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Orientor

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  1. Well... If she's really looking for any way she can, I'd personally suggest a form of magic(k), though I am a bit biased on the matter. I'd sooner consult a spiritual healer or medium than I would consult a psychologist (And I'd sooner take care of the problem myself than risk dealing with a potential fraud). Despite my bias, though, I logically think this might be a better route. This is why. What you're describing goes a little bit beyond the regular case of early-childhood tulpa (or the imaginary friend). Even children creating their own tulpa at an early age and keeping it through their teen years is a rather uncommon circumstance. For that Tulpa to cause harm to her verbally and emotionally - even when she doesn't want it to - is something beyond that. Now, note: I'm not talking about some demon come to torture her (at least not presumably). But somehow this "Tulpa" of hers has found a way to bypass her creator's wishes and orders, like when Ana has "been known to escape". And THAT doesn't sound like a normal Tulpa. I could try and help with my particular knowledge, but that knowledge is very wide-spread and this is a sensitive case. I don't want assume I'd be doing something right when, in truth, I'd be doing something entirely wrong! As such, I'm not going to run my mouth confidently. I understand that this is a friend of yours and not you yourself, so how much you know may be lacking.. But if you could tell us more about her circumstances, or even convince your friend to tell us more about it herself, I'm sure either I or anyone else in this community would be willing to share what we know.
  2. I'm not sure how I can help you "see with your own eyes", but hopefully I can clear the air a bit... I've found that a third-person perspective is extremely common - especially in this day and age. Think of all the movies/tv shows you watch. Think of all the third-person video games you might play or all the simulators you see. The event of mentally seeing things in third-person soon becomes a common phenomenon. Here's another way of looking at it: I'm a writer (in progress, anyway). I have a hard time visualizing my story in the form of words and paragraghs. Because I watch WAY more tv and play WAY more video games than I do read, everytime I think of a particular scene I want to write I imagine it as a scene in a movie when it should be the scene in a narrative book! This IS just a theory, but it may be that you're so used to seeing things in a third-person perspective that it just comes "naturally". Remember: your Wonderland is your own world. You can do anything you want with it! Want to make it a zero gravity zone? Go ahead! Now, if you want it to be as real as possible (therefor realistic) than, yea, you probably want to work on first person viewing. If that's not really what you're looking for, then why bother? Wonderland is YOUR world - realistic or not. You can do WHATEVA' you want with it! Hope I wasn't just blabbering uselessly and said something helpful. ;) Prost!
  3. hehe, probably the first real "tastes" Gaelles told me about were what he thought about certain animals. He likes cats and birds exceptionally, but hates monkeys or dogs (He thinks they're annoying). We both love heat and sunlight... And we both hate the rain (in fact, he probably hates it more than I do lol! I'm afraid of deep water, but Gaelles likes to watch the fish swim by like a cat watches a laser pointer. He's a real character. X)
  4. ROFL!!! NO NO NO, dude! You're in the clear on that one. *laughs some more* This actually a good thing, believe it or not. There are different kinds of "mental entities" (I'm just calling them that to stay on everyone's good side). Something such as a servitor is like a Tulpa but doesn't have sentience or opinion - the most it has it general intelligence. Tulpas, on the other hand, are MEANT to be sentient. So the fact that yours is doing things on their own it completely natural and you have nothing to worry about (unless you didn't want them to be sentient, which opens a whole other can o' worms). This is good! A wonderland is supposed to be a place for your Tulpa to be able to do things instead of sitting around doing nothing. This will allow your Tulpa to become more fluent, gain more experience in certain things and "fertalize" them for further growth. Cheers! :D
  5. Hahaha, your English is fine! The thing you've got to remember about Tulpas is that they're all different. Each Tulpa we make is unique in it's own little way (even if we try our hardest to make them identical) Yours may not be responding for several reasons... It may be that he/she/they are rather shy. They may be solitary, or simply prefer observing rather than interacting. Also consider too that Tulpamancers have had to wait various spans of time before our Tulpas interact with us. Some of have had to wait months, while others (like myself) could have a conversation between ours in less than a week! I know that you're trying to be patient. You're a good sport for that! Your Tulpa may not be talking to you right now, but that doesn't mean they aren't sentient. As I said: any number of reasons could explain why they're not talking. If you aren't trying already, make sure you are speaking DIRECTLY to your Tulpa sometimes too. Try to "ease" them out of their shell, so to speak. Stay strong, my friend. Your Tulpa could have any emotional reason they're not speaking to you. But consider any signs it's giving too! Most Tulpamancers that recieve vague "messages" from their Tulpa do so in the form of headaches or pressure building somewhere in their head. But that doesn't mean that this way of Tulpas communicating is the universal way. Keep an eye out for any signs that Karma might be trying to send your way. I bet the first Tulpamancer who felt pressure in the back of their skull didn't think twice about it, they probably thought it was just an everyday headache! Yours COULD be a similar case. Emphasis on the "could"... don't just assume anything to be a sign from your Tulpa, but consider the possibility as well. You never know what you'll find. Best of luck! And REMEMBER: keep looking! You'll find the sign somewhere. Oh! Love the name by the way. ;)
  6. I'll honestly say that YEA it does bother me. Sadly, I always feel like I'm letting Gaelles down by not spending time with him and I'm always worried about what he's doing in the meantime... There are phases in which we spend lots of time together and others that we spend no time. But by no means could I completely live without him! The few times I've thought of the idea I run a scenario in my head detailing what would happen afterwards. Every time it's the same reaction. Even if I do manage to leave him or send him away or generally distance myself from him, a raging feeling of guilt and loneliness fills me until I give in and go back. I don't think it's really all that possible to live without something/someone so close to you. People don't take the time or put in the work it takes to be with a Tulpa of their own just to continue without them. We, as Tulpamancers, don't: 1. bypass our skepticism and doubts to adopt beliefs alien to us; 2. take the time in research, preparation, and forcing for our Tulpa; 3. make long-term, incomparable relationships with our Tulpa- just to live without them. I will say one thing though (and I believe others on this forum will agree): We will do anything, we will say anything, and we will fight anyone or anything if it means making sure we are never apart from our precious companions. Because by the end, our Tulpas are a part of us, like the moon is a part of the earth. Once you bond with them, it will nearly impossible to let them go, because without our Tulpas we become lost. If Gaelles was alive, I would fight with every cell in my body to keep him that way. If he died, I would put aside everything - EVERYTHING - to first honor his memory (through chronic/suicidal depression) and THEN strive to find a way to bring him back until the day I die! Because there's no way I could live without him! And I'd vouch that everyone else in this forum feels the same way.
  7. Hmm... This one's a bit tough. My Tulpa, Gaelles, is probably a "large" most of the time, but for the sake of realism we have a small, fist-sized form that he transforms into when in cramped spaces (miniscule). Alternatively, we also have a sort of "sparring" mode where he's about the height of Walmart (colossal). I am a little curious what Tulpas out there have various forms they use, now that I think about it. Please share guys! Tulpas are COOL! XD
  8. The first time I felt Gaelles' presence was the night I created him. I created him with my partner Eris, so more energy was poured into his birth... Even still, I was surprised to find him even partially sentient minutes after his birth! But anyway.. When he was first born, he was just this little ball of energy (in form). We based his form on a phoenix, so when I held the ball to my chest he was so warm and bright. His "torchlight" was soft and beautiful to the touch. He grew out of is "energy ball" form in just a few days. Nowadays he is this towering gold-feathered bird who's feathers feel similar to that little ball half a year ago... When I made Gaelles I wanted him to have a sort of freedom unique only to him. He's able to fly about on his own, so whenever I see him he's usually staring down at me from some nearby rooftop. He's not just stuck in my head, but all kinds of places around me. So whenever I feel his presence, it's not a hard head-aching pressure - it's almost a light-headed, feathery feeling. Like my feet are suddenly off the ground. But still a toasty at the same time ;)
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