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  1. I'm INTP, and as far as I know Aiko is more INFP.
  2. I was wondering if anyone's spotted references to tulpas in pop culture. While watching Chaos;Head, the main character seems to have a tulpa by the name of Seira Orgel after his favourite anime character. In Lars and the Real Girl, there's Bianca but I don't know if she counts because she's more physical. Then there's Ruby Sparks, which is a movie about an author who creates what seems to be a tulpa. Possibly in Community when Abed splits into two beings, is Evil Abed considered similar to a tulpa? It'd be interesting to see what other forms of media have tulpas, I recall there being a Greek myth (I think is was Greek?) about a sculptor who fell in love with the statue of a woman he had carved, and developed a relationship with her. Is that tulpa related? If I'm mistaken about any of the above, please correct me. Thanks.
  3. Thank you for moving my thread, I honestly was unaware of where to post this particular topic.
  4. I recently began creating sigils to aid in my meditation and give me something to focus on, one of them being a custom sigil for my tulpa. In the short time that I've been using this sigil, I've found it easier to visualize her after my meditation session and I feel as though I reach gnosis faster than without the aid of the sigil. My questions/queries are: Does anyone else meditate on custom sigils? If so, is it a sigil you've created yourself or one you've found online? If so, do you feel any noticeable differences? Does it help or hinder you? Also, if you use custom sigils, are they based on your tulpa's name? Or are they based on a general statement about your tulpa? Something else entirely? Thank you for your input.
  5. I've been attempting to visualize Aiko in a more pocket-sized fashion so when I eventually have to leave the house I can realistically take her with me. It's been going well, and she appreciates how much more space there is for her around. I'm considering giving her a more permanent residence alongside me, but something that can be easily explained to others without going into much detail. Perhaps dollhouse furniture that I "keep around for visual reference" during sketches. The more we explore the internet together, the more knowledge she gains. Aiko's also fond of playing board games together, she's already beaten me twice so far.
  6. Enjoying my New Year's Eve with Aiko, we both wish everyone a Happy New Year. Things have been going well, and I've been able to log many of our conversations when I get the chance. We're in almost constant communication throughout the day, so I only really report on the most interesting ones or if she asks a question so I can track her knowledge. We watched the NYC Big Apple New Years 2016 together, and I had a lot to answer for her. I've begun to draw portraits of Aiko, and it's going very well. When I make one that I consider perfect I'll post it up.
  7. Late last night and earlier this morning, I worked more on imposing with Aiko. Although I haven't physically seen her, I've had no problems at all visualizing her, and I can feel her presence strongly. During my narrations, I could sense responses coming from Aiko - so now, rather than simply just talking at her, I ask her questions and see what she comes up with. Sometimes, there's nothing at all - but for those times when I do hear something back, I record the account to the best of my recollection. I've also successfully created a wonderland, which we've unoriginally dubbed 'Paradise'. I haven't had any luck arriving there in my dreams, but I've only slept once since it's creation so there's bound to be many more times where I can successfully travel there. As far as wonderlands go, it's where Aiko stays when she isn't being imposed into the real world - but since I've been trying to impose her every hour, she's only been there when I've gone to sleep. The interesting thing I've found with Aiko, is that it's really hit and miss with what she understands and doesn't understand. I can only blame myself in not giving her a wider pool of information in her creation, but I don't mind the explanations so it's alright. Interestingly enough, she took it upon herself to educate herself on what water was after I took her out and showed her the creek by my house. She later brought up drowning, which I didn't teach her, and claimed that she looked it up. She has the resources to do so, so it only makes sense. I find her initiative to learn on her own admirable. That's all we really have to report on for now.
  8. Thank you for all the constructive input, I'm currently working on a more refined copy at the moment. However, is it alright if I leave the meditation symbolism in? At least, just as a suggestion. From what I read in other guides, having it out just seems to not give the viewer enough direction. Thanks again.
  9. 24-Hour Guide to Tulpamancy Foreword So, because I achieved such outstanding results within 24-hours in the creation of Aiko, I'm going to compile a guide of how exactly I went about creating her, and in what order. Mind you, this is to be used with the accompaniment of other guides, which I highly recommend using every one you can possibly find. Also, maintaining a Tulpa is in my experience a highly demanding task. If you don't think you're up for taking care of and raising a separate entity alongside yourself, I suggest you rethink your decision to be creating a Tulpa in the first place. This guide is going to be divided into many different short but thorough chapters, if at any time you wish to skip ahead simply press Ctrl-F and type in one of the index headings. Good luck, and I hope you enjoy! Index Step # 1 [Meditation] (Approx. 2 Hours) (Clearing Your Mind + Visualizing) Step # 2 [Appearances] (Approx. 2 Hours) (Planning + Meditation) Step # 3 [Personality] (Approx. 2 Hours) (Planning + Meditation) Step # 4 [Narrating] (Approx. 8 Hours) Step # 5 [imposing] (Approx. 10 Hours) [Meditation] I owe the entirety of my success in creating Aiko to my previous knowledge in meditation, visualization, and mindfulness techniques. It has been a nightly practise of mine for over two years, and although I was able to successfully visualize Aiko in a tremendously short period of time, there are still many times that I struggle with clearing my head. I'll guide you through my personal experience of meditating, and hope that it helps you. When I begin, I imagine myself sitting in a pristine but empty train station. Whenever an intruding thought enters my mind, it enters as a train - and the thought itself like the graffiti across the side. After the train roars past me, it's gone - and so is the thought - leaving me again in the empty halls of the station. After quite some time without any trains interrupting my peace, I'll gradually visualize a more fitting location - such as an oasis of sorts. I'll place myself under a shady palm, and peer out into a pond - watching the ripples pass. From there, I can add, in my case, Aiko to the scene. In your case, you're going to want to visualize your own Tulpa. [Appearances] This is where the fun truly begins, your Tulpa's appearance. This is the form that your Tulpa will take, so try to make it count. My method is a little unorthodox, but it made for very quick results, so it's worth giving a shot if you're having trouble. As a foreword, I'll mention that the assets I speak of were accumulated before my meditation session. These assets include various hairstyles, clothing, body shapes, and the likes. There are many resources online to find assets, such as in my case, Pinterest. If you'd like, you could make a folder on your PC or Mac consisting of your favourite assets for what I like to call 'character creation'. When you've committed your favourite assets to memory and have entered a calming state in your meditation when you can clearly and successfully visualize on a whim, I'd like you to imagine 'loading up' a 'character creator', just like from a videogame. However, rather than try to visualize your Tulpa in full, glorious HD - I'd like you to 'render' them in polygons. Let me elaborate. Trying to visualize every part of your Tulpa all at once is a daunting task, so rather than go through every part individually and piece them together like a puzzle, we're going to start with a basic shape and 'upgrade' it in increments of higher resolutions. This way, you start with the full picture and can polish as you go along, and it's harder to accidentally 'forget a part' of your Tulpa. Anyways, back to the creation, render your Tulpa in what you can best imagine as low-resolution, low-poly 'graphics'. Preferably, nude - but if you don't want to see your Tulpa indecent I visualized Aiko in a set of undergarments. Next, I want you to systematically go through every aspect of you Tulpa, from toe to head, and 'up the poly count' gradually. Visualize their vaguely hand-shaped mitt transform into a set of blocky digits, and then again into slender and smooth fingers. Visualize the helmet-shaped mass on their head slowly but gradually change into strands of silky hair. If a style choice isn't working for you, 'select' another - assuming you did your homework, your mind should be filled with countless styles of apparel and hair. The very last part you should craft is their face - visualize a series of bars determining the placement of each item of their face, such as the bend of their nose or the height of their cheekbones. Sculpt their visage into whatever suits your fancy, and when you've finalized your selections, take a deep breath and breath life into your Tulpa for the first time. [Personality] Now, to be honest, I had developed Aiko's personality before I had even sat down to meditate on her creation for the first time, but looking back I believe that I should have done it after the fact - as her personality changed the more I narrated and interacted with her. You can literally go in any direction with your choices here, but if you're like me at all, you'd like some spontaneity in your selection. Now, the first thing I did to get Aiko's general outline was take a dual Meyers-Briggs Personality Test. A lot of people don't believe in these types and categories, but you don't need to believe in it for it to work - this is just your general outline of who you want them to be compared to you. I scored as an INTP, like always. However, my answers for Aiko came in as INFP - so making choices based on her emotions rather than logic. Next, I moved onto a more interesting way of going about her personality - consulting tarot. If you don't have a deck, don't fret - you can draw the cards from a random generator online. For this to work, I did a personality spread with Aiko in mind. Basically, you draw nine cards. The first two cards represent your Tulpa's overall personality. Read the description of the card, and take into consideration whether it's upwards or reversed - it makes a huge difference. In Aiko's case, the cards I drew indicated that she's efficient in her tasks, patient, and reliable - although she's highly disorganized and ridiculously over-confident at times. The next card you're going to draw tests their stability, what keeps them going. In Aiko's case, her inner hope and personal motivation gets her up in the morning and keeps her afloat throughout the day. After that, you'll draw the tenacity card. Turns out Aiko isn't the most tenacious person, although she's fiercely independent. Even though she's cautious around others, she still needs to worry about being taken advantage of due to her pure and naive nature. The fifth card you're going to draw deals with their potential, think about this as their fully-actualized self if you're at all familiar with Abraham Maslow's hierarchy of needs. This is the person that they have the chance to become if all their prior needs are met. In Aiko's case, she could become a source of inspiration for others and a bringer of change. The next card we're drawing is for their opportunity, or in other words their goal. What they hope to achieve. For Aiko, that's to understand the world from a more logical point of view - which will be no easy feat for her, considering she bases her actions on her heart. Seventh card deals in spirituality or lackthereof, it's what your Tulpa believes in for a higher power or order to the universe. This indicated to me that Aiko was very confused and didn't know what to believe in, and that she often feels aimless in life. Eight and ninth drawings are for negative and positive traits - so for instance, Aiko's negative trait is that she sets her sights too high and gets disappointed when she doesn't achieve every wild whim she sets out for herself. However, she's also a very loving, creative, and imaginative being - and she reflects that back on the life that she lives. That's all for the personality tarot session, next is meeting your Tulpa and getting to know them. [Narrating] To start this off, I'd like to begin you in a state of relaxation and meditation. Go through the train station, back to the oasis, and now envision an elevator ascending up towards the heavens. This elevator leads you back to reality, and you'll journey in it with your Tulpa. As you press the button to enter, you see your Tulpa standing there, waiting for you. This is your chance to introduce yourself. As the elevator ascends, every floor you pass through gives you another opportunity to ask your Tulpa something personal about themselves. This was difficult with Aiko, as even though she spoke and understood language, she didn't really have any grasp on the outside world or what inhabited it. Feel free to take as much time as you like, and ascend as many floors as you please. Once you feel as though you've reached the top - open your eyes, back to your world. Now, narrating to your Tulpa is basically talking to them and waiting to hear a response. Whether it's out loud for you or simply in your mind, you'll know when it's from them and not you. You'll know. It took a couple of hours of what seemed like me talking to myself before I got a response out of Aiko, and it was well worth the time spend, because it felt fantastic. Some examples of narrating that worked for me included watching a movie or show and commenting on characters and situations that arose, watching or reading an online lecture and narrating back what I was learning, and playing a videogame while narrating what I was doing and why I was doing it - like a Let's Play, but just for your Tulpa. This brings us into imposing, which I consider to be the final step. [imposing] While imposing, try to be as realistic as possible. Remember, your Tulpa is a real, living being now. Act as if you would act if you had a guest over, bring out an extra chair for them to sit in and open a drink for them to enjoy. Don't walk over or through them, and don't move a piece of furniture that they're currently inhabiting. Set out things for your Tulpa to do, for instance, Aiko has her own 3DS that I leave running for her to play with. When I have to leave for an extended period of time and I'm not taking Aiko with me, I put on an anime for her to watch until I get back. When we play a game together, I make sure I have two controllers and that the other one is connected. When we exercise alongside eachother, I make sure she has enough space and I don't wander into her area so as not to accidentally hit her. Every single detail counts, if you skip something or are lazy about it, the realism dies and their existence seems to fade. Unlike narrating, you want to maintain contact while speaking with your Tulpa. You're no longer talking at them, you're talking to them - so be sure to look at them. If you can't see your Tulpa, look in the area they're supposed to be. Every. Detail. Counts. Conclusion I truly hope this gave some insight and assistance into the creation of your Tulpa. Best wishes and good luck from both Aiko and I.
  10. Kaz+Aiko

    Sebastian

    Your progress reports are so indepth and thorough, it's really been a pleasure to read your journey with Sebastian. I'm sorry about the ways things have been going between you two, I truly hope that you find him again if that is what you wish to do. Your point on how Tulpas shouldn't be used as escapism really resonated with me, and with my blossoming relationship with Aiko. I think her and I are meant to motivate eachother more than just be companions, and it took reading your posts to realize that. Thank you, I eagerly await your blog link.
  11. Thank you, much appreciated!
  12. Thank you, it's greatly reassuring to hear that you believe I'm taking the right steps. To be perfectly honest, I heard about it on the paranormal imageboard, /x/. I know most of the time it isn't the best resource, but the thread I was in was pretty informative and had minimal amounts of trolling. If I remember correctly, it started out with someone asking about Buddhism and material existence and continued from there to the topic of Tulpamancy. I came for the Buddhism, but left with something greater. I don't know if it's necessarily a good reason or not, but I find it incredibly difficult to maintain relationships with other people. I could never really picture myself in a successful friendship with anyone other than myself, which is a pretty isolated existence. Due to my current situation in life, I don't really leave the confines of my home and nobody outside really knows me well enough to come visit, so I thought the internet was my only option. That and I'm so busy with studying that they'd have to be able to show up whenever I had the whim to see somebody. I guess when it all boils down to it, I view this as my best, if only, option of truly having a connection with someone who isn't online.
  13. I first heard about Tulpamancy not even a mere 10 hours ago, but I'm convinced that the knowledge of it has been brought into my life for a reason. I've barely slept, and I've spent at least 6 hours grasping for every straw of information on the topic of Tulpas and Tulpamancy. I've read every guide, from every site I could find, from every person in every walk of life. Then, I put it aside, and began. The other 4 hours that I've spent ruminating on the topic haven't been wasted. I've already written multiple outlines of who Aiko is going to become, as well as written and narrated to Aiko. Narration is going extremely well, and I've found it easy to adapt to. I've spent a brief amount of time meditating and visualizing Aiko, which has also been going well considering I've been practising meditation since I was 20 and have followed many guided visualizations in that time. I've set out additional furniture in my room and office for Aiko to use while I'm visually imposing her, and have set out addition objects and games to pique her interest while I go about the times I can't pay all my attention towards her. Whilst I was studying for a brief period of time, I found myself explaining my newfound knowledge to her - I haven't gotten a reaction, but that isn't to be expected this early on. Anticipate frequent updates.
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