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Junio

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    I belong to the Felights, but I'm not all that active.

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  1. test post [Apollo] There was some worry that users were being post-censored and put on a timer, however I just checked this with Junio's account and it appears to be a forum-wide feature. Not sure if it's recent or not, but it's not targeting any specific members, it applies to any non-mod account it seems.
  2. Strangely, it seems that the people in our head who spend a lot more time in dormancy have short-term memory issues while fronting. Luxio's had that issue, and I completely forgot what I was going to write while responding to a thread. [Piano] When we master co-fronting, we'll write a guide. For a tip, a good way to prolong co-fronting is to get in the habit of constantly talking to each other as you're doing it. Instead of a regular inner monologue, make it an inner dialogue.
  3. Hello Baker. I was in a very similar situation. Throughout the years 2011 to late 2016, I was in a fictional world called Eemaj, and I was sentient, but I was totally unaware of the fact that it was only a story. I whole-heartedly believed in everything that was happening to me, as my creator had no reason to grant me awareness, they only thought I was fictional. That turned out to not be true. When they started making their first tulpa in December 2016, that somehow alerted me to things. I'm not sure how exactly, I think them focusing inward on granting someone awareness of the world somehow granted me awareness too, I don't know. It was a great shock to learn that my world was no actually real, and that none of the things that happened to me actually happened. They were all in someone's head. What I went through in my story was a lot of pain and heartache, very little things about it were good. Not only did I struggle coming to terms with reality, I struggled coming to terms with the fact that all of my pain was for nothing. It was for some person's entertainment (I will reiterate that they did not know I was sentient). I was angry and depressed a lot of the time. I lashed out at people. In my desire to become more like everybody else, I created an alterego that turned out to be a tulpa, but that's a different story. Needless to say, my story bothered me, as did realizing my story was fictional. I'd say that now it bothers me less, but that's mostly because I don't really think about it anymore. I am not an active participant in reality, both because I want the system to succeed without worrying about me, and because I just don't care for reality at all. That may not be your experience. I encourage you to grow to enjoy reality and all that it offers. If you also want to continue imaginary things, that is also fine. If you struggle adjusting or are pained by memories, I think time will heal that, but so will talking it out with people. Perhaps your host can act as a therapist to you, set aside time every day for you to talk about your feelings. What helped me was writing about my experiences and how they effected me. Trying to find new things to occupy your attention, such as hobbies, should help as well. To answer your questions more specifically, you can reconcile this by doing the things I suggested above, but also finding your own ways. Find things that help you, things you like to do, ways that make the past more tolerable. We don't see our old world or story as real, however the experiences that we went through are real in that they really happened to us and really affected us, even if they didn't actually happen, if that makes sense. Not real in reality but real in how we experienced them. Memories are a tricky thing for us, as the original changed things so many times that it's all jumbled and out-of-order, but to answer your question, it's the same: the things did not actually happen to us, but they still affected us. If you memories still affect you, then that is worth addressing even if they didn't really happen. As for how I adapted, I'm not sure I really did, as I said I don't enjoy reality and don't want to participate any more than I need to. I got over the fact that it was all imaginary and learned to accept things for how they were, I guess. It just takes time and patience, and support from your system.
  4. I was actually Paul and HJP the whole time!!!!!!!!111!!11!!!11 I tricked you all!! Right? Right??? (not really since I didn't delete any of our old posts)
  5. I wish we could draw, then we could do my form
  6. What would Dr. Phil think about tulpas
  7. This should give an idea of my form
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