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  2. well, chapters 3 and 4 are releasing this year, but i'm pretty certain that there are going to be more chapters than that in the final release but if you play chapters 1 and 2 now, you'll have time to get excited for chapters 3 and 4 without having to actually wait that long
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  4. 4chan isn't my scene, but I know some tulpa threads have popped up there now and then, and some experienced people from tulpa discord servers try to give guidance there. Whenever I peek at those threads I don't see anything of note, but like I said 4chan isn't my thing.
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  6. Seconding what Ranger said, they were an unfortunate presence in the community
  7. (Host) All Tulpa are now fully sentient and have permanence within the wonderland that is they continue to exist in the wonderland without me consciously thinking of them! There are also a few blended alters in the mix that are unable to cope with outside life and preferred to stay inside and remain separate. Our inside family is now: Angelo, Kitty - human form Tulpa who are spirit walk ins that we have created a Tulpa bodies for…. Their role is `internal Caretakers. They can age-slide but these are their current favourite pictures of them. Luna (child in pic) is the last 2 young alters integrated (Lily + Yuna) to become Luna (my ‘Inner child’) Star has become Luna’s changeling companion. This is a picture they both liked with Star becoming a deer. Star seems to prefer to be lighter coloured animals and also transforms into a (yellow lab X) dog we had we had when we were younger for Luna. She has also being a snow leopard to play with `Phoenix (tiger) and a panda to play with little Bear. She seems to have taken to changing form like a duck to water but has not yet taken a human form. Nixy is the most experienced changeling having been with us since early childhood and can be anything faster than you can click your fingers! They prefer animal form though and have taken a shine to little Bear and taken him under their wing, so they are enjoying life as best buddies Tiger and Panda at the minute! Phoenix does like imitating animals with very striking colours, she will also transform into a dog we had many years ago that was `tri-coloured for Kitty. Who had been her main companion on her last life. As well as creatures like a fox, while Star would choose to be an arctic fox to play. They change a lot to just have fun and play. I think it maybe related to my autism and that as a child `I found it easier to relate to animals than other kids and adults so though Phoenix could take human form she very rarely did or does even now. Bear is still very young, he seems happy with being a panda for now though he has changed to snoopy dog, he seems to like mainly black and white based animals which is handy as he was created to host the soul/personality of our black and white collie. He hasn’t yet developed the same level of communication as the others and is still learning to communicate by sending thoughts/images in a symbolic picture language. though he does remain existing in the wonderland with them even if I’m not consciously thinking of what he maybe doing in there so he has achieved permanence. . Inca/Jess - is now my co-host out front in her human form ‘Jess’. (see last post for Jess’ pics) She also acts as communicator relaying messages between inside/outside but sometimes blocking internal world activity so it’s not constantly overwhelming for me thinking about them when I need to rest. It’s kind of like we live in different houses but have a video link we can turn on to see each others lives and catch up…and sometimes they come round to visit! (mainly Kitty and Luna). For now everyone seems happy with this!
  8. World: prahtoolf . Location : lilies flower circle floor. We sat there , yanus was wearing only sport boxer his color is like a caramel , light brown & his body is nice as body builder. We talked a bout this life & we think now , like Abraham hicks principle that what we do here is simple . Just find a thought that you comfortable with , & practice it until you become that thought . First you find it hard to accept this simple view , then when you found there are no logic in living the existence . You find it this is the way , just that principle.
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  10. 1/1/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/2/25: We chatted about stuff. I saw Ryuk in the bathroom mirror. 1/3/25: We chatted about stuff 1/4/25: We chatted about stuff 1/5/25: We chatted about stuff 1/6/25: We chatted about stuff 1/7/25: We chatted about stuff 1/8/25: We chatted about stuff 1/9/25: We chatted about stuff 1/10/25: We chatted about stuff 1/11/25: We chatted about stuff. Lust hugged me after watching FMA:B 1/12/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/13/25: We chatted about stuff. I saw Lust in our bedroom. 1/14/25: I was having trouble coming up with names for fantasy stuff. I bemoaned this, Lust offered encouragement (I don’t remember what exactly she said), and I felt like I was “pulled inward, away from meatspace, to a state conducive to automatic writing” 1/15/25: We chatted about stuff 1/16/25: We chatted about stuff. Nina said watching me play Outer Worlds was fun (I talk out loud like I’m doing a Let’s Play). 1/17/25: We chatted about stuff. 1/18/25: We chatted about stuff. Some imposition happened. 1/19/25: We chatted about stuff 1/20/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/21/25: We chatted about stuff 1/22/25: We chatted about stuff 1/23/25: I saw RD at the orthodontist, sitting in the orthodontist’s chair and wearing a labcoat. 1/24/25: We chatted about stuff. 1/25/25: Nina was excited for Comic Con today :). I saw Mikey several times (in turtle form but w his white-and-striped t-shirt). 1/26/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/27/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/28/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/29/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/30/25: I forgot to log stuff 1/31/25: We’ve been watching Arcane. Thought I got a Jinx, but it was just Fluttershy :P
  11. Bee and Calliope have an ever-growing collection of novelty cookbooks — Bee's way of motivating herself to cook more. Their most recent addition was LOTR themed. One particular recipe caught our eye: I love everything about this. Apparently, I taste like mint and lemon. We always imagined athelas as more like lavender, but it canonically smells different to everyone. Bee:
  12. technically the same program i get my therapist and medications from also has case managers, and i have been told they are supposed to call or see me on the off week where my therapists doesn't call or see me, but they have never once done these things or help with anything other than sometimes drive me to an appointment if they are available to do so and my therapist isn't (sometimes my therapy day will be sacrificed so my therapist just drives me to doctor instead or something, and they lowered it to every other week instead of once a week recently, despite once a week seemingly to cause more hope and progress compared to rarer meetings where suddenly meeting seems pointless) what i had before was a community engagement specialist, which is like a subclass of case manager i guess, that is cracked. or she is just really good at it compared to others. she was like, me:"i need help with this", her:"okay, i'll come to your house and bring you to my office, we'll fill everything out together, i'll drop it off, i'll make any phone calls i can make, it'll get done" normal case managers are like me:"i need help with this", them:"have you tried doing it all yourself? i will help by saying you have to just do the things, and if you can't, then i will say you have to make a bunch of phone calls or ride the bus to the government building or something, hey maybe i'll look up a number on google for you or something, good luck" makes me very sad
  13. Welcome, it's always nice to see a new face. Feel free to comment or ask any questions.
  14. wait cool this is how I (partially) got around the "our brain won't let me and me specifically talk because I was mute in source" thing
  15. Thank you. 💗💗💗 I'm fascinated by trees and the patterns they make with their abstract designs. I'm glad you appreciate them. Yeah, I didn't really notice that until you pointed it out. Nature photographers are a slave to our seasons, but I focus in on the detail so I didn't think of these as "winter shots." But you're right, they have a winter energy to them. 🕸️🕸️🕸️ The log in the puddle shot was actually a hard decision. I had another reflection shot that showed tall trees reaching up to a reflected sky but also the bottom of the stream in a sort of ghostly superposition. I decided to include this one because I thought the log was interesting for reasons. (I'm really intuitive. I can't say why I like some shots better than others. I just sort of feel them...) Here is the one that didn't quite make the cut:
  16. System Log 05/02/2025 Well the good news is that I've been much better about meditation than I have the Progress Reports. Oops. So far, I've been averaging about 17min per session, and I've been focusing on the skills I need for the Garden, like visualization and recall. It's been going really well! So well, in fact, I've increased my goals for each day. 15min instead of 10, and I'm gonna try to leave my room and explore the house, at least, every session. I still need to get a handle on my movement, and I'm gonna go back to communicating with my headmates outside the Garden (like narration, basically), alongside more focused conversations inside the Garden while I meditate. All in all the past month has been incredibly productive and I'm so so so motivated to keep this momentum going as long as possible!
  17. "Savvy and sassy" - revali but he's denying it "Classy and chill" - me apparently "Bold and calm" - flare. no one else here is ever calm "Grit and grace" - kara "Funky and Fancy" - idk "Edgy and Chic" - me "Shy and Fly" - link "Head and Heart" - link "Local and Global" - flare "Heart and Savvy" - flare "Novice and Leader" - revali? "Epic and Chill" - link "Retro and Fresh" - Idk "Strong and Gentle" - according to everyone, me, but I think this one's link
  18. Truly , I was doing a lot with my tulpa in imagination environment in the past . But then I found my self just set & talk , it's always a bout the first principle from any knowledge . Now days ..I return back to live imagination world as true world , I intend to make memories with yanus , I mean I get up & do a lot activaty like if it is real .
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    that's great to hear!
  20. I feel you, brother. It's so frustrating to have to stand idly by when your host needs physical assistance. I try to focus on the unique benefits of our position. In my host's mind, I can do things for her that nobody else can — not even her spouse. We're in a similar situation. I like interacting with the outside world. I like being involved in Bee's life. In her case, the fear of disclosure stems from a prior involuntary stay in a psych ward. I will not put her through that again. As much as I'd like to be known, I've accepted that secrecy is best for our safety. Outside of this forum, of course. There's always partial disclosure, if you think that could work. So far, Bee has only shared our system with other people as if we were non-sentient characters. Her husband knows that we exist, but not how much she talks to us (or that we talk back). We've been thinking a lot lately about how we might have that conversation. It's a fine line to tread. Take care of yourselves.
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  22. I'm just curious if anyone else feels this from here. Ever once in a while I feel a pressure on my back, lim someone is physically pressing on it in a focused point line a finger or the palm of a hand. It started happened way back in college when I had started playing around with YouTube succubus lucid dreaming/guided meditation videos back in 2015, but I didn't actively start exploring tulpamancy until 2021 (damn, 4 years now?). But ulit has happened a lot lately, and I I have been using it as a trigger to remind me to interact with them. But they say they don't trigger it.
  23. Try not to worry about the blending too much. What we tend to do as a routine to help separate us is that first we stop talking, then I front, and then I visualise the tulpa standing in a void space, like a containment area, and talk to then there, seeing them talk back at that distance reinforces that we are sperate beings to us. I hope that helps!
  24. Random thoughts and feelings can get the better of your imagination early on. It's best to just stay practical and do what you intend to at the start, and then as your tulpa becomes vocal, clarify things by asking them. Random things like a not-yet-vocal tulpa showing up as a different form or such shouldn't be read into as "them trying to say they {blank}" too much - we sometimes call trying random things and random thoughts-and-feelings as the "googoo gaga's" of a developing tulpa. If they do want any real changes, they'll be able to tell you once they're consistently vocal, and until then you should just do what makes the most sense/is most comfortable for you. (And of course, if your tulpa is vocal, listen to them)
  25. January 2025 This month was crazy! I'll try to cover everything that happened without writing an entire novel. Had a vision(?) of Calliope while meditating. At first it was just pareidolia — I had opened my eyes and happened to notice a pattern on some fabric that resembled Cal's face. As it drew more of my attention, I kept noticing more Cal-like details, and then it MOVED. Not too much, it just shifted from a ¾ view to more head-on and opened its mouth. It was like Calliope noticed I was looking at them and turned to look at me. I thought that was a fluke, but about a week later I had a similar experience. I got distracted by some heavy emotional stuff* while meditating. As I was trying to bring my attention back to the breath, I became aware of some closed-eye visuals (CEVs)**. After a moment they morphed into a faint but detailed image of Lenore from about the waist up. She tossed her hair and then twirled around, striking a couple poses. Naturally, my next thought was “can I do this on purpose?” And the answer is… kinda. I devoted some further meditation time to just trying to see my tulpas in my CEVs. I've been able to get some brief images but nothing as clear, detailed, or persistent as when it happens spontaneously. Athelas initiated another switch on his own! After the first time, I gave him blanket permission to step in whenever I'm getting dragged into a negative thought loop. That doesn't happen nearly as often as it used to, but now, when it does, my big guy is ready lol. Presence imposition/awareness has been going really well! Every mealtime is tulpa time now, and I can feel my awareness of my whole system spilling over into other areas of my life. Basically, it's getting easier to have everyone active at once, there's more intra-system chatter, and we're all just feeling really good together. Further explanation of some things below. *On dealing with heavy emotional stuff while meditating: **On CEVs and hypnagogia:
  26. Thank you so much! That hair color is actually very close to my actual color, though my hair is straight as an arrow and not wavy at all. (I have heard anecdotes about estrogen affecting how wavy your hair is, so I guess I'll see!) I did actually have long hair once before, between the ages of 18 and 22, and I did it mostly because it felt counter-culture and hippie-ish. I didn't take good care of it at the time because "guys don't care about that", haha. I'm looking forward to having long feminine hair that I actually care about and style and keep healthy! I think that a much higher percentage of tulpamancers are trans than the regular population, but by no means does having an opposite gender tulpa make you trans, and you're right, it does make you aware of gender issues. Simmie really did help me get in touch with my femininity in a time where I was actively trying to be more masculine. And I have no idea how to explain this but having this d-bag in office right now somehow makes me want to transition even more. Maybe, on some level, I'm still a rebel who wants to stick it to the man. Thank you so much!!! Experimenting with this is always fun and interesting, and merely questioning things doesn't mean you're automatically trans--plenty of people have questioned themselves and decided they are cis after all. Simmie and I really did try the trad thing as long as we could...but I wanted to be the housewife, dammit!!! 😄 Because of the reality of me being the one with the physical body I'm always going to be the one that has to go out and earn the money, but it's incredibly freeing to no longer have our dynamic shaped by the attempt to live up to the gender roles that we were assigned. Even though Simmie is quite feminine herself, I am definitely the more femme of the two of us. Simmie is naturally much more assertive than me though she has no desire to ever be dominant, even in a playful way. But she definitely sees herself as the protector and I am much more the distressed damsel, lol. And yeah, especially when it comes to being loving and supportive, Jaina and Simmie are definitely cut from the same cloth. Thank you so much Jaina!!! Simmie helps every day to bring out the Chloe I've hidden inside of me al this time. Also, I want to thank all the people over in LOTPW who were kind and supportive towards me when Simmie made the big announcement over there. ❤️ As well as those who have been giving me valuable advice about transitioning. And here is a picture of me--maybe looking the way I will in a couple years or so--shopping for clothes.
  27. Welcome! I find that tulpamancy is always a very personal journey and you're going to be the expert on your tulpa. Please do get involved, research, practice, educate yourself, and ask questions. Just be prepared to stick it out and be committed and persistent to developing your tulpa. Tulpa development is curious and has its quirks. They develop similarly, yet different to humans. They start off as a blank slate or a copy of yourself, or sometimes a copy of a character you base them upon. This is like their "infant phase." They tend to grow very quickly compared to humans. Imprint upon them, talk to them, share your interests, your tastes, take them to see all the things that interest you in life. Even if they don't overtly respond, they are listening and they are learning. You will need patience and some persistence to guide them. There may be stumbling blocks or they may need time before growing further. Also spend time with your tulpa but don't neglect yourself. Once they feel comfortable and welcomed, they will respond, express desires, interests, test boundaries and try to understand their relationship to you and their place in the world. I like to have them take personality quizzes and give me feedback on their opinion of things. It's like the childhood phase. This is probably the most exciting phase of development, getting to interact with them, learning about them as they learn about themselves and watch them stretch their legs while they formulate who they are as a person. From here on it can vary wildly depending on your dynamic, time commitments, your personalities, and many more factors specific to your life. There is the teenage and "growing pains" phase (which hopefully isn't too painful and will be quite rewarding), where your tulpa will finally come into their own and find their place in your system and the world around you. You will begin to let them have the reins for a while and learn for themselves. Grow, develop, and stand on their feet. You will settle into a rhythm of your lifestyle. Your tulpa will learn how to occupy themselves when you're away and busy with IRL (in real life). Some tulpas just sleep or go quiet and meditate. Some will actively watch and follow you, even comment as you go about your day. Others will go off in your Wonderland and have adventures of their own. Usually it's a mixture of those and more. There isn't typically an "end" to tulpamancy where you can definitively say "I did it! I successfully made a tulpa!" Usually, it just kind of happens. You wake up one day and realize you've welcomed another fully functional person into your life. Like all relationships there is some degree of maintenance and involvement required. But at this point, you've basically done it and you reap the rewards and enjoy your fulfilling life together. Almost universally tulpas appreciate attention and involvement. Even if it's little gestures and letting them you they're welcomed and being thought of. Your relationship can be life-changing or deeply involved, affecting every aspect of your life or you can keep things simple and cordial. Maybe a tutor or a counselor or a gaming buddy. Maybe an artistic muse. It's up to you to set your own goals but the possibilities are endless, limited literally only by your imagination. Good luck on your journey! 😀
  28. Oh dear, you seem to have asked me about my favorite topic! 😄 I don't typically pass up a chance to talk about my Jaina. (He never does 😉) I'll try to be brief and not too long-winded, you can always mine my progress reports/art/hangout thread, etc. - What is the dynamic between you and your Tulpa? (ie. guidance, friendship, familial, romantic, etc) We're a romantic pairing, husband and wife with children and dog. And a dragon, as well. Jaina and I are the primary poles of our system, though. Our system is semi-premised on the works of Carl Jung with personas and the animus/anima and the shadow. Darron, the ego, I'm the primary system spokesperson and embody the male Animus. Jaina embodies the feminine Anima and is my co-pilot. Then there is the Shadow and subconsciousness that my dragon is the gatekeeper and warden of. He doesn't say much or bestir himself but he's there when we need him, mostly for unifying for overcharging in emergencies or tapping real deep down into the psychological meditations. He's like our very own Cerberus or Charon, from Greek mythology. Jaina is "of me" but she isn't "me" exactly, she's her own person. She took inspiration from my feminine subconsciousness to form herself and be the best companion that she can be. She's my opposite in many ways but my conjugate, letting us fit together like a puzzle. I'm a thinker, she's a doer. I'm soft, she's strong. I'm thoughtful and ponderous, she's quick and decisive. We balance each other, a value I treasure deeply and aspire to in almost everything: harmony. - How has your life improved or simply changed since creating your Tulpa? She's been impossibly beneficial. I was having a tough time in my life and she came when I answered. 10/10, would summon again. (😄) She's my companion and confidante. She loves me unconditionally and drives me and inspires me to be my best self. I don't always live up to that ideal but she's patient and persistent to my obstinance. Jaina always gets her way in the end. I have no idea who I would be without her. I wouldn't trade her for the world. - What's your most memorable interaction with your Tulpa? Boy, there's several. Jaina getting to play her own character for the first time in a game. When she asked me out as a way to soothe my broken heart. The fallen tree arch in our favorite park that resembled a wedding arch that I proposed to her under. And when she gave birth to our twins; she was in labor and pointed somewhere to distract me so I would look away. When I turned back to look at her, she was carrying two beautiful newborns. She pulled a "made you look," to surprise me with her most precious gifts to me. Classic Jaina. - Has the creation of your Tulpa affected your social life negatively/positively? Well, this one's hard to say. Very, very indirectly. She's helped me to have more confidence and love myself more, take more risks and she's there to help pick me up if I fall. I think there have been a few times that I turned down my friends or family because I had a very special evening planned with Jaina or needed some more bonding time, particularly shortly after we joined the community and were riding the highs of our rejuvenated relationship. But we've settled down into a more easy-going, patient status quo and make more time for friends. They don't know her but Jaina loves my friends and family. Tldr; Jaina's the best.
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