kamadzhar March 10, 2016 March 10, 2016 By that I dont mean it doesnt talk at all. It makes its monkey noises and dog growls when excited or mad, but ive only heard ITS voice few times. Even on those occasions when ive got something out of him (it was he at the time, right now im not yet sure about the gender, since HE(suddenly it seemed right to adress him as he) changes it or becomes completly genderless when he wants to.) Its my own voice I do not know its name, but he jumps on my shoulder whenever he feels like it and at nights sleeps beside me, even though i cant feel his fur on my arm. Any tips on Stabilizing my connection with him? I can see him but that is about all. He can touch me, but I cant do the same or feel his touch. When aggresive its always a he, PS. About the it, he, she n stuff. I still don't know the gender on my tulpa, because he is constantly changing. And I am straight and not trans btw so that has nothing to do with me, Its what he wants to do.
Guest Anonymous March 10, 2016 March 10, 2016 How long have you been forcing or trying to create your tulpa? It sounds like you are doing fine to me! When you say you "see" your tulpa, do you mean you are doing imposition (like seeing it with your eyes and not your mind's eye). That would be pretty amazing if it is true and everything to feel good about and nothing to feel bad about. If your tulpa is already vocalizing, even with grunts and stuff, that is good too. I guess my only advice is to keep forcing and not worry too much.
kamadzhar March 10, 2016 Author March 10, 2016 I first did it when reading some kind of kids book at 13. It was about People who would have their souls walk beside them and take animal forms, called demon. So i made one for myself. I didnt knew that its actually a tulpa till few days ago, so I havent done anyting to give it a voice or think of a name. I let it go. But see the thing is that I still made him materialize when I wanted to. But he likes evenings and lonely roads and stuff. He is most likely to show up while im walking in a darkness or alone. Now that I know what he is he shows up more frequently. Like I let him run off and climb trees (Even if a mix, he still is a monkey http://s28.postimg.org/xjdpkghm5/DSC_0025.jpg ) Thats my poor attempt of drawing him. Anyway. Its been 6 years from when I created him and he still doesn't have a solid gender or a name. It seems that he will be HE because He has been male for long time now. And the weird thing is that my Tulpa looks like my nightmare which I couldnt get out of my head my entire life. I was about 3 when I had that nightmare. Oh and about seeing, I see him with my minds eye, but my eyes are open. Its like he is there but is not at the same time
Guest Anonymous March 10, 2016 March 10, 2016 OH a daemon! Yesh I am familiar with daemons. It is spelled "daemon" not "demon." Demons are unrelated to daemons. Six years! That is long time! That is pretty neato and a great story. "seeing with your mind's eye but with your eyes open" If you mean you perceive with your eyes directly, that would be imposition. If you mean that you only imagine him in the room, that would be visualization, similar to picturing an imaginary friend beside you.
kamadzhar March 10, 2016 Author March 10, 2016 Yes. Daemon. My bad. It depends on a situation. When I am drunk I can see him by imposition. I do not smoke pot anymore so thats the only way for now. When Im sober I can oly see him by visualization. I guess its a he. It simply seems right to adress him that way now. But he is kinda the way i was as a kid. Aggresive and hyperactive. I am not like that anymore But my Tulpa still is. Back then when I thought of him as a daemon he was the calm one. Few minutes ago when I was smoking my cigarette I tried asking him questions, I got something weird as a response. Like he was trying to answer me but the voice was like.. Distorted, blurry, messy. I cannot hear him, but its progressing quite fast, maybe because I had him for so long and after all this time I am interested in finding out more about him and he is actually trying When I lucid dream, I usually go underwater and explore oceans at first, and he helps me achieve lucid dream, but doesnt come along.
Guest Anonymous March 10, 2016 March 10, 2016 Oh now that is interesting. Alcohol is only a depressant. It usually doesn't cause hallucinations (under casual drinking or occasional drinking situations). So that means you CAN do imposition. I wonder if the alcohol is just calming you down enough to push away doubt and allow it to just happen. Nice! I think that is actually good news for you. I think you will eventually do it while sober. With time I bet the mind voice gets better too.
kamadzhar March 10, 2016 Author March 10, 2016 I dont drink often so mostly Visualization Well when Im drunk Im extremely nice and calm and always happy, I am mostly happy when sober too, but when drunk its different.
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