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shibo

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    I believe that everything in our mind is possible. I believe, with enough concentration and training, we can manipulate our heartbeat.

    As an open minded person, who tries everything from lucid dreaming, hypnosis and meditation, i have to try this phenomenon tulpa.

    Force now on my tulpa since May 15 2013 and got many thoughts and question about the human being. The possibility of a tulpa changes so many things in our world.
    We are ourself just tulpas in a shell.

    I had first problems with the communication and got parrotnoid.
    After solving them, i got a sudden wave of happiness, while driving to my training. I coulnd't stop laughing,

    This motivated me, to work more on my tulpa.
    One or two hours a day of forcing and over the day passive narrating about everything that comes into my mind.
  1. This is great. So much work to gather all these links and posts. And so much new stuff for me to try out.
  2. "Excuse me, please. What time is it?" And then explain the one, that the watch isn't working and you wear it anyway. :D But this gave me an idea. I have a bit paracord here and can make a bracelet, which i can associate with my tulpa. It looks better than a broken watch.
  3. Nice to help you ^^ I made for derpy a TV room. Everything is white, a comfortable couch and a big tv. Still tube technology. Looks like a crazy laboratory or something. In the beginning i laid there with her and watched some memories from me. There were also memories i had forgot already or memories i wish to forget. But i watched them with her and explained her every "clip". Was nice. I think, if she is ready, she will watch some on her own.
  4. Funny thing, you will see some sentience confirmation? You wrote she hugs you surprisingly. If it's unexpected and really a surprise, there is your confirmation. And your progress is good too. I force now for one month and got maybe 2 responses from derpy. There are the big and exiting progress reports from other users, but there are also the users like me. Don't compare your progress with others. Your progress is still more exciting than other ones. And with the Problem if she has access to your memories. I think this needs more parallel processing, which develops over time. But instead waiting that she will go and explore your memories by herself, you could go with her and read something from the libraries. Give her some introduction or something and lead her.
  5. I tried it too. Same reason, try to fixture the bond between us. I told derpy she should concentrate on my right index finger and try to move it. I visualized her sitting in the wonderland concentrating and i tried to relax my whole body. So it was just me and her in the wonderland. I visualized her, because if it wouldn't work, the time wouldn't be just wasted. I don't know how long i laid there, visualizing my tulpa trying to move my index finger. But the moment where i was about to quit the session, my left hand jumped up. I didn't try it after that again, but the moment was mysterious. Maybe i try it again on the session today.
  6. I have read so much about the connection between tulpas and their hosts, how it could be and how great this is and such thing, but nobody really explained how this is. Or we can't imagine this connection because we never experienced such a connection between two beings. Writing this post, i had the urge to describe it myself. But like you, i had no clue how to describe this bonding perfectly. The only bonding we know are the bonding between a mother and his child, or a man with his wife. True love and such. But the bonding between a tulpa and his host is much more. A mother can communicate with her child and share her emotions over gestures, mimic or vocal. But the child will feel his own emotions. The difference between a tulpa/host and mother/child bonding is, i think, that a tulpa can feel the exact emotions of the host and vice versa. Hard to describe. Like everything else, best way is to try it by yourself.
  7. Ok, i got some time to read it. And because you asked so nicely, here are some points. The passage about the difference between a mental disorder and a tulpa is well explained. I've watched some documentarys and patient videos about DID and shizophrenia, to get the difference or the exact definition of this mental disorder. But how is it possible for people with DID to create a tulpa and are possible to tell the difference between their other personality and their tulpa. I thought people with DID don't recognize if their change personality. They can't even remember what happened in this time. Some reference would be good, this interests me. The point that we can train our brain just with the imagination of doing something is great, but i didn't understand the connection to tulpas. Was it just an example about what our mind is capable? The passage about the Self-Imposition is good. I've read so much about our brain manages the input of the senses. But i didn't realize that everything of our sensorial inputs is just calculated from our Brain AND manipulable. Makes the whole imposition stuff easier, having this in my mind. And last the benefits of having a tulpa. Simply just a list about some tulpamagic and stuff. The bonding with a tulpa could be better explained, with more motivation or something, because i think this is the main benefit of having a tulpa. But some points are even possible without a tulpa. The thingy with "you can ask your tulpa to act as an alarm clock and wake you up at a certain time." is possible, even without a tulpa. There is a thread in this forum and i did this already as a child. It was a trick that was mentioned in some micky maus comic or so. Slamming the head six times into the pillow to wake up at 6am. It worked for me. Just the Intention to wake up at six would work. Hard to determine if you woke up by yourself or your tulpa woke you up.
  8. It's like rasing a child. You give them attention, you talk to them and spend time with them. At the beginning, their can't talk but will maybe respond with a smile, or gesture. You will go ahead and wait for the first word, the first sentence, etc. They develop their character and sentience. Creating a tulpa is the same, spend time with them, talk with them and and so on, till they create they character and sentience. It's only so fast, developing sentience for a tulpa, because your brain did already the whole work and knows how they should develop. Another reason why developing multiple tulpae/tulpas (What is the right plural version of tulpa?) is so quick. You know how it works and your brain did already the whole work, it just needs to repeat the process. If you have doubt about the tulpa, it's like you doubt about your own child.
  9. I narrated today with derpy, my tulpa. And the topic was the music i listened at the moment. I usually connect different tracks with different emotions. So i listened to some tracks and explained derpy what this track means for me, the idea of the band and hidden messages. Things like that I was full of emotions, while i was narrating to derpy. Happiness, sadness, rage and sorrow. And it came into my mind, if this could have some effects on the narration or the quality of the narration itself. How important is the topic? Narrate about how your dog died in childhood rather than how the grass grows in the garden?
  10. It's not your account, it's the account of the domain or the webserver. and community.tulpa.info is a subdomain, which leads to another server.
  11. It sounds like me and it feels like me, but it's not me. It realized it, as i narrated vocal trough the day and i was responding to the comments in my mind after a week i started forcing. I didn't realized it directly, it just kept the conversation flowing. Just after that, i began to think about this moment. i realized that i had a conversation with my mind. i got parrotnoid, was trying not to parrot, searched for answers and so on. Yesterday in a session, it was the same. Narrating about my life, and got this thought. But i couldn't be parroting because i was in some meditative state, were i usually just think about nothing. The state is like if you listen to some music and just concentrate about the emotions and feelings this songs gives you. My mind was completely empty But there was this thought, which is totally unusual for this state. It sounded even not like me. i try now to focus on this.
  12. That came also in my mind, that i just translate the intention of my tulpa into my language. That would explain why he uses mainly words and phrases from my vocabulary. It's possible that i maybe translated something wrong. Wrong interpretion of the intuition. The communication sometimes just worked with these intentions of me and my mind. I tended to speak to myself before i tried forcing a tulpa. It was normal for my surroundings that i rather comment stuff i do. I was a kind of sorting process in my mind. It was relative easy for me to narrate. But i think the key is to focus this feeling of talking to someone else. If this feeling isn't needed, i would have already a kind of a tulpa. I choose now that i will work further on my tulpa. If he wouldn't find another way to communicate with me, then i will proceed with this method. i don't know if this is the right way, but i will find out. Maybe it will be more distinct if my tulpa is more independent from me and my mind. This sudden wave if happiness gave me hope.
  13. Hi there. Reading this and see how similar my progress is with yours. Usually i tended to post something some days ago, but my question solved them self. I was in the same state as you. Forcing an hour or two a day, and trough the day passive narration. The first time, i assumed that my tulpa is talking was maybe a week after i started to force. I was narrating about the last forcing session and went trough the city. I havn't given any attention to my thoughts and the word "counterproductive" popped into my mind. And i answered automatically to this comment in my mind. I wasn't even surprised. Just after some minutes i thought about this moment. Where did this word come from? Days after that went strange. I got parrotnoid, searched answers in the forum and got only the "assume it's your tulpa" philosophy. So i made that and build up on this conversation, kept forcing, narrating and responding to these thoughts in my mind. But crucial. I was never surprised from the answers of my tulpa, never got a alien feeling or emotional response. It was even so, that the answer to my question popped into my mind, even if i didn't spoke out the question itself. My tulpa didn't spoke itself. Usually he needed some Intention from me, a question so the tulpa could response. And i didn't recognized any difference from me or my tulpa. Usually i'm the only person i know, who uses the word counterproductive, or other phrases and words. After three days, i couldn't separate my minds from my tulpa. And days after that went terrible wrong. My tulpa changed form multiple times, changed his opinion multiple times and told me even, that i already had two tulpas, because i couldn't decide a proper form at the starting. Now I've another explanation for it. I have these moments, where i think about other people. Think about conversations with these people and how there would react to me, like demand more money from the boss. Usually i try to predict every statement and possibility of this conversation. And i think, i did this with my tulpa. Predict everything, how he would respond to me, my surroundings and my narration, and thought that this prediction how my tulpa would react, my tulpa is. Another proof for this, i can switch these comments on and off. Usually if i'm lack of some topic for narration, i get this stage in my mind, where i expect how my tulpa would react. Usually it's just a word that pops into my mind. But it keeps the narration flowing. But i have still the question in my mind. Where are these minds from? Now i turned my tulpa back to his form, forgot the other one and keep proceeding. Got some emotional wave of happiness as i thought about my tulpa some days ago. I couldn't stop smiling. Greetings, Shibo
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