My New Headmate

[Skelematsu]

Hello ladies, gentlemen, and all other configurations of being! I'm Javier, you can call me Javi c: I've decided to keep track of my progress with my Tulpa here, so i can mark her improvements and such.

Today I went into my mindscape with one goal; to create a tulpa. It was easier than expected due to the fact that I meditate on a regular basis. I started by visualizing a ball of light, then I created a voice, and later a body. She's a chubby Japanese demoness, and her name is either Yukio or Yuiko (I haven't gotten a straight answer). She seems to be doing well on her own for now, though I will have to help her with some physical and psychological aspects later on. She needs a solid name and more sentience, though she seems to be able to make some decisions on her own. I will update more tomorrow but until then, goodnight!

[Skelematsu]

Today was sort of weird. I tried to talk to Yuiko when I woke up but she didn't wake up until around 11. I meditated for a bit and asked her why she stopped answering when I called her. Apparently she wants a different name. I'm not sure which name she wants but I'm glad that she's becoming more cognitive. Also, she's becoming a bit harder to visualize and I guess she's changing her appearance? I'll write more tomorrow. See you!

[Skelematsu]

Update

 

I had quite the scare today... I helped my tulpa decide her new name (Chika, short for Chiyoko) but after that we hadn't had any interaction. When I went to go check on her she was unresponsive... I feared she had faded... I forced some traits (nothing new except a voice box that i didn't decide the voice for) and she was back to normal. I expanded my Wonderland beyond what I had been using and made her a room with a PA mic that leads to a speaker in my mind so she can communicate with me if something goes wrong, or if she wants to talk. It was pretty scary, but I'm glad I didn't lose her. Also, I found out she really likes Mahjong, more so than video games. I still let her have a tv in her room though. Until tomorrow, I guess *shrugs*

[Skelematsu]

Hello everyone! I just wanted to thank you for listening to my incessant rambling ^^' I honestly didn't think I'd get many reads but so far I've gotten about 20 reads per post! That hasn't happened to me before so I just wanted to express my gratitude. Thank you for listening, now on to the update!

P.S. Chika wanted to help me write to you guys so her commentary will be bolded.

 

Today wasn't a very eventful day, I just talked to Chicka for a bit, then I started drawing her (it's still a wip) and I talked to her for a bit just now and she was mad at me for not talking to her for a few hours (ばか!), luckily nothing happened, I guess cause I put a lot of stuff in her room and in my "true mind" to keep our connection alive. It's also nice to see that she's gotten more vocal, even if there's a lag in the connection, especially since she speaks Japanese, and I'm not fluent in it. She keeps saying things which are actually coherent Japanese, I just don't have good recall of my three years of Japanese, so she's probably accessing it from my subconscious, which is amazing! (あーありがとうございました。) She isn't all that comfortable with me yet (I asked her if she trusted me and she said no, also, she tends to uses a formal dialect whenever possible with me so you can sort of tell) I don't really blame her, what with all that's happened but I hope we can become good friends in the future! (同様に私。) Until next time! (じゃあまたね!)

 

Translations in order:

Idiot

Th-Thank you very much. (formal)

Me as well

See you soon!