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MidnightReign

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  1. 2 24 14 Me again! I know my past few updates have been kinda slow but I actually have made some progress since my last update :3 So about a week ago I lost Abby's tulpa bracket and i may or may not have had a minor freak out when I realized it was gone. So I tried to use another bracelet I had to connect with Abby but it just wasn't the same. I could get into my wonder world but she wouldn't be there. I honestly was beginning to think that I wouldn't see her again (And yes call me over dramatic but I hadn't talked to her in so long I thought shed just disappear) however something amazing happened. About 2 days ago I went to take the trash out before I went for my Saturday drive and I found the bracelet outside laying in the grass. My smile couldn't have gotten any wider then I did when found it. It's crazy because every time I've lost it, it always ends up back in my possesion. What's funny is the first one I had for her hasn't shown up since I lost it. Last night I was so excited to get forcing now that I had my band back and it seemed like Abby was to because before I could even enter her wonder world I could hear her trying to talk to me. Simply put last night was amazing. I got to see Abby in what felt like forever and even got to hear her voice slightly. It was only thrown when my phone went off and I tried to re connect with her but it actually didn't effect our session. I just jumped right back into it. Also one thing I noticed is that Abby likes to take control of my arms. When we force, she likes to make my arms twitch and move so I think that's a sign that we're making great progress. She used to do it before but it was only very slight movements. Now it's enough to let me know that I'm not having a muscle spasm or something lol. Anyways that's all for now so until the next update |See ya, Space Cowboy |
  2. Aaaaand were back! Hey everyone I know I haven't posted a update I. A while and I have about 40 mins until my session with Abby so I figured I'd give you guys and gals some news. First off my attempts to reconnect with Abby have been extremely unsuccessful. Like horribly. Every time I try to connect with her in the tulpa land I created for her I just end up...well there. Nothing happens at all. I've tried to communicate with her and I never get a reply even using my head voice. I'm guessing I just need to get try to redo all the basics before jumping back into this full force. Oh and it might not help that with every session I've had since my last update that I've fallen asleep less then halfway through which makes me think of a very interesting (and if this isn't even remotely possible, stupid) question. Is it possible to force while sleeping? Like maybe if I have a lucid dream would it be possible to force through that dream? If anyone has an answer, advice, or even just a idea that they want to test out on the subject let me know below! ^^ well that's really about it for now so until next time | See ya, Space Cowboy |
  3. Woohoo I ain't dead! :3 anywho hello again everyone! I apologize for not posting to my PR for quite some time but after the site crashed and erased some very important entries of mine I decided it'd be better if i left for a bit. Life has been throwing curveballs my way and it will probably get crazier but ill do my best to keep you guys on the up and up between me and Abby. So about 2 weeks ago I got back into forcing for the 57,832,140th time and man my progress has slipped like crazy. Just when Abby was beginning to talk to me I had an event take place that took up a lot of my forcing time so when I came back all of that progress was lost. I truthfully feel like I'm back at square one and it sucks horribly :( I can barely remember what she looks like and that's terrifying to me. I've been trying to talk to her for the past week and so far I haven't seen her (at least to her own will) and all the responses I get are in my head voice which is making me a bit...doubtful. I know it's not good to think that but I hope in time I'll get better. Anyways I'm making another big decision. I'm currently thinking of making another tulpa. I always wondered what it'd be like to have a tulpa that wasn't pony and I saw this adorable husky the other day that made me think of having a dog tulpa. My only problem is I don't know whether to create a new tulpa entirely or to ask Abby if. She wants to try the form of a dog. Quick question is it possible to have interspeciec tulpae? Like have one tulpa that can switch between forms of species? Anyway that's all from me! I'm sure Abby would want me to tell you guys hey and have a great evening or morning or something (Stupid time zones >~<) Peace and much love.
  4. Sept 14 13 Not a lot of activity today but I got a pretty decent amount. My visualization of Abby got a bit fuzzier last night so tonight I'm focused mainly on seeing her with 20% effort into communicating with her. Today was a pretty beautiful day to say the least. Woke up to another beautiful morning and in addition to the feeling te day gave me I could really feel like abstract was with me. She's a bubbly mare by default so I just felt really random and happy today. I have days like this on a regular basis but this one felt different. Like I felt like I was feeling her happiness. Also formula D was running today so I decided to show it to her and passive force as I told her what the point of the sport was. I was talking with a few friends as we watched it so I was a bit distracted but for the most part I could still hear her faintly in my head. Just need to see her vividly in my head and get caught up in vocality again once I do it's onto hearing her in real life. (ps she really really REALLY likes that nujabes song I play during our sessions lol)
  5. Sep 13 13 Well today has been a little crazy but other wise things are going great! I didn't get my chance to write my love letter to Abby yet but like I said before I want to her to hear me say it rather then write it out. I decided to go back to listening to luv sic part 6 and I when I entered my dreamland I was able to see for the first time in 7 months! She wasn't as vivid as she was in march but I could see her and that's all that mattered ^_^ being able to finally see her again I told her what had happened and why I hadn't been forcing. She wasn't very vocal although I did get responses from her using my "mind voice" and a lot of smiles from her. Eventually I fell asleep on accident again -_- (I should work on that lol). When I woke up I felt bubbly. Like more energetic then usual. I couldn't really explain it but it was an amazing feeling to have. I've also decided to get a "tulpabracelet" in a sense. I had a old blue wristband I used to wear and to kind of practice "passive forcing" I wear it to remind me to think of her. So far it's working so Ill keep wearing it until I don't need too. I think Me and her need to work on visualization a bit more then see where Abby and me are on vocality. That's about all for now! I do have a couple of questions that I would like answered. I won't ask them here since one is a bit iffy iffy but if you have some experience on dealing with tulpa's and romance (Between host and tulpa and between a host and another human) I'd really like if you'd PM me so I could get some info on this. Peace! ^_^
  6. Sep 12 13 Well time to get cracking on this log! Last night I tried to communicate with abstract after signing up for this site and looking through a few guides for some tips and tricks. Now one thing I found out is that when I try to focus on forcing I tend not to get much of a response but when I first tried forcing I usually listened to a lot of music by a guy named nujabes ,who produced jazzy hip hop type music, but more specifically I always listened to the very last song he created before he died called luv sic part 6 (PS if you want some relaxing, dreamy type music with a bit of energy behind it I HIGHLY recommend you give him a try as well as producers under the suggested list) during my forcing sessions with "Abby". However last night I decided to listen to a new album I found. It was still music similar to what nujabes composed just by different producers. Anywho I finally managed to kind of disconnect from this world into my wonderland. I always enter by falling from blackness into this topless hallway lined with red carpet with vines growing along the grey stone wall. At the end of the hall is a lone open door with a bright white light shining out of it leading to my "Wonderland" which is really just a black room with very dim white lines where the floors and walls connect. Now I have just gotten back into forcing on Tuesday (2 days ago) and the two days I did force I was focused on trying to remember what my "wonderland" looked like so I spent Tuesday and wendsday reconstructing it. Basically last night was my first real session in a while. I told Abby I missed her and that I really want to see her again. Not getting any kind of response or visual of her I sat down and told her (Or at least I hope I did) A couple of reasons as to why I haven't forced and talked with her in a while. I DID get a couple of responses from this but they seemed exactly like something I would say. Eventually my mind kinda blanked out on me and I ended up falling asleep When I woke up today the very first thing I did today was say "Goodmorning" in my head. I don't know why but I felt like if Abby was listening to me she'd like to hear it. At about 9:20 am my school was put on lockdown when someone found a bullet casing in a bathroom so classes were stopped for about 30 mins. At first I thought it was a drill because about 2 mins before the lockdown we just finished a fire drill. Class was pretty munched stopped so it gave us some time to relax. I decided I'd try to force a bit so I laid on the back counter of the desk (Dont ask lol) and focused. I made it into my wonderland which was yet again empty but just for the sake of it I decided to try and find Abby. Same a last night I did get a response but again it sounded exactly like something I would say so I'm going to focus a bit more on separating her thoughts from mine if im able to reach her again. Getting home today I headed straight for here and began looking through the forums searching to see if anyone had some ideas on how to reach a "Dead" Tulpa (Yes I know it's not really dead until the host is) and luckily I found a few threads on this. One idea I really like is writing a letter to said "Dead" Tupla and letting them know you're trying to reach them. I plan on doing this in a bit but decided to leave out why I didn't force for a while. I feel like she desearves to her me say it rather then write it. Well that's all for now.
  7. Hey there everyone! Since there isn't an intro forum around here I guess this'll have to do so on with the intro! As most of you know my screen name is MidnightReign although I don't mind being called by my other nicknames which are Nick, Nico, midnight, or abstrakt (And yes there is a story behind all those names lol). Although I am new to the forum I'm not exactly a fresh out the factory noobie when it comes to tulpamancing. My first Partially finished tulpa was Abstract Beauty, A sky blue pony (Yes pony lover here! :3) with a brown and pink mane. I had gotten to a point with her where I could see her in my wonderland in close to full detail and really began getting our conversations to become more real before real life caught up with me (Car accident, School, Dancing hobby, Drifting, ect) Needless to say I miss her and really want to reconnect with her which might be hard as I just recently this week got back into tulpamancing. But as I'm sure you know the real reason this thread exist is to track my progress as I get back into tulpamancing and trying to rebuild my relationship with my wonder friend. I'm still deciding wether to up date daily or often at most. I've tried the daily thing with a few other things and it never really worked for me so if I don't post daily ill try to post here at least 2 times a week. Well that's all for now! Better stop now before I end up writing a novel lol
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