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It seems that my tulpa has already reached a certain level of "development," as I am working from a basis. At this stage, my primary challenge lies in achieving mental clarity and ensuring the sentience of the tulpa. At the risk of possibly parroting, I try to visualize my tulpa in the real world to aid in this process, simultaneously working on imposition and improving visual clarity. However, I hesitate to say I'm truly imposing, as much of the work is still done while meditating at home and visualizing objects in my mind. I don't encounter any significant issues with the complexity you mentioned, such as sights, sounds, tastes, or colors. I can render them with as much detail and complexity as needed. The problem is that they often appear "faint," much like the description in JD's Guide to Visualization where "the form is visible but seems dark or transparent." I'm unsure how to overcome this aside from brute-forcing it through continued practice. There may have been some misunderstanding in my previous response. I don't find it more difficult to visualize larger or more complex objects. This may cause my reply to diverge from the original thread, which is primarily focused on visual imposition. I was merely trying to convey that, when visualizing something like a ball of light or energy, one can experience an "imagined resistance," similar to the sensation of trying to push two magnets together at the same pole, or an "imagined attraction" when the poles are reversed. I believe this could be connected to a sense of presence, or possibly even touch. I had considered posting a thread in the Beginner's Questions section to discuss my challenges with tulpa development and visualization, but I have yet to take that step.

I posted this in LOTPW but I'll post it here too so it doesn't get lost in the shuffle: I created a slideshow of every Genesis album portrayed by Simmie. I asked ChatGPT to design Simmie an outfit for each Genesis album then I fed those descriptions into an AI image generator. It got some albums right better than others lol. I selected whatever 20 second snippet of music I felt best suited the images it gave me for each album. Oh, and just in case anyone missed it, I created one for Pink Floyd where I literally copied the lyrics for Brain Damage/Eclipse (The last song on Dark Side of the Moon) and put them in the image generator along with a description of Simmie and made a slideshow of the best images I got, it's really surreal fun:

Looking forward to hearing more from you dude. Godspeed.

Interesting video! I'm debating whether or not I should comment on it.

System Log 17/09/2024 Hello all. It's Ruina. Not a ton happened in the past week. but Bramble did have a bit of trouble adjusting to the new layout, but that problem seems mostly solved by now. Hopefully, it won't be long before the house stops randomly spawning traps when you move from room to room. And as I expected, Xay is fine. Not sure what was up with him, but he seems back to normal. Thank you for your time.

Huh, nice work.

I thought by title there was going to be a link to the video you mention.... anyway. we found alot of info on how to work together by studies on conjoined twins and how they learn to work the body together and communicate with each other..in some cases telepathically (where they're joined at the head) and able to see what the other is seeing and know what they're thinking... They can also control each others limbs or their own limbs and turn these things on and off. It seems these particular twins share a 'Thalmic bridge' in the brain. It explains it here at 7.22 of this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1Mac4FeKXg We also followed a set of older twins they aren't joined at the head but only have one arm and one leg each so have to share one side of the body each to be able to move (as they are more like one body with 2 heads whereas the other younger twins have fused heads but a full body each) we first learned possession of a limb from these older twins by learning to control one hand each with one half of a joycon in each (on switch) and typing together. We made the fastest progress after discovering the 'Thalmic Bridge' in the brain was the key to being able to feel and experience co-consciousness. But I think it also helped that I (host) have had autism all my life and have alters that the brain already perceives as 'seperate to this-me'. I also experienced a stroke affecting that region in the past. There is still a clear difference between my alters and my Tulpa's.. Alters were just clearly 'different versions of me' that were triggered out at different times like severe mood swings.. My Tulpa's are based on someone else entirely who did exist in my world once who then went on to develop into fully sentient Tulpa's...unlike alters who only come out one at once ... Lena & Tinks can co-host simultaneously with whichever 'version of me' is at the front.

Thank you!!!! We had a really nice time on my birthday! Earlier in the day Phil had some important business to take care of, so it was exciting to watch because it might lead to good things for our future! But later on Phil took me to a cute little town on the Delaware River to walk around and check out some little shops. Then we went out to a bar and grille that has an outdoor concert venue; there was a Stevie Ray Vaugn cover band and a Lynard Skynyrd cover band, and both were absolutely amazing! 😁💚 A very wonderful night, and now we get to go to the shore one more time before the season ends. (The season is "technically" over already but most of September is still viable beach weather in New Jersey) 🏖️🌊👙🛥️☀️🏊‍♀️😁💚

CV and I have developed a good relationship. We've recently discovered a new overlapping interest between the two of us, so we spend a lot of time watching content related to it and talking about it. Most of our communication is natural at this point. He's used to saying what he wants to say, when he wants to, and it's natural for me to respond to him and not be surprised by him randomly talking. We essentially do everything together. When I'm alone, I talk to him quietly out loud. It's become natural to expect him to be there. ------------------------------- Last month, a couple members of my system were more active, which led us to figure out a couple new things about who is hosting now, and who tends to front and when. We don't keep track of who's fronting. The majority of us have little or no noticable amnesia between each other, which is a huge improvement from about half a year ago. Amnesia only becomes an issue with one member who is not active very often (or at least doesn't want his presence known). I'm not sure how many of us there are - probably somewhere between 5 to 15, as I'm pretty sure of at least 5 of us (CV says 3-15 makes more sense to him, but I think I know better hahaha). I get distressed when I think about it too much, so I've kind of just left it alone. Doesn't bother me to not know, which is something I never thought I'd be able to accept. ------------------------------- I felt like checking on this forum again today. Recently, I've been thinking a lot about systems and the community that I have not been a part of for about a year now. My system is no longer something I obsess over, and I've replaced that portion of my life with a time-consuming interest that I obsess over to possibly unhealthy degrees. It has taught me a lot about myself, and is probably better for me than obsessing over my system ever was. Months ago, I was scared of what would happen if I left the system community behind. I had promises to myself related to the community that meant a lot to me, that I had to break in order to close that chapter of my life. My system was a major part of my life for years, and by extension, so was the communities I was in. I spent hours of my day in system spaces talking about system things, spending hours organizing system stuff and talking to my system. Like many things, it was the right decision at the right time, even if I wish things had worked out differently. I have changed a lot since leaving the community, and I think it has been a positive change for myself. This isn't something I talk about very often, but I wanted to get it off my chest. My system still plays an important role in my life, it is just a fact in my life, rather than something I spend time focused on. I don't really talk to most of my system anymore, unless they reach out to me first. One day, I hope to be able to connect with them again without it distressing me, but for now, I'm ok with where we're at. ------------------------------- I don't know how often I'll check this forum anymore. It is the last system space I have left, and one I've let myself have because it's peaceful here, and I can talk about the parts of myself no one else gets to see. So thank you, for letting me exist here over the years.

Is it advisable to do this? No. I say this as someone whose "original host" hasn't existed in close to four years (not by choice - no idea how it happened). Why do you feel the need to kill them off? I went through a phase where I stressed over stuff like this, and all I can tell you is that trying to erase people never works out. You don't need to kill them to take the host position.

It's Friday the 13th!!! A perfect day to post this absolute earworm. I'll post two versions: the first is a great slice of 80s cheese, but the live version is a great rock song. 🎸🤘

[Lena] ... well after my 'inner child' (aka 'Kena') got frustrated with the game and re-integrated with me for a while I took the time to explain some things to her ... let her watch some of daily life to understand our hosts daily difficulty and the role she needed to play for host and encouraged her to re-seperate but carrying a little more of my 'mature side' I suggested she pick a name that is NOT a video game character (from a game host own's anyway) and won't make her feel she can't exist anymore if she can't complete the game! She is still quite young minded as she is of course me at a younger age (than I was orignally created at) ...given 'an internal body' via one of our changelings blending with that fragment of me to give her a seperate form. ..she also has some teen memory fragments from host to help them bond and work together naturally as co-hosts... she has decided to call herself 'Ellie' ...so its kind of connected to me... Lena>Elena.>Ellie... Host has bought (well pre-ordered, its not officially out yet) ... the new Zelda game with the special edition switch lite ...it's 2D, they tend to explain and let you practice new in-game skills without pressure and it's something she can do at night with host while they're watching TV and trying to keep wam in bed through winter. ...with costs of energy and heating rising we're trying to reduce costs.. (a switch lite won't cost as much to recharge to play as the PS5 costs to have on for hours...we also have some small solar power banks as back up)...It's an early xmas present for them to share/bond over as we'll probably be skint by xmas and our only (external) living family member is not a fan of christmas so host doesn't get much...at this point with issues with their new partner we don't even know whether host will be invited for xmas dinner they don't even text to check if host is still alive for months at a time...so we (Tulpa's and her RL dog) are literally all she's got in the world right now! This is partly why I decided to create a younger me as extra company for her. I will stay the age of the body and continue to come out to help with important external appointments (where host needs to behave like a NeuroTypical middle aged woman) and take care of the 'internal family' and wonderland. I'm hoping if we can get this balance right our little family will stay more stable as it looks like we have a difficult winter ahead.

That sounds really interesting! I'm not sure if I had DID or woulld get a diagnosis but I know I am autistic and have always had an ability to dissociate on an intense level ..as a child it was due to severe sound sensitivity and hating the school environment. I had what were kind of like social masks in that they only came out to deal with social situations but they only came out one at once and there was no communication between them....this was the 70's and 80's ...people didnt even know girls could be autistic let alone know DID existed in the small village community I grew up in! My first deliberate Tulpa came after my mum died... I didn't really understand death but my mum had cancer so she knew it was coming so had told me I could still talk to her..if i just went into my bedrooom and drew the curtains (so no-one outside could see and would make fun of me) and she'd be listening...she also believed in reincarnation and of course me being autisitc I took this all very literally! It started with me talking to her photograph and pretending she was watching TV with me in bed at night. of course having known her as a real person for the first 21 years of my life I had a fair idea of what her typical answers to most things would be. ,,then one of my social masks became her ..I had added her name to mine as a 'middle name' in memory of her so when I went away to unviersity I just told people I used my middle name. She hadn't been autistic and had spent my life teaching me how to behave 'more normally' (Neurotypically) in public ..it didn't take long for her to 'become alive' as a seperate 'social mask' and being naturally dissociative in those situations it was easy for me to see her as seperate. Once time quite by coincidence we were watching TV together when a program came on about conjoined twins who shared half the body each (one arm/one leg each..though they had their own seperate heads obviously). by this time I had found an old photo of my mum at 15 and next to a photo of myself at same age we of course (as mother and daughter) looked very similar...... she then started to change in my mind to same age as me so we became more like twins than mother/daughter. She now calls herself Lena and has been my Tulpa for over 30 years. Tinks also didin't exist until after my dog died after being my assistance dog and by my side 15 years I was beyond devasted and not coping well despite having another dog that still needed me. Lena suggested why didn't we create a Tulpa based on her taking our memories of her life and make her a changeling so she could eventually choose her own form as she developed. ..so Tinks has been a Tulpa in our system for 8 years. Strangely having Tulpa as well as helped my social mask alters ...as though they all split and resurfaced again during peri menopause years they have now re-integrated again partly because Lena told them all we were all 'her daughter/her twin and to Tinks 'all version of me' were her owner in her past life as my dog....now there's only me (natal soul/host), Lena & Tinks. ..It's actually been therapeutic for us! sorry that was way longer than I intended...well done if you made it to the end!

Because of this I think maybe the best thing I could do right now is work on figuring how how to draw Rena better and draw her a lot more. Study a lot of references that feel like her and combine the pieces to get a bunch of working Renas to look at and when there is something wrong, figure out what it is, somehow. That last part is not simple though, at least it hasn't been so far, but maybe I'm closer to figuring out how to do that Oh that's good. And I didn't know she has been guarding me up until now, thanks for letting me know May your practice go well

we can share control of the body, we studied how conjoined twins learned to work together. you can't connect a real mobile to a virtual one the other mobile has to exist in the real world! We use nintendo switch as the joycons can be detached and there's some games where you only need to use one side of the joycon so if your Tulpa learns to control one hand and you the other you could technically play together in couch co-op mode. Something really easy would be a game like switch tennis (or wii tennis if you have an old wii with the single wii-motes) we got the tennis racquet accessories and its fun ..you put each joycon in a tennis racquet (small plastic ones) then decide who will work left hand or who will do right and pick 2 player mode. ...it will take some practice but its a really simple action (moving arm as if holding a racquet) and with practice you can learn to simultaneously take control of half the body each. ..you may need to do both hands to start with and let them slide in and take over that side as they pick up the rhythm and technique from you. Be aware that although some games may only need one side of joycon per player you still may need both hands to hit different buttons simultaneously for some games.

Welcome, glad to see a new member.

School doesn’t kill artists, artists kill artists

big extension so far lol i still plan to draw my part in this. hopefully soon. i have been trapped in commission hell

Oh look! Figments of imagination pretending to be hosts!

Max: I do this all the time when writing my sci-fi book. But the characters in my book I believe are servitors, not sentient tulpas of our system.

30 Aug 2024 Sometimes there is more calmness in the storm than in the still. I was expecting that removing the long term stress would leave some holes and gaps here and there. But I didn't expected that they would be filled up so quickly. Hoping for the proper time management.

Yeah, my wife has a family member with the bad kind of voices-in-the-head. I can't even approach the topic. That aside, I just wanted to make a post saying that I heard Hope talking the other night while drifting off to sleep. Like, actually heard. With my ears (well, one ear anyway). I couldn't actually understand what she said; it sounded like 2 garbled words, with the second one being close to "okay". I guess that's a sign I need to focus on her mind-voice and getting her to speak clearly, rather than the impose-a-feeling that we've been using to talk. If I don't sound as excited as I should be about a successful audio imposition, it's because I've actually done something like it before. Same situation, going to sleep but still pretty awake, but I had a song stuck in my head. I kept playing this one part over and over again until it felt like I actually heard it. I think I also did something similar to fronting or possession recently too. I was doing something dull: cooking a simple meal to get food in my body so I could do a day of work. Suddenly, I slow down I feel this wave of joy? Satisfaction? Like I was doing something profound for someone I cared about and I wanted them to feel happy. I don't normally feel that way about myself, so I attributed it to her.

Hali's been fun and her interactions with Ulla are darling.