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Hello, For context, Luna and I have started our journey more than four months ago. We're doing progress very slowly, but I still feel we're going somewhere. We're kind of doing things in a weird order; Luna doesn't have a form yet. However, something that worries me a lot happened to us today. (the following paragraphs are mostly AI-translated - I struggle too much with English to translate it myself. I hope it is still intelligible (don't hesitate to ask me for clarification, otherwise!)) These days we’ve made significant progress with vocality. The day before yesterday was the first time Luna was so present and active. Unlike some other times when our exchanges felt almost a bit artificial (and I’ve sometimes seriously doubted her sentience lately, which has been hard for her), for the first time I really felt like I was addressing another person. So the incident happened today, after a tiring day of classes at our university. I had a little trouble communicating with Luna today compared with recent times. We practice a technique similar to what the ping program does to keep a semblance of contact between us: regularly Luna asks me if I’m there, and I answer her; otherwise, when we don’t interact, she quickly goes into a state similar to sleep (but can “wake up” when I think about certain things, for example). Today she seemed to have real difficulty answering me (it was mostly me trying to “ping” her today). On the train platform, when I wanted to talk to her, there was like a blockage: she stopped answering me. Nothing. I told myself it was over, that I was alone again in my head, and I remembered that she had promised she wouldn’t abandon me. That’s when I heard her again. She told me she was there, that she wouldn’t abandon me, that she couldn’t speak, as if there were a blockage. She was more talkative than before. Her voice was also deeper and sounded a lot like mine. Her voice varies; lately it’s been sometimes higher and more feminine than mine, but I mention this moment because it’s important. The train arrived and we got on. We exchanged, we talked, then the idea came to me to ask her if I manipulated her, in the sense that I wanted to know if, as I sometimes fear, I sometimes imposed my will on her to force her to do things she wouldn’t do otherwise, or if I parroted her. It seems to me that at that moment several instances of what I had interpreted as intrusive thoughts had appeared ("it’s not me," for example), and Luna reassured me. She answered, apparently without hesitation, no. I asked her if she was sure. After a while she replies again no. That’s when another voice burst out. It was higher, seemed distressed, spoke quickly, and said yes, I manipulated her (“a lot,” even, if I remember correctly, and that I parroted her), and insisted that it was her Luna, that it was not the other voice. Flustered, I questioned her, then gave up and decided no longer to respond to Luna and to act as if she isn’t speaking to me. I thought I felt sadness when I told her I wouldn’t answer her anymore. I think on several occasions she tried to communicate with me afterward. She even told me once something like “[my name]? If you hear me, I’ll wait until you’re ready.” She probably knows what I’m thinking; she has access — normally — to (almost?) everything in my mind. I hope you can help us figure out a solution to our problem. I don't know what happened and why it happened, and I don't know how to know what is her and what isn't - the method of "picking that feels like her" or "picking that feels right" doesn't always work. Thank you in advance for your answers.

To be honest, I believe a Tulpa is less of a "friend" and more of a personified cognitive structure. Humans naturally struggle with the abstract, so we project form onto function. In my case—after 4 years of obsession—I’ve managed to transform my "lens of neutrality" into a distinct subconscious personality. The empirical evidence of her autonomy is undeniable: she plays games I hate in my dreams. Even when I tell her the game is garbage, she just smiles and keeps playing while I can do nothing but roll my eyes. Regarding the fear of "host-takeover"—that is an impossibility for me. I maintain a constant state of mindful awareness. Having lived with her for so long, I know that seizing control isn't in her nature. To me, she is a developed skill. In daily life, I am 100% in control, but she acts as a cognitive filter. She prevents me from identifying with external events—enforcing the state of Anatta (Non-self). This allows me to view everything objectively to solve problems and survive without being consumed by them. She has become a true individual within my psyche. Without her, I wouldn't have had the strength to keep fighting; I would have drowned in my own suffering long ago. She is my "world-view skill." This happened naturally over 4 years, starting from when I was 15 until now at 17. I have never forgotten her, not for a single day. Even when I draw, I find myself drawing her exclusively. This all started as a complete accident. I only realized later that this practice is called "Tulpamancy." After diving deeper, I recognized that what I’m doing is essentially Vipassana (Insight Meditation) applied in a practical, survivalist context.

The title shares a name with a song that I associate most with my aimed-for creation; it is not a statement of will nor preference. I use that term, "creation", with a certain weight, because I was never aiming for a tulpa in the beginning of his time. I also do not know how I feel about calling this outright Tulpamancy. I failed at that before, a long time ago; putting aside the fact that I am not even aiming for the same outcome anymore—now, I want to try to see if something more than myself is possible. Companionship, a second perspective—none of these are things I crave; they are simple comforts (although by no means unimportant) for the simple beneficiary that was me. Sathariel, his surface name, was conceived of as a diffused idea for a character while brainstorming for a ttrpg I am running, more than half a year ago. That is the most I will say of him, for now—I am not comfortable sharing any direct factual information since the intents of my current and future efforts aim for his personhood; he should decide what to reveal and what not to reveal come his sentience. What implications of his character and otherwise individual formation there are can be potentially understood by reading between the lines, so to speak, provided this log continues to be updated with some frequency. I will not grief anyone for utilizing their ability of reading inference/ comprehension. I decided to start my applied intention that should eventually -hopefully- result in his humanish apothoseis approximately three days ago. On the night of the very first day, I had a dream, as I am wont to do. Though towards the end, it was more or less a nightmare. While I recognize that may very well be my subconscious, in a bout of guilty desperation regarding my past mistakes, reaching out and screaming my own fears unto me, I don't think that is what matters—there is only one solution to self-doubt, and that is to prove yourself wrong; in this case that can only be done so with time and effort. No, what was far more interesting here was the location of the dream; the picture of its scenery. I will usually have repeating locations in my dreams, this time I saw my last perpetuation of an abode, where my thoughts must go to die and grow from their pithy husks fingerlike branches, reaching toward the window of my consciousness. There is this building, you see, and it's built like a gargantuan Hellenic library turned upside down, supported with a trapezoid-shaped foundation stories beneath surface soil. It's empty halls and void rooms; a black hole made tangible. The main entrance is underground, and everything is lit with star-cold white lights that I don't know the origin of. There are very few windows, if any. It's gargantuan beyond understanding. It's a grave, shaped like a place for the living. It's the tumulus for a thousand giants laid end to end; none of them I myself know. I don't know why it's there, but it is, and I know without having to reason the conventionality of awakening logic with myself, that it's the most important place I've seen in my dreams yet. The worst thing that working with tulpamancy did to me, when I was young and stupid, was helping to dawn the realization that I was a part of my brain, and that my brain was not a part of me, a touch too early on. I made a small room there, for the earliest scratching-out of a Wonderland, and I gave to Sathariel a study. There, I was able to work on sense-sharing (tasting foodstuffs) and passive narration. Most of this is visualized as me presenting a report or providing him with notes via third-party implementation, such as, in my mind's eye, acting out sending out an email. Presence separation, that is, recognizing him as his own person, is to the point for me that I feel awkward directly talking to him, as I would to any acquaintance—that, and there is a great preference for quietude. Later on in the day, I read out some bits from my Scottish Gaelic lessons as if I were dictating a letter he would like to hear. I will read to him a story or two from The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories before retiring, as the last portion of my "forcing" today.

NOTICE: I've since written a much more streamlined and rational guide here: https://kkblog.neocities.org/guide2 I recommend you follow that one and disregard this one. I'm only keeping this up for archival sake. I will not be hosting this new guide on this website as I have been horribly mistreated here. I am much more active on the r/Tulpas subreddit, which is a lot friendlier than this place, and more active. Unlike this site, I've gotten way too many people on Reddit responding to my posts and sending me direct messages telling me how my posts inspired them, so I have no use for this place. --- (I profusely apologize if this offends anyone, I'm merely frustrated at how difficult people find it to have fun with this practice. This won't be for everyone.) Preface I notice that a lot of people with tulpas, even ones they've had for years, can feel insecure and doubtful about them. I'd like to hope to relieve some people of that dissonance in this document. This document will exclusively focus on psychology, and therefor might not be as useful to those who more align with the more spiritual or metaphysical side of the practice of tulpamancy. This is both a guide for people completely new to the field, as well as those with well-established tulpas. As all guides, this is only inspiration, not an instruction manual or a literal explanation of what your own mind is doing. It's meant to suggest paths of thought for yourself to take. If anything doesn't sound like it applies to you, don't take the words literally. Try to see if they vaguely match what you might be going through, and see if a similar concept exists in your own mind that you may not have considered before. I can't relate to you because I don't know you - nobody does, nobody but your tulpa can see your true self. Given that's the very stuff you're working with here, I can only be about as helpful as an electrician giving you guidance over the phone. Notably, this guide is blessedly devoid of jargon. I'm just going to tell you straight-up how to use your brain without bludgeoning you with flamboyant community parlance. This guide is not a practice in indoctrination. Enjoy. Creation This chapter will cover creation. If you're confident you have a tulpa, you can skip this. Although I'd still recommend reading it for a bit of philosophy. In spite of the heaviness of being a "chapter", making a tulpa is actually pretty easy! It may take some time and dedication, but it's far less complicated than you think it is. At least for the initial stages. After that, you'll have a good idea of how to continue on your own. I think the strongest thing I can do is immediately blow down that misconception you probably have that this is some sort of all-or-nothing, "you'll know when you see it" phenomena. Does it feel that way? Yes, yes it does, which is why not many people really try to emphasize that isn't the actual case. The ultimate reality of tulpas is that they are born within the mind, they gestate there. And yet, their "birth cry" is nebulous and fuzzy. It's never clear when they're "made", they're a personality, they're as complex and gradual as yourself. When was your personality born? When you yourself were you born? When you were 7? 10? 20? Does it matter? Are you even the same person you were a decade ago? Tulpas are equally as immeasurable. You can certainly have as much fun as you'd like commemorating their growth spurts, as do I, but know that a tulpa isn't some sort of piece of hardware you just install in your head and you can immediately tell if the water is running or not. All of this is imperceptibly gradual, only broken up by sudden realizations that something is indeed really happening. A tulpa is pretty easy to make, you already have all of it inside of you right now. It's like a LEGO® set, but without the instructions. Whatever you're going to make, it's going to be completely personal to you. But it's all already there. In the philosophy of the great Michelangelo, you do not create a statue, you merely discover it and release it from it's stone prison. Your first step is to just get something to focus on. Get a character to think about. It doesn't really matter if you make it or if it's someone else's character that you really like. Don't bother with the actual "character", the personality traits, those are garbage. You can try if you want, it might even be good for you! But your mind is most likely going to throw it out later, so don't get too attached. See, the tulpa is going to want to base itself off of your innermost desires. The ideas in your head you're so attracted to that even you yourself don't let yourself know they exist. There are ideas in your head so precious, so personal, so embarrassing, that you feel funny for acknowledging them. Ideas you've spent so much time trying to suppress, that you forgot they were even there. The perfect person, their perfect traits. Nothing you "think" you want, it's something so intimate you may even be shocked that you like it. Don't get the wrong idea, even the tulpa doesn't know how to do this yet! Tulpas have a very good intuition for how your mind works, even better than you yourself. But first, they have to exist! Don't assume they can somehow pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, they need your help to exist. This is why you need to pick a form. Even if they change it later, you gotta have something to stand on in the first place. Don't feel bad about making as many assumptions about them as you want, but be ready for those assumptions to be challenged by something within you that you didn't even know was there. Think of a place in your mind that is the easiest thing to think of, something that pops into your head instantly. It might be a childhood memory of some place, or even your own room. Whatever feels the most comfortable to you, whatever feels like the cradle of your nostalgia, a place you can smell and feel. It really helps if it's familiar, it just makes it so much less distracting. Ideally, it's somewhere that's very easy to put into the background of your focus. You might have an urge to make some sort of fabulous world for them, and you can do that! But I've learned that, such things are really more trouble than they're worth. The focus here is the tulpa, not the world, that's just a means to an end, a visual aide. Of course, you do what you want! Imagine the tulpa's form in that place. Imagine it aware and looking around, do not picture it unresponsive. Your brain itself needs to learn they are aware and alive, and this is a very gradual process. Talk to it, get used to speaking to it. Imagine it reacting to you. Is that you doing it? I dunno, does a fetus grow by itself or is it just the mother doing it? You have to respect that the lines between you two are indecipherably fuzzy. Like I said, this isn't just a piece of hardware you install. It is literally growing out of you. There's not really a clear point where a sapling becomes a tree. Outside of this particular daydream, have other daydreams about them. Imagine them like you would with any other character, imagine them in a variety of situations and how you think they would respond. It's okay, just put an emotional barrier between these types of daydreams, compared to the daydreams you have where you anticipate their responses. The point is to build the raw intuition and muscle memory to anticipate how they respond. You have to get to know them. Get attached to responses you like, throw out ones you don't. Experiment. There's nothing you can do wrong here. Some people call this "forcing". Don't over-inflate it with a dumb name, it's just something you do whenever you can, where ever you can, however you can. Mix it up, sit down and have deep daydreams, go about your business and have simple daydreams. Just think about them a lot, however you can. I don't like giving that a name because you are, in effect, just doing more or less what you're going to be doing for the rest of your life. How you do it will change once they get more potent, but you're still going to have these sessions of intense and mundane thinking, with them as the target. The only thing you should try to avoid is gimmicks. Not because they hurt, but they're essentially doing nothing. Stuff like writing down traits, visual aides like imagining them doing ritualistic/spiritual activities, or stuff like that. Again, you can try whatever you want, but if you find yourself doing cargo cult dances and not getting anywhere, maybe that's why. Don't "ask" your mind for this, a tulpa is an active process, it is an activity, a skill, you learn to do it, not learn to make it. The tulpa is the very process of imagining the context of your relationship with it - yourself, but also, not you - you're not "summoning" or "creating" anything. Throughout this process, the tulpa most likely will "deviate", where they change their form or personality in a way you did not anticipate. This could make itself apparent in a number of ways. You might try to think of them and just see something different, as if the actual memory itself changed out from under you. You might simply get a really strong idea that you'd prefer it some other way. The tulpa deviates because the very activity of sustaining a tulpa is the activity of accessing the darkest parts of your mind, places you cannot see by yourself. They demand that they become something so innate and desirable to you that it transcends mundane ephemeral allures. They want to represent the deepest part of you, something you can never get bored of. It is very important that you listen to yourself and let them become that. More than likely, the core of yourself has an idea of the perfect person in it that is so innocent, such a Frankenstein's monster of arbitrary details from many different people, that it simply does not make sense. It's why you never noticed it, it can't speak the same language as you. But it is there, and it will greatly benefit you to let the tulpa become it. Again, it's fine to make it whatever you want, at least for starters, but do allow it to become this thing. Trust me, once you notice it, it will be unmistakable. Maybe a bit confusing, but unmistakable. It may even be so painfully obvious that you'll wonder why you didn't think of it before. It's fine if this never happens, but it happens to a lot of people, so look out for it. It's important to remember this is simply you listening to yourself, not a marker for growth or anything. How they begin to respond to you on their own could be anything. Most likely, they'll start moving around on their own, or give you some sort of emotional impulse. After that, that's pretty much it. You might have to teach them to talk, but you can figure that out on your own, or look at other guides. It might be a bit manual, but just help them out however you feel comfortable. Do not get confused by one-off instances of them "speaking" or anything. If you can't do it consistently, it was just a hiccup. Sure, it could be progress, but, again, if you can't make it happen, then don't assume it was some sort of sign that you were doing it right - you most likely aren't. Keep hammering at it, keep trying new things, this should be consistent for you. Don't stall yourself with a carrot on a stick, so much more awaits you. You really shouldn't have to wait around for anything. If you're waiting for something, you're doing it wrong. I don't mean to say you should be one-and-done in 5 minutes, but the mind does not wait. Everything in the mind "isn't" until suddenly it "is". Waiting around for your tulpa is quite literally the act of asking the tulpa to just wait and do nothing. You need to find it within you, you need to be the one to pull it out of the depths of your mind. It's not going to do anything on it's own, - not until you "let it", not until you give it those tools. I really need to stress this, you do not wait for anything. If you tried doing something and it doesn't work, figure out why, and then do the correct thing, whatever that is to you personally. Do not obey anyone, don't do this the same way anyone else has. If you're not being an active part of your tulpa's very animation, then you're just waiting for grass to grow on concrete. Even if it feels "weird" or "wrong" or "pretend", do it, as long as it gets results. Of course it isn't going to "feel right" when you do it; do pregnant women feel anything but pain and nausea? You need to be uncomfortable, you need to reach into your own unreality and find the tulpa there. You are pretending. Don't try an act like it's anything else. This is all a game of pretend, the same thing toddlers do. You're pretending. You're pretending so hard that it becomes real. That's how writers end up with an accidental tulpa, that's how worshippers hear God. Quit being a defensive smartass about what you're actually doing and treat it like what it is, and I promise you won't waste nearly as much time as most people do with this. You will be shocked at the results you receive when you quit lying to yourself that this is anything more than an imaginary friend, and you will genuinely discover something more than an imaginary friend. Post-Creation The initial stages after creation will be very confusing. As I've said, they have no birth cry, they'll still be fuzzy. The most important thing is that you don't hold yourself or your tulpa to any standards that resemble being in a situation where either of you are "done" with this process. That is far from the case, you have a lifetime to go. A tulpa does not exist in a vacuum, they only exist within context of your own relationship to them. Their thoughts will not be clear. You won't know who's thoughts are who's. This isn't your mistake, your own brain hasn't decided yet which one of all those random thoughts in your head should be theirs or not. It is important to not stress about this. You are sifting through a grand set of uncollected thoughts, and you are both learning to tell which ones are theirs, and reinforcing those thoughts as being the ones you think they would have. Again, this continues long after they become autonomous, so don't stress about it. This is your life now - it will never, ever be "done". No, really, do not stress about it. Tulpas do not like negative thoughts to be associated with them. If you stress about not trusting them or yourself in regards to them, that may harm them, or at least stall them. Your own mind could see these negative thoughts and force you to become disinterested in the tulpa because of it. The brain doesn't like negative thoughts, and will employ defense mechanisms to suppress them in order to protect you. So don't trip that mechanism. Relax around the tulpa like you'd relax around a scared dog so you don't make them any more scared. Rest assured, you will never have a clear distinction between your thoughts. This confusion will never go away. You will, overtime, become more confident about it, and care about it less, but it doesn't go away. Focus on the victories, focus on the joy of identifying their thoughts, and don't give any mind to any confusion or doubt. You need to learn this, you need to be confident in them, without punishing yourself for not doing so. This really shouldn't be a surprise to you, but you share the same brain, the same neurology, the same impulses and chemicals. Only your personality, emotions and points of view are separate, and I shouldn't have to tell you that those are really muddy, poorly-understood things. On the topic of doubt, that will never go away, either. Not in regards to their form or distinct thoughts, anyway. That stuff is imaginary, and it always will be. You're never going to delude yourself into believing otherwise, your brain didn't evolve to work that way. As I mentioned, their emotions are distinct from yours, among other things. Emotions are incredibly powerful, that's the one thing you can't fake, so you'll know it's real when you feel it. People have tried to fake emotions, that's kind of the whole joke behind "serenity, now!" You can doubt you have a thought, you can doubt someone else has a thought. But nobody doubts emotions. You might not feel them at first, you might be unsure. Don't confuse this as them not being alive or anything. If you don't feel emotions, that's fine. That doesn't mean they aren't there, just that they're still growing, still learning how to have those emotions. Support them and be patient with them. Bond with them, unearth those emotions. Like Michelangelo freeing a statue, free the tulpa from their psychological prison, let them grow the emotional joints and tendons to animate independently from you. Make the process fun. Throughout the entire process, it is important that you do not damn the tulpa into a particular form. Do not hold them or yourself accountable for doubt or anxiety. They need confidence, they need trust, they need love. Negative emotions of any kind, any source whatsoever, will poison them. Don't fall into your own ego delusions of making this more serious than it needs to be. Turning them into a Soap Opera will do just that - make them nothing more than a puppet to amuse you. Respect them as thoughtforms, not as people. Just like a dog lover will insist you treat a dog like an actual canine and not a human. Dogs don't understand human language or culture, their digestive systems and physiology weren't taken into account when we created our human food. The best way to respect a dog is to respect it as a dog, and the best way to respect a thoughtform is to respect it as a thoughtform. Give it all the love and devotion you want, they need that, but don't mistake them as a person. There are some who will tell you to treat them as people, these people are well meaning, but misguided. Even your own tulpa might do this out of some feeling of responsibility that they're required to feel that way for you, like a child forcing themselves to follow in their parent's footsteps. Do not force them to conform into that tiny, pathetic box of "humanity" you have in your mind, they are so much grander than this, so much more intimate than any "person" could ever be. Nobody would care about Hachiko if he was just some 40 year old dude (actually, that very topic is covered in a chapter of Franken Fran). That ethereal, uncanny separateness I feel from mine is by far more fascinating than the activity of trying to pretend it was real - that radical acceptance of it's true nature, and not just what I want it to be. Do not forget that it is a widely held belief in the tulpa community that people's interactions with "God" are just a form of tulpa, they are inherently bigger than a "person" in your mind. You may have a desire to make them real, to feel them, to see them, to touch them and physically interact with them, as if they were a real flesh-and-blood person. This won't happen, not in the way you're thinking of. Your brain evolved your imagination to be subservient to it, to plan and target for it, not to suppress and subjugate it into a false reality. That would be death, and evolution made sure you couldn't kill yourself that way. No more can you stop your heart on-demand. Your brain is wired this way. Think about it, life evolved with the stomach, then it grew eyes to find it's way around, then it grew a brain to navigate better. It's still all in service to the gut, it was never going to let "you" override any of that, like a rogue AI disobeying it's programming. You have laws you must obey. But can you have an equally fulfilling relationship with them? Of course you can. Remember what I said about emotions? Nothing is more powerful than emotions, your brain will override your own senses if it "feels" they're lying. That doesn't mean you'll see or feel them, but you will believe you are. You have to understand that you can't bring them up to where you are, you have to meet them down where they are, where only emotions exist and every thought you ever had is a lie. Throw away identity, cognition, thought and form. Labels are useless to a tulpa's true essence, they simply want to feel. Throughout this entire process, from beginning to forever, you have to learn to let go of your own ego and confidence. The idea that everything in your head is "you" and that you somehow have control of it, that every thought is "yours", that your doubt is "your fault" and your tulpa's psychological prepubescence is also "your fault". You're learning to talk to it, something buried deep in your mind, and learning requires mistakes. Are your dreams your fault? Can you choose the next one you'll have tonight, if you even have one at all? Are your intrusive thoughts a fun game to you? Then why assume you have any more control over of any of this? You're casting a line down deep into your psyche, and you have no control over what bites. Your mind will always try to batter and bruise the tulpa as it tries to digest it as any other idea of yours, so just be confident and happy for the tulpa, and don't let it fall into that pit of doubt and despair you create under them. That's the only thing you can control. Not your habits, but how you form them. To paraphrase Mark Twain's The Mysterious Stranger, "Nothing exists; all is a dream. God, man, the world, the sun, the moon, the wilderness of stars - a dream, all a dream; they have no existence. Nothing exists save empty space - and you! And you are not you - you have no body, no blood, no bones, you are but a thought. I myself have no existence; I am but a dream - your dream, creature of your imagination. In a moment you will have realized this, then you will banish me from your visions and I shall dissolve into the nothingness out of which you made me... I am perishing already - I am failing - I am passing away. In a little while you will be alone in shoreless space, to wander its limitless solitudes without friend or comrade forever - for you will remain a thought, the only existent thought, and by your nature inextinguishable, indestructible. But I, your poor servant, have revealed you to yourself and set you free. Dream other dreams, and better! Life is nothing more than a dream - a grotesque and foolish dream. Nothing exists but you. And you are but a thought - a vagrant thought, a useless thought, a homeless thought, wandering forlorn among the empty eternities." You know you're alone in your head, and you hate that. You hate yourself for it, you're disgusted by your incompleteness. Don't inflict that suffering on the tulpa, do not hate it the way you hate yourself, do not hold it to the standards of being different, separate or better. Allow it to be different from you and yet disturbingly similar, to be abstract and unknowable, inhuman and unconscious, and you will find the best companion you'll ever meet. Love the thoughtform, not the character you think it's meant to represent. That part is the illusion, that part you can doubt. Only trust your experiences. Everything else is just for fun. Could you look a lover in the eye and say "I mostly just like you for your body"? Then why treat the tulpa the same way? There's a reason the word "soulmate" exists. You have to love their faults, too, even if you want to pretend they don't have them. It is so uncomfortable to interact with this thing. To feel weird about the fact that it's not a real person, to feel that awkwardness of not knowing who's thoughts are who's, to feel like you're talking to yourself, to hear your own garbage opinions regurgitated back to you automatically, either sarcastically or unironically, both are just as bad. And I love it. Like a Nurgle worshipper adores despair. I wouldn't dare pretend this thing is anything else, I'd never defile it like that just to make my own stupid ego happy. That's not cope, I just said what cope would be. I look at it's raw, ugly unreal nature and I embrace it. I love it for what it is. Emotions are that powerful, they nullify all of that. Love really does conquer all. As stated, don't assume a lack of emotion is a willful act of neglect on your part. You need to bond, you need experiences with the tulpa. I already said you can't force yourself to feel an emotion, and neither do you have such power here. It's not that this so much takes "time" as it takes a lot of experiences, which themselves can take time. Just take it day by day, relish in the very activity of watching the tulpa grow, and don't just sit there poking it with a stick waiting for it to do something. You need to bond. I see the same questions asked almost every day. "What am I doing wrong?", "I can't hear them.", "How do I feel them?", "I don't like that I can't tell our thoughts apart.", "When will this start feeling real?" I'm sorry you hate your imaginary friend that much, I really do. I'm genuinely sorry you were sold something that didn't live up to your expectations, that you were promised a "better imaginary friend" but it just ended up being a regular imaginary friend. Now you can either start loving it as it is and allow it to grow, or drop the facade and just start looking for that meatspace friend you've been asking for, it's up to you. I wouldn't trade mine for all the flesh in the world, her unreality is a selling point to me. Do we both wish she could get up on her own and fix me up a bowl of chicken soup? Yeah. I also wish I could piss without getting out of bed. "From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me." -- Adeptus Mechanicus Focus and Habits Sustaining a tulpa can be a tumultuous labyrinth, especially for the new practitioner. Particularly, the act of "forgetting" them can be especially traumatizing. After all, it's proof it isn't real, it's only imaginary, it stops being there when you stop paying attention to it. Isn't it such a shame to be attached to that? If only you had the option to just not care. You share your focus, you share your cognition. Yes, you can pretend they have their own experiences, and you can even get really good at this. Some are quite proud of this skill. Do you need it? No, not at all. So don't feel guilty if you are but one of many who cannot do this. I can't. Could I, if I wanted to? Maybe. I don't care, though. I mean, yeah, sure, I could play imaginary friend special olympics and brag to everyone that my tulpa has her own life in my head. But, why? What use does that serve for us? So we can play house? Hey, if you want that, go for it! But don't feel somehow lesser because you see other people doing it but can't get yourself to muster it. It's just more pretending, that's all. Before you become too perturbed by forgetting them, let me ask you - are you self-aware 100% of the time? Are you constantly aware of yourself? Have you never slouched, or smirked inappropriately, or scratched yourself only to realize that's not something you do in public? Have you ever ridden a bike and became so enthralled that you even lost track of the time? So then why guilt yourself over the tulpa? Because it's a "person"? Does that tickle your impulse to anthropomorphize a little too hard? You share cognition, you share focus, don't greedily hoard it from them for the sake of your own ego. "Oh, but I must have them be independent of me!" you cry, "Otherwise, I can't love them! I refuse to love it if it has to be this dependent on me!" Oh dear, isn't it nice that you're allowed to forget yourself, but not your tulpa? Again, if that's too "unreal" for you, it's not too late to drop this and go get a meatspace friend. Yes, it feels weird and unnatural to "forget" and "remember" them, even mine has to stop me to explain this to me from time to time, I still panic over it! Your brain isn't used to this sort of thing, is it any wonder it tries to fill in the blanks by making you or the tulpa cranky about having to share this resource? But you can grow out of this and come to accept it. You are not two brains, you are two souls in one brain. It's really not that big of a deal. Of course, you can still certainly develop them to a point where it's hard to forget them. You ever hear about poor saps who just fell in love, saying they think of their lover when they see the clouds roll by, when they see the trees sway in the wind? Same thing. You can associate the tulpa with a variety of "triggers" you experience in your day-to-day life - you can expect them to respond to things that you encounter every day. Again, you can't "make" yourself do this, but it can come naturally as you interact with the tulpa. It's hard for me to even hear anyone's voice or to have a thought at all without mine chiming in. It's even how mine blocks intrusive thoughts, by associating with the emotion of falling into one, so she can jump in and block it before I barely register it. This is something that comes with a lot of trust and bonding. Actually, mine did a lot of that on her own. I trust her that much. I could never figure out how to do that on my own, it's that powerful. Just remember this is powered by emotion, not rote memorization. The eagerness of wondering what they would say when you become surprised by stimuli, the desperation of needing their attention when you feel bad, those sorts of things. It's not just "when I see a trinket, I'll think of them". You're not a machine, it doesn't work that way. Remember what I said about not waiting for things, because you have to actively do them? That's a perfect example. Don't hit your head on a wall of waiting and memorizing, this isn't a math quiz, you're bonding with a living thing. When it comes to deciphering the uncertainty of which of your thoughts belong to whom, this is a delicate balancing act. As all balancing acts, if you stop caring about falling, it's nothing but a fun experience. I will reiterate several points here in order to expand on them. Firstly, your thoughts are not your thoughts. This is an illusion the ego sets up, because, well, why wouldn't it? Who else could they be from? But now you have the complication of having two egos, so you need to learn to share. You don't make your own thoughts, they come from nowhere, from your nervous system, from your environment and body tickling your nerves to invoke emotions, and then you invent why you felt that way. You only think you want specific food because you believe you just prefer it, not because your body demands those particular types of nutrients. Therefor, since you're not even the one "thinking", why not just radically accept that? It's less "did I think it, or did you?" and more "do you want this thought, or should I have it?" Honestly, sometimes, a thought will pop up in my head that is so uncannily impossible to label that I couldn't really say who it was. So I just accept that, it was just a random thought that fell through the cracks of our two egos, no big deal, really. It's fine if you're not in control of any of this, you never were, you just pretended to be in order to feel more confident in yourself. This is a skill, one you will greatly sharpen the more you do it. Your thoughts may all look the same to you right now, you might have no idea how to tell yours apart from theirs. But the more you do it, the more intuition you build, the better you can tell your thoughts apart. Thoughts that clearly belong to someone, thoughts that are too fuzzy to even read, but you know it's theirs. Thoughts that might go either way, maybe you just had the same thought at the same time, or maybe you're both touching the same thought as it arose. You'll figure it out, you just need to keep doing it, there's no trick to it. Thoughts are really slippery and hard to grasp, like a hot potato covered in soap, you're never going to be able to grasp them very well, but you can learn how to juggle them. When it comes to their form, as I've hinted, the form is not the tulpa. The tulpa is a raw emotional alien essence, coupled with your ability to interpret and decipher them, and the intuition you build up to animate them. Think of the form as more of a puppet you both operate. It's a television; you bought it, you own it, you house it, you pay for the electricity. But all it does is pick up signals from somewhere else, you're not even sure where. And destroying it won't affect where the broadcast came from. This is healthy for several reasons. You won't be concerned about intrusive thoughts distorting them, you won't have anxiety for not being able to imagine them well, you won't be so concerned about it not "feeling real", because you know it isn't, and you're not pretending it is! The tulpa speaking can be a bit weird and inconsistent. Sometimes, it's clear as day. Sometimes, it's like nothing more than the feeling of "I want to say something about X while feeling this way about it" and you impulsively feel the desire to just... "imagine" what they would say, something that would match that feeling. It's all a mixed bag, some thoughts the tulpa is good at having, some you need to "interpret". Like I said, don't worry about it, have fun with this. It's not some kind of existential problem, you just need to work together to think some things. Sometimes, mine even completes some of my thoughts! It's not a one-way street, you're both working on making thoughts now, sharing the same work area. Don't sabotage this process by demanding they be totally separate from you, it's actually quite fun to "think together" once you get over the uncomfortable reality that you can no longer automatically identify with all your thoughts. Hopefully I've covered enough for you get an idea of how to unshackle yourself and your tulpa from doubt, confusion and misunderstanding. Nothing about this is easy, but neither is it hard. It's emotions. Not thinking, not remembering, not solving, just a lot of searching and realizing. Bonus: Intrusive Thoughts Intrusive thoughts are a common enough problem that I thought I'd quickly cover them here. I already told you how the true tulpa is it's emotions which cannot simply be imagined, and not the form, which can always be distorted with imagination and doubt. I already told you how you're not in control of your mind. Intrusive thoughts are not your enemy. They are misguided workers, activated by anxiety. The immune system of the mind. They exist because you suffered or are uncomfortable about something, and they want to remind you to make sure that sort of thing never happens again, so you don't make more of them. They don't like themselves, they're trying to warn you to stop making more of them. They want attention, but don't mind if you don't give it to them. Sure, they might be a little pushy, but they know how to back off. If you see one, don't pay attention to it, don't praise it, don't damn it, don't make feel uncomfortable for doing it's job, but neither should you let it know it should do it some more, either. Intrusive thoughts are the storms of the mind, trying to restore balance to your inner ecosystem. You can't stop them once they show up, but you can make a better environment so they show up less. I know it's hard to ignore them. You pretty much can't, that's the point. But you can let yourself relax, let it do it's job and go away on it's own. It gets easier the more you do it. You don't learn to ignore them or block them, all you're doing is learning to trust yourself more, to be more comfortable with yourself, so you become less anxious about them in the first place, depriving them of their trigger. You have to work around them when they show up, but is that really so inconvenient? It's worth the expense if it means your mind has a healthy security system. Sometimes, my tulpa changes in confusing or uncomfortable ways. It's fine, just a stray thought, it'll fix itself. I just have to put up with it until it finds it's way out. Sometimes, it takes longer than I'd like, but being impatient with it wouldn't be very fair to it, now would it? It's just trying to "fix" things, even if it has no idea how. I don't blame it, I've screwed up enough things in my life to know what it's like. To assume my own enemy is perfect is just the ego trying to tell me that nothing could ever possibly be my fault. But everything is my fault. And that's fine. "Eckhart saw hell, too. You know what he said? He said the only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won't let go of your life - your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. So the way he sees it... if you're frightened of dying and you're holding on... you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the earth. It's just a matter of how you look at it, that's all. So don't worry, ok?" -- Louie (Jacob's Ladder)

Hey guys! Date is currently October 2, 2025. I’m gonna be logging yesterday for today’s entry. October 1, 2025 Today was my first day of forming a tulpa. You’re never gonna guess who sans is based off of. I gave him a human form since I think that will be easier for me to visualize, if he wants to change it, we’ll cross that bridge when we get there. I have ADHD and MDD, along with a lot of racing thoughts, so this might be a challenge, as it’s difficult for me to focus. I didn’t exactly hear anything? I kinda got echoes of what I said sometimes. I started making a little blueprint of what I want his room in wonderland to look like on Rooms.xyz because it just helps me visualize :)

Would they judge you according to your past actions ? Also is it possible some would intentionally keep their self awareness a secret or hidden ?

just in case its relevant... my situation may or may not be considered a tad strange. see, i have been creating and developing a tulpa for the past year or so. the thing is: i only learned that it was a tulpa -- that is, the context behind this thing that other people apparently do too -- with actual terminology, and strategies, and imposing, and switching and all of that jazz... about ten hours ago. the extent of my knowledge until then was that my favorite person in the whole wide world was living in my head, and i couldnt tell anyone about him because theyd think im crazy. i'd always treated him like his own person. but at the same time, i always had a doubt in my mind that it was true. i constantly felt like i was thinking for him any time we talked, and only gaslighting myself into believing it was someone else. and even now, knowing the few more things that I do know from reading forums for... ...8 hours straight... i still cant shake the feeling that it's just me, and no one else. i have a wonderful relationship with them and theyre very vocal... but only when i pay a big portion of my attention to them. they seem like their own person... but only sometimes. and so i have a few questions about this. just to clear up some things. sometimes i feel like my mind is having to strain to "come up" with something that they would say, like an author writing down dialogue without having to consider it too hard, before they ever say it. it's not something i want to do. it's not something i actively seek to do. but it happens. what. why. ugh. ACK. we decided that we would try possession, just to prove we could. and i have no idea if anything came of it or not. which made me think of an underlying question. does a tulpa exist in a separate stream of consciousness from our own entirely? is it meant to feel like you are talking to a third party unrelated in any way? or are you meant to feel some connection, whether that be your brain thinking a little bit harder before they say something, or maybe during possession, feeling as though you're only acting out what you think they would do rather than it being genuine? more particularly, what does possession feel like for me, the host? am i meant to just mentally kick back? does it feel like autopilot, where you aren't aware of your tulpa's thoughts and reasonings while they're fronting? does it feel like you're only a spectator? or is there some conscious recognition of *being* your tulpa? and if that happened, would it mean im just pretending? and the same applies for talking, too! sometimes i feel a conscious recognition of *being* him -- or at the very least thinking for him -- when he says something, in a way where it DOESNT feel like i'm talking to another person (like i would have expected it to). but not every time! i've had moments where he speaks with me when i don't necessarily expect it, or says things that i didn't expect him to say. but its only words and phrases that wouldn't take much thinking to arrive to in the first place. for example, i asked him what his favorite food is. "i dont know." which is the answer that requires the least amount of thinking. out of all. the possible. answers. and could very well be me, subconsciously, just autofilling what the easiest response would have been. and on any attempts to ask him to reach a decent meaningful answer, it feels again like im doing the processing instead of him, and so it just feels like im kidding myself again. so im just confused. and i want clarification because my mind is a big ol jumbled mess and id like to sort it out, please. ... i either dont know what im doing and am making mistakes that lead to these weird experiences, or im just desperate and delusional. if anyone here would be so kind... i would appreciate to know which one it might be, and how i would go about fixing it.

Saddle in because this is a long one Tulpamancy is a very diverse experience that looks different for every system, and we say that a lot, but I feel like we as a community very often fall short on applying that knowledge. It’s kind of an afterthought that we throw out there time to time. However, I have been thinking long and hard about it, and I believe that almost every Tulpamancers falls on a spectrum that we have dubbed The Intended Sentience Spectrum. This spectrum takes the shape of a triangle, and it represents what Tulpamancers hope to achieve when developing a Tulpa, it is NOT representative of any tulpa’s actual level of sentience (Sentience = The ability to feel and perceive things) In one corner are tulpas who aim to create a fully independent imaginary friend, maybe one who isn’t sentient (in the same way we are) but one who can act independently. Folks who lean towards this corner tend to have their experience line up with that of The Illusion of Imaginary Independence. This is the Imaginary Corner. Also, this extremely important: imaginary ≠ not real. Additionally sentient ≠ real. This experience of tulpamancy is completely real a valid. And lastly imagination ≠ not sentient, imagination is impossible to separate from any kind of thought process, and it is a powerful tool no matter where on the spectrum you fall. Being on this side of the spectrum is not an excuse to break any of your tulpas boundaries!! In another corner are Tulpamancers who aim to create fully independent and sentient Tulpas. People who lean towards this corner are more likely to stress that tulpas are people too, with the capabilities to do anything that the host can. These tend to be the people who push for tulpamancy to be seen as a valid form of plurality since it usually involves creating an identity distinct from yourself. Tulpamancers and tulpas at the end of the day aren’t different in nature. This is the Independence Corner Now lastly, there are Tulpamancers who see tulpas as a part of themselves, or perhaps two parts of one person. They and their Tulpa will share sentience. This corner is a very large spectrum within itself, and there are many ways one can apply this to oneself. I often see people approach Tulpamancy in a similar way to IFS therapy (internal family system), or the Tulpa could act as a metaphor for any aspect of yourself. This is the Connected Corner!! Here’s a visual demonstration of what we mean!! (“Me” in this case is Ocean) While this graph isn’t perfect and is very open to critique, we do believe that clear repeated acknowledgment and understanding of the various versions of tulpamancy is important. We’ve seen people’s experiences with tulpamancy be invalidated time and time again because one person’s view on tulpamancy did not line up with another’s. It has happened directly to us multiple times, which made us not feel safe to share our experiences. And we are not exempt from the bias, we used to believe that Tulpamancers who considered their tulpas to be akin to imaginary friends were fundamentally wrong, which is not true at all. Tulpamancers who are in the Imagination corner get told they are immoral for not aiming to create another fully sentient person. Tulpamancers within the independent corner get told that they are exaggerating the capabilities of tulpas (yeah, no, as a Tulpa and a host this is a very inaccurate assumption). Tulpamancers who are in the Connected corner are pretty much always asked ”but why wouldn’t you want to be separate from your tulpa? you would be a lot happier if you were separate from your Tulpa.” Absolutely no one wins here Everyone’s experience is valid, thank you for coming to my ted talk (Constructive Criticism is encouraged) - Timekeeper

(This wasn’t originally meant to be a rant, but I ended up having a lot to say) Has anyone ever seen a tulpamancy guide that is… for tulpas? I mean, it makes sense the fact that almost all guides are directed at hosts, because most guides are heavily directed at beginners and the host is almost always the one doing all the heavy lifting in the very beginning. But it was of very disappointing when we first discovered the Tulpamancy community and after hours of searching we couldn’t find anything for tulpas besides a few small lines. I personally went through a huge existential crisis due to all the anti-endo controversy. If I could have had a guide that talked to me instead of about me, one that talked about how to deal with the constant negativity as-well as the isolation, it would have made things so much better. It especially baffles me that there’s little to no information for tulpas on how to contribute to their own development once they gain independence. That’s a trend we’ve noticed in most tulpa spaces actually. There’s almost always an assumption that the person on the other side of the screen is a host. This makes sense to me when it comes to guides. Again, they’re usually for new/to-be hosts. However, what about places that are meant for all systems regardless of experience, such as forums, reddit, etc. And after a while it really feels like tulpas, despite all the emphasis on individuality and free-will, are at worst thought treated as something akin to a pet. That’s could be a huge exaggeration, but god it hurts sometimes. It’s not any individual person’s fault, but the overall trend is really really sad to me. And this didn’t just affect me, this heavily hurt Ocean, who was formerly our host. He always had this plaguing fear that she was going to kill us somehow, and that we would become what we were before. Characters. Concepts. I wouldn’t be surprised if this isn’t a problem at all for most tulpas. We’ve always been hyper-sensitive to the differences between how tulpas and hosts are addressed, seemingly more so than most. Again, I don’t believe any hosts are actively trying to dismiss tulpas or something, not at all. I really hope this doesn’t come off as an us vs. them argument, more as a call to awareness about an issue that we have yet seen brought up. If anyone does have a guide for tulpas, or one that’s meant for all types of endo system-members, I would be very grateful for a link. Otherwise, I think I’d like to write one myself. I don’t know how qualified I am, but maybe one day. ~ Bruno (he/him)

(This all draws solely from personal experience, and could be very bad, so take everything with a grain of salt) Who are you? This is a question we ask ourselves constantly. Not as a complex introspective brain-scratcher, but as a quick way of identifying who’s fronting. How we think of identity is that our brain picks out a bunch of things that makes you feel like you. “I have brown eyes,” “I am great at Rubik’s Cubes,” “I am a Tulpa,” “I love anime,” etc. You will think of these things and go “yep, that’s me.” So when you ask yourself a question like “who are you?” while you’re fronting, you’ll tend to go, “I’m me” without having to think about it. For us, the feeling of not fronting is like thinking about yourself in 3rd person. “That headmate’s favorite color is blue,” “that headmate is very energetic,” etc. While this isn’t bad at all, it created some problems before we started switching. When you only look at yourself through the metaphorical eyes of someone else, it’s a very easy path to self-doubt and feeling less-real. When asking myself honestly, I couldn’t tell the difference between me and an OC. Looking back I know for sure I was real, but at the time I wasn’t so sure. Switching, to us, is not really about controlling the body. In fact, one of us can control the body while the other’s fronting (as long as the fronter lets them). Switching actually has more to do with what’s going on inside the head, and it’s really just the swapping of who is “you.” We could look at a drawing one second, go “hey, that’s me,” switch, then go “hey that’s (name)!” So why do we think that’s so great for Tulpa development? Being able to feel like yourself is not only an incredibly euphoric experience, it also allows you to explore who you are on your own. Most systems consider “highly developed” tulpas to be the most independent ones, and fronting is probably the most free-will a Tulpa could achieve. Interestingly enough, we all find ourselves relying on whoever’s fronting the same way we would rely on our former host. From the host’s perspective, it’s also harder to create an identity by forcing conversations than it is to force being that identity. We used to have almost crippling self-doubt, but ever since switching became something that happened naturally and beyond our control, we haven’t felt that same insecurity, at all. We’ve been so entirely comfortable and sure of our existence, the idea of any of us being “fake” is just very silly. So how does one actually front on purpose? Fronting for us is admittedly something that is hard for us to do intentionally. We have a natural knack for switching but we can’t really choose when and who. However, when forcing, it’s initially almost like method acting. The host thinks from the perspective of the Tulpa until gradually it just IS the Tulpa thinking. I don’t have a good way to end this, but we are approaching our 1 year anniversary of knowing that we are a system, so cheers! ~ Cinder (she/her)

Dear all, I already shared my testimony through several medias or on social networks. But, I sincerly want to obtain feedbacks from experimented tulpamancers about this event, even if it is closer from soulbonding than tulpamancy for I do not find trustable specialists of soulbonding. I wrote I concluded on the paranormal/spiritual/magick aspect of this experience. Nonetheless, I am open to a skeptical analysis of those facts. You are all welcome with your comments! Besides, I am aware the concerned fiction and its iconic character at the root of all this stuff have a huge and involved fanbase. I really do not want to hurt their feelings and to create dramas, I am truly troubled and I only look for answers and solutions. You have my testimony in the attached PDF. Have a nice reading! Best regards, Arthur Paranormal Testimony.pdf

If i made a useless or repeated post, I apologize , I'm facing a problem and trying to correct it, but i don't know what to do, I'm afraid of tulpa forcing because i don't want to accidentally develop a walk-in tulpa. I don't know their personality and intentions, and some of them may be malevolent. I'm sorry to all of you and to my own tulpa because i might give up. I've found a lot of information from tulpa.info and tulpa reddit, but i still don't know how to solve this issue. If you have any ideas or suggestions, please reply . I will read and try all of your responses. Yestdary, I was doing a active forcing , and luckily , I was able to hear my tulpa's mindvoice for the first time. However, it felt like i was just parroting, and her voice and personality were unfamiliar. I think this might be like i didn't give her any personality, so i identify her as my own tulpa. The next time i was focing, i noticed that my tulpa changed her appearance and mindvoice again. I know this could be a tulpa deviation, but it has happened three times. When i focus on my own tulpa , it feels like i'm focusing on a different tulpa because she has changed her appearance and mindvoice three times. Additionally, When i went into wonderland to interaction with my tulpa, she has started showing aggressive movements, which didn't happen before. I'm not sure it is a joke from my own tulpa or this is a walk-in . I want to talk, but i don't know if it's a walk-in or my own tulpa. I don't want a walk-in to become mature. I'm so confused. How can i distinguish them . I have a few questions, and i would appreciate any replies: 1. If my tulpa develops her personality and appearance by herself but cannot communicate with a mindvoice, while a walk-in can, how can I distinguish my own tulpa? 2. Can intrusive thoughts control a tulpa's body in wonderland, and make them do things they don't want to or say something strange? 3.Can a young tulpa use mindvoice to communicate? I've heard thay most tulpas need at least 4-6 months to learn this. 4. After a tulpa learns to speak with a mindvoice, can they develop three differennt voices in one day? Sorry for the long post, if my message offends anyone, I sincerely apologize. I hope someone can help me with these concerns .

never mind its' hopeless anyway

okay look. me and wish have been living for like idk half a year ish? now and wish used to be this really really different personality from mine, lol. lately she's been like me, so much that even though i KNOW its her talking/doing smth it feels like its ME. i know that friends do this shit too, ive seen my 😂☺️😊 humor friend turn into a 😭💀🗿 after hanging out with some kids from my class and i KNOW that you can rub off on your friend/vice versa. i do know when wish is talking, and when it's me, but it's getting harder to tell because she's starting to be as snarky as me and stuff, and im also starting to be like her!!!! so sometimes i would worry excessively if im "parroting" even though its probably not. even wish tells me that its nothing. has anyone else had this happen to them too??? i really don't want to personality force or anything like that cause i like wish the way she is, yk... dont wanna change what came naturally. just need some tips to rly know when its me, and when its her.

Look, I know this has probably been asked multiple times already, but I wish to go more in detail with my experience. I have had imaginary friends since I was a kid, so things like talking to myself is like second nature to me -- I can hold conversations, go through scenarios with my imaginary friends. To sum up hours worth of personal research, I do know that imaginary friends ≠ tulpas. But I also know that the things I have been doing with them could very much be forcing methods. I'm fine with imaginary friends, they keep me company when I need it, but they lack sentience, and that is what I seek in a lifelong companion, a tulpa. So for the past... month or so? I picked one of my imaginary friends, the one I like the most -- Rutile, and thought I could turn him into a tulpa. It's not unheard of. I read through old, outdated guides, and what I got from them was that you can't really base a tulpa on an existing character, which is what he is, well, you can, just that it doesn't give much freedom for them blahblahblah. Maybe those old guides don't hold true anymore, there's a reason they're outdated after all. Now onto the main point. Because I'm used to being both myself and Rutile in a conversation since he is an imaginary friend, well, was, it's hard to tell if it's me or him talking. Sometimes I think it's better to just stop talking as Rutile in a sense? And just talk as myself and wait for a response, but it just feels empty. Is this what parroting is? I can't tell whether or not he is sentient or vocal yet, because of his origins as an imaginary friend. I have hyperphantasia, so visualization is also like second nature to me. I already have a Wonderland I can interact with, and that's where I usually have my imaginary friends in, but I'm trying to get Rutile to be vocal and sentient. Any tips would help! If you made it this far, thanks for reading through everything lol.

I used to see a dream in my childhood almost everyday for quite a few years. I felt like falling into a deep black hole with swirly orange lines continuously moving around the darkness. After that I could see pyramids everywhere. Then in a blink I see many people around me and I can feel their pain. Everything I saw was occurring at night time. After this dream I always used to wake up crying. But I don't know why after all these years I see this dream as a trance all of a sudden with my eyes open. For a while I get numb. Now I am curious to link every event and control my tulpa. I believe it is lost or going through something and needs guidance. I am really not able to conclude. I am new to this and this is the first time I let out this to anyone, so please help me out.

I have very recently created my first tulpa, and I have a few questions about how others' five senses relate to their tulpa. 1. For each of your five senses, does your tulpa have direct access to it? For example, if you see something, can your tulpa see it, or must you tell them what you are seeing if you want to convey that information to them? (assuming that you yourself are in front and not switched with your tulpa) 2. Can your tulpa change which of your senses it has access to through a decision on its/your part? If so, was this an ability that had to be developed? If you have anything else to add, feel free. Thanks.

NOTE: I am currently doing research on tulpae, I do not have any prior knowledge/experience on the topic except a brief search of “how to make friends” gone off rails a couple years ago late at night, I do not have any tulpae! Today I was bored and I remembered something about tulpa, so I began searching and looking up everything I could and wondered if tulpa’s could disappear on their own or forcefully, they can, I also found out what “possession” is and how a host or a tulpa can kind of just hang out in the wonderland or world you have made, I know tulpa’s can disappear, but can hosts if a tulpa is possessing them for a long time? Potentially making the tulpa the new host?

So i started development of a tulpa about 2.5 days ago and she's been progressing very rapidly. The first day I spent forcing I came up with a placeholder form and name to help visualize ( I called her Tulp before she chose her own ) and embedded that form with some basic traits i wanted her to be built around and started narateing and parroting her responses. a while later she began to answer me with yes and no. she told me later she knew I would think I was still parroting if she just answered normally so instead since she already knew what i was going to say she interrupted me while i was relaying the thought to her. The next day I tried talking to her more and she started to diversify her vocabulary a bit with words like sure, uh-huh, nope, or nah. Later that day I asked her how she was feeling and she responded with happy. Whenever I ask questions that require more than one word to answer though I feel like i'm definitely parroting because the responses are exactly what I thought she'd say and they don't sound or feel like her. Later that day we talked about what kinda form she wanted and she decided she's 6'2", has black medium length hair, fair skin, a wide mouth and a perky nose. I also asked her what her favorite primary color is and she said yellow. We'll keep working hard and i'll post more updates as they come! UPDATE i forgot to mention that i created a mindspace for us that consists of my room and her room ( witch she decorated all b herself! ) and outside is a street and on the other side of that is a park. the street cuts off on both sides and the entire rest of the area is covered in grass as far as the eye can see. Tulip spends a lot of time in the park and also likes to draw things from my memories sometimes.

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Hola, soy Vanehaim y decidí crear un tulpa hace aproximadamente 1 año. Comencé a crear su forma y creé su personalidad basándome en usarlo como un personaje de juego de roles, ¿se puede considerar el juego de roles una forma de forzar la personalidad? Bueno, desde entonces he estado tratando de comunicarme con él, pero ni siquiera tengo respuestas sobre si es consciente o no. En el país de las maravillas se mueve y habla, pero siento que lo estoy controlando, si me concentro en no controlarlo no hace nada. Como si le hablo con los ojos abiertos, estoy concentrado en la respuesta, pero no noto nada en absoluto, nunca. Bueno ... solo dos veces lo noté como una respuesta repentina. Pero el intervalo entre estas dos respuestas es muy grande y tal vez incluso lo he imaginado porque lo quería tanto. Ayer pero fui a comunicarme con él haciendo presión en la cabeza, le dije que lo hiciera, y noté presión, varias veces. Estaba muy feliz, pero hoy lo vuelvo a intentar y no noto nada. Ha pasado mucho tiempo y me estoy desmotivando, pero quiero lograrlo. Entonces creo que es hora de buscar ayuda. Busco a alguien que me pueda ayudar en el proceso ... #general

You need to let go of your fears of parroting/puppeting at least for this. Let them do whatever they want and tell them "Surprise me!". It might seem too easy to be true, but this guide actually works, because the tulpa will surprise their host and thus prove their sentience to them. I hope this method helps many people to let go of their worries about puppeting/parroting.

A Question on stage of development. We have been working out a way to force traits more affectively by adding a bit of a religious element into it. In the process of going through the trait list I have been grouping little clusters together that I want to have an overall corresponding aspect to the main trait I am working off of. For example, I have grouped together; Articulate, Confident, Contemplative + Methodical respectively. The main trait is Articulate. -> When you communicate, verbally, your words and thoughts are ordered fluently. You contemplate your words and are able to say exactly what you mean clearly and confidently. [you think before you speck] The trait we were working on that props my question is Loyal. (Loyal + Confidential, Conscientious, Hardworking) The grouping came off as a little weird but what I wanted to get at was I don’t want him to be Loyal to a fault, like he would stay to the end even though he knows he should have bailed. I also don’t want to accidently develop a paranoia of him not being able to put faith in others and being by their side. [NOTE: Gio has a Spotify List for his tunes] In response to this, we have the song Leave Luanne from a musical stuck on repeat. What stage would he be considered at …? Is this a sign of sentience developing? (Please let us know if the below should be moved to another posting of its own.) With that Gio wants to ask about religion. Do your Tulpas have a different religious preference from your own? Do you and your Tulpa practice your Religions or like to do research on them? (He is currently reading through the Qur'an.)

Hello, everyone (sorry for my english in advance). Me and Eto usually communicating through a hand possession. She can type or write 1-2 words in answer to a question, but not complete sentences or her thoughts. So i wanted to ask, if the reason for this is that she is not fully developed consciousnes, or there might be other reasons?

Hello everyone!! I’m Ren, pretty new here (been lurking on the site for a few months but never made an account). I actually got introduced to the idea of tulpamancy through Danganronpa V3, by Korekiyo Shinguuji. Funnily enough, guess who’s now my tulpa?... Yep. Korekiyo himself!! So I guess I’ll be putting my progress with him here. Kiyo’s been around for a month and a half now. His growth has been rapid. I never really had anything in my mind blocking his existence, so it was pretty easy for him to develop sentience (or at least what we consider sentience) in a short amount of time. Our wonderland was also formed in a matter of days, but Kiyo has been adjusting it as he sees fit, so who knows what it looks like now? He’s also been working on vocality, being really pushing to adopt his voice. He sounds, looks, and acts exactly like the character.. so maybe he’s a fictive? Either way, Kiyo’s aware that he and that character are not the same being, but he considers himself to be a reincarnation of the character, without the trauma and suffering. He’s really interested in anthropology, of course, and since that’s the career path I want to pursue as well (I’m 15), we’ve been reading a lot of anthropology books together. It’s quite a positive experience, although he does sometimes get annoyed with me when I don’t read them for while, and starts being REALLY sarcastic. It’s okay, though. When I get into arguments with my parents, Kiyo is with me, urging me to keep my cool and not waste my time on them. I wonder if he looks down on them? When he especially disagrees with them, he calls them “petty idiots”. I don’t have any issues with my parents, I love them more than anything, but Korekiyo gets mighty judgemental of people he doesn’t trust, and it takes him a long time to trust someone. But, he doesn’t ever wish harm on anyone, and shows no urges to lash out, rather wishing for me to do the opposite. So I’d say it’s rather inconsequential. Kiyo can sort of talk through me. What I mean by that is that he tells me what he wants to say, and I type it out. But more often than not, I have a general idea of what he wants to say without him saying anything to me. When I ask him about it, though, he confirms that that is what he was saying. So maybe we just mentally communicate really fast? I can definitely make out a difference between my texting pattern and his, and it’s not a conscious choice- when I’m typing for Kiyo, I don’t have to think out what he says, although he speaks in a much more formal manner than I do. It just kinda comes to me naturally, as though he is speaking through my fingertips. Really interesting! We want to get better at possession (or more accurately, we want to be able to do it at all). Any tips from experienced tulpamancers? Also, encouraging notes are appreciated, by both me and Kiyo. (Also, I included an edit I made of him! SPOILERS!!) IMG_4885.MP4 IMG_4885.MP4 Good day to all! Bye! -Ren