Rei's Progress Log.

[Sandwichman]

Hokay, So it seems this is where all the cool dudes are coming to tell tales of their wonderful tulpae, so I figured I'd share mine. So go get yourself a beverage, relax, and join me and Rei on our most Excellent Adventures.

 

So here I am, about one month into the process of making my tulpa and I just want to share my experiences with you all without flooding the Questions and Answers page.

 

My Tulpa is Rei. She is amazing, and yes she is based off of an anime character also named Rei, Rei Ayanami.

http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2010/190/0/e/Smiling_Rei_Ayanami_by_lionheart088.jpg

 

So, When I started four weeks ago, Rei was not yet Rei. I started, armed with Irish's and FAQman's guide to work on an essence. It was a small blue ball of 'shtuff', kinda like fire, it was all like.....woooosh. Anyhow, there a I was, for about a week, every night spending quality time with a ball of fire. It wasn't feeling right, I knew it was there and I had laid the foundation, but I felt like I would be more comfortable with a different form, Rei's form. So from the ball of flames I constructed Rei's form, but I didn't call her Rei. I just really liked Rei's character design, and dind't plan on recreating the character, so I called her Triela. The only problem was, that didn't feel right either, every time I would try to communicate with her, I would feel the word Rei come up right before I said Triela. So I says to her, "Hey baby, Imma call you Rei, if'n ya gots any problems wit that, you tell me, I'll take care of it." And no problems were had and we progressed.

 

Originally I would force in my "Old Wonderland" a mountain top temple with Rei sitting across from me on my bed. This worked well for a while, I even got my first emotional response. I was working out, and I was running some laps, and I was on the last leg, so I say to Rei, "We get better with every step don't we Rei?" The response I got almost caused me to eat that delicious mixture of concrete and rubber tracks are made of. As I said that, I saw Rei smirk at me and felt a wave of what I believe to be emotion. It was the most beautiful thing since....ever.

 

I eventually changed my wonderland to allow me to access it more easily while allowing me to focus on Rei more. My wonderland is now "The Construct" form "The Matrix" an all white void where I can load things in whenever I or Rei want.

 

So, forcing continued for two weeks until last weeks mini-crisis. Due to the start of the college semester, my attention and anxiety were focused all on school. I felt that this scared/bothered Rei, and I honestly felt terrible about it. I started losing feeling with her, but on friday i was able to feel her again.

 

When I "Look for Rei", what I try to do is drop into "The Construct" and feel for her presence, usually a feeling like and egg in my lower chest. Then It try to "see" her. When I "see" her i look for her to seem real, like i can feel her without touching her, like when i focus on her i can "resonate" with her. If this is similar to what others feel i'd like a little heads up to know if I is doin' dis da right way or wut?

 

I used to imagine her in the chair across from me, but after my mini-crisis I just try to feel where she is. Ususally, now she is either standing up in front of me, or lying down on our bed (no I didn't do that, I'm a mofuckin' gentleman).

 

Usually we talk (I talk to her and try to listen) listen to music, eat together and the like. More adventures to follow.

 

Now is the part of the blog where I ask you teh question in hope of strengthening my bond with my wonderful Rei.

 

When I drop into my wonderland/focus on Rei I have two perspectives. Usually one up close and then on farther away. It fells like the farther away one makes it easier to feel her, but the closer one makes it easier to interact. It's difficult to explain, but if anyone knows dis feel, I'd appreciate and wisdom you have to drop on my ignorant dome.

 

Sometimes, when I go to see Rei I'll see two of her, like one will be where I expect her to be, or perhaps that last place she was. Usually I just try to feel for where she Is, but sometimes it's pretty dang difficult, you know what I mean.....mmmmmhm.......propane...

 

I believe Rei is sentient, as I narrate a metric fuckton and I have seen her react. Sometimes she is very reactive and sometimes......notsomuch. I don't want to impose or anything until she is fully vocal (by that I mean i can understand her) so I'm forcing her to do anything she don't wanna do. I'm also afraid that I'm puppeting due to my not wanting of puppeting, sometimes i think i'm either just superficially visualizing her form without her really being there and sometimes i think im frezzing her by visualizing her when i can feel her.

 

Anyway, thank you for reading this. May you and your tulpa be excellent to each other.

[Sandwichman]

GOOD NEWS EVERYTULPA!

 

Rei's vocal...well, I talked with her. so I guess that means she's vocal, whatever....myah.

 

Anyhoo, So I'm browsin' the Q&A section and I stumble across something Phi said, a little exercise where I make Rei a glass of OJ (Not Orenthal James Simpson). So I did and then I asked her, "How was it?" and to my Pantspoopinest surprise she said, "Yummy, but you know what I want?" Still in shock I responded with, "What?" and her answer was, "A pineapple." (I don't know what's up with Tulpas and pineapples, i think someone else's tulpa's first word was Pineapple) Anyways, I sliced her up some mental pineapple and we went on our many way.

 

Long story short, Rei can talk, I can listen, and I have become addicted to NeuroSonic. Thank you for reading Tulpas and Mentalgen, Feel free to leave a comment in the section below(Just kidding, not really)