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MasterCyria

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  1. Hello, everyone! This will be my progress journal for all tulpa related things. About Me I'm a 23-year-old college graduate (I graduated in December), and I currently work full-time. In the summers, I also work as an actor at a local ren faire. I practice magic & sorcery on and off again, so this progress journal may have some more metaphysical leanings as opposed to psychological. (Fair warning, if that offends you.) I learned about Tulpas about a week ago after an article on them was posted in a Facebook group I'm a member of for a sorcery class I've taken. The article was rubbished, focused mostly on tulpa-pony-sex relationships, but I was curious as to the thinking behind the article, and I made my way to the Reddit. After reading a ton of material there, I made my way here, and I've read most things that I can get my hands on. After much thought, yesterday, I decided to embark on a mission to bring life to my own Tulpa. Why A Tulpa? I wish to bring life to a Tulpa for a few reasons. First and foremost is companionship. The tulpa/host relationship reminds me greatly of a connection between a guardian spirit and a sorcerer. It's a relationship that I've always been greatly interested in establishing, but I have never taken the time to truly do. With a tulpa's access either residing within the host, or being a part of the host itself, the process seems more personal with the Tulpa understanding the subconscious desires of the host, as opposed to the cryptic spirit. Besides pure companionship, I also greatly lack skills in visualization of the minds eye, and I would love to have a partner to work through the occult with. Day 1 To begin our journey together, I first wanted to create a wonderland for her to reside in. My visualization skills are extremely lacking, in that using my minds eye I get super shadowy flashes of images, often devoid of color, and mostly impressions. I spent a fair amount of time attempting to develop a clearing in the woods for a little Japanese house/shrine, with a stone path leading up to it, and then mountains far away to the left of the house, and a beach and ocean to the right. I also created a portal near the house so that when I appear in the wonderland, that point is my anchor to appear and I have to traverse the wonderland without popping around by thought. After the creation of the simple wonderland, I imagined a ball of silver light by me, and I proceeded to introduce myself to her, what my intentions are, what we would do together, etc. I told her that I would call her Lydia, as I seemed to be stuck on that name, and if she wished another name all she needed to do was to let me know. I picked up of the ball of light and carried it into the little japanese house, and then set it upon a bed. I began to create her form roughly as a 20s woman with red hair and brown eyes. I wasn't terribly specific, as I was basing her form off of this image: http://www.scenicreflections.com/files/Female%20Assassin%20Wallpaper__yvt2.jpg. After visualizing her form, I proceeded to speak to her at points in the night, and I also gave her a little bell to chime, for if she attempted to speak to me and I wasn't hear here - so that if I heard a bell, I would know it was her. Before bed that night, I then gave her a little comms device that if I would speak to her, it would be the signal of the audio and visuals. That way, it wouldn't be disorienting to hear me if I wasn't able to visualize myself well within the wonderland. In an interesting twist of events, before I said goodnight to her, I told her that if she wished it, it may be easiest to contact me while I am dreaming, as I tend to be more aware of the spiritual when I am at rest. I awoke that night having swore I heard a female voice, and I knew it was Lydia. It then happened a second time, however, for the life of me I cannot remember what she said, and I apologized to her this morning. On My To-Do -Continue to speak with Lydia regularly. Sometimes visualizing myself within the wonderland, as best as I am able. Othertimes, putting the intent in my thoughts/feels towards her, so they -should- reach her. I find that a lot of magick has to do with intent. -Because my visualization can be rough at times, and I am skipping the personality step (I want her to naturally develop), I will still practice the visualization. But I will also draw the wonderland, write a description of Lydia, and then draw her. I will dedicate a section of my altar to her as well. It is my current theory that a Tulpa uses our interaction as a form of offering to develop their form, and I believe that because she resides within me, I can then offer these to her and she will develop. I sincerely hope that when I can hear her more clearly, she can assist me on actual visualization so that my time in the wonderland isn't super jumpy. Current Questions -Because the wonderland is within the mind's eye, how is one able to tell the difference between changes that they're making to the wonderland, to what the Tulpa has changed? -How does one know, if the Tulpa has movement within the wonderland, if it is of the Tulpa's accord or of the mind's accord? Note: I am not terribly concerned about parroting and puppeting at the current time, as I am under the current thought that there is an impression of if the movement/changes are something that you planned or not. But because I cannot visualize well, even having done some exercises, I believe I will have to rely on impression and direct thought more so.
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