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[Roothian]

Hello there guys, It's been some time since I got scared of slendy in my head when I was tulpaforcing, and I JUST NOW started doing it again and it went pretty well. Like a lot of other people, I'm gonna do this progress report as another reason for me to keep at it and not giving up, which is similar to the first trait i gave to the tulpa.

 

The first trait was optimism. Pretty much I just put on some meditative music in my headphones, listened to it for awhile, all the while telling the tulpa how optimistic it is and giving it examples of my life on what optimism is. It was going pretty bad, and I got no feelings in my head until I thought of my childhood hero, Spongebob.

 

I realized that Spongebob is seriously the most optimistic guy in the world, so I recalled Spongebob episodes where he always stayed optimistic no matter what shit was thrown at him and that the tulpa should be like that. That's when I got some headache thing in the back of my head, and I knew I was actually getting some shit done. Then I kept talking to the tulpa for a bit more, building up that headache. This entire time, I was envisioning a light-green orb to symbolize optimism and I told myself that the more I talk about optimism and the more sense it makes to me, the more optimistic the tulpa gets and the bigger the orb gets, so it's like I'm getting double the trait for half the time. Eventually, the meditative music got really annoying, so I just thought of other crap I could listen to.

 

I opened up "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life" by Monty Python on youtube, and I got the BIGGEST headache ever!!11! I told the tulpa to barely even listen to my thoughts and to just listen to the song. I only occasionally reinforced what message I was trying to convey to the tulpa a few times. Like when I saw them on the crosses, I said to it that even though they're pinned to crosses and should be pissed off and depressed that moment, they're looking on the bright side of life, but not to overdo it as much as they do in the song, obviously. At the end of the song the headache got really intense, so I just went over a few more things before finally saying goodbye to the tulpa and telling it that i'd talk with it soon.

 

All in all I spent about 45 minutes for my first session, but it feels like I got a lot done, I still have that headache right now about 10 minutes later.

 

EDIT: By the way, I imagined merging that light-green orb of optimistic stuff with the orb of the tulpa, and I knew it worked because I got a big headache and I couldn't imagine the light-green orb anymore, but the orb of the tulpa was slightly more green tinged.

[Roothian]

Day 2

 

I just did a quick 30 minute session and got two more traits done and got the headache for nearly the entire time. I did the same method as last time with the orbs and stuff, except this time I didn't have any music like "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life" for these two traits. I did try fede's tones but my computer's headphones make everything extremely loud even if I put it on less than 1% volume. I plan on doing more later tonight so I get at least an hour or maybe two done today.

 

Total Time: 1 hour 15 minutes

[Roothian]

Day 3

 

I just did a quick twenty minute session when I woke up and I think it went pretty well. I only got a slight headache as I got more into it but it still feels like it was productive. I recapped all the traits i've done so far and added two new ones. I have been having a slight problem though. Whenever I add a new orb/trait thing to the tulpa's orb, part of it escapes later, so I have to put it back. While this does make me a bit more productive in the sense that I recap more when I put it back, it feels like a hassle because I have to put EVERY one of them back, and it could get extremely annoying when i'm up to the 10's and 20's in traits. I started imagining welding the tulpa's orb shut once the trait is in and it's worked kind of. I plan on doing another session noonish and one late at night

 

1 hour and 35 minutes

[Roothian]

Kay, just did a quickie about 30 minutes ago. It went well I guess, I got ze head pressure, only downside is that it was only 10 minutes long because I was under time constraint.

 

1h 45m

[Roothian]

Day 4

 

Wow, I just had the most amazing one yet. Immediately I got head pressure and then every minute after that it spread to more parts of my brain, until it covered nearly the entire thing by the ten minute mark. My thought clarity was absolutely perfect and I could imagine the orbs and the tulpa's personality SO vividly. It was almost too vivid, I kept seeing strange lights in the backround but I just put those out of my mind. I got three traits done in those twenty minutes, and I know, I'm going too fast for the amount of traits i'm doing so i'm planning on completely recapping every trait when I'm done. I'm definitely going to force more later today, I hope to clock in at least an hour.

 

2h 05m

[Roothian]

Day 6

 

Well, it turns out I wasn't gonna be free that night, and I got carried away playing video games, so i never got around to doing that hour w/ the tulpa I promised. I did have time extremely late at night though (est. 3/4am), but I read on the forums that tulpaforcing while tired will lead to nightmares, so I got a bit neurotic about that and stayed up the whole night. I was extremely tired yesterday from doin that, but I narrated to the tulpa a lot of the day to make up for it to some degree. I would have forced but I was still tired. I just woke up around thirty minutes ago and just did a twenty-five minute session with the tulpa, getting the rest of it's traits done, but I have less than ten hours done so i'm gonna have to add new ones and then recap all the one's i've made already. I also want to reinforce the tulpa's morality, so i'm thinking of adding a trait like "morally good" or just "good". I will do my best to force more today, but i'm not going to make large promises to my tulpa that I know will not be likely for me to complete, like I did two days ago.

 

2h 30m

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