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'Cutting the Cord'? Demons/tulpas?


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Some necessary background: http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showthread.php?t=99817

 

I'm still trying to figure out this other experience.

 

I believe that, metaphysically or otherwise, you have demons or subconscious damage. I think that these can manifest as seemingly independent consciousnesses.

 

I am pretty darn sure that several of the tulpas I created were masking this. As such, I fought them and erased them. I had to do this on my own, as my positive tulpas were not present, and perhaps in a spiritual sense, that was as it was supposed to be.

 

Earlier, I got the concept of me holding open scissors with lots of ribbons between them. My main tulpa was encouraging me to cut them off. In the moment, it seemed very urgent and I didn't try to sort out exactly what was going on.

 

Once I 'cut' them, I felt physically ill and dizzy.

 

Three or more explanations seemed to tangle up in my head- he was being cut off from his story and entering this world proper, I was cutting off umbilical-like cords from my energy that was feeding my large group of tulpas, and I was rejecting ties- an impulse to be consumed by fantasy.

 

Maybe it was some combination of all of them.

 

I spent the rest of the day feeling very out of it, and then I had this confrontation with what could be only called demons that had been drawing from my energy and pretending to be characters I liked.

 

I've come across a thread, involving Carl Jung's theories and writings on the anima, where a tulpa described interactions with a host's subconscious.

 

I feel bad for erasing them- as 'starved' tulpas are treated like neglect and abuse here- but quite honestly it was self-preservation.

 

Many seem to treat this as just a creative exercise, but for me it's been more like mapping my inner landscape. A quest that has pretty high stakes.

Woodwindwhistler on www.asexuality.org

 

The hardest arithmetic to master is that which enables us to count our blessings. -Eric Hoffer

 

"We can never achieve perfection, but maybe we can approach it asymptotically. Never give up on plugging in those numbers!" ~Me

 

You don't get harmony when everybody sings the same note. –Doug Floyd

 

My poetry: https://drive.google.com/folderview?id=0B5qMnL2tDkJYOGNhLW4tRHFHa0E&usp=sharing

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