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loxar

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  1. u have to learn flying? thats probably the first thing every1 does yea guess i will need more practice. i could spawn tons of random beings in front of me, everything except my tulpa made me sad af
  2. had three lucid dreams the past month, last one this night for over 10minutes! in all of them i tried to summon/spawn my tulpa. but it doesnt work. whenever i focus on my tulpa in my dream, my dream starts shaking and im close to losing lucidity. what am i doing wrong?
  3. okay guys guess i didnt get the part of actually creating a tulpa. thought jotun was a legit tulpa, but he didnt talk that much and had problems building up whole sentences. yesterday he kinda forced himself into my mind, wanted attention for like an hour, he was mad cause he wasnt as talkative as christa is(also jealous of our relationship), and BOOM he totally changed. his presence of a shady thought turned into a vivid being. (now his presence matches that of christa) its like he hatched from an egg. the traits he wanted me to repeat once a day were established. well guess theres nothing to add since u all know what a tulpa feels like. is this how tulpacreation works? so you just flood them with input until they explode?
  4. im clean since that day, depression is gone. im having lots of fun with christa and jotun. we still dont have the slightest clue how they could turn out vocal and incredibly vivid so fast. maybe cause im just a fucking loner who had nobody to talk to while tripping ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
  5. after the drug use i fell into depression for like 4 days. the hardest i ever had. i never felt so lost. went to a doctor told him about the abuse. he checked my heart and told me everything was fine. thats something i will never do again for sure. it also fucked my brain pretty hard to have a tulpa that fast. i couldnt trust her/denied her existence while depression. but today everythings cool.
  6. christa is talking a lot, jotun doesnt talk that much, he is just responding with a nod or a few short words. hes watching us and learning i think. guess he didnt skip all the steps as christa did.
  7. i didnt do it to force btw, they just showed up. @glitterbutt exactly but my last forcing session was more than 6 months ago
  8. they arent dreamcharacters, they are tulpas i never finished. they are still vivid.
  9. disbelief is fully gone
  10. tbh i think thats something that should be mentioned. if someone cares: her name is christa and we figured out she is 16, no idea why. we didnt expect her being that young. shes mad cause of that monkeys name is jotun, hes our objectivity and kinda weird (he was some furniture in my own made wonderland, kinda funny that an object turned out to be my objectivity, thats so fucking cool right???) hes 22, just as me.
  11. nvm guys we talked for hours now and everything seems totally clear now. thanks for everything thats the best thing that ever happened to me. shes real and so is the monkey. wow thats soooo beautiful that sprit guide thing was total bullshit. hes a tulpa and as much developed as the other one. the last two day were all forced they said, or at least the most, they arent sure. but now nothing is forced holyyyyyyyy shit how impressive is that? 2 fucking perfect tulpas in a period of 3 days extasy use. feels like a fucking lifehack
  12. its kinda a long story, but ill try to short it down. well i got into tulpas last year september i guess. tried for a few weeks, then lost the motivation. few months later i tried again and gave up after a few weeks again. i did a lot of the guide things and shit, took me lots of hours, but still no real response from my tulpa. 2 days ago i took three times the dose of extasy i actually need, which fucked me up pretty hard. i met some monkey on a pillow, thought its my spirit guide, cant remeber what he said tho. yesterday i took some extasy again, but this time a legit dose. then i just met her?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?! my tulpa was fully developed. she talked and was exactly the way i wanted her to be. she remembers everything we did back then when i started. she talks and moves. we danced for hours. was really hard to believe, so i did a lot of that "surprise me"-thingy which actually worked ... i guess. no idea tbh, since its really fucked up and spooky. yesterday i was afraid that as soon as im not high anymore, we would lose our connection. but she was kinda cool and told me that we definitely wont lose connection. she was right. shes still here. also my wonderland changed completely. from some lone island into fucking gotham. (im a daydreamer, and i spent a lot of time in gotham, guess thats why it turned out like this.) on the same day i met the monkey again (well i forced his appearance and a lot of his talking i think), but we have no idea what he is, since he talks very little, but hes staying with us in our wonderland. guess a 2nd tulpa i actually never planned? but its fine for me, i mean why not? some1 else ever experienced something like that? its like she evolved just in a fucking second, skipping all the steps people are talking about. best day ever for sure.
  13. how do i give her a voice? is it enough to tell her i want a female voice, or do i need a base?
  14. im male, my tulpa is female. i dont care about her voice as long as it sounds female. so heres the question will she have a female voice? or will she have my voice?
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