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  1. I know most people have their own way of giving their Tulpa access to the subconscious through symbolic or other means (books, etc). But to a Tulpa who's directly accessing your subconscious, what do they see? Memories? Just a white plane of existence? Or does everyone's subconscious look differently than another?
  2. This was a fear I was having. I'm not sure if it's because the traits I've been choosing are the side stuff first, or something else. If I start explaining a trait for too long I feel like it's being drawn out and nothing is getting done. So it feels more "right" if I just go along with the flow. I know it's pretty much concrete it's impossible to screw this up through anything except negative thoughts, but I'm starting to have doubts. I'll try to work on it more, probably backtrack a bit and reinforce what I already have a bit better. Maybe if I strained one trait for two 30 minute sessions it would be easier.
  3. So, unfortunately real life has been chiming in recently and dragging me off to naughty places. So I had about one full day of zero productivity. I had another short session this morning and am planning another one tonight. I did a repeat today. Went to Wonderland, greeted Tulpa, forced two traits in the exact same way, and then went on to narration. I explained to it why I couldn't be with it yesterday, what happened since then, yadda yadda. Only a few things really noteworthy happened. Namely that about halfway through narration I started talking about the tulpa a little bit. I gave it a short rundown on it's existence. "Hi, your a Tulpa, you live inside my mind, WE'RE GONNA BE SO GOOD FREIIEEENDS" etc. After that I told it that if it ever wanted to communicate with me in some way, I completely supported it. Namely if it wanted to do it through stimulating nerves, making noise, or becoming a bit brighter as it's still an orb in appearance. Nearly instant after I did that it glowed briefly for a second. Then again, again, and again. It just flashed over and over again. I've pretty much taken this as unintentional parroting on my end. Every time the thought entered the back of my mind it would do it again. I tried to focus against it, but to no avail. It didn't seem like such a huge issue considering all it was doing was flashing every now and then, so I just kept going like it wasn't happening. My concentration during this session was broken quite a few times due to the outside world. Whether it was a noise outside, someone in the house talking, or something else. I don't know if that screwed with the process or not. All I did after it happened was close my eyes for a second or so and I was instantly back in Wonderland. Not very long into this session I got another headache. A lot worse than the one I was left with yesterday. It felt like my head was pounding in waves, and to an extent had sort of a rippling effect on my limbs. I told my Tulpa I would be back in a second, and broke visualization myself. Relaxing for a bit like that seemed to have driven it away, and I had no other incidents during the session. That's about all there is. This whole thing lasted for about 35 minutes, or so my stopwatch said. Powerin' through little by little. Hopefully I'll have another update tonight. Recap- Name: N/A Race: Pony Form: Octavia Sentience: Nothin' Total Time Elapsed: 1:35 Working On: Personality n' Narration
  4. Like most people, companionship. I have a lot of general problems that sometimes my friends can't be there for. And it doesn't help that most of my friends are currently miles away. It would be nice to have someone that knows me in and out that I can just talk to for awhile. Also memory retrieval. Which I am totally going to waste on the most trivial things I can.
  5. *high five* So, in terms of progress I had a 30 minute session not very long ago. A small bit of personality and narration occurred. I visualized myself re-entering the Wonderland and did a quick walk around. Just to make sure everything was still as I left it, which it was. I turned around to the center of the room where I'd made just an empty space. I summoned my Tulpa in the middle, though without a form this time. Instead it was a single bright orb with trails of light constantly hovering around it. As soon as it appeared, I started talking to it. Now as a side note, I've never had a consistent inner voice. Like most people, whenever I've heard a voice for the first time, I could perfectly replicate it in my mind. I've always just sort of let that run wild, and as such my inner voice has always changed to completely random things depending on the tone of what I was thinking about. To put a better example, when I was doing personality with it I was speaking with the voice of Robert Downey Jr, and when just generally narrating I was speaking like one of my friends doing a bad posh gentleman accent. Anyway, as soon as it appeared I greeted it. And immediately I accidentally parroted a response. I facepalmed in the Wonderland and started over. This time I was focusing on not letting myself talk for it. After about a minute of that the whole thing went naturally without incident. I explained to it why it was here, why I was creating it, and so on. For some reason I was completely fumbling over my words at the start. I think that was because I was focusing to much on talking to it and was letting my mind wander a bit too much. Or I'm just bad at basic social skills. So after that short introduction, I moved right on ahead to personality. For this I created a pillar behind me. Sitting on top was the trait I had in mind in the form of a colored square. I picked it up and turned back to my Tulpa. I gave an explanation of what it was, which was essentially "You like this because of this, and do this because of this" so on and so forth. After I was done explaining, I touched the cube to the orb's surface and pushed it in. It dissipated inside of it, which I imagined was the tulpa absorbing it. I only did this with two traits. So after that, I just started narrating to it for awhile. I made myself a chair so I could sit in front of it and just blabbered on. A brief talk about where I currently am in life, my activities the past few days, my creation process of the Wonderland, etc. My visualization of myself changed sporadically as I did this. I continuously switched view from first person, third person, a shot of me and the Tulpa from the roof, and sometimes just the Tulpa itself being the only thing in my vision. I didn't really mind as I never stopped talking to the Tulpa however. I was starting to get a headache which was screwing with my concentration, so I decided to end it for now. I said my goodbyes, reused the bracelet to transport me back to reality, laid back down in my bed, and opened my eyes. I'm hoping to get in another session or two before the day is through. In the meantime I have a feeling I'll just be randomly narrating to it every few hours. Not bad I don't think. Recap- Name: N/A Race: Pony Form: Octavia Total Time Elapsed: 1 hour Working on: Personality
  6. Just about every friend I've made has been an open minded individual. So when I told them, it was mostly just "The hell is that?" into "Oh cool. Wanna play some LoL?". A few of them wanted a more in depth description, so I told them most of what I knew. After that I directed them to this site. One of them is now making his own Tulpa. My family would probably think I was crazy though.
  7. Hi there. I'm making this thread to document my experiences with Tulpae. Or just one Tulpa. I discovered all of this fairly recently, but since I have I've been eager to try it as soon as I'd done the research. The current Tulpa I'm working on is a Pony, taking the form of Octavia. At the moment, it has no name. My plan currently is to actually keep it that way, and once the Tulpa has gained some sentience I'll let her choose a name for herself. I've already got down a list of traits, 16 in all. I feel like that's enough, but at the same time it leaves me feeling a bit wanting. Regardless I'll probably be sticking with what I already have. As it stands, the only work I've put into the actual creation process itself is a Wonderland. My original plan was to just visualize the Tulpa in it's entirety, then begin work on narration/personality. After doing some research it seems safer to make work on narration and personality and visualize the body final. But oh well, I'm rambling. Here's the list of traits I currently have, excluding a skill or two. -Playful -Cheerful -Curious -Intelligent -Exuberance -Artistic -Eccentric -Mannerism -Perceptive -Organized -Confident -Brave -Loyal -Prideful -Stubborn -Friendly I did my first session a few hours ago, creating a Wonderland. I documented the entire thing about an hour later. Here's the full shibang. Laid down in my bed for 30-40 minutes. Pitch black, no noise at all besides a ceiling fan. Built up a Wonderland from a location I saw in a dream months ago. It's a fortress situated on a mountain with a endless forest covered in snow surrounding it. The walls are made of cobblestone and colored dark gray, four of them in all going around one side of the mountain. Inside of the walls is a single large tower. At the bottom of the mountain is three separate staircases that lead up to the gate. I visualized myself at the bottom in first person. I looked up to the walls and then began climbing the staircase. I imagined the cold breeze, my footsteps on the stone, and the feeling of holding the railing as I climbed. When I got to the top I stopped for a moment. I looked at the wall and put my hand against it, feeling it's texture and the cold radiating off of it. I made a quick examination of the outside and added on a few details, namely a few bonfires at the top of the walls. I opened the door to the tower and walked inside. The room was a perfect circle with two very large hallways going down each end of it, one to the entrance and the other one led to nothing. The interior went through several redesigns as I just wasn't happy with anything. First I wanted a library with bookshelves on every wall. Then I wanted a desk and study area in the middle. Then I decided that it didn't have enough style. Then it wasn't cozy enough. You get the point. Eventually I settled down with a little bit of everything. The previously empty hallway now had book shelves on both walls, and at the end of it was a fireplace and chairs for lounging about. There was a writing desk to the right, a little bar area to the left, and finally, the center was left empty. That is going to be where the Tulpa will reside during the creation process. I spent a bit of time wandering the Wonderland, checking all of my recent additions, lounging for a bit, etc. It was at that point I decided to create some kind of anchor/entrance for getting between Wonderland and reality. I went to the bar area and created two bracelets that snapped to your wrists. I put one on and stared at it. After a few seconds it started glowing. I imagined it transporting me back to my room. Almost immediately after I removed the bracelet and put it back on, causing it to transport me back to Wonderland. I did this one more time to put me back in reality, then ended the session. I feel like it's a good start considering I've never really concentrated on one thing for such long periods of time in my life. I have a feeling I'll be modifying what I've created already several times along the way. I also want to note that while I was visualizing all of this, the phrase “Jaggo's Mangos” popped into my head. I could not for the life of me get it to go away. I managed to forget it after awhile, but I'm fairly certain I imprinted it on the sky during the process. After all was said and done, I felt rather tired and generally groggy. I suspect that was more so a side effect from me laying completely still in bed for 30-40 minutes rather than concentrating however. That's as far as I've gone so far. TL;DR: Made Wonderland, got the traits, Pony, cream soda.
  8. Oh hai! I found out about this whole Tulpa business about two weeks ago, via the wondrous Pony thread simulators. I went to /mlp/ the same day and found a little bit more about the topic. Intrigued, I decided to research more of the subject. So here I am. I've been lurkin' and researchin' for a bit and decided to finally make some headway into all this. I had my first session today, so I figured better now rather than later. I've always had a very expansive/over reactive imagination, so it would be nice to finally concentrate it into something productive. And also because I can't remember the title of this song I liked from about a year ago and it's really annoying me.
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