just cant figure this out.
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