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  1. In this guide, I want to share a technique to dramatically improve visualization without having to "practice from nothing". As far as I can tell from forum searches, most of visualization guides rely on some kind of trick/method of practice that you must repeat for hours until you get gradually better at it. I'm sure they can be of great help, but I think there's a faster, more powerful way of achieving 100% perfect visualization, specially for those who don't know where to start or that are afraid/bored of long sessions of imagining numbers and shapes in a canvas. Of course, the things I'll be describing might just only happen in my mind alone, but since all humans are alike, I'm sure a lot of people share this experiences and might find his helpful. That being said, let's start! · Dreams and the "perfect visualization" state What if I told you that you already know how to do absolutely perfect visualization? You do it in dreams all the time! Your brain simply knows how to create a whole life-like scene for all your senses without you consciously having to do any effort. Maybe you don't recall it, since most of your dreams is forgotten, but if you've lucid dreamed sometime and payed attention to your surroundings, the amount of detail your mind can create from nothing is just mind-blowing. How is this of any help, if we can't just "dream while awake"? And how can this help visualizing during the day? · The half-sleep state I found a couple years ago that, while trying to sleep and just before actually falling asleep, if you're still conscious, your mind starts to create really vivid images that flow and change rapidly (later I found this is called hypnagogic imagery). After a while, if you retain consciousness long enough, there's a point when you can actually fully control the visuals, just like if you had a TV screen that displayed your imagination with full detail and color. This is what I like to call the perfect visualization state. And this is NOT a dream, or a lucid dream. You're still awake, and conscious. Still, at some point while fiddling with your imagination you might "step into" the images that you're creating, ending up in a lucid dream (this is called the Wake Induced Lucid Dream technique). It is quite hard to reach this point, you usually lose focus before this happens or you get too excited and fully wake up and lose the perfect visualization. Perfect visualization happens more often when you just wake up from a dream, specially really vivid ones where you wake up abruptly. If after just waking up you don't move and try to remain in the same mind state without thinking of what you have to do in the day and such, you might also be in a perfect visualization state. Try this! Next time you wake up from a vivid dream, stay with your eyes closed, remain calm and don't move a bit. Now try to imagine something. You might be surprised of how powerful and different your visualization is from before. · Differences and testing your power There's a huge difference between regular and perfect visualization, and I'll try to describe it with an example. If you play some solitaire games regularly, Mahjong in my case, you might have a clear image of what it looks like in your memory. But if I close my eyes and try to imagine a full Mahjong board right now, I get something that looks like this: I can only see one tiny and blurry part of the board, and if I try to move the focus to other piece in the far left, I just forget about the center and can't see it anymore unless I move my focus back to the starting point. The game is of course impossible to play in your head this way. It seems you'd need an incredible memory to be able to memorize every piece as you imagine yourself searching through the board for matching pairs. When in a perfect visualization state just this morning, I tried again to imagine the Mahjong board, and this was the result: To my surprise, I didn't have to memorize the board in any way. The image just stayed there, with every piece in the same place, very clear and static. Playing the game mentally this time proved to be super-easy, given that I could see the whole board at once like when playing on my computer. I was very skeptic about people playing chess in their heads before, but I see now that with a good visualization, you actually don't need to work hard to remember where every piece goes, the image just stays there in your mind's retina, clear and unchanging. · Triggering the perfect visualization state anytime The hard part about this technique is, of course, that you're not "half-sleep" all the time. What we want to achieve is that level of perfection whenever we want, but it's not an easy task. Whenever you enter a perfect visualization state, it's easy to lose focus and get distracted. You need to remain calm, don't move and try to remind in the same state as long as possible. Playing games mentally has proven to be really helpful in my case. Also imagining relaxing scenes, like a beach, or a slow flight over the mountains might extend the state longer. As you extend it, you might start to notice how your mind behaves differently when in this state. Try to see the differences in how and what do you feel between the regular and perfect visualization. What we're trying to do is to allow your mind to identify this special state so you can trigger it in the future. This is very hard to do, but you should see at least some improvement in your regular visualization as you practice this. In my case, I only can trigger the perfect visualization if I relax for 10-15 minutes and not in every attempt, but I'm slowly getting better at it, surprisingly much faster and with less effort than with more traditional methods, and I hope to have it mastered sometime in the future. · Update: Problems reaching the perfect visualization state From the comments I've read it seems that people have trouble initially getting or identifying the state I've described before. Maybe I haven't been very clear about it so here's a some more detailed explanation. You can get to this state whenever you have some time to lie down in your bed for an hour or so. You don't actually need to fall asleep, although it's possible that it happens (depending on how fast you reach the hypnagogic state prior to the perfect visualization, you can set an alarm so you don't waste much time if you fall asleep). First, lie down in a comfortable position and just relax as much as possible. What I do while waiting is to train my visualization in the normal way, trying to imagine anything with the best clarity possible (mostly my tulpa of course) while trying to remain conscious. To achieve the hypnagogic state sooner, avoid moving any part of your body, swallowing sliva or changing position as this could take you back to the starting point. You might notice that at some point it is difficult to control your thoughts and you start to lose focus. Don't worry about this, as it usually precedes the hypnagogic state, just go with it while again trying to remain conscious and try to observe the thoughts from a passive state. In a couple minutes the hypnagogic imagery should start, very vivid and rapid changing images that flow rapidly through your imagination. Let them pass and again, try not to get too excited or involved with them as this may take you to the start. The hypnagogic images should get gradually less changing and at some point you might notice you have control over them. This is the perfect visualization state. And yes, the first time it is a really hard point to reach, because you don't know what to expect, and because this happens AFTER the hypnagogia, a state by itself difficult to reach consciously. But trust me, once you have experienced it a couple times it gets far easier to identify and to get to it (even as soon as a couple minutes into normal relaxation), and also it gets easier to stay in the state longer. The other option is to convince yourself before going to sleep that as soon as you wake up, in the morning or in the middle of the night, don't move a muscle, open your eyes nor change position and try to imagine whatever you can as clearly as possible. If you just woke up from a vivid dream, chances are you have still a remanent perfect visualization state, maybe not at 100% power but still much better than your normal capabilities. I don't know which method could work better for experiencing the perfect visualization state for the first time, I'd suggest to try both sometime and see if you get any results! · Update 2: Octaviapus' Lucid Mode I didn't know there was this guide by Octaviapus when I first wrote this one, and certainly they seem to be pretty similar. But I think that there's some differences between the two states. Octaviapus' Lucid Mode seems to be a more broad state of mind and more easily reachable, and nothing indicates it should always happen after or during hypnagogia. After reading the comments the author also suggests this just may be a light lucid dream induced directly from the waking state (WILD or Waking Induced Lucid Dream). It's a bit vague on this matter so I can't really know. Perfect visualization happens when you're awake, close but not inside the dream, and it's a very specific point in the awake-sleep transition. Being an experienced lucid dreamer myself, I know the difference between being close to a lucid dream and actually inside the dream. Perfect visualization for me is even better than a "lucid state", since you have full control over the visuals. While in a lucid dream, scenes tend to be more vivid and rich to the senses, but also pretty unstable and variable and you can't change everything at will. This is why I think perfect visualization could be more useful for our experiments. Anyway, I suggest you try every method that you can so you can find the one that suits you the best. No two people are equal, and even more if we're talking about perception or imagination. Thanks for reading! I hope you find this helpful and I'd love to hear about your personal experiences about this matter! ;)
  2. This guide is one of many I hope to make This one is about visualisation and has some tips and tricks to help you guys out. It is a bit spasific but for some it will help. Though I hope to help many. I've been practicing tulpamancy since 2008 and visualisation since 2007 it's been a good journey and still going. I really want to share with you guys this guide The book won't change but might be updated though. Download:
  3. Daily thread #13 (I could not think of a good title for this) This question is aimed towards tulpas who have either changed or created their own form, not to tulpa creators who chose a tulpa's form for them. What were the inspirations behind the things you did to your own form? Did something drive you to change it? Did you see something you liked and it made you want to add it to your form? Etc. Example: Say your original form was an animal, but you changed it to a fairy (or something), why? Say you changed your hair color from what your creator chose for you to something else, why? And so on. If you created your own form off the bat and your creator didn't make one for you, what were the inspirations behind it? Where'd you get your ideas from? Etc. (All daily threads are listed here.)
  4. [align=justify]JD’s Guide to Visualization Many people come into tulpamancy with different levels of visualization. It’s common for more artistic and imaginative people, as well as those with the tendency to daydream, to be able to visualize very well. However, some people find that they are very bad at visualizing, or even unable to visualize at all. The goal of this guide is to figure out your skill level of visualization, and to show you how to advance from there. If you are experiencing this level of visualization, the most likely problem is that you are expecting to see your tulpa with your eyes, or see her image on the back of your eyelids. However, this is not the case. Visualization takes place in the mind's eye, that is in an area separate from the stream of data from the eyes to the brain. You'll want to focus on adjusting your attention away from your physical eyes, and instead to your mind's eye. You naturally use your mind’s eye all the time, especially for keeping your surrounding environment in mind. For example, observe this setup of cubes. When counting how many cubes there are in this arrangement, you will probably not only count the cubes you can see with your physical eyes, but also the hidden cubes you can see with your mind’s eye (which in this case acts as a sort of mental x-ray vision). There are 19 visible cubes, and 12 hidden cubes. At this level of visualization, you are looking through your mind's eye, but you've yet to achieve any sort of definition or significant color in your attempts to visualize. Getting beyond this stage is mainly sheer practice. One visualization exercise you could try is my very slight modification of Rasznir’s number visualization guide. This exercise involves visualizing a canvas in your mind, and asking your tulpa to draw numbers on each page of the canvas, starting from zero and going up to 100 with each step. Try to maintain visualizing your tulpa writing each number in detail, without losing focus. If you lose focus, start again from zero. I suggest that your tulpa writes these numbers in different colors as well, and that you try to name the color your tulpa used. If correct, move on to the next number. If wrong, start over. The point is for your tulpa to test how accurately you are visualizing color. At this stage, you've got a foothold but your visualizations are still hazy like a dream you don't really remember well. To get beyond this stage of visualization, you'll want to focus on several different things. For one, you need to start practicing including smaller details in your visualization. Start by scanning your tulpa from head to toe, sequentially zooming closer on smaller areas as if your tulpa was being viewed in Google Maps. Additionally, you'll want to increase your ability to know the exact pose and form of your tulpa. Fuzziness can indicate uncertainty in your visualization, and turning the mind's uncertainties into concrete notions will help decrease the fuzziness as time goes on. To practice this ability, try playing a shape-based puzzle game such as Tetris for an hour or more every day. Eventually your mind will become good at knowing the exact shape of the puzzlefield, which in turn can be applied to your tulpa, reducing fuzziness. At this stage you are competent enough to impose if you’d like, but to really make your tulpa realistic you will need to learn to refine your visualization abilities. One exercise you can try for getting beyond this stage is by going on Google Maps. Start at any location in satellite view, but zoomed out to a point where you can’t actually discern any individual buildings. Spend some time remembering the details of this overhead view. Once you can visualize it in your head well, zoom in a little bit and start to observe the smaller parts that you could not see before. Scan over the area and visualize these as well. Once you can do that, zoom in another iteration and repeat. Go as far as you like remembering details. The goal is to see if you can mentally reconstruct the map in your mind and zoom in and out at will. This exercise can seem a little daunting, so start with small areas and try only zooming in once or twice. After getting good at this, your mind should be capable of visualizing small details in the bigger picture. Additionally you must spend time going over your tulpa’s form and becoming familiar with the smaller details, just as you have done with the maps. This is a problem that isn’t as common, where you can see the details of your tulpa, but trying to look at the full form is difficult, often appearing as a collage of details rather than a unified body. The simplest way to work around this problem is to visualize your tulpa from various distances. Visualize your tulpa very far away from you, to the point where she looks like a whole body rather than fragmented details. Ask her to walk towards you until you begin to struggle to see her wholly again. At that point, you’ll have found your threshold for full-body visualization. To stretch this threshold, you’ll simply have to spend some time visualizing your tulpa up-and-down at that distance until the collage effect starts to decrease. Sheer practice is the easiest way I’ve found of mitigating this problem. You’re nearly a visualization pro, the last step is tearing down the mind barrier that gives your visualizations an uncanny dark or transparent quality. Growing past this stage will have you fully prepared for imposition. While simple visualization practice over time will resolve this problem, it can also be solved through meditation and some general realizations about how you see things. Your physical eyes send visual data to your brain, and your brain makes an image out of it. In essence, you see everything with your brain, not necessarily your eyes. Your visualizations are similar, in that they are interpreted by your brain. You must convince yourself that there is literally no difference between what you can see with your eyes, and what you can visualize, as the end result is entirely constructed in your brain. Your mental image of the world is entirely subject to your conscious will. Every physical object you can see is constructed in your mind only because your eyes react to photons emitted by those objects, and your brain decides to translate that to colors and forms. Every mental object is the same way, but the process is not subject to the laws of the universe. Your brain can translate your imagination into colors and forms in the exact same way. If you can meditate on this train of thought for a while, perhaps you too will believe how subjective reality is. And once you’ve done that, your visualizations will reach the vivid level of quality we’ve been aiming for. Congratulations. You can visualize awesomely, and you are fully prepared to try imposition. If you’ve not already done it, try visualizing with your eyes open and compare the quality to your visualizations with your eyes closed. The exercises for open eye visualization are exactly the same as closed eye visualization. If you are able to achieve certain qualities of visualization, but often find that these qualities only exist for brief moments or flashes and regressing to lower qualities, you will want to try practicing visualization from the lowest quality that you tend to hit.[/align] Replaced bad image links with good ones. Original links here - waffles Fixed the broken link to Rasznir's guide - vos
  5. For a few months me and a soulbond have been wanting to make a child. We aren't in a relationship, he just wants me to make him a son 'for us'. We had it planned for a while, got everything ready for this child in headspace. A room, a name, how he should look. We kind of argue on personality. Things I make in headspace, things that are supposed to be alive like plants and smaller living critters tend to vanish or just disappear so I'm wary on making a child if something happens to him or he just goes missing due to whatever causes this to happen. Altho with someone watching him maybe that wouldn't happen. Could anyone give advice on 'making' a child and keeping him from fading out? (Sorry if I don't get any terms right or not try to use any terms at all, I come a background of soulbonding and multiplicity/plurality so I try to keep stuff general.)
  6. Hello everyone, my first post here, so I apologise if im doing something wrong. I came here to ask for help from fellow Tulpamancers who might have experienced something similar. I always had problems with OCD and visual intrussive thoughts. I had a messed up past wich disturbed and perverted my mind, My Tulpa has been helping me alot but for the last few weeks my OCD targetted my Tulpa, she says that it doesnt effect her and that I should trust her, but sometimes the anxiety gets the best of me. I get images of someone raping and harming my Tulpa in our Wonderland wich really scares me. My question is, can my disturbed mind effect my Tulpa and can my mind accidently create bad Tulpas wich might harm my Tulpa?
  7. Take it for what it's worth, this has worked for us many times. I found this site that more or less gives a method. I don't use this method verbatim, all I do is visualize normally as the hypnagogic state starts and a few times it has induced a wonderful lucid dream-like adventure. Usually this ends with sleep, but in conjunction with napping, I've several times recently went straight from Hypnagogic to lucid dream. Though the lucid dreams are typically short and unstable (as most are for me), hypnagogic is more stable. We've spoken about this here quite a bit, this is just another example of it's use and the fact that others do use this as we do.
  8. Thread #7 Today's thread is about forms! Specifically, having more than one "main/base" form, could be for tulpas or hosts. In our system, mostly everyone has one main form that they use to represent themselves. Any other form they might use would tend to be just for fun and not really any sort of symbolic representation of their identity like their main form is. They have to consciously think about other forms to use them, while their base form is quite natural and takes no effort. I, on the other hand, have two base forms that I swap between without any effort or even really thinking about it, based on whatever situation I'm in. If I'm fronting or in a more serious context, or I want to do something like appear more equal to my headmates, I'll probably use my human form. If I'm just hanging out with someone else fronting, I'll use my dragon form. Both forms are equal representations of my identity, so I'd use pictures of either of them to show "me," while my systemmates would only use the one base form. The reason I think I have two is because when I first became sentient, I created a baby dragon form, and my intent was to stick with that one. However, my systemmates encouraged me to create a human form as well so that I could feel equal to them, so I did. Instead of discarding the old form, I just ended up swapping between the two, and it's been that way ever since. It might have been easier for me to develop a second base form because I was so young, but that's not to say older tulpas can't develop a second base form, it's just a theory for myself. I guess the way you develop two base forms is to move between the two often enough for it to become natural, just another part of your life. Do you or any of your headmates have more than one base form that can just be naturally swapped between without much thought? What situations do you use each form? What do you think goes into the development of two or more base forms, rather than one? Do any of your headmates have no base form? Why/how? (All daily threads are listed here.)
  9. I was reading Twice Sparked's PR and had an inspiration of thought, so I just catagorized these per my experience with myself and others, so as to form a matrix of comparison and road map for anyone who cares. This is my interpretation. In addition to the percentage of immersion (0 to 100%) I have conglomerated a rough set of tiers after talking to many other systems on this topic. Where do you fall? Visualization Tiers Tier one is nothing but maybe a blob or solid color. Tier two is something like being able to visualize simple things that aren't very believable and are lost quickly. Tier three is say visualization of a room, with movement, might be unstable. Tier four would be, 40% immersive, visualization isn't a problem, detailing certain things are just beyond you for the moment. (Where I was April 2018) Tier five would be fully realistic memories of events with immersion over 50%, now we're able to really get some amazing experiences. (Where I was October 2018) Tier six, spikes of damn near reality, baseline visualization of 70% or better as compared to reality, multiple points of view simultaneously full detail on anything you concentrate on, open eye, closed eye, no appreciable difference. (Where I am now). Tier seven, I speculate, would be close to, if not full reality equivalent, 100% immersion, dream-like visualization at a baseline. (Where a couple other systems I've talked to say they are.) What happens above this and temporarily above baseline is purely amazing. Hypnagogic or meditation enhanced wonderlanding is clearly and completely superreal at times; in every sense better than a lucid dream. I've had quite a few tastes of this. How do we get there? Practice every day, struggle to visualize what you can't, practically strain yourself, become obsessed, and above all, have fun doing it. I don't turn off wonderland anymore. It's there now, I can see my tulpas sitting on a couch, smiling at me. It's what they do most of the day, watch me and gab, in their pajamas (except Ashley). So the spikes of superreal happen spontaneously when I'm physically sleepy, and if I do relaxation meditation. (For me, they used to be hallucinations, now they're mostly enhancements to normal visualization, and I definitely appreciate that, though audio still sounds like a hallucination, it's better, and it's coming from them in wonderland, not a random spot or all in one ear like it used to be.) Relaxation does boost performance, and allow for longer duration spikes, on par with lucid dream length on average. My goal is to be above tier seven, and enjoy my interaction with them on a whim at 1.2x reality. When we're there, we'll see just how much better the horizon looks and keep marching on. I never would have thought my visualization could be as good as it is now, but now I'm dreaming of the impossible. Where do you fit in? If you don't care, that's fine, we know some people don't feel it's important or necessary at all, but my system among others can agree that visualization is definitely a quality of life improvement and ironically makes the systemmates feel more tangible and real.
  10. Please note that the following tip was written with the intention of being used by the person in a system who is currently switched in, and as a result would probably not be very helpful if you are not switched in. A surprising number of people when visualizing have difficulty getting into a first-person perspective, instead they are stuck in a third-person perspective, controlling their form from a distance. For those of you who are stuck in third person and would like to go into first person, I have a solution. Instead of trying to go into the form that you have already imagined, temporarily get rid of that form and move around your visualized field of view at the elevation that your form would normally stand. After you get comfortable with that, imagine having feet beneath you and make your vision bob up and down slightly as you walk. As you get used to that, try adding more body parts until your form is fully constructed around your perspective. It is best to take this process slow so that you are less likely to meet intrusive thoughts blocking you from your goal and so that you are able to get more acclimated to visualizing like this. If this process doesn't work on your first try then try again, this time doing it a bit more slowly and maybe meditating beforehand. Submitted for tips & tricks
  11. Guided meditations often have someone lead you through a walk in the forest or along the beach or some such, effectively describing an environment for you to visualize with words. They might even add natural sounds to help. But for a lot of people, that sort of thing feels too weird, or otherwise uncomfortable. In the context of practicing visualization, there's really no reason someone has to specifically guide you through it - intentionally, at least. Guided visualization can be as simple as closing your eyes while watching a Youtube video. Any type of video you're comfortable with really, but in our case, we do best with video game let's plays. As an example, we are intimately familiar with Super Mario 64, and are a big fan of the Game Grumps, and . Crude language warning, if you decide to watch them. Earlier I spent 40 minutes 'watching' the first three episodes, except I had my eyes closed. Just based on the game's sounds, and sometimes the grumps' reactions, I visualized what I thought was going on in my mind the entire time. Sometimes I opened my eyes for a moment just to check what was actually going on, and understandably was off by a bit. But there's nothing wrong with that, all that matters is that you're practicing visualization! You can almost forget you're even doing it for practice and treat it like a game, for fun. You may want to find a less chatty let's player if you have trouble filtering out their conversations though. Or you know, don't even watch a let's player. I would say the possibilities for this are pretty much endless. For video games, it may help to actually be familiar with the game you're trying to imagine (though I suppose you could also try it blind). But for anything dealing more with "real life", all you need is your imagination. You probably won't be visualizing what's actually going on very accurately, but again, that's not the goal. If you want to be more accurate, open your eyes/check the video every so often. It's not cheating, and if you have particularly poor visualization it might help give you something to work with. In the case of video games it'll probably end up being a necessity to stay in the same place as the video, but that's fine. Other examples of videos that may "guide your visualization" include sports (play-by-play announcers help a ton), TV shows or cartoons/anime (again being familiar with them can help, or you can go in blind), perhaps how-to style videos where someone details what they're doing every step of the way, and really anything else where either the talking or the environmental sounds provide enough information to form a continuous mental image. It probably goes without saying that audiobooks (or just generally books being read aloud) are the epitome of guided visualizations that aren't directly telling you to imagine something. I'm not sponsored by Audible though, so I definitely won't tell you to check out that site. But most big Youtubers will, and come with some kind of discount too. Lastly, I want to note that you don't have to be sitting in front of a screen to listen to a video, nor do your eyes have to be closed. You can download an MP3 of a Youtube video (or just play it) and put it on your ipod/phone and take it with you, perhaps on a walk. You can also practice open-eye visualization by simply not looking at the source of whatever you're listening to, perhaps on a walk. Seems like that would take quite a lot of focus however, so sitting down in front of a screen might be better if you can't get sufficient visuals in whatever activity you do with it. In the end, all that matters is there's a picture in your mind. Accuracy and content are only as important as you want them to be. Good luck! Aside from wonderlanding, this is the only visualization practice we've ever done. Ours is too poor for more standalone methods, and that's why I thought of this one.
  12. I seem to have bad visualization problems and i cant do it excessively. I used to have very good visualization when i was making my mlp tulpa but it fell back around 2016 or so. However my mindvoice is good and i can narrate really well. Ive been describing my tulpa daily rather than actually visualizating/imposing as much. Is it acceptable if i can just describe my tulpa more than imposing? I do visualize/impose a tad bit but not so much.
  13. I am really, really bad at visualization. I can conjure up a millisecond of my tulpas 3d form but it seems i cant hold it for any longer. I seem to do better by visualizing existing images of how my tulpa is meant to look like or by my little drawings of him. Is this a valid way to give my tulpa a form? Through my drawings and images of his form in 2d?
  14. I've just started making my Tulpa Iris and. I'm having trouble keeping my visualization of Iris . I can visualize her decently but Whenever I try to picture her besides being next to me in the real world my perspective will either change and rotate and I'll leave where I am in the wonderland or my mental image of Iris will will warp and rotate at random. Also sometimes random images will just flood my mind. Like I can picture iris in the wonderland with me just as an observer like as if I was watching them on a TV. And I have even more success picturing myself in my wonderland even from first person. But when I try to put us both in it gets incredibly hard to make us both stable. Without my visualization warping or "glitching out". I don't have much of a problem picturing them next to or behind me when I passive force though. Are there any exercises I can do to keep my visualizations more stable. Most of the ones I see are for increasing detail and I've got an acceptable level of detail for now.
  15. I've known my headmate for about a year at this point, she's fully vocal and self sufficient and the whole journey has been pretty smooth. However I've had something quite annoying begin happening over the past few months. Rather often when visualizing her or occasionally visualizing anything, or sometimes even just feeling textures if things in the distance it's as if my ethereal/mind self sneezes a shit ton of snot all over the place. Typically with Intrusive objects or actions you simply ignore them and move on as if nothing g happened, we tried this however in my irrationallity somewhere along the line I got parranoid that I would associate various repeating visual intrusions with visualizing Zeryx, all the others have subsided except this one which remains persistent. It doesn't happen every time I intend to visualize or project myself however it happens at least daily and frequently enough to be far more than a petty annoyance, at this point. I'm not really sure if there is much I can do at this point besides ignore it and hope it vanished eventually, but a simple forethought/parranoid desire that it doesn't happen, results in snot being sprayed all over my sister. If anyone has any advice to combat this issue please lemme know as I would seriously appreciate it. This could also double as a general discussion surrounding intrusives, their apparent origin, and how to remove them, or any funny stories about random shit happening in the mind space.
  16. I've been wanting to create a tulpa for some time, but for the life of me I have a hard time maintaining focus due to my ADHD, and general stress of life. That being said, I have given it much thought and I do want to create a Tulpa. The problem I am facing is that I can't get myself to focus on one for more than a few minutes before I eventually get distracted or it simply becomes increasingly difficult to focus on visualisation. Would anyone have any suggestions on ways to Improve visualisation and focus without medication? (Id be willing to try medication in the future for my needs, but for the time being I simply can't afford it.)
  17. Whenever i try to visulise it always flickers like a dying strobe light before blinking out compleatly. I have vivid visulisation but i cant maintain it becuase of this problem. How do i fix this (For the love of god dont say "try harder" or i will block you forever)
  18. Tw: Suicidal thoughts, Mentions of suicide Hi, I'm McKenna. I've had trouble finding information about what I have experienced in the past because no matter what I've looked up my experience hasn't fit any specific labels so I thought I might discuss it here. I've read the faq on here so I understand that what I experienced may be considered a 'badly created' Tulpa. However, I'm not sure if what I created was a Tulpa at all so I thought this forum's experienced users might be able to help me figure that out. I understand creating a Tulpa is an entirely subjective experience and not the same for anyone but I figured you all might be able to help me going off basic trends in my story. So I'll start from the beginning, it's going to be long so I apologize in advance, I was around 10 or 11 when I first began hearing my 'Tulpa's' voice he hadn't taken a form yet within my mind so he was just a vague voice in the back of my head. It was during that time that I entered middle school and began being bullied by the other students. It was a very stressful time and without a good support network to turn to I began to withdraw within myself. Which is when I first began to hear my Tulpa, at first I regarded him as 'a god' because I had no idea what sort of 'thing' he was. A formless voice telling me that I was 'special' and that my suffering at the hands of others had a purpose and that I was better than my bullies. At first it was comforting and when I felt alone I could turn to this voice for reassurance. However as I became more isolated from others and began to delve into mysticism to answer questions about my purpose in life that voice became 'a person.' He began to take a form within my mind and when we spoke I could visualize him speaking to me instead of just hearing his voice. And while I understand now that it was of my minds creation I was too sheltered and too naive to assume he was anything but divine. I hadn't been raised religiously and had no experience with that so I assumed that what spoke to me couldn't have been of my minds creation but instead of a divine or otherworldly origin. He even had a backstory to support my ever involved search for a divine purpose. He claimed that he was an angel that had come to tell me of my 'past life'. At this point he was still reassuring and comforting but as the bullying increased and my mental stability declined so too did his attitude towards me. The nature of our talks went from 'your past life was tragic but you were loved and now are here because your loved ones cared about you so much in your past life' to 'the only way you can achieve your life purpose is to die'. It sounds bizarre going from 0 to 10 like that so quickly but this progression was over a three year period from sixth to eighth grade and was a gradual change. By that point in eighth grade he proclaimed himself no longer an angel but of a demonic origin and began to call himself 'The Prince of Darkness'. From that year on he made demands upon me to end my life and to tell no one of what we had been talking about. By year nine however I found friends and his presence in my life lessened. He would come back sometimes in my weak moments to make demands of suicide once more but beyond that he became relatively distant in his interactions with me coming back to taunt or remind me of suicide sometimes when I was especially vulnerable. By November of 2016 his presence faded completely and I haven't heard from him since. So I would like your opinions on the subject. I should state that I never got past the stage of visualizing him in my minds eye however my capacity for visualization is very strong as I suffer from maladaptive daydreaming and visualizing things and losing myself in those visualizations is the greater part of that disorder. If you got this far thank you for reading I know it's a lot to ask of you all to share your thoughts so I would appreciate any feedback on this matter and whether or not he was indeed a Tulpa. It should be noted however that I'm not sure whether or not I could call him sentient he certainly had his own opinions on my life and what I should do with it opinions that I don't and have never shared with him and the fact that before telling me that nickname 'Prince of Darkness' I had never heard that turn of phrase before in my life. I certainly don't think he was anything mystical and he can be explained by science but whatever I'm rambling. Thank you again for reading and please share your thoughts. I'll clarify my story if needed.
  19. I was just wondering how many peeps have tulpas of unusual size. I mean, like some may be huge biggie tulpas like an elephant and others teensy tiny like a mouse and stuff. So, how big is yer tulpa? Oh, those with multiple tulpas can vote more than once. Also, if you visualize yer tulpa in the room or impose it in the room, how does the size of yer tulpa matter inside a room? Did I say room too many times? You can comment bout the tulpa in the room thingy it's not on my poll options.
  20. So me and my tulpa, Pixie, decided on an outfit design together, and I drew it yesterday. But since we never decided on a colour scheme, it kinda flashed between two different colours while visualising her wearing it. So we decided I should draw eight different colour schemes, have a poll on which one people like most, and show the top three to Pixie and see which one from the short-list she likes.[/img] You can also suggest your own colour scheme below if you have any better ideas. We decided to do this because we thought it would be a fun way to pick some colours for Pixie’s outfit.
  21. If you're like me, you're the sort of person who reads this sort of thing and thinks "Well, I could do that if I wanted to, but I don't want to." Please actually do this. It only takes a few minutes, and I bet you'll be impressed. This is a simple test that I suspect will show you that your "bad visualization" is better than you think. The first spoiler tag hides a list of words. Give yourself 30 seconds to memorize them, then cover the words again, open up a text document, and write out as many as you can remember in order. When you've done that, open a new text document and write out as many as you can remember--in reverse order. Didn't remember many words, did you? I think I had about five of them, two were out of order, and somehow another word that didn't even belong made its way onto my list. It's fine if you're in the same boat. So now, read the text under the following spoiler tag. It's the same word list, but this time each word has been paired with the next word on the list, and a little scene has been written to help you imagine the two words together. Do your best to imagine what you're reading in as vivid detail as you can. When you're done reading, open a new text document and try to list all of the words in order. Then close it, open a new document, and try to list the words in reverse order. Warning: some of these will be a little disgusting. That's deliberate, and it helps you to visualize them. Did you do better? I don't consider myself very good at visualization, but my recall went up from a handful of words to every single word. I actually forgot how many words there were, but I knew when I had written out the entire list. I wrote them just as easily in reverse order. The only mistake that I made was turning into , which is a pretty small error, all things considered. If you're interested, this comes from the book Tricks of the Mind, by Derren Brown.
  22. I've recently started visualization practice to create our wonderland as soon as possible but faced the following problem. The point is when I am starting to visualize smth more than just a single object my imagination goes wild. One view rolls into another while I can hold it only for 1-2 sec. Background is shifting and twisting by itself. The room I am trying to imagine myself in is spining around me. Etc. I won't call my mind's eye blind, I could make myself to see pretty good detailed stuff. And as I presume there shouldn't be a problem with forcing tulpa's look but, I mean, she needs wonderland even more than I do... So, here is the main question: is there some sort of special technique that could help me or I am just driving myself crazy without any reason and it's just about time and patience? p.s I also have strange dreams time to time. It's like I am trying to visualize/create smth while dreaming but in that case I do it without any problems, perfectly detailed and staying focused. p.p.s. Sorry if I messed smth with english - describing all of it appeared to be unexpectedly hard for me))
  23. So I searched the forum and couldn't find much that helps me, I have literally no idea where to even begin meditation. I also have a god awful minds eye. I can't create a wonderland, nor visualize my tulpa with ease. When I close my eyes to picture something, all I see is a dim, blurry image with dark colors, and that's only for a Max time of 15-20 seconds. I loosely participated in this community a few years ago, but couldn't get past this. After finding it again and realizing how bad I want to make a tulpa, I figured asking the community could help. Anything will be appreciated, and I will do anything I have to to get over this hurdle
  24. Fairly simple, but I find this rather effective for helping to see things in your mind instead of projecting them onto your eyelids. Find some smallish object like a baseball or book or something and look at it from every angle. Try to remember the shape, color, and feel of the object and create a sort of mental model of it, e.g. "This is a blue plastic cup with butterflies on". Once you feel that you've studied it enough, imagine your thing floating behind your head. If your thing has moving bits, then move them. Practice with more complex things, legos, or even conjure up some silly putty and muck about with it. Since it's supposed to be behind you, your eyes won't be expecting to see anything, thus forcing you to "look" at it in a more abstract sense.