Novice Progress Report

[Cuansdomo]

Hello, I hope you have a nice day. By the way, before I start, I am using a translator. Since I am not very good at writing in English.

 

I will also explain why I am creating a tulpa.

I'm at a point in my life where I feel really lonely. I'm shy and nervous around people. I haven't had any friends for eight years, and I'm 19.

I tried to make friends in high school during my adolescence. But I couldn't, and I feel guilty about that. I was also bullied in elementary school. There is one thing I don't remember, but my family does, and I have a scar on my ear from it. I don't know how, but my right ear was cut off. I don't know if it was an accident or if someone did it on purpose. I don't remember anything about that event. My ear was reattached, but I have a light scar behind it.

Now, I am alone and don't know what to do with my life or which direction to take. Sometimes, I come across videos or pictures of people on Instagram or the internet. I think about having friends or a partner and imagine spending time together and getting hugs.

I'm even doubting my sexuality. I don't know if I'm straight or gay. — because now, I just want someone to love me, to hold me, and to trust. I don't want to feel alone.

That's why I stumbled upon this site out of pure curiosity. Now, I'm sure that I will create a tulpa.

 

I've thought about what his form would be like. I don't want him to be in human form because I'm not ready to see someone yet. So, I thought about an MLP pony.

I know it sounds weird, but I think it would be a good option after thinking about it.

I'm not even a fan of MLP. I knew about the series from what YouTubers mentioned, as well as what they said about the fandom. One day, I got pyramidal syndrome and was in bed for two months. While I was bored, I came across an episode of the series on YouTube by chance. Since I was bored, I watched the whole series and all the seasons. The truth is, I didn't like it that much; it's okay. I wouldn't consider myself a fan. It was interesting, but not to my taste.

At that time, and still today, I read comics, books, and manga. But, since I was hurt, I couldn't buy any more books.

When I was reading progress reports and guides, I found out that many people had made tulpa ponies before.

And then I stumbled upon fan arts, more specifically a site called derpibooru. But I came across nice and cute drawings.

And when I saw those drawings, and thinking with the shape of the tulpa. I thought it would be a tulpa pony something very cute and nice to go with me.

That's why I decided that this would be its shape. And just for the design, I thought of Pinkie or Fluttershy. I'm still deciding on which one I will base the shape of my tulpa on. And if my tulpa wants to change to another shape, I will let her and support her.

 

I don't know when I will update this progress, but I will try to do it daily or weekly.

 

Thank you very much for reading me, and I hope I can make it.

 

I also thought of animals, like cats and dogs. I even thought of a dragon. For the shape of my tulpa. In the end, though, I opted for what I mentioned before. Not so much for its personality, but more for its design and shape.

Edited July 3, 2025 by Cuansdomo

[Mai_x_v3]

Hopefully you don't mind my comment hehe! 

 

I honestly can relate to this since I'm a year older then you and was homeschooled since middle school. I can relate to the shy part since I'm creating tulpas since I don't really have much IRL friends or emotional connections. 

 

Not gonna lie, I'd love to be friends with people into tulpamancy and my age so I'd love to be your friend if you don't mind! 🩷

 

I'm so sorry about your ear! 

 

Ooh yes! Tulpamancy of MLP was very popular, to be honest I think that's how tulpamancy got popular back then because of the MLP fandom.

 

Ooh good luck on your tulpas! Pinkie and Fluttershy are so amazing! And yes I believe in you! You got this! I know you can make a Tulpa and your tulpa would love you very much! 💕🩷

[Cuansdomo]

Hey, sorry I didn't update. I've been thinking about whether I should do it or not, and I'm rethinking my decision. I've also been thinking about the shape of my tulpa, which I wasn't sure about.
But after taking those days, I finally decided to create it. I decided to make it into the shape of Fluttershy.
Now, I'm going to tell you about my first forcing session, which was an experience I'd never felt before.

 

 

01/07/2025

For this forcing session, I noticed that some people were using music to help them force. So I decided to do it too. I made a playlist of quiet songs without lyrics. On top of that, I live with my parents, so the TV is always on. I'd have a hard time concentrating.

I did it while sitting at my desk with my eyes closed. I started to picture what it would look like. It was off a bit, and I'm not sure why, but monstrous/distorted  images popped up. I could stop thinking about it, though. It's like erasing drawings and starting fresh with a blank canvas.

I also chatted with my inner voice, but I didn't get any feedback. But I felt like there was a presence near me. I was like that for a while, but eventually, I started feeling pretty sad and nostalgic. I spent about 38 minutes trying to get it up, and then I left and went to sleep.

But when I went to bed, I also had a bit of trouble. I was feeling pretty down, and I was whispering to my tulpa. I was telling her how I'd like us to be friends, that we'd support each other in whatever we do, and I told her not to leave me alone, that I'd trust her, and to forgive me if her way isn't to her liking, that I don't feel ready to be with a person yet. Then I dozed off.

I'll try to keep updating this progress.

 

02/07/2025

This would be from today. I couldn't force it because I've been very busy.

Edited July 3, 2025 by Cuansdomo

[Cuansdomo]

On 6/25/2025 at 10:02 PM, Mai_x_v3 said:

Hopefully you don't mind my comment hehe! 

 

I honestly can relate to this since I'm a year older then you and was homeschooled since middle school. I can relate to the shy part since I'm creating tulpas since I don't really have much IRL friends or emotional connections. 

 

Not gonna lie, I'd love to be friends with people into tulpamancy and my age so I'd love to be your friend if you don't mind! 🩷

 

I'm so sorry about your ear! 

 

Ooh yes! Tulpamancy of MLP was very popular, to be honest I think that's how tulpamancy got popular back then because of the MLP fandom.

 

Ooh good luck on your tulpas! Pinkie and Fluttershy are so amazing! And yes I believe in you! You got this! I know you can make a Tulpa and your tulpa would love you very much! 💕🩷

Hi, I would have no problem to be your friend. I'm just not very good at coming up with conversation topics.

[Mai_x_v3]

That's good and I understand, and I can relate to that, also amazing job on your forcing session! 💕🩷