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  1. A few extra downsides from my experience in the last nine years that one could possibly add under 'complicates mental health issues': Depersonalization and derealization Identity and/or existential crisis Paranoia, trust issues, etc. With this practice you're not (just) messing with your brain, you're messing with your mind, which opens up a lot of possibilities good and bad. It might be fun and games at first but that doesn't mean it will be that forever. You might see and hear things that are not there. You might question the nature of self and the nature of reality. And worst of all, you might question yourself, and end up struggling to retain control.
  2. Alright, it has been a week or two and I've only managed to induce this about three times, all of which just before going to bed late at night meaning when I was sufficiently tired enough. There definetly is something going on with this, the experience was almost similar to waking up from hypnopompia but noticably fainter. Something in between a daydream and a regular lucid dream I would say. Again, I'm more of a hypnopompic person so it makes sense. I think this is a pretty good exercise if one wants to get started with dream memorization in relation to lucid dreaming, if anything, but for tulpamancy... eh, I'm not so sure, not for me at least.
  3. Sounds viable, although my mind mostly goes haywire coming out of a dream rather than going in, so I might not be able to reproduce it. Still, I will be trying this later and review my experiences in an edit, thank you.
  4. Your conscious did, not your subconscious. The character of Ryunosuke Akutagawa in your mind has been linked with violence and aggression. If you're particularly deeply fascinated with the character undoing that link will be difficult. The quick and dirty method would be identity switch; take up a new form and a new name and start from a blank slate completely unrelated to the character. Alternatively, as he gains experience in life he will slowly distance himself from the character he was based on and deviate naturally.
  5. Alright, so, quick rundown because I'm writing this the second time. Your mind has two regions: the conscious - things you are aware of doing or thinking about on your own will - and subconscious - things you do or think of not by your own will. If you close your eyes and think of an apple, you will probably see something faint resembling an apple in the blackness. That's called an 'imagination'. Or you might go starving in the desert for two days and do the same but without consciously wanting to think of an apple, or take some sort of substance and see one the same. That's a 'hallucination'. Now, your brain has a few neat tricks to save brainpower too. One is 'habituation', where you do something so many times your brain does it automatically and you essentially will have to focus on NOT doing it. The second is similar, called 'linking', where if you do something consciously and your subconscious adds something else to it involuntarily. #1 is responsible for things like you driving without looking at the gears or typing without watching the keyboard. #2 is responsible for hearing the words '-body once told me' every time you see someone kick a door in. This means if you, say, start willingly and regularly thinking about an apple every time you go to sleep, do it for two-three-four months you might find yourself seeing apples in the bed even though you do not want to. This is not limited to just your 'mind's eye', but all other senses meaning you can imagine hearing, smelling, feeling or even tasting things, and turn all of those into a habit you do subconsciously. But still we only have a thoughtform, not an actual personality. Well, for that one there is a couple things you can do. You can take something your subconscious already has that you are aware of and link the appearance to that (spirit animals, fylgia, hamingja), or you can develop an entirely separate entity by asking and answering questions like 'what they'd do in this situation?' or 'what they'd prefer from these things?'. You guessed it, we'll be pushing this entire process into the subconscious into a habit until the answers come so easily and fast it will feel like the entitiy has a life on their own (soulbonds, tulpas). Mix and match to your liking. It's actually not that difficult for the brain to do, even a child can do it (imaginary friends). Sometimes the mind even does it a snap to prevent further damage to itself which is how you end up with illnesses like D.I.D. or shizophrenia. That is not to say these are all equals, again, the voluntary forfeiture of this versus the involuntary loss of control is a huge differentiating factor, but in their core, they are made of the same cloth. They are all externalizations of parts of our subconscious. Once you realize this, you will start to see that different cultures across the world throughout history have been all doing something similar that we do, and they had their own explanations and their own reasons. Nordic vikings turned their ancestral wisdom into 'hamingja' and their primal animalistic instict into an animalistic spirit called 'fylgja', both recognized as parts of the self. Greek artists credited their inspiration to 'muses'. And tibetan monks created their own 'sprul-pa' as a means of spiritual awareness and guidance. Others externalized their addictions and other bad habits into 'demons', 'succubi', 'imps' or other malicious entities. Some practices even have direct correlation to what we do. What we call 'deviation' is closer to daemians' 'settling', or finding one's 'spirit animal' in indeginous tribes. I think it's important to differentiate these practices based on not (mainly) their end result, but their methodology, culture and their goals. Which is why I don't prefer vague meta-meta-definitions such as ' x-genic' 'systems' and call my muses muses. Everybody's experiences are different, so are everybody's motives, again, it's heavily reliant on an individual's subconscious. Tulpa.info generally looks for method first, but I feel like one does better when searching for their 'madness' instead, if that makes sense.
  6. I can pinch in my two cents on the matter. I'm Mel, have two muses called Martina and Erika, as well as several soulbound characters that arose from my creative endeavors. That I'm the original owner of the physical body. I think that's a good enough reason. As for the sub-questions, 'egregores' and more notably 'godforms' are thoughtforms that allegedly surprass the boundaries of the individual's minds, however if you ask me, I don't think they do. Dig deep enough and you'll find that no two people who believe in the same god have a 1:1 matching idea of it. Which is why we have so many branches of Christianity. That being said though, I'm also believe in a 'not seeing the forest from the tree' type situation. From what I've gathered in Christianity for instance, you don't directly talk to God by yourself, but through the Holy Spirit, which is basically a thoughtform acting as a proxy. If there are higher beings and they can only communicate with us in a way that we percieve it unconsciously, then we will need a thoughtform like that to do so. You may never know for sure whether your companion is an agent of a higher being or not. And lastly... heh, there is a notion - a copium if you will - around the tulpa (and other) communities that 'nooo, they're not imaginary friends, w-we are more advanced' or something. Certain studies (and my anecdotes) however found that often times children don't actually puppeteer their imaginary friends around either, rather they are fully autonomous, self-aware entities that are merely compliant... or not. In that sense, 'imaginary friends' are more like 'illusiory friends' rather, but, you know, semantics. Trust me if you don't learn to work together, you're in for a hell of a ride. Ask all the people in the old Burning Times who externalized their addictions into demons and end up feeling even less in control of them, which would eventually do make them lose control. This is what I think is the most important thing you have to keep in mind, and what has helped me with Erika: you are in control*. You might feel you're not, you might feel doubtful of yourself, but you need to remember that the body, the brain your mind belongs to that houses these forms is yours. I could have kept the name of my spear weilding bunny character 'Elizabeth' if I wanted to no matter how much she objected to it, but that would have felt unfitting and forced every time I saw it. So I let her have Elza like she wanted regardless of the Frozen connections. Same with the other bunnies, Poppy, Sariel, Recca and Rita, other soulbond characters who now basically 'write themselves'. Co-operate, but be the leader. * may not apply if plurality comes from trauma Martina and Erika are my muses. Their purpose is what you'd expect from one: they come in and bash me over the head with a 2-5kg cast iron frying pan with the word 'IDEA' on top occassionally until I do something about it. Martina's are generally more refined, gradiose but solid while Erika's are more intrusive, depraved but fleeting. They do the world-building and character development and storyline, I do the... everything else. Often they appear in my lucid dreams and in the case of Erika when she arrived, turn them into a nightmare. As for soulbonds or other characters that have 'come to life' from the constant writing or world-building, they mainly reside in their own worlds and do not interact with me or my muses. Exceptions sometimes occur though, namely every time Recca suffers from an unfortunate event there is a distinct 'I hate you' type of feeling I get from her, or the time when I found Rita by a waterfall in a lucid dream and we had a bit of a talk with me finding out she likes painting. Dreams in general are the most common way I communicate with both my muses and my characters.
  7. I don't know. For me, plurality as a whole is tied to the subconscious. 'Conscious' is me as in me, 'subconscious' is the others. For instance when this happens, if the thought appears foreign or unusual enough I usually attribute it to one of my companions. If it feels like a particularly inspiring idea it's most likely Martina, if it's more intrusive and disrupting but still creative in some form then it's most definetly Erika. It's closer to the subject of 'divine inspiration' from my part... just without the divine part. But the thing is you can externalize any form like that from any part of your subconscious: ideals (kami), vices (demons), feral instincts (fylgia or animal totems), ancestral or cultural knowledge (hamingja), whatever. In the end, they're all part of our minds, and it's just a matter of how you're interpreting or influencing the parts you cannot control by direct effort. 'Consciously subconscious' as I call it sometimes.
  8. I would say it's a rookie mistake (and a free spin at being posted on Reddit) because of all the newbies who just want to make their flavour of the month real but who knows, you might pull through and get a lasting companion anyway. The idol of mine's is a pony.
  9. Here's the thing: whether it's imaginary friends, tulpas, daemons or most other thoughtforms, they aren't really that different or complex. They are all projections of your unconscious into conscious senses. X can certainly be brought back but he will likely be different from the X you knew. You already know what his purpose was, and I reckon you have already forgave yourselves in conscious for the things that happened in the past. The question is whether you forgave yourselves deep in your unconscious. Get in touch with him, the best thing to do in these situations is a good sitting down and talking. Best of luck to all of you.
  10. I was just about to say OP sounds like a stereotypical 8/x/ containment breach. Anonymous, Hyperborea, vril, preachy nature about 'the truth', on a fresh account, just about the whole bingo card really. I am not against explanations of alternate world-views, of course, it's just one could do it in a way that doesn't make you look like a parody.
  11. Okay, first of all: don't do that. Rejecting religion doesn't necessarily make you open-minded on the merit of it, science and religion are not exclusionary. Secondly, you should also be skeptical of mainstream science. You should especially be skeptical of mainstream science. Now, onto your main question, yes there have absolutely been tulpa-like entities throughout time. Totems, guardian angels, fylgia or other sort of spiritual/mental companions have been part of many different cultures or their mythologies. But if you want a more pop culture example there are also daemons from before the whole tulpa ordeal inspired by His Dark Materials, or the concept of SoulBonds before them. In fact, if we count imaginary friends as tulpa-like I'd dare say this phenomenon is even natural. For me, there is fundamentally not that much of a difference between these types of thoughtforms. Sort of. The difference I'd say is that while we tulpamancers cut our own path, worshippers 'follow a recipe'. However the fundamental process is still the same, it involves lots of active focus (reading), communication (prayers), and just developing a steady rhytm of habits (Sunday masses in churches). Each culture has/have their own quirks to their methods but they all mostly boil down to these.
  12. My friend has what you're describing, he calls them 'jeffos'. He summons them whenever he wants to aim for feeling a specific emotion and his 'jeffos' help him achieving that. In a sense I have one too, as Erika only seems to appear whenever I have a burst of existential dread or nightmares.
  13. Martina does that all the time. For years I thought she was mute but it turned out she is just not talkative. As Mirichu pointed out, speaking - even inside your mind - is mostly just a formality because it's insanely inefficient and slow in comparison to the raw idea of what you wanted to say which your tulpa has already received. Try playing the word chain game like that, by the way.
  14. Agreed with the others, seems like an powerful intrusive thought, or rather: a nightmare. It's generally a good idea not to lay down in the bed while tulpaforcing so you don't fall asleep without noticing. Happened to me quite a few times.
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